Why you keep having the same fight (REPLAY) - Live Saturday Reset with Jerry S Lin

Before I say a single word, I want you to watch something.

Hey guys, drop one word in the chat, just one word, of what you felt watching that.

Also, quick things, if you guys can turn on your cameras, it can help—

helps me figure out how you guys are reacting, especially inside the reset. Shameful. Scary. Yeah. Confused. Yes, all of this.

Shock.

Exactly, Harrison.

What? Pretty nuts, huh? So from out here on a screen watching that, it's crystal clear. Every single one of us can see exactly what's happening— the cycle, the insanity, doing the same thing and getting the same results, going right back in. From out here, it's clear as glass, but from the inside of that relationship, they can't see it at all. To them, this is just Tuesday. This is how they are. It's just their dynamic. And as insane as that sounds to us watching from the outside, that is exactly what a gut brain looks like when it's been practicing the same patterns for years. See, today we're gonna talk about how to stop that, even if only from one side. Welcome to the Saturday Reset. I'm Jerry S. Lin with the Five Second Reflex, and if therapy, willpower, and self-help haven't worked, this channel exists for you. We go to the root of why change never sticks and give you the tools to make it permanent so you can finally live the life you want. This could be with your partner, your siblings, your parents, your closest friends, the people who you love the most and are also the ones who know exactly which buttons sends you somewhere you swore you'd never go again. And you go there before your mind even realizes there was a choice. Today I want to share a story with you. It's actually mine. And I want to show you what the pattern actually looks like. When it's quiet, when it's small, when it's not fists in the street, but something that happens in a car on a Wednesday evening over a bag of takeout food. It was the night before Thanksgiving. Picture this. See, the car is warm, heater running, two oversized turkeys in the back trunk because we'd caught them on sale. It was a great deal. Our dogs were, you know, they eat really well that year. So the grocery store parking lot still has a lot of orange glow, that kind of light where the lights buzz just slightly if you stand just close enough. You know, we finally drive over to a famous roast duck restaurant with the line that was wrapped around the block because it's right before the holiday, right? So she gets out to go grab one thing, a Chinese roast duck. I stay in the car, the radio's low, seat warm, and I'm thinking about tomorrow, how full the house is going to feel, how good it's going to smell. And about, uh, 20 minutes later, 30 minutes later, she comes back out smiling. That specific smile where she's a little proud of herself. And she sets the bag inside the car, and that smell hits the minute the door opens. You know the smell of Chinese barbecue duck? That deep lacquered fatty sweetness. I mean, I can smell it right now. And she said she ordered a full chicken too. And without thinking, I go, "That's a lot. We already have so much food for tomorrow." And that's it. That's the whole thing. From the outside listening to me say that right now, it probably sounds like nothing. It sounds reasonable. Two whole turkeys in the trunk and we've got a full Thanksgiving spread. What's the big deal? But here's what I couldn't see. See, she grew up as the responsible one. Picture a little girl, maybe 9, 10 years old, Standing in a hallway, waiting, not because she did something, just waiting for someone to figure out who's going to get blamed this time. See, if anything broke in the house, her name came up. Younger cousins got into something, somehow it circled back to her. She was the oldest, she was supposed to know better. She was supposed to prevent it even if it happened somewhere else. See, somehow their actions were on her. See that specific feeling of bracing? You know the feeling when you're not sure what's coming but your body already knows. It's getting it ready for it. See that small tightening in the stomach? The one that says, am I in trouble again? She wasn't a bad kid. She was a good kid who kept getting handed a verdict. That had nothing to do with what she actually did. And she heard it enough times that the sound of a changed tone, even slightly, from someone who loves her, her gut translated it the same way. Verdict: you did something wrong. Again. So when my tone shifted in that car, even slightly, she didn't hear a comment about food, her face changed. That specific tightening, not anger, not yet something, but quieter than that. And that look that lands in the eyes first, you know, maybe it was disappointment, maybe sadness, the one that says, why am I getting this?

What did I do wrong?

I guess in Chinese, I would be called wei chu. Feeling wronged, like, "I don't deserve this." See, she wasn't standing next to someone who loves her anymore. She was that little girl in the hallway waiting. Now here's what was happening inside of me that she couldn't see. I grew up watching my father read the menu from the right to the left. Price first, always. Not from want. From training. He came to this country with $100 in his pocket. Worked a restaurant, gas station, then he built something out of nothing. And the weight of that, it moved into the wall of our house. It got into the air. You breathe it without knowing it. Even when I had money, real money in the bank, my body still lived like we were one bad day from having nothing. That low constant hum in your chest that's not quite anxiety, but it lives right next to it. Every time I saw something that felt like waste, that hum turned into a signal that something could go wrong, something could slip, so be careful. And I can still hear my father's voice Quiet, not angry, just a matter of fact. You know that tone that told you something was important without raising itself at all? We don't waste. We don't waste. See, that got wired in before I had language to question it. Practiced so many times it became permanent. So when that smell of the duck hit the car, my gut brain didn't smell warmth and abundance. And a holiday eve. It smelled excess. It smelled like waste, and it— and waste meant danger. So I said what I said, not thinking, not choosing. My body chose before my head even knew there was a moment. My mouth already let those words out, out. And that's the 5-second reflex. Now, from the outside, if you had been sitting in the back seat of that car You would have seen two people who love each other. One makes an offhand comment, the other gets quiet, and then both of them slowly drift somewhere neither of them chose to go. See, from the back seat, it looks like overreacting, but from inside each of us, it was completely logical. Her protecting herself from being blamed for nothing. Me protecting myself from a scarcity that no longer exists. See, two programs running at full speed in a warm car banging at each other. See, on a Wednesday night over a bag of duck, this is the version of that video that most of us live in. Not fist fighting in the street, but the quiet ones, the cold silence, the fine that means nothing is fine. The comment that came out sharper than you meant it. The dinner that started warm and ended up somewhere neither of you have chose. Same mechanics, different volume, and from the outside, crazy. But from the inside, it made complete sense to both of us. It makes me kind of laugh right now thinking how crazy that sounds, right? Over a duck, an extra chicken, you know. So let me show you exactly what happened in that car because once you see the wiring You can't unsee it. You have 3 brains. Your head brain, that's your thinker, your logic, your language, reason. The part of you that knows a bag of duck is just a bag of duck. A wonderful, beautiful, fragrant bag of duck. Then there's your heart brain. Your heart brain is your feeler, the connection, warmth, compassion. The part that wanted that night before Thanksgiving to feel close. And then your gut brain, see, your— that's your autopilot, your survival machine. It stores your history. Every time something felt dangerous, every time you got blamed for nothing, every time chaos walked through the door without knocking, it fires first every single time. See, your gut brain receives roughly a 1 billion bits of data per second and your head brain can only process 10. That's 100 million times less. So when a trigger hits, who is actually running the room? Yeah, the gut, always. Until you retrain it. And that's why you'd swear you'd be different. And that's why You've had the conversation 100 times, and that's why you know better and still end up in the same spot, because knowing is not the same as wiring. Practice doesn't make perfect. Practice makes permanent. They practiced that pattern in the street until it was automatic. You've been practicing yours too with the person and people closest to you. Without knowing it for years. So here's the question: how do you actually change it? 3 letters: FFA. If you want to change to stick, not just for a week, not just until the next trigger fires, change has to be all 3 of these at once. First, F is fast. The new response has to be fast enough to meet the trigger. If your gut fires 5 seconds and your new response takes 5 minutes or thinking it through, excuse me, you're already in it. The interrupt has to be wired in, not through it. So we gotta build it so that you can react faster. Second F, felt, FFA. So second F, felt. The new pattern has to be felt in your body, not just understood in the head. Knowing is not enough. You've known for years. The body has to feel the shift, not a concept. That's a physical experience. It's a real physical experience that you feel. And then A, automatic. The new response has to become the default, not the backup plan. Not the thing you try when you're calm, the thing your gut reaches for first. And that takes reps, like a muscle, you have to train it. That's the difference between those two people in the video and a different outcome. Not knowing better, practicing a different automatic until the new one runs faster than the old one does. And now I want to give you a rep right now. So drop in the chat, what's your version of the duck? Not the street fight, the quiet version, the one your body goes to before your body arrives.

I'm sorry, I mean the moment your version of your body before your brain arrived, not before your body. Type it in the chat. Parents trying to educate. How much does it cost? All right. 'What did you do again?' 'What did you do again?' So what's the version of that, that your body goes before your brain does? Your reactions. You guys want to put it in the chat? The reactions. Do we really need that?

Okay.

All right, all right. Defensive.

Okay.

All right, 2 rounds, everyone.

So everyone stay in.

All right, round 1, the same trigger, the same person, the same moment. I want you to ask yourself this: What does this remind my gut of? What does it remind my gut of? Just think it. Not what my head thinks so much, but where my gut feels it. All right?

Where in my gut?

And then What older memory does this feel like it lives near?

So when's the last time you felt this feeling?

How old were you? How old were you when it felt familiar? Think about that.

Who was there?

Was it your mom, your dad, your friend? What did it smell like when you felt it? Do you remember what you were wearing? Take 10 seconds, think about it. Whatever comes up, let it come, and then drop in this—

in the chat if you feel safe, even if it's just one word, what you feel.

Disappointment. How did you feel? A knot in the middle of your back.

Okay. Hm. Annoyed.

Disappointment.

Okay. You see this? Every single one of those makes complete sense. And once you trace it back, the reaction wasn't crazy. It was a gut brain doing exactly what it was trained to do, protecting you from what actually hurts. It's just still running that protection for a threat that isn't there anymore. Now, round 2. Same trigger, same moment. Now ask this: what does the other person's gut think they're protecting themselves from? That other person, what do you think their gut's protecting them from? Not to excuse anything, not to absorb the blame, just to see them as a gut running old data just like you. Because the moment you can see both programs running at the same time Something changes. The fight stops being about you. It stops being about them. It becomes two old nervous systems meeting in a warm car over a bag of duck, and that changes everything.

And I want to take you somewhere right now. Close your eyes if that feels right. Or just soften your gaze and let it land somewhere low. Wherever you are right now, a chair, a couch, on the kitchen floor, I don't judge. Just feel the weight of your body, the pressure of the seat beneath you. That's real. That's now. That's where we're working. Take one breath in through your nose, slowly hold it, and let it go through your mouth.

Good.

Now I want you to go somewhere with me me, not far. You've been there a thousand times. It's that moment, you know the one. The air changes just slightly, a tone of voice, a look, a word that lands wrong. Or maybe nothing even happens, just a feeling like the temperature drops 2 degrees and you only feel it. And before you even know what's happening, you're already somewhere else. You left the room, you left the conversation. Your body took over and you went somewhere your mind didn't choose. Feel where that lives in your body right now. Just thinking about it, is it in the chest, the throat, maybe somewhere behind the eyes? The stomach that pulls in just slightly. Don't push it away, just let it be there. Because here is what that feeling is. That is not weakness. That is not you being broken or being difficult or too much. That is a gut brain that learned something very early about what that feeling meant and has been protecting you from that thing ever since. Now let yourself go back Not all the way back, just enough. And how old were you the first time something felt like this? Not the same situation, just the same feeling. See if a number or an image comes up. 7, 12, 4. It doesn't matter. Whatever comes up is right. Now picture that younger version of you. Where were you? What did the room smell like? Was there light coming through a window? Were there sounds in the background? That kid didn't know He had words for what was happening. They just had the feeling. And they did the smartest thing they could with what they had. They built a reflex. They said, "Next time this comes, I will be ready." That reflex became a wall. That wall became automatic, and that automatic became you. Not who you are, what you learned. There is a difference now. Now breathe in with me, slow. Fill the lungs. All the way to the bottom of your lungs first. Feel your belly expand.

4.

Hold it. And 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. Now let it all go. Ha! All the way out, like you're setting something down that you've been carrying for a long while.

Hah!

Again, in through the nose and out. Hah! Now I want you to see that younger version of you one more time, and I want you to notice something.

They made it.

They are looking at you right now. All grown, still here. They did their job. The wall worked. And you can tell them something, not out loud, in whatever way feels true. You can say, I see what you did. I know why you built it. You kept us safe. And I've got it from here. Now take a breath to let that land.

Ah.

Now I want you to think about what you actually want. Not the reaction. The version of you that already exists on the other side of the pattern. Not who you're trying to become. Who you already are when the old wiring isn't running the room. What does that person feel like and Jerry Lin, the body, not a thought, a feeling. Is he warm, settled, light? What is he feeling? Where did you feel it? Where do you feel it? Now let that feeling build and let it spread just slightly into your chest, into the shoulders, and let them drop if they haven't already. That feeling is real. It exists in you. It has always existed in you. The old reflex just got there first. Now put one hand on your chest. Feel your heartbeat, or just the warmth. This is your interrupt. This is your 5 seconds. This is the gap, and from inside this gap, you get to choose. Not the reaction, not the old program. You breathe in, hold, and exhale. That sound is your anchor. Every time you feel the temperature drop, every time the gut fires before the brain arrives, one breath, hand on your chest, and you remember I've got it from here. Coming back now. 3, you feel the room around you, the light, the sounds, the smell. And 2, wiggle your fingers and your toes. Slowly roll your shoulders. And 1. Take one more breath deep and open your eyes.

Welcome back! Drop one word in the chat, just one.

What do you feel right now?

Lighter.

Clearer.

Okay. Confident. Now let me tell you what I actually did that night in the car. I felt it rising, the heat in the chest, the pull to justify what I meant, to make sure I wasn't the bad guy. And that internal voice that was already starting to compose the defense. Instead of following it, I stopped. I closed my eyes for just one breath.

Ah.

I felt my feet on the floorboard of the truck. I felt the seat beneath me. I felt one breath in through the nose And I looked at her while she was still staring right out the front window, staring straight. You know that feeling, quiet in a way that means something is happening inside. I didn't justify, I didn't explain. I just put one hand on my chest and I looked at her and I said, "I'm sorry." That wasn't about you. That was my old programming. I love you and I'm here now. So she exhaled and I felt it. The whole car shifted and so did I. The loop, it broke. Not because I had the right words, because I interrupted the pattern before it ran to the end. Fast, felt, and automatic. That's the work. This one rep this week, the next time the trigger fires, before you respond, one breath in, one exhale out, then ask yourself one question: is this about right now, or is this about before? See, that question is your gap. That's where the choice lives. Shane, can you please drop the homework in the chat? Thanks. Now, if today hit somewhere real for you, I want you to go deeper. Go get the Rewire Blueprint. It's exactly how to make this change permanent, step by step, and it's my gift to you. And if this was worth your Saturday morning for For those of you joining us from YouTube, Facebook, or TikTok, or watching the replay, hit the like, hit the subscribe, and share this with a person who keeps ending up in the same place with you. Change from one side changes the whole pattern. They need this too. All right, everybody, for those who've been here before, you know what to do. For those who haven't, Just go ahead and repeat after me together. All right? So here we go. We wake up. We choose. And we bring the people we love with us. That's great. I'm so excited for you guys. So if you're tired of change that never lasts, you're in the right place. We teach you how to uncover the hidden patterns quietly running your life. We retrain them at the root and finally make changes that actually stick. So subscribe. I'm Jerry S. Lin, 5 Second Reflex. I'll see you in the next one.

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