Quitting?

You guys make it really hard to, to quit. It's been a month since I uploaded to YouTube, and to be honest, I was pretty sure I was done with YouTube. When I was 12, that was like all I ever wanted to do was be a YouTuber, and I've uploaded probably over 1,000 videos to YouTube between all the channels I've had, and I've deleted a lot of them. I only have like 200 on this channel, but YouTube used to be my dream when I was younger, like 12 years old, from 12 to like 14. That's all I ever talked about in school. That's all I ever did. I wanted to be a YouTuber, and I don't know, more recently I've gotten, you know, other priorities. I spent the entire summer playing basketball. I practice basketball 2 hours a day, and it's basketball season right now, and most weeks we have like 3 games. So like, I have no free time. I mean, we get— we check— we leave school early to go to a game. We don't get home till like 11 o'clock on away games, and even on home games I don't get home till like 10, and I have homework and, you know, other things. It's high school. So that's pretty much mostly why I haven't been uploading. It's because of basketball. It's just really time-consuming, and I only have free time on the weekend, and I spend that doing other things, not really on my computer. But I don't know, I thought I was done with YouTube, but you guys— I just, I get so many subscribers, and I get so many nice comments on my videos. Like, every couple of days someone will leave a comment saying, "Hey, I recently found your channel." and I really enjoy your commentaries and wish you would upload again. And I get really nice messages, and I don't know, you guys make it hard to quit because I thought for sure I was done for YouTube. I wasn't going to do a fifth "I'm coming back, I'm gonna start uploading daily" lying video, but I don't know, I kind of feel like I want to start uploading again just after reading all the messages I've gotten. But I realized that my motivation— like, I don't actually want to start uploading. I just am uploading because, you know, of all the mo— I don't know how to explain it. It's just you guys have left a lot of nice comments and it makes me want to keep producing content, especially because I know people are going to watch it. Um, the last couple videos I uploaded all broke 200 views, which is pretty crazy. And especially because like I did— I didn't send them to any of my friends, I didn't tell anyone to watch them, I just uploaded them and now they all have 200+ views, which is pretty crazy. To me. And yeah, I don't know, I kind of want to start uploading. Like, I feel like my YouTube channel has so much potential. I've gotten hundreds of thousands of views. I've made over half a thousand dollars of money off of this channel. Granted, I, you know, spent like $80 on a mic, and I've invested money into this YouTube channel, but I mean, I made some money off of it. I feel like this channel could grow. Like, money aside, just I could become famous, which would be awesome, in an in and of itself. So I don't know, I might start uploading again. I, I, this really didn't cross my mind till about 10 minutes ago. I was listening to some music on YouTube and I just saw that I had 20 notifications, and then I was like, you know, 4 or 5 of them were people saying they wish I would start uploading again. And I kinda want to upload after reading that type of stuff. So if I did, I would more than likely talk about how much other YouTubers make, because that's how I got my name out there, or it generally be something money-related or, I don't know, that's just the type of stuff I'm into. I'm into statistics and things like that. But, uh, yeah, just wanted to throw that out there. I might start uploading again. I'm not dead, and I am thinking about YouTube now, um, in case you were ever wondering, or you click on my channel and wonder why I haven't uploaded in over a month. That's pretty much everything, and this was my first take, so sorry if I stuttered or anything. I didn't really put, like, an insane amount of thought into what I was gonna say. I just wanted to put my thoughts out there just so anyone who comes across my channel knows what's going on and knows what to expect. So that's pretty much everything.