Soul Quest Ayahuasca Church Of Mother Earth - Ayahuasca Journey Experience | Ascended Master Antojai

Whoa. So last night I did 2 ounces of ayahuasca. And honestly, like, it. Sorry if my hair is, like, kind of busted. Like, I literally. It's. It's been a long night. It literally felt like taking about seven to ten tabs of acid. And if you're. If you're asking me, like, how would I know that? Yeah, I've done it. And there was times where it felt definitely, like it was like 11 tabs of acid. Like, there was this one point where I hit this, like, this peak, and it was like, whoa. And it was very powerful. It was very transcendental. You know, the whole entire thing started off with, like, an opening circle where people kind of, like, spoke about where they come from and, like, why you're here and why you want to communicate with the spirit. Spirit and stuff like that. And it's very interesting how ayahuasca actually brings a lot of people who are looking for inner child healing and lots of people who are trying to fight addiction and people who have become suicidal and they're trying to find the answer for life or, like, for them to be here and live. It was very, very interesting just being able to hear all of that. There were actually one or two other, like, researchers there, just like myself. And, like, when. When it came around to me, like, it was weird because I was the only person. I was the. I guess it's not weird. I was the only person that said, like, I'm doing this. Not really for myself, though. I did. I am getting something out of it. I'm ultimately doing this for, like, the greater good of the collective to, like, bring me the most enlightenment possible so that I can go ahead and, like, you know, deliver that to those. The people who need it most from me, you know? I mean, and it was really very powerful experience. We ended up, like. We had this whole blessing ceremony where we opened, like, these channels, and once. Once we took the medic, the medicine, the ayahuasca. I remember. I remember being, like, one of the first people because, like, you lay down and, like, I was one of the first people that literally just got up and I was like, okay, I'm. I'm ready to, like. I gotta go out of this tent. I gotta, like, walk. I gotta look at the stars. And the stars are so pretty. The moon was beautiful. And it was interesting because at first, like, the facilitators were like. You could tell they were watching me, like, oh, man, he's gonna, like, barf, or maybe he needs to go to the bathroom. And all I wanted to do is literally sit by the fire. And, like, I sat by the fire, and it was like three. Three of the facilitator, mediator people. Like, they were all sitting around the fire, like, guarding the fire. And there was this, like, this one chair that was empty, and I was looking at it, and I was like, I'm gonna go sit in that chair. Like, if it belongs to somebody, I don't see anybody moving there. It's my chair now. And, like, I got up and I sat there, and they all looked at me like, is he gonna, like, try to, like, do something with the fire? And I just sat down, and I started, like, doing energy work and pulling out, you know, it was insane. I started with my meridians, and I could feel, like, each finger in my meridian like. Like, pulsating and showing me, like, what was wrong inside of my body. And I would start pulling out energy from the meridian and throwing it into the fire. And at one point, I ended up, like, pulling out, like, serpents, like, these energetic serpents that restrict my abilities. And, you know, before you take ayahuasca, you really. You have to put, like, an intention out there, right? So I put out the intention. My original intention was I want to unlock as much as my. My full potential as possible when it comes to as a star, being as a. As. As who I know I divinely am. And I was like, I'm just gonna go ahead and. And that's what I want. I want that for myself. And one of the main things that has been coming up a lot through my meditations is to unlock my own power. I've been hearing this, the same mantra over and over again of, like, I release my limitations. I let go of all of my limitations so I can free you of yours. When it's been. When it comes out, when it comes down to healing. And that's. That's kind of like what played out again in my mind. I was like, I released all of my limitations so I can free others of their limitations. And that's when, you know, I started pulling out these energetic serpents that were in my meridians. And, like, when I would pull one out, it had a bunch of tent. Some of them had a bunch of tentacles that went into another reality. They were really deep inside of my inner child. They were in my, like, my chakras, my meridians, like, they were stemming, and each one of them was repressing a level of my ability. Like, I. If you ever. If you've ever worked with me, like, I have a ton of energy and, like, especially when it comes to healing and stuff like that. So, like, imagine, like, if I'm perpetually running at a 9 out of 10, like, these serpents have kept me at a 9 instead of a 10 out of 10 or beyond that threshold. And that's. I kept pulling them and pulling them and pulling them and throwing them into the fire. And I would, like, feel like, this surge of energy. I didn't want purge. Like, I didn't want one to vomit or had to run to the toilet. Toilet at all. But a lot of other people were. And I think it's because I've. I've been doing psychedelics for such a long time, and I've done such heavy amounts of psychedelics that it didn't affect me that way at all. Like, I said, this facilitators were kind of, like, shocked to see me be the first person to wake up, sit down in this chair, and then I was just literally doing the energy or pulling the energy and pulling these serpents off. And then came a point where I felt like I had, like, a helmet that was attached over my third eye like a suppressant, and I would, like, rip it out and hold it and look at it and be like, whoa. And then my third eye would expand and I started understanding things about myself and like, how. How I. You know, I hit creator's block a while ago, and it's because I started seeing everything as work. Instead of, like, recording my experience and recording my life and sharing my life in general, I started kind of just seeing it more as work. And it was like, that's why you've hit this stifling point. And like, as a. As a. As a creator, a content creator, and as someone who profoundly educates people on a regular, like, sometimes you get negative feedback from people online and you're just like, like, it's. It kind of. It can get to you. Really honestly, like, that's the gist of it. It can just get to you because you put your heart into something. And then some people just go out there and, like, just because they didn't get what they wanted, they missed a bigger scope. And, like, that's when Ayahuasca was just like, she. First of all, she's chill as hell. Like, she's chill as fuck. Some people saw, like, a motherly figure. She was nothing like I thought she was going to be. Like, I remember I ended up in, like, it was. It was like this apartment slash kind of bar thing, and it was just her, and she was sitting there and she was like, hey. She was like, it's about time. And I was just like, what? And she was like, oh, you don't remember? She's like, yeah, we've done this multiple times. Like, we were old friends. Like, we've hung out a ton of times. She's like, you just. You always hit these tears, and then when you come back down, you end up forgetting or, like, you somehow convince yourself that you're not as powerful as you think you are. And I. And I was like, now you say it. And it was like, deja vu. Like, I've been here before. Like, this is all like. And talking to her was like talking to my friend. Like, my really old friend. Like, it was real talk. And like, you know, I. It was interesting because I have a couple other ascended Master friends that are other. Other ascended friends that, like, it was like sitting down with any of them and just having this real talk about, like, this is what you got to do for yourself, man. Like, you know, some people are not gonna get it, but, like, Axel, like, why are you. Why did you come to Earth again? To teach them how to do magic. Like, some of them want it made easy, but, like, Axel, did anyone make it easy for you? To get. To get to where I am at as an energy worker, as a profound healer, as an educator, I had to sweat. I had to work for it. I had to. You know, one of the most recent things that have really, like, irked the hell out of me is, like, with my courses, people. People get mad because they don't get a manual. And I'm just like, dude, I've had to commit everything to memory. Like, I've had to put everything. And right now I'm having, like, this deja vu. I've said this before right here. Like, I know I've said this before, and I feel it. And it's. Give me a second. I've trained my whole entire life. None of my masters. The masters that I've trained with made it easy for me. They told me, if you're really going to be what you are supposed to be, you will carry this knowledge in the depths of your subconscious, and you'll never forget it. I never got a manual. I never got repetitive lessons. I never got a shortcut to becoming what I am now. And I had to sit down with myself and be like, the people who don't get it is because they don't really want to be Masters. I'm going to teach people how I became a Master, not what people want me to Give them. And that was like a really powerful thing for me because it, you know, I care a lot about people and I care a lot about just being able to help people, but you can't help everyone. That's, that's the thing that like, I also, like, sometimes I forget about my soul mission. Like, I didn't come here to help everybody. Like, I came here to train the masters of New Earth. That's what I'm here to do. They're the ones that are going to go out and heal everybody else. And it was like, stay focused. And she was just like, real with me. She was like, she was like, you know, humans, humans just don't get it because they don't wanna, they wanna chase a certificate. They want to chase whatever's there that doesn't really, doesn't really matter in the green grand scope of things. Like, it's, it's the, the knowledge and the absorption. Like your, your whole body DNA is, has memory. You're a walking computer. There's no excuse for anyone, in my opinion, who really seeks to be enlightened and to be, who seeks to have ascension. There's no reason why you can't say, like, I'm going to learn this and I'm going to absorb it into my system and, and it's going to become a part of me. That's what I've learned to do for myself is. It's inside of me. It's a part of me. It's not in my brain, but it's a part of my essence. And that's what has made honestly all the answer high alchemy so profound because it does. It goes deep inside of your own energetic system and rewires who you are. And Ayahuasca really showed me that. And then she, she went as far to like, just, you know, just have a real talk with me and just show me my perspective on like, so many other things that I had become oblivious to. Like, I grew up in, even though I grew up in a shamanic culture and like, you know, really having certain kinds of resources. Like my parents, my Earth parents strayed from hundreds of years of tradition and they became Christian. And when they became Christian, they became immensely, like, ignorant or like, full of bigotry. And like, they always repressed my sexuality as a queer person. Like, I live out in the open and I don't hide it. Like, if you don't like me because I, you know, I'm, I am who I am, that's your own problem. But my inner child, I Ended up in this dimension where my inner child was in a corner and crying. And I was like, what's the matter? It was like I was literally parenting myself. And I was like, what's the matter? And he was crying and it's just like, you know, I can't be who I am because there's something wrong with me. And I was like, what's wrong with you? And he was like, you know, I can't. Like, people think I'm gross, people treat me badly because I like boys or. And I was just like, I literally had to sit there and be like, like a modern day parent to my inner child and be like, listen, there's nothing wrong with you. There's absolutely nothing wrong with you. You are who you are. And I even got to this point where I was like, one day, like, one day this is all gonna make sense to you. You're gonna become a very important person and you're gonna help a bunch of little other little kids find their own personal power. So don't let, don't let what's happening right now stop you from being happy and being who you are. And I gave him the biggest hug. And then all of a sudden I was gone. Like, it was. The memory was corrected. And that happened a couple times. And certain things all tied to my sexuality that I didn't even realize that, like, I had been shamed. Like, my parents shamed me for, like, they used to say, like, you're ew. You're disgusting. Like, for, you know, even being attracted to men. Like, ew. Like, you know, like you're. Like you're possessed by Satan or like all these horrible, horrible things. They were so, so mean to me. They were, they were abusive, not only psychologically but physically. They. They did everything in their power to suppress me as a being. And that's why I've had a lot of resentment towards them. Like, tons of resentment towards them. And I don't anymore. Like, I healed. I. I parent. I was the parent that my parents failed to be. And I can't fault them for it. I find it mind boggling that coming from centuries of shamanism, you decide to just go into Christianity and totally abandon everything that, like, I know everything that I know that my, my ancestors taught you. Like, I find that to be mind boggling, and I find that to be, like, extremely sad. But we're all walking our own path and I know how the grand illusion works. Like, I signed up to be incarnated through them for a purpose so I could get to where I'm at. Without. Without. Without the struggle that they put me through, the abuse, not only. Not only the ones that I mentioned, but also sexual abuse. I had to. Without that, I wouldn't have had the drive to pursue where I'm at, you know, and if I'm good. And I started just really tapping into, like, this. This force of energy. And again, like, really, I'm getting emotional because I tapped into this force of energy, of just understanding. Like, this is all my dream. And, like, every portion of everything that's out here is me, and I've designed it for myself. And I've always known that, like, I've. Seriously. I have always known that, like, deep down at my core, I've always known that, like, my ultimate goal is always achieving freedom. When I was a little kid, you'd ask me, what do you want? Was what do you really want? Like, I want. I want to be free. I want to be free. And, like, I got these tattoos on my wrist to always remind me to always pursue freedom. I got. I got these. These on my chest to always remind me that I have to be emotionally free if I truly want to be free. And, like, this is all my dream. I'm only free if I recognize that, like, I chose this incarnation the way it was Rand, you know, it was Ran. I chose what happened so I could get to where I'm at, so I could remember who I am. This ancient star being that's been. You know, it's been on Earth for such a long time, waiting to just be free from this. I just want to go back to where I. Where I come from. And some people will never understand that. Some people will just be like, yeah, sure, right? But that's been. That's been really the gist of it. And that's when. That's when, you know, Ayahuasca was telling me, you need to tell people who you really are, and if they don't fucking get it, they don't get it. Like, not everybody's gonna get it. Like, my. And in terms of linear understanding, my mother is Maat Ma', at, the Egyptian goddess of cosmic justice. And my father is Thoth, the Egyptian God of language and geometry and alchemy. My name is Autumn Ra, and I came here to finish what my ancestors decided they didn't want to deal with, which is educate humanity to a certain point of evolution again. And my title given to me by my people in Adonai is King of the Nakali Children. And that was when, you know, again coming back to, like, I'm not here to help everybody. I'm here to help my people. I'm here to help them the call. I'm here to guide them back home. Show them the way our existence. And that's what I'm really here to do. And it was like, don't forget that. You know, like, don't forget that. And that title came to me a long time ago. Like in my deep into meditation. And I struggled for such a long time. When it first came to me like, I'm what? The king of the Nekali Children? Like, the concept of a king bothered me because I was trying to understand it linearly. Doesn't make me better than anybody else. I'm tasked with just showing my people how to do something. And it was just so. It was so enlightening. It was so powerful. It was very, very beautiful. I'm trying to remember everything that like really went down because it was. It was a couple hours like of just deep like whoa. Like pulling things out. And. And it was interesting because being you, you never. If you're. If you. If you're a healer and you're at your. This is your life. You never stop being a healer. Not even in one of these moments. And there was this guy that was. He was gone. And he was making everybody else around the fire like edgy because everyone thought he was gonna like fall into the fire or like he was gonna like jump into the fire or something. And it was weird cuz he was like starting to strip. And like though he had a sexy body and stuff, like it was kind of like, okay, you know. And if you've ever taken acid, like, like, you know that like it comes to this point where you get really sexual because you have all this tantric energy. And like you could tell like that's where he was at. But he was. His body was just on autopilot and he was gone. And like everyone was like. And I could feel everyone's vibration like freaking out. And I was just like no. And I like he was standing with his back towards the fire and I literally went like. And everyone watched me like turn him around by just doing this with my energy. And then when he turned around, I went like that, like. And like. Because he was standing in front of me so he wasn't looking at me the whole entire time. So I'm like. And when he finally was facing the fire, I was like. And then I went. And he like went down and sat down and it was just like I was talking to his subconscious the whole entire Time telepathically. Like, listen, you're fucking everybody else's. Like, trip right now. Like, you need to calm down. Like, I understand you're in a good place and I want you to stay there. But you need to understand that we're all experiencing something. And the last thing we need is for you to hurt yourself. And I'll end that to throw anyone else here who doesn't have this level of consciousness right now that I'm talking to you into a messed up scenario. So out of respect for yourself and respect for everyone else, don't do that. You're better than that. You can do so much more than that. And like, he. The rest, like, he just hit this tear of like, you know, like just finding his zen. And every, every once in a while he kind of hit this, this kind of like, tear where he kind of started getting rowdy again. And you know, me and some other healers, like, the facilitators were watching me, like, help them, like, like give him energy and bring him down. And it was, it was again, it was interesting at first. I kind of got like, man, I came on vacation and I was like, this is why I don't normally trip with people. Like, I made it, oh, this resolution a long time ago, like, not to trip with anybody that I don't know because it always ends up like, it always ends. Like, unless you really know the person. Like, I will not, like, if I don't know, you know, you. Like, rather I've known you from a past life time or you've been with my friends for like, ever. I will not trip with you. Like, every time I do it, it comes back to bite me in the ass. And like, I end up babysitting somebody or I end up seeing like a. I end up seeing the darkest, darkest, darkest versions of themselves and ends up just kind of really tainting things at some point. But this one was, it was interesting because it was like, this is my life. This is what I do all day long. Like, I'm. I'm not here to, like, even though I'm physically like, detoxing and trying to take a vacation for myself, right? Like, I'm not. Just because I'm on vacation doesn't mean I'm. I'm not perpetually. This, this being that's here to help people. And even though it's kind of like bringing down my vibes right now because I don't want you to hurt yourself. Like, I'm just gonna do it because that's what I'm here To do, like. And I don't take. I can't take a vacation from being that person. Like, I can't take a vacation from being that healer. And it was really interesting because in, you know, I wasn't there to heal everybody. I was just making sure that there was a sanctuary space. And, like, it was cool because the more I created, like, this barrier of harmony and, like, people just started coming out of nowhere. And like, people who don't understand energy, they just, like, gravitate towards you and they flock towards you. And they all were, like, sitting really close to me. And, like, it was very interesting. And sometimes I would hear some people, like, really struggling with, like, purging. And I'd just be like, you know, pulling out their energy, like from deep in the back and like, throwing it into the fire to, like, help them kind of get past that a little bit more. Yeah. And it was just like, really. It was really cool. It was really cool. So today, in less than 30 minutes, I am going to be doing my second round of it. It's daytime this time, and I'm gonna be doing 3 ounces instead of 2. So 2 ounces felt somewhere between 7 to 10 tabs. Except, like, you know, if you ever take an acid, it didn't feel like you had no chemical whatever. Like, it was just a pure. Like, if you could imagine the purest acid, like, ever, that's what it was. There was no hangover. At least I didn't have a hangover. I didn't purge. You know, I didn't do any of that. It was. It was so clean and it was so, like, profound. And then I hung out with my dad, Thoth, and like, he. He taught me a lot about the. The Eye of Horus and like, how people see the Eye of Horus linearly and like, you know, because everyone sees their third eye, right? And you think your third eye is here. But like, in ancient Egypt, we recorded and we said this to you guys forever ago. Like, if you take your brain and you cut your brain in half, the Eye of Horus is in your brain. So your linear understanding of your third eye just here, that's linear. Now this is your third eye. But your third eye is a physical organ is in the center of your brain, like right there. That's. That's a second dimensional understanding of what your third eye is. And if you connect that linear connection between you unlock more of your third eye. And then all of a sudden, like, I felt like somebody had like. Like I got tattooed. The Eye of Horus on my left eye. And I even got to this point where I'm like, when I am. When I'm done with this, I'm getting this done. Like, I'm getting this done. And, like, I was just like. I was like, wait, bitch, you need to calm down. I was like, you. You could have had this tattoo back in ancient Egypt, and nobody would have blinked an eye. Like, today, you get a face tattoo, girl. And, like, who knows? Like, people are gonna, like, not be able to interpret what's going down. I was like, okay. And then that's when I felt the moon. The moon energy just, like, embody me and hit me and take me over, and I felt so much power. And I was able to understand, like, a long time ago. They told me I was gonna have the ability to do essentially whatever it is that I wanted to do. And I. I have unlocked a form of my ability where I'm gonna play around with it, but they've told, like, I know that I can materialize things from the nothingness, and I can teleport things from the nothingness into, like, matter and, like, literally reconstituting and recreating my reality. And. And, you know, I. I'm a being of creation. Like, my vibration, my name. And that was the thing, too. It was like, you've had a thousand different names from Autumn Raw to Excel to whatever lifetime you've had, but your vibration has always been one, the same thing. Transmutation of chaos into harmony. And Autumn. Like, if you. Autumn Ra. If you look up what people recorded about me, I'm a. I'm a deity of creation, right? And that's what people didn't under. They didn't. They called me a deity because they didn't really understand what it was that we were capable of, but really, they were capable of it. And that's what we were trying to teach them this whole entire time, is that, like, we seem like deities, because you just don't understand this full scope of your reality. And that's what we were doing this whole entire time, is teaching them how to do that. And then they forgot about it. And that's why my ancestors left, because they were just like. They just don't get it. Like, they're just not gonna get it. Like, we can help them from home, but, like, only those who seek us. And my. My. My peers were like, we can't just leave humanity fucked. Like, that's not right. And we stayed and, like, it was. It was nuts. It was just, like, all this stuff coming to Me and, like, I had this. This story. I remember this story of, like, these beings in ancient Egypt, which. They don't want me to say their name. But these beings in ancient Egypt, we beefed with them at some point because they look, they learned this same property that I'm speaking about of, like, creation. That's how the pyramids were created. Create, like, this power of being able to materialize from the nothingness. And there are these two. There were all of us, like, the. The Egyptian, like, pantheon, right? And the. The beings that. I won't say their name. And we had kind of like this. This almost like this full decked out war that. It was like, we don't trust you with all this power. And they were like, we don't trust you with all this power. And like, we were like, why would you not be trusting us with all this power when, you know, like, we're teaching humanity? And they're like, because that's a lot of power. And like, you guys already have like. Like a. Like a. Like a monopoly on. On the area. And like, you know, you guys are essentially being deified when you're all aliens. And like, we were like, okay, like, really? But you guys, we could say the same thing. And like, we. The old egot, like the old pantheon that I belong to and like, those. Those other beings that I won't name, we came to a conclusion of, like, hey, like, fine, like, as long as we promise never to use it for, like, negativity, like, we won't step on your toes and you won't step on ours. And they were like, okay, cool. Like, that's totally gravy. And it was like those serpents that I was pulling out were tied to those beings that they had put a throttle on me because they were like, not. It was. It was really interesting because, like, I don't. I don't really dig Christianity. Not because I, you know, I have anything against anyone who's like, Christian or anything that does whatever you believe in, whatever gets you to source that totally, like, hey, I respect that. But for me, my, like, my experience with Christianity has been very repressive. And, like, especially because, like, you know, I come from people who are completely shamanistic and, like, for some reason went into, like, Christianity. And I saw what that did to my parents. And, like, I had this, like, thought. Whereas it's like, Axel, you're 29, and Jesus was about, you know, in his 30s, his early to mid-30s, when he came into his full divine alignment and power. You got. You got here A little bit sooner than he did. But that's what this moment's about right here. Like, you came here wanting to know about your own power and unlocking the full potential of your own power. And here it is. Here it is. And I was just kind of like, that makes. That makes a lot of sense. Like, you know, like, that's. That's. I never really looked at it that way. And, yeah, I feel like I'm missing something crucial. I really started understanding about, like, how I love people. And, like, I've been alone for such a long time. Not only as, like, an astral being, you know, like, waiting for other people to wake up, my peers to wake up and catch up and reunite, but also, like, I ran away from home when I was 16 after I got raped by my dad. And it was like a hate crime for being queer and coming out of the closet. Like, it was almost like, I'm gonna show you that you're not gay. Like, you don't want this, right? And it. I had blocked it out. I had blocked it out for such a long time. I just. One day, I didn't know why I did it. I just one day was like, I gotta get out of here. And I ran away and I picked up all my shit and just left. And since I was, like, 16, almost 17, I've been on my own. I have had to sweat to not only. Not only become who I am as a person. I've never had really anyone to rely on. And deep inside of me, I felt this loneliness that I never. I never really wanted to, I guess, acknowledge to myself because I got so used to it. You know what I mean? Like, my family has been. Even growing up, like, my family was always like, take care of your own shit. Like, you could never show any moment of weakness in any sense because they would make fun of you. They would make you feel less than. There would be gossip. There'd be something. Something there that always made me feel like I have no one I can rely on other than myself. And, like, the cosmos. Like, the cosmos has never fucked me over. And, like, my guides are the only thing that I can authentically be. Like, this is Mrs. Family. And thank God that, like, the last two years have been really powerful because I have met the most amazing people that are literally my best friends. And they're all over the world, and I know them from, like, other lifetimes. And, like, some of them are in Detroit. And, like, it's just. I've been waiting for them for just a long time. Like. Like, My real soul family. I was just like, you know, I've had. Felt so alone for such a long time. And then they all started coming out of the woodworks and remembering who they were and aligning themselves again with me through Instagram, through. Through the most tender, through the most obscure places that I never thought I would meet. My soul family, like, it's ridiculous. And I was just kind of like, you're not alone anymore. Like, you've always felt this way, and, like, deep inside, actually, you have to get to this point where, like, you felt alone not only as, like, this being that's. That's tasked to help a large multitude of people, but also, like, this whole entire incarnation has been extremely difficult. And then I just saw the blessings. Honestly, I just. I saw the blessings of the illusion of, like, you've never been alone. It just felt like you were alone because you're just waiting. And it was like, patience. Like, it was. One of the things that I've struggled for millennia with is patience. Like, especially being an energy of creation, that. That's what my vibration is like, you know, I mean, like, creation. Like, I've. I've always been. If you know me well in this incarnation, you know, like, I. If I want something, I just. I'll make it happen. I will trade with you. I will pay you. I, like, you know, if I want it, I'm going for it. And, like, there's nothing that's gonna stop me from getting it. And if I can't get it from one source, I'll find it in another source. And it was really powerful. Just being like, dude, like, patience, man. You were just waiting this whole entire time. Like, you had to wake up. You had to wait for your family to wake up for you to, like, notice that you're not alone. Especially in February when I. When I found out that I was dealing with a serious health condition, my crew was there. Like, they were there. They sat down to meditate with me. They sat down to give me advice, research. Like, if that's not my family, what the fuck is? You know? It's ridiculous. And it was beautiful. And I'm just grateful. Like, I'm just. Right now, I have so much gratitude. So I gotta go because I gotta do another rape and I gotta do another ayahuasca. So I will see you later. Love you so much. Thank you for just taking this time to listen to me and hear this first experience. Definitely be back and tell you about the next one.