Axél Antojai CarrasquilloAntojai · Ascended Master

SPIRITUAL ANCESTRY #antojai #spirituality #manifestation #ancestry #puertorico #shamanism

Name: SPIRITUAL ANCESTRY #antojai #spirituality #manifestation #ancestry #puertorico #shamanism
Uploaded: 2023-11-06T02:49:27+00:00
Duration: 56 s
Channel: Axél Antojai Carrasquillo
Description: In this reflective monologue, the speaker recounts their journey back to Puerto Rico after many years, describing an intense physical sensation of fear…

6 Nov 2023 · 1 min

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In this reflective monologue, the speaker recounts their journey back to Puerto Rico after many years, describing an intense physical sensation of fear they attribute to ancestral trauma as they board the plane. They explain that their ancestors left the island seeking a better life, and this historical context informs the deep, bodily fear of returning to a place perceived as unsafe. Despite the fear, they board the flight and, upon arrival, experience a profound sense of relief and safety among their own people—a feeling they have not encountered even in queer or spiritual spaces. The narrative intertwines themes of ancestry, migration, embodied emotion, and the intersection of queer and spiritual identity, highlighting how returning to one's roots can evoke both deep-seated anxiety and unexpected healing.

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Explore your ancestry. I'm in the island of Puerto Rico. I haven't been to Puerto Rico since I was like, seven, and my family hails from here. This whole experience has been a trip. As I was getting on the plane, I was kind of feeling a lot of fear coming from my body as to what to expect. And after a while, I realized that this was some sort of, like, ancestral trauma that was surfacing. The majority of my ancestry left here because they wanted to find a better life. I was totally fully aware that that's what I was feeling. I was feeling like this fear of going back to a place that was potentially not safe. Now, this was a feeling that was super deep in my ancestry. Like in my physical body. I could feel it, like a sweat coming off of my cells, the sweat of fear. But I forced myself to get on that plane anyway. When I finally ended up landing here, I felt this sense of relief, like a, ah, I'm finally amongst my own people. And what's really weird is, like, I've never felt that before. I've never felt that safety when I've been in queer spaces, spiritual spaces.