In this personal, first‑person YouTube monologue, Axél Antojai Carrasquillo (who calls himself Antohaay) shares a candid account of feeling overwhelmed by a long to‑do list and the resulting stress that blocks his ability to complete projects. He describes slipping into a deep, hyper‑meditative state whenever he tries to act, and realizes that the root cause is misalignment between his inner state and external goals. Using tarot as a diagnostic tool, he interprets repeated synchronicities as a message to pause, meditate, and surrender to the present moment. He explains that true manifestation requires internal alignment before outward action, and reframes meditation not as inactivity but as a powerful ‘charging’ practice that restores vibration and clarity. Throughout, he encourages viewers who feel similarly stuck to relax, honor the need for stillness, and approach meditation with pride, gratitude, and purpose. The video concludes with a typical YouTube sign‑off urging subscriptions, comments, and shares.
Chapters
Hello there, everyone. This is Antohaay. And I have a very kind of like, truth like moment here that I want to share with you guys. Lately I have been dealing with a ton of stress. And the stress is mostly coming from I have all these projects that I want to get accomplished. I have all these things, things that are on my to do list. And every time I come to trying to make one of these objectives happen, like, I just get deterred from it. I get into this really deep hyper meditative state, or I just can't focus altogether on the project that I'm supposed to be doing. And I. You know, a lot of times when you're going through one of these experiences, you are like trying to fight against the current of everything, telling you just take a second to breathe, take a second to just sit down and relax and process the moment. A lot of times you just want to keep running, running, running because you're focusing on the 3D. And one of the things that I had to learn is just like, to surrender. If I'm trying to get a lot of things done, if I'm trying to produce certain kind of content, if I'm trying to advance some part of my business, and every time I try to do it, I just can't. It's because something else has to be aligned first. So part of my manifestation is me. Okay, work, work, work. Okay, here's a synchronicity. Nothing's letting me move forward no matter what I want to do. I'm looking at my tarot. I'm using my tarot to like, kind of like ask questions on what I should deal with. And then when I look at my tarot, it's like, hey, it's time for you to meditate. And that's exactly what I feel like I have to do. Like the last two days, I've been literally meditating like almost all day. If I didn't have like a patient or somebody who needed me, you know, I haven't been able to actually sit down and channel some quality content other than this moment right here. And maybe this is the message itself to you, right? So that if you're feeling something very similar, like, I want you to understand that this is your message, to understand that you are right where you need to be. Just relax. Surrender into the moment. If you're. This is what you're supposed to be experiencing and experiencing, experience it in the now. Right? Surrender. What should you be meditating on? I've been allowing my mind to just go and bring back information to me, so then I can kind of process it and give myself a better understanding. It's not always about being in action. Sometimes it's just being present or being still enough for you to see the bigger picture of what's around you. And definitely it's hard because I'm somebody who loves to keep. Whoa, whoa, whoa. Keep going, keep going, keep going. Get your stuff done. And I have a million things that I want to do, and it's my hobby. But if all I can do is meditate, like that's my vibration, that's that there's something externally, the external me is telling me to sit down and meditate. Because all of reality is just a reflection of myself. Especially when. When I'm dealing with synchronicities that are so repetitive. It's time to charge. If you feel like that's all you can do, then charge. Charge with pride. Charge knowing that this is the sole purpose, the sole moments of your reality. Do it with gratitude, do it with honor. Own it and say, all I'm going to do is meditate and relax. I know this is one is one of those harder things for me to deal with, maybe for you too. But I'm gonna relax the best way that I can. Like a boss sending you so much love. Don't forget to subscribe, don't forget to comment, and don't forget to share. I'll see you in our next episode.
