#402 – Michael Malice: Thanksgiving Pirate Special

The following is a conversation with Michael Malice, anarchist and author of Dear Reader, the New Right, the Anarchist Handbook, the White Pill and he is the host of the podcast. You're welcome. This is a Thanksgiving special of the Pirate and ocean going variety. So once again let me say thank you for listening today and for being part of this wild journey with me. And now a quick few second mention of each sponsor. Check them out in the description. It's the best way to support this podcast. We got Policy Genius for Life Insurance, Masterclass for Learning, Shopify for shopping, BetterHelp for health and Asleep for naps. Choose wisely my friends. Also, if you want to work with our amazing team or just get in contact with me, go to lexfreedman.com contact like the movie, except I'm not an alien. Allegedly. And now onto the full ad reads. As always, no ads in the middle. I try to make these things interesting, but if you must skip them friends, please still check out our sponsors. 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The box.

Yeah, I'm wondering what's in it.

There's something in that box of exquisite beauty, both literally and in what it symbolizes and why it is here.

Given the kind of human being you are, I'm terrified at what you find beautiful.

That's a good point. You kind of hit me with the curveball.

Yeah.

Like, for me, the most beautiful, like, wildlife are what I call God's mistakes. Yeah. Because my friend came up with that term where she's like, you know, God made these disgusting animals, just threw in the bottom of the ocean. He's like, no one's ever gonna see this.

Yeah, you. You commented on Twitter about some creature, like a rainbow type creature, the peacock mantis shrimp.

Yeah.

It's beautiful.

It's horrific, though. So it has, I think, eight legs, six arms, two punching claws or spearing claws, depending on the genus. Two eyes, two antennae, two ear flaps. I don't know what they do. And its punch can be as strong as a bullet. And the other type with the spears, divers call them thumb splitters because if you stick your finger near it, it'll cut your thumb down to the bone. So I had one as a pet. All night I would hear banging on the PVC pipe. And I gotta tell you, they have the best eyesight of any animal because they see in, like, seven different ways. And when you make eye contact with this thing, it's just absolutely terrifying. But you can eat them. A sushi. They call them sea centipedes, but they're colorful and beautiful. That species is. Yeah.

What was it like having one as a pet, and why did you do it?

Well, when you have a species that's that unique and that much of an outlier, you know, growing up reading these books, watching these shows, I found this stuff so much more fascinating than, like, space, which is, you know, dead. So to be able to have this specimen in your house and just observe its behavior is just. Just like an amazing thing.

Why'd you get rid of it?

I didn't have, I guess, the right minerals in the mix. It died. It had a problem molting ones. Yeah, they couldn't molt correctly.

Wow. You miss it. Think about it still.

I do think about it. To be honest, I still have a pair of its cl. Punching appendages from when it molted.

What pet animal in your life do you miss? The most that has been in your life that you think about.

I've never had cats or dogs growing up or anything like that, which, you know, I. Oh, God. My problem is.

There we go.

If I like something, I will go down a rabbit hole.

Yeah.

So I know if I got one tattoo, I already know my first five are going to be okay. So I can't do it because then once I get those five, it's going to be 100, and I'm already too old to be the tattoo guy.

What would be the first tattoo? My face. Would it go on your ass cheeks or where would you put them if it was my face?

If I got your face, it would definitely be on my arm right here.

If you had multiple faces, would you.

Put, like, I think, delts. Right. Shoulders. Different faces and different shoulders.

And then when you flex. Yeah. Would you get a dictator?

If you.

If you had to get a dictator, who would you get?

We have Dickim. John Yell. Right. Because I wrote the book on him.

Oh, it's like the plug in your book.

I don't think plugging. It's just like, I have a personal connection to.

Good opener. The conversation. We would be asking, why him? And you'd be like, well, I wrote a book about it.

Well, I'd be like, okay, okay, here, here's. That would be a bad. No, that's not what happens. Okay, here's the thing. What happens when you write a book about North. Hey, nice to meet you. What is it you do? I'm an author. What kind of books do you write? Well, my last book was on North Korea. 90% of the time. 90. They will then start telling me everything they know about North Korea. And it's like, I don't need. This isn't a quiz. And it's a very poorly understood country. I don't expect you to know anything. You're not on the spot. And. And half what you're saying is not accurate either. It's fine.

How often do they bring up Dennis Rodman?

100%.

100% of the time.

Oh, so you don't. Do you know Dennis Rodman? Yeah, but I don't understand why. I guess people feel the need to, like, all right, like, now we're talking about this subject. I just gotta, you know, drop whatever I can talk about. It's usually a small amount, but. And there's this thing in the culture, which I hate, that everyone have to have an opinion on everything. And it's like, it's okay to be like, yeah, I don't Know anything about that? Tell me more. You know, there's lots of things I don't know anything about.

What's your opinion on my bird here, Mr. Parrot?

It's a macaw. Scarlet macaw.

What?

It is a scarlet macaw.

Oh, you know birds.

Yeah. And that's actually not life sized.

Are you saying he's not real?

I'm saying it's not to scale.

Okay, but he's real.

Are we doing that Monty Python sketch?

Everything is a Monty Python sketch.

I don't think Monty Python's funny.

You don't?

At all.

That explains so much.

Does it? What does it explain?

What do you think is funny?

You're not answering that question is pretty funny.

Yeah. What do you think is funny? Having a mantis shrimp?

No.

You think Big Lebowski is funny?

Oh, God, no.

Although this is getting worse and worse, to be fair. Yep.

I only tried to watch Big Lebowski after. It's been part of the culture for many years, to the point where every single line has been quoted incessantly by the most annoying frat bros ever.

Yeah.

So I kind of have been poisoned to be able to appreciate it.

Right.

So maybe if I'd seen it when it came out before it became a thing, I would have enjoyed it. I couldn't get through it. Like, I couldn't get through 20 minutes.

Is that how you feel about Schindler's List? Well, it's so much easier for me to stare at you when you have sunglasses on.

I didn't think you'd be the one making Holocaust jokes today. And yet here we are.

And cut. Scene. I actually have, like, no trouble making eye contact with you when you're wearing shades.

Yes. Because you're a robot.

Two. Two copies of myself.

Yeah. Oh, you seeing yourself in them?

Okay, cool. Yeah, I'm having a conversation with myself. It's not your fault, Lex.

They made you like this. You were just a good little robot in St. Petersburg.

I could see Mr. Parrot a little bit, too.

But what do you find funny? Come on, let's. This is an interesting subject.

Well, I find Mighty Python. I find absurdity funny.

Yes, I find absurdity funny. I think that's the thing. When people come at me, and maybe this is an Eastern European thing, when they're like, how can you find this, like, very dark subject funny? It's like, well, the humor. First of all, the humor is that you're making fun of something that's dark. So already it's absurd. Like, it's completely inappropriate. Second, just psychologically you know, Joan Rivers said that. Winston Churchill said, I don't know if it's true, that when you make people laugh, you're giving them a little vacation. And I was just thinking about this the other day, how when I die, if I want my funeral to be a roast, it doesn't help me that everyone's sad. If I brought people happiness or joy in life, whatever, I want to keep doing that in death. Your sadness doesn't help me. I know you can't help it, but tell stories how it made you laugh, make fun of me, make me the punching bag, even literally take me out of that coffin and be the. I don't. Make me a pinata. I don't care. So I think. And I don't understand. Well, I do understand, but it's sad for me when people are like, you know, this isn't funny. That isn't funny. The way I look at humor is the way it's like a chef. Right. It's pretty easy to make bacon tastes good, but some of these really obscure ingredients to make it palatable, that takes skill. So if you're dealing with a subject that is very emotional or intense and you can make people laugh, then that takes skill, and that's the relief for them.

Yeah. It's all about timing.

Yeah. Yeah. What's the difference? You want to hear one of my jokes?

Is it a pirate joke? Because that's the only. That's the only kind I accept today. But go ahead. It doesn't have to be a pirate joke this one time.

Do you know who Leah Thomas is? Yeah. What's the difference between Leah Thomas and Hitler?

What?

Leah Thomas knows how to finish a race.

Very nice. Very nice.

Did I just get the gold medal?

Good job. Why does it take pirates forever to get through the Alphabet?

Why?

Because they spent years at sea.

Oh, I thought it was going to be an R joke. That's a good one. I like that. When I was in North Korea.

Oh, you know, Dennis Rodman. It's a callback.

By the way, the thing that is very heartbreaking about the North Korean situation is that they have a great sense of humor. It would be a lot easier if these were, like robots or drones. They have big personalities, big sense of humor, and that made it much harder to leave and interact with these people because it's. I mean, there's nothing more human and universal than laughter, and laughter is free.

Are you saying there's humor even amongst the people that have most of their freedoms taken away?

Especially. I mean, again, we're from the Soviet Union. There's a. There's a. I mean, Russian humor is a thing, because there's nothing you can. If you can't have food or nice things, at least you can have joy and make each other laugh. I think about it all the time, and I think about my guide all the time. It's been, what, 2012. So it's been 11 years since I've been there. And she's still there, and everyone I've seen is still there. They just recently electrified the border, so you can't even. Even the few people who are escaping can't do it anymore.

But that's interesting that they still have a sense of humor. I attribute the Soviet Union for having that. Because of the, like, really deep education system, like, you. You got to read a lot of literature.

Okay.

And because of that, you get to kind of learn about the. The cruelty, the injustices, the absurdity of the world.

Right.

As long as it. The writing is not about the current regime.

Yeah. But I think if you look at, like, African Americans, Jewish Americans, gay Americans, they are all disproportionate in terms of contributing to comedy. It's not because these groups have some kind of, you know, magic to them. It's that when you are on the outside looking in a. You're going to have different perspective than the people who are in the middle of the bell curve. But also when you don't have anything to lose, at the very least, you can make each other laugh and find happiness that way. So, you know, that is something that I think is an important thing to recognize.

So what do you find funny? What makes you giggle, like, in the most joyful of ways? The suffering of others.

I mean, there are YouTube videos of fat people falling down, and they're. They're really funny.

There's two kinds of people in this world. Those that laugh at those videos and those that don't.

No. And those that are in them. My friend Jesse just told me a great Norm MacDonald joke, and this is a good litmus test joke, because he says a certain group of people lose their minds, and a certain group of people just stare at you. And he goes, this kind of. And so I'll tell you the joke. This is Norm MacDonald guy walks into a bar, and he sees someone at the bar who has a big pumpkin for a head. And the guy's like, dude, what happened to you? He goes, ugh, you never believe this. I got one of those genie lamps and this genie. He's like, well, what happened? He goes, well, the first wish, you know, I wish for $100 million. He's like, yeah, Drew Gaddy. He goes, yeah. He goes, in my bank account. Feels fine. He goes, all right, well, the second wish, I wish to have sex with as many beautiful women as I wanted. He goes, did that happen? Goes, yeah, it was amazing. He goes, then what? Well, I wish for a giant pumpkin head.

Yeah.

So there's a certain mindset that will just be staring at the screen and that is. I mean, there's so many levels. Why that's funny, at least to me. And I just love that kind of.

Well, Norm McDonald is like, just. I watch his videos all the time. He's. He's a guy that definitely makes me giggle. And he's one of the people that makes me giggle for reasons I don't quite understand.

Did you ever see him with Carrot Top on Conan o'? Brien?

No.

Of making fun of Carrot Top?

No. He.

This is probably the best talk show clip of all time. He's on with Courtney Thorne Smith. She was on Melrose Place and Conan Bryan's the host, and Courtney's talking about how she's going to be an upcoming movie with Carrot Top. And Conan is like, oh, what's it gonna be called? And she's like, doesn't have a title yet. And Norman goes, I know. It should be called Box Office Poison. And they're all laughing and she's like, no, no, no. Like the working title is Chairman of the Board. And Conan goes, do something with that smart ass. And Norm goes, yeah, bored is spelled B O R E D. And they all just completely lost it.

There's something about him with words spoken out of his mouth, with the way he, like, turns his head and looks at the camera.

I think he is one of those rare comedians who you really feel like he's talking to you directly.

Yeah.

He feels like he's winking at you.

Yeah.

In the audience. And he's like, can you. Can you believe I'm doing this? Like, it's like he almost. He feels like he's. I don't want to say imposter, but like, he's more a member of the audience than he is a member of the people on the stage.

Yeah. It feels like he's on our side.

Yes. Yeah.

Whatever the hell our means.

You know, Roseanne got him his first job.

Man. Roseanne, you and her been hanging out.

I got it. Oh, my God. Talk about Thanksgiving. When you are talking to Roseanne Barr and making eye contact with this person, it is. I can't Even describe it. It's just like, holy crap. Roseanne Bar is talking to me. She is, I've said this to her face, pathologically funny. Like, it does not turn off. And you're sitting there and you're like, holy crap. And when you make her laugh, which is that laugh that's in the theme song of her show, you feel like, okay, I did a mitzvah. I did something good, and right in the world that I made Roseanne Barr laugh. And it's also really funny because. And she's gonna hate this because I tell her she's adorable. She isn't like that. She's little. You think of Roseanne Barr as this, like, force of nature, like a tsunami. She's like, five, three. I'd say, like, maybe 130. Like, and she's. And she puts on the sunglasses. You think this little Jewish lady, you'd never know. This is one of the most epic performers of all time. She lives near here now, so it's just so much fun talking to her. There was an old satirical magazine in the, I think, like, early 2000s called HEB written. Written by Jews. And she dressed up as Hitler for one of the photo shoots. And she was baking little men in the oven. I got. I found on ebay. I want her to sign it to Michael. It should have been you. Yeah, but she signed it to Michael. You're one smart cookie. And now it hangs. Love, Mom. Roseanne Barr. And I call her Mom. And it hangs over my desk because. Have her, like, good domestic goddess energy flowing at me. What?

What do you find? What else?

So Norm MacDonald, my favorite comedian is.

We agree on something.

My favorite comedian of all time is Neil Hamburger. So. Neil Hamburger, I don't know if I'm ruining the bit. He's a character performed by this guy named Greg Turkington. So he comes out in a tuxedo, big eyeglasses, holding three glasses of water, coughing into the mic. And I remember I saw him once in la, and the girl ahead of me at the table ahead of me was with her boyfriend, this basic chick, pumpkin spice. She turns to him and she goes, what is this? And I remember the first time he was on Jimmy Kimmel, and he tells one of his jokes, and he was like, why does ET Like Reese's Pieces so much? Well, that's what sperm tastes like on his home planet. And, like, no one laughs. And he goes, oh, come on, guys. I have cancer. And he just cuts to this Marine in the audience with his arms crossed. So if you know what he's doing. It's just absolutely amazing. He opened for Tenacious D once in somewhere, I think in Ireland or the UK One of those. And they're booing him because his jokes are often not funny. He's like, hey, where did my whore ex wife run off to with that dentist she's shacking up with? I don't know. But when I see her in court next month, Alaska. So they're booing and he goes, all right, do you guys want me to bring out Tenacious D? They're like, yeah, do you want to see your heroes of mine? Tenacious D? Yeah, Come on, let me hear it. Do you want to see Tenacious D? Yeah. He goes, all right, if I tell this next joke and you don't boo me, I'll bring out Tenacious D. And it's like, I'm trying to think of one that's not too.

Self censorship is never good.

Okay? He goes, can we agree that George Bush is the worst president America has ever had? Everyone collapsed. He goes, which makes it all the stranger that his son, George W. Bush, was in fact the best.

I take it back on the self censorship.

So two people laugh, and he goes, oh, that's amazing. I guess I'll do an encore. And he did 10 more minutes. It was just. Just like, I love him so much.

It's interesting. They opened for Tenacious D. Jack Black, that's a comedic genius of a different kind.

Oh, yeah. And he was in one of my favorite movies. Jesus, son. It's this little indie movie he did a great turn in that. He's really underrated as an actor. He's got a lot of range. Like, I know they kind of. Kind of get typescast as this kind of one specific type, but he's really, really talented.

But also just like the pure joy.

Yes. He's clearly having fun.

Okay. It is Thanksgiving. So in the tradition, following tradition, what are you thankful for, Michael, in this world?

Do you have a list too?

No, not really. Really? It's up in here.

I mean, but you have several things you're thankful for. Yes. Okay. Yes. One of the things I.

My list comes from the heart. I don't have to write anything down.

Well, I don't have written down.

Okay.

One of the things that I'm most thankful for. This is a common answer, but I can back it up. Is my family. Because my nephew Lucas is now six years old and he. When kids have a sense of humor, it's like, just miraculous. So he stole my sister's phone. His mom Figured out that grandma is listed as mom in the phone. And he calls her up and he's like, michael's in the hospital. He's really sick. He didn't want to tell you. And she's freaking out. He goes, prank. So I took him. Dinesh d' Souza just released a movie called Police State, which is actually really good. Highly recommend it. I was surprised how much I liked it because he wasn't going. Republicans good, Democrats bad. It was just about authoritarianism. And he had a movie premiere at Mar a Lago. So I'm like, I got to bring Lucas to Mar a Lago. So Lucas is. I'm like, we're going to the president's house. He's like, oh, the White House. And I'm like, no, no. Like a former president goes, oh, Abe Lincoln. And I'm like, okay, kid logic. Like, he's. He's giving logical answers. This is kind of like I. You have to. You have to program it. It's using logic correctly.

You should have told him. As a president, that's second to only Abe Lincoln in terms of.

Yeah, he went up to all the women in their ball gown, you know, evening gowns, and he goes, you're so beautiful. Were you born as a girl? So when you have this six year old asking you this, it was really, really fun. So that is a great joy to have a nephew. And I have another one, Zach, who's coming up in age, and he's starting to talk now. That is really, really fun.

Getting to watch them, you know, find out about the world for the first time.

And also training them like that. He loves being funny and having fun.

You're his audience, in a sense.

Yeah, but because you giggle and we're prank bros, it gives me a high five. My family, and this is one you talk about what I find funny. These are things that actually enraged me when people. And this is such a wasp thing, don't just go with the joke. Or they're like, I don't get it, or they don't understand to just go with it. I was in the car with my sister when she was like 10, 12, whatever. She's much younger than me. She's like 12 years younger. And there's this species of squid, by the way, which is asymmetric. One of its eyes is very much bigger than the other because it swims horizontally. And so one's looking up, one's looking down where there's more light. Shout out. If you want to learn more about squids, go to octonation.com.

Octonation. Shout out.

Shout out to Warren.

There's a lot of fascinating stuff. Octonation on Instagram.

Yes. I was in the car with my sister. She's like 10 or 12.

Me as a pirate. I'm sorry for the rude interruptions. I appreciate that account especially.

Yeah, it's a great. Yeah.

These jokes and thoughts are coming to me at a, like a 10 second delay, so I apologize. Anyway, you were telling about the symmetrical.

All right, so I tell my times.

You need help? No, the age is getting to you.

I was.

Your skin is showing it. It's getting dark.

I told my sister, I go, when you were born, one of your eyes was bigger than the other, and you had to have surgery to fix it. So she turns. She's like, mom. And my mom goes, honey, the important thing is that you're beautiful now. That's all. It's like, what's the big deal? It was just a little surgery. And I said, like, all right. Calls grandma. And grandma goes. She goes, michael said that when I was born, one of the eyes, she goes, why is he telling you this now? It's not a big deal. You were so. The fact that everyone went with this. Oh, was. I was so impressed. I was like, this is a quality family in this very specific regard. Yeah. Does your family have a sense of humor?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. You know, Soviet culture, there's like a dark sense of humor.

Very much.

There's wordplay. Wordplay, yeah.

Yeah.

Especially the Russian language allows for some, like, hilarity to it. There's also culture of, like, poetry and, like, my dad, my mom, too, but they. They remember a lot of lines from books and poems. So there's just. You can do a lot of fascinating references that add to the humor and the richness of the.

I feel like that's a very Russian thing. Like at a party or maybe at a bar or something, I don't know where you'd meet people. These are such great ice. I meant in Russia. I meant these would be such good icebreakers. Right? You go up to someone goes, hey, did you hear this one? Nova Nickdot. And you just tell him some little story.

Did you say icebreakers? Because it's cold in Russia. I'm here all night.

That's. You never literally. So I feel like that's a thing. Yeah. And that's not a thing in America.

You mean, like witty banter?

No. Meaning you go up to stranger and, like, that's your icebreaker. You tell them this little.

Little joke.

And since Everyone kind of has the same sensibilities. Right away, you guys are chatting. I don't think that's a thing here.

Yeah.

Thing here. It's more small talk, which drives me crazy.

So what else are you thankful for?

Well, what am I. What's something you're thankful for?

Well, you went with family. I'm definitely thankful for family.

Okay.

Yeah.

How, if I may ask, how do they react to you? Like, you're sitting down with Elon, you're sitting now with Netanyahu. You're sitting out with all these, like, big. With Kanye, all these big names. Are they expressing that they're proud of you, or is it more like, why haven't you talked to this person? Yeah.

More Michael Malice, please.

The People's Choice.

Yeah. Yeah. They're very proud. They've been very. They're very. I mean, but they get argumentative, and we just. They're just like a regular human being with whom I'm close, and we just argue about stuff. They're not. Maybe not enough showed the being proud of. But that. That part is just the nature of our relationship. It's also Soviet parents.

Yeah. I don't talk to my dad. That's one of the reasons. Because there's never ever any good job. And at a certain point, it's like, why am I trying to search for approval from someone I'm never getting at it for and from who? It wouldn't mean anything at this point anyway.

Well, that's interesting. I mean, there's a journey like that for a lot of people with their father or with their mother. Like, they're always trying to find approval.

Right.

And that's life for a lot of people.

Yeah, that's.

That's a really big part of the human condition is that relationship you have with your father, with your mother. I don't know. It's a beautiful thing. So it's whether it's been a rough childhood or a beautiful one, all of it. That's who you are. Like that. The relationship, especially early on in your life, with your father, with your mother, is, like, extremely formative.

Yeah. My dad taught me a lot of things at a young age that I'm very, very grateful for. He's extremely intelligent, very flawed. And that's fine. We all are, except for me. And it's the kind of things that when you learn things at a right age. And this is one of the things I like about being older, is that when I'm friends with you.

Much older.

Much older, but much, much older. When I have Friends who are younger, it's very easy for me to keep them from making the mistakes I did. So at least this is something I'm getting out of it. Is that okay? I can't fix these mistakes, but it just takes me 30 seconds, and I can pull you back from making the mistake. So. He taught me a lot as a kid. He really encouraged me very much to. He's a very good sense of humor, and also very bad in some ways. Dad jokes, but also really funny jokes. But also this love of learning, I got that from him. And, I mean, I have got, literally right now, 98 books on my shelf to read. It's just a life that makes me. I remember I had a friend, and she ran into someone she went to high school with, and he stopped on the train and he's like, yo, you're not in college. You don't need to read books anymore. And I was just, like, horrified to hear this.

Yeah. Yeah, boy, don't I know it.

I mean. I mean, I. You laugh, but, like, I. When you got. There's a lot of things I don't understand. When you got heat for, like, I want to read the Western classics. To me, that. That might have been, like, the Internet at its absolute worst.

I think there's just a cynical perspective. You can take that there. This is such a simple celebration of a thing that there must be something behind it. I think the Internet, for good and bad, is just skeptical, like, what's behind this?

My hero, Albert Camus. And if there's one thing I would want to fight, it's cynicism.

Yeah.

Because it's such a giving up. It's such. Everything sucks. This sucks. That sucks. This sucks. Most things suck. Most standard comedians suck. Most movies suck. All podcasts suck. But it doesn't matter.

Especially yours.

Especially mine. It's. It's unwatchable.

You're welcome. You can't even spell it correctly, but.

The stuff that's good is what matters. Who cares if 90% of movies are terrible? Like, they're the ones that change your life. The books, the people, the comedians, the shows, the music.

And even the terrible things have good moments. Beautiful moments.

Some. Not all.

Your podcast being an example of not all. I've literally just. I keep listening for something good. Something good.

In all fairness, none of my guests have anything to offer that's not on me. I try.

Yeah. Yeah. Well, I wish you'd talk a little less in your podcast. It's a little excessive. I only listen for the underwear commercials.

Sheathunderwear dot Com.

Alice, I think you did this. I haven't seen you do it in a while, but this kind of commentary on a debate or I think it was with Rand, like an Ayn Rand debate or something.

Oh, yeah. Malice at the Movies. I watched the video and I broke it down.

That was really great. I wish you did that more.

I've. I haven't done live streaming in a long time. I. It was something I was doing a lot in New York, especially during COVID I feel that. I don't know, I'm having. I got so many projects on the plate. I'm. Oh, this is something else I'm thankful for. This is something I'm very, very thankful for. And I'm. I'm going to announce it here.

Coming out of the closet. Finally go, who's the lucky guy?

You're the one in drag.

Guns out.

He makes me. He makes me call him Sex Freedman.

You like it?

So I didn't say. Didn't even imply that when I in. As you probably know, as you know, but as many people watching this also know, Harvey Pekar, who had the comic book series American Splendor, was the subject of the movie American Splendor. He wrote a graphic novel about me in 2006 called Eco and Hubris, which goes for like $150 on eBay. It's not worth it. Just download it. And I met Harvey because I wrote this screenplay about this band from the 80s called Rubber Rodeo. It's a real band. And the keyboardist, Gary Lieb, who passed away, rest in peace. Gary introduced me to Harvey because he did the animation for the movie. And this script's been in my desk for over 20 years. And I realized, thanks to my buddy Eric July, who has some huge success with his comics, I could just produce this as a graphic novel. So I've got an artist, we're getting it together. So I'm going to make it happen finally. And it's some of the best writing I've ever done. I'm really proud of the story. It's kind of ironic reading it now because when you're a writer, obviously different books, you put different aspects of yourself into them, right? And this story is very, very dark because basically they did all the right things and they went nowhere. Right. What I realized was, reading it now, that all these fears I had over 20 years ago about what if I'm not going to make it? What if I'm doing all the hard work and it's still not enough. Now it's been disproven Because I can at least pay my rent.

You feel like you've made it. So you said you could pay your rent.

I feel that to make it is if you can pay your. If you don't have to have a boss. And you know how I really felt like I made it. This is going to sound like a joke, and it's not. This is being an immigrant. I own, as you know, Margaret Thatcher's bookcases.

Yes.

So to me, as an immigrant, to have her bookcases in my house, I've made it.

You're right. It's not a joke.

There's nothing funny about it at all. Time to get serious.

Oh, nice. Oh, now I'm more nervous and aroused. So what else are you thankful for? So we're both thankful for family, You?

I mean, I'm. The fact that I can still get it up. What's that?

Nothing. Go ahead.

I think as an author, to be able to write what you want and have enough an audience that it covers your living, that's as good as it gets. As an author, almost. You don't need to be Stephen King or some legend. It's like, you know, there's lots of standups who aren't, like, world famous, but they have perfectly good living. They do their gig, they do what they love. I feel very, very blessed. You must be thankful for your career.

Yeah, yeah. Career wise. But, like, I think the best part about it is just meeting, making friends with people I admire.

Okay.

Quite honestly, just friends. I, you know, the people have gotten to know me. I hide from the world sometimes. I hit some low points, especially with this new. All the new experiences and just the people that have been there for me haven't given up on me.

You know, there's days, and I'm sure you've had this also where, like, I literally don't speak to someone the whole day. And in certain times of my life, it's really. I. I remember very vividly. I. I was in DC in 97. I was an intern. And that summer, DC closes down on the weekends. And I remember those weekends when, like, I got off the phone with, like, the third person. I knew there was no possibility anyone was going to call and what that felt like. And it was dark and it was bad. So I remember those feelings of loneliness, like, a lot.

I still feel alone like that sometimes. You don't feel. You don't feel alone?

Not anymore.

What's the. What's the reason you think?

I. Because there's, like, I have a lot of people who I care about who care about me. I mean, the thing about moving to Austin is I forgot how lonely New York got because it was like one after another, I lost everybody. And a certain. And then you start losing the places you go to. And then it was just like, holy crap. I'm very isolated, and here in Austin, there's not as much to do, obviously, as in New York, but there's a lot of people here. More people are coming all the time. So if I ever want to, like, hang out with someone, you know, I've got a long list. And these are people who I've known for a very long time, people who know me quite well so I could be myself. My awful, awful, awful, awful, awful self. And that is something I don't take lightly.

Now you move to Texas, it's going to secede.

Yeah.

It's just a very.

Do you know what happened with that? No, I forgot the guy's name, and it's probably for the best. Monday. On Monday, a guy in the Texas legislature introduces a bill to have it on the referendum. To have a referendum for Texas to declare its independence. Tuesday, I'm on Rogan. Me and him discuss it. I give it national attention. It was also really funny because a lot of people, like these people have been in Texas five minutes, blah, blah. I go to the Texas legislature, meet with the guy, have a nice conversation. Month or two later, unanimous, I think he gets voted kicked out of Congress because he got an intern drunk and was inappropriate with her. And at least it was a girl in this case. But, yeah. So it's like, that was my little Texas independence moment.

Oh, it didn't go anywhere.

It did not go anywhere.

Wow.

But it's still part of the platform, the Texas Republican Party.

Yeah. It's fascinating that history is probably laden with stories like this of failed revolutionaries. We celebrate the heroes, but then there's the losers like myself. Yeah.

Yeah.

And we're gonna mark that one as a failure and edit it out and moving on. So thankful. Yeah. Friendships. Right. But by the way, I want to say, just to you, I'm thankful in this Lonely moments for people who write books. I've been listening to audiobooks a lot and reading a lot. I really like audiobooks, actually. And just like, I don't know. I can just name random person. Serhi Plo. He's a historian. I'm reading on the.

Wait, I read him. What do you.

What I just see, he written a book, most recently about the Russia, Ukraine War.

He wrote another one that I read.

Didn't he write empires, I think the.

Fall, the Soviet Union or something like that.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

It was very, very good.

He's great.

I used him as a resource for the white pill.

He's objective while still having emotion and feeling to it. Like he has a bias. That's fine, but without. A lot of times when you write a story that involves Putin, people are really ideological. They don't really, like, they don't write with the calmness and the clarity and the rigor of history. There's emotion in it. Like there's almost a virtue signaling.

Yeah.

And he doesn't have that, even though he is Ukrainian and is very strong opinions on the matter. Anyway, there's people like that. And he's done incredible job researching a recent event. Like he says, I was looking at everything that's been written about the war in Ukraine and realizing, you know, the old Churchill line that historians are the worst ones to write about current events, except everybody else. And so he's like, I might as well just write about this war. And he does an exceptional job summarizing day by day the details of this, this war anyway, so I'm just grateful for a guy like that.

So for me, there's. I'll name some historians I love. Arthur Herman. Victor Sebastian is probably my favorite. David Petrusha. P I E T R U S Z A. When you are a historian, and I tried to do this to some degree in the white pill as much as I could. When you take data and you make it read like a novel, so you're learning about who we are as people, what had happened, but also it's entertaining and readable. That to me is like the Acme of writing. And I have so much admiration.

What does ACME mean?

Top.

Okay.

Zenith.

Zenith. Okay. This is what writers do. They just come up with these incredibly sophisticated words. I'm impressed because you could have just said the best of writing.

ACME is also the company in like Bugs Bunny and Wiley Coyote. So it's acme, you know, acme.

Yeah, yeah.

Like ACME bombs. When they are that good. It's. It's just. I just. It leaves me in awe. It's just Ron Charnow is another one who. He wrote the Hamilton biography.

Oh, nice. Well, I. I have a lot of favorite historians about the whole time period of World War II. Williamshire. People that lived during it especially. I really like those accounts. Obviously Soldier Nitson is. He's not a historian, but his accounts are sure fascinating. You actually. How much do you talk about Soldier Nitson? Never. Not much. Right. Why not?

I feel like I wanted to. I, I. There's nothing I could add to him.

Oh, he did. He is the Michael Malice of the previous century.

No, he's talented, charismatic, and, and skilled. So he's not the Michael Malice. Yeah. I, I did not. I feel like I didn't read Gulag Archipelago for the White Pill.

You didn't?

I didn't, no. I feel I got a lot of it from Anne Applebaum, who's a very controversial figure. Her history books on the Soviet Union, I think, are superb. But she's also accused of being very much like a neocon and being a warmonger in contemporary times.

Oh, I see.

And I think comparisons between Putin and Stalin, although there is a Venn diagram, I think are a bit much because I think it's very hard to claim that if Putin conquered Ukraine, that there'd be a genocide. I think that's a very hard argument.

To make in these tense times. Even the comparisons of what's going on in Israel on either side, comparisons to the Holocaust are also troubling in this way.

Yes. And I also don't like how that I got in trouble. There was some literal demon who works at the Atlantic, as opposed to a regular demon, as opposed to figurative demon.

I didn't know they employed demons.

They exclusively employ demons at the Atlantic. And he was giving me crap. This a couple of years ago on Twitter because I didn't think it's appropriate to refer to George Soros as a Holocaust survivor. And I'm like, listen, if you want to put him in the same context as Anne Frank, knock yourself out. But I think that's so completely disingenuous and frankly, repulsive to me morally, to equivocate between figures like that and also to claim that anyone who is a billionaire, who is, including Elon, including Sheldon Adelson, there's no shortage of these people. If you want to use your extreme wealth used to influence politics, you have to be up for criticism and to protect people. People. Bill Gates to protecting these people from criticism just on the base of their identity, is, is deranged to me.

But also the Holocaust as a historical event and the atrocities within it are just singular in history. And so comparing them, what's the utility?

Right. You're just, you're just basically trying to take this brand. I'm using that term, you know, in a very specific way. And latch. Like when they say climate denial, no one's denying climate exists. So you're just trying to go off of Holocaust Denial. I think it's shameless and I think it's. It's.

It's gross and it cheapens everything. Yes, there's deep, important lessons about the Holocaust.

Yes.

To me, the lessons are about how extreme it can get and how fast. Yeah. And how fast.

That's the one. So, you know, people ask, oh, are humans basically good? Are they basically evil? I always say they're basically animals. And I think people are. Most people are almost fundamentally deranged. And that there's basically this veneer of civilization and decency. And when shit hits the fan and we see this over and over, they do things that would have been completely unthinkable even to themselves five years ago.

Most people are fundamentally deranged. When a veneer of civility.

There's a show called.

I think I disagree with that.

What's the show called? I'm having Alzheimer's because of the advanced age.

The skin.

There's a. There's a show called. I think you should leave. It's a sketch. You should leave.

Okay, sorry.

It's a sketch comedy show. And he captures these great. How's your hair, princess? He captures these great moments of just the. Like, just a very thin veneer of normalcy and just the craziness that's so frequently lurking underneath. Another great example of this, when this is dealing with people who are literally crazy. Have you ever seen the show Hoarders? So every episode of Hoarders, there's usually two people in every episode, but every episode has the same plot line. Veneer of normalcy. Veneer of normalcy. Veneer of normalcy, slight expression of concern, full blunt arrangement. And it always follows that exact pattern.

Yeah. I don't know. I think the deep ocean of the human mind is. Is good. Like there's a longing to be good to others.

I have seen literally no evidence of this. And I know everything's the deep ocean with you people, but, like.

What do you mean, you people?

Pirates. Oh, I don't see it. You. You.

Is that. Mr. Parrot? You an antisemite? No. That's not nice to say in front of such a large audience. You're embarrassing me, Mr. Parrot.

Lex, you have that Mr. Parrot. You have.

He's. He's a run of the mill troll and barely an intellectual. That's not nice to say. That's not true. We talked about this. You have to see the good in people.

You have seen personally.

Yeah.

How quickly and easily it is for human beings to form out groups.

Yeah.

And to just read others. Just as I Just did a minute ago with the Atlantic. Completely out of the human race. And that happens constantly and very easily. Humans are tribal beings, so that does not. I don't see how that's compatible with this essential desire to do good.

No, I. I think it's like in 1984, the two minutes of hate. There is a part of humans that wants to be tribal.

Yeah.

And wants to direct. Get angry and hateful, and then that hate is easy to direct.

Yes.

By. Especially people. As you, as an anarchist talk about. There are people in power that direct that anger. But I think if you just look at recent human history, the desire for good, the communal desire for good outweighs that. I think, like most of life on Earth right now, people are being good to each other in the most fundamental sense relative to how nature usually works.

I. Okay. I think you're both wrong about people and about nature. So nature is not inherently violent in the sense. Like, for example, if anyone has an aquarium or if you look at wildlife. Yeah. You're going to have predator, prey. But these animals are going to be coexisting and they're going to be ignoring each other for the most part. Right. And as for humans, you know, being essentially good, I think humans are essentially. To each other, you said. I think they're essentially civil and amiable, but that's not really being good.

Good, I think, is a thing that gets illustrated when you're challenged, when there's difficult situations.

Yes.

I mean, civility is a good starting point. And then when there's a big challenge that comes, people step up. On average.

I completely agree with you that human beings are capable of such profound goodness that it kind of makes you extremely emotional. And I certainly think that that's true. But I think that that's more unusual than is the norm.

I see beauty everywhere.

So do I. But that doesn't mean it's in every person.

Not in every person, but in most people, I think. I mean, I wish there was a really good way to measure this. My general sense of the world is just. There's so much incredible, both in terms of economics, in terms of art, in terms of just creation as a whole that's happened over the past century that it feels like the good is outpowering the bad.

You just did the perfect segue to the box.

What's in the box? So is it your fragile ego?

That's my. You stole my joke. You stole my joke. That was the joke I made at you before we recorded. You stole my joke.

No, I did. I. I write you all your material, you hack.

So, as you know, I have a lot of beautiful stuff in my house because I think it's something very important, everyone listening. If you accomplish something that is great, some achievement, what I like to do is buy myself something to remember that moment. Because sometimes when it's hard, you forget you've done great things in your life. You've had accomplishments. It doesn't have to be some amazing factory. It could just be, like, my first job where I got a raise or you know what? Anything. So there's this amazing sculptor named Jake Michael Singer, a singer who's a sculptor, and I saw a piece of his.

How's his singing voice? This is. Joke's not gonna.

Hold on. I could go somewhere with this. Okay. How's his singing voice?

Do you want me to write your joke for you?

Yeah. What's the punchline? Hard. There it is.

That's what she said.

So I followed him on Instagram. He followed me back, and he's like, if I made. He says, what's the point of being an artist if the work I create isn't in the spaces of people I like and admire? He's a big fan of yours. You've given him in our episodes together. Give him joy. So he said, if I get a make Lex a sculpture, will he put it on the shelf behind him? And what that reminded me of is when I was a kid, you read Batman comics, and there's the Batcave, and the Batcave has all this cool stuff in it. I didn't realize until much later that all of those things in the Batcave had an origin story. So the giant Penny the dinosaur. There was actually a story where that came from. So if you're a fan of a show, you can spot. Oh, this is when this appeared. This is when that appeared. This and that appeared. So he made you this sculpture. He lives in Turkey, and it's called Chance Murmur, and it is. I haven't even seen it yet. It is absolutely beautiful. I just.

So you want to do a little unboxing?

Yes.

Okay.

Axe or body spray?

All right, let's unbox.

I'm so excited. Eli is out of box.

You know that Steven Seagal movie where there's, like, a stripper that comes out of the box? Is that under siege? He's on a boat. You're not an action film guy? No. One. What does the pirate say when he turns 80?

What?

I matey.

I matey.

Oh.

Oh.

See, that's how I know you don't like humor.

I just don't like pirates.

Well, your mom does. You play any musical instruments?

No. Neither do you. I've seen your guitar videos. Okay.

Here's a big piece of wood for you. That's what it feels like. Just so you know. Oh, wow.

Oh, my God.

This traveled across the world.

So here's why his work speaks so much to me. So, first of all, he's combining so many different references. It's Nike, the goddess of victory. Right. It's that. It looks like an angel as well. The Italian Futurists, which is my favorite art movement from the early 20th century, they tried to capture motion in 2D or 3D form.

Well, Jake, thank you. Thank you, thank you. Thank you for creating beautiful things. And I thank you for caring about somebody like me and somebody like Michael. Really feel the love.

That's the other thing. When you have something that matters to you in your house and you're having a bad day, you can look at it and remember. You know what I mean? That spirit of joy. And I actually have a list here. Okay. I got a little rant ready. You want to hear my rant?

Yeah, let's go.

One of the things that drives me crazy is when people, especially conservatives, think that all contemporary art is ugly or abstract or literally garbage. And there's a lot of that. But so much of the stuff out there in galleries is not only not crazy expensive, but they're trying to sell things for people in their house. And these are young artists. They're trying to add beauty. I have a list. So if you don't believe me and you think all contemporary art is garbage or terrible, go to their website or any of these places that I'm going to rattle off, look through them. And you're telling me that it's not about creating beauty and joy in things, in people's lives. So I don't have any relationship with any of these people. These are just some galleries I Follow on Instagram. Utre Gallery, Antler Gallery, Giant Robot 2, Beinart. I don't know how to pronounce. I'm sorry. B E I N A R T. Spokart Gallery, VAR Gallery in Milwaukee. I was there. The pieces were not expensive at all.

What kind of art are we talking about? Everything.

Mostly paintings. Mostly paintings. Some sculptures, too. Like this Corey Halford is my favorite one in la. Night Gallery, Vertical Gallery, Avant Gallery, Hive Gallery, Haven Gallery, and Curio Art Gallery. I'm telling you, it's not exorbitant. This is not the kind of thing where you have to go to A museum and be like, this doesn't make sense to me. You look at it right away. You're like, okay, I know what this is, and it's beautiful. It's awesome. And you're supporting someone who's young and creative, trying to do something and make the world a better place. So I'm a big fan of the contemporary art scene. A lot of it is not great, but even the stuff that's not great is very rarely disgusting or gross. It's just like, okay, I've seen this before, or something like that.

Okay.

It's like the difference between there's like a stand up where I'll pay money for the ticket, and someone's like, who's an opener. It's like, I wouldn't pay to see him perform. But he sure still made me laugh. That person is still more, by far more good than bad. So a lot of this art isn't stuff I would own, but it's like, okay, I get it. I like it.

Well, as the analogy goes, I really like going to open mics, actually, because, like, fun. It sounds absurd to say, but funny isn't the only thing that's beautiful about stand up comedy. It's the act.

The act.

The. It's. It's going for it. It's trying to be funny. It's taking the leap, trying the joke. And some of the best stuff is actually funny. But the audience is like three people, two of whom are drunk and bored, and you're still going for it. And that's like. That's the human spirit right there.

Roseanne was telling me how Gilbert Gottfried. Go on. It was like three in the morning and it was like her and like three other comics in the audience and like they all were just dying. Like he was just killing them. Who's your favorite comedian?

Dave Smith.

Who?

And cutscene favorite comedian first on, Norman McDonald. If you like, put a gun to my head and I had to answer really quickly, that would be him.

Okay.

I would also say Louis ck.

Oh, wow. Yeah. Oh, my God.

But that's almost like a vanilla answer at this moment in history because it's.

Like, Louis CK Is pretty radioactive.

He is. Well, yeah. He does it. The tough topics.

Sure.

The best. Mitch Heidberg. The wit of a good one liner. It's great. I guess that's what Norm MacDonald's genius at. What about you?

There's a. I mean, we're so fortunate to be here in Austin because that comedy mothership, you go there and people are just killing it. David Lucas is Amazing. Ty Rivera probably did the best set I've seen since I've been here in Austin. And I watched him, and I'm like, this guy's even bitchier than I am. So I reached out to him. So he's just terrific. David Lucas is another one. A buddy of mine. You just said a choice.

I think.

I'm thinking Dave Landau. Excuse me, Dave Landau. Joe Mackie. It's true, though.

It's true.

It's true.

It's true.

Dave Lucas.

You ever been to the Comedy Mothership? It's a great. It's a great spot.

Where is that? Is that in Austin?

Austin? Is that where Willie Nelson is from? I haven't really. Go ahead.

Oh, I heard a joke about that the other week.

What? Tell the. Tell a joke again.

What's the only thing worse than giving head to Willie Nelson? What if he says I'm not Willie Nelson?

What's that, Mr. Parrot? I know he's not funny. He's better.

He's.

He thinks he's better on Twitter. That's not nice to say right in front of his face. Just think how he feels.

The statues. Chance Murmur is judging you.

Chance.

It's called Chance Murmur.

Chance Murmur.

God, that's so beautiful.

That's gorgeous.

This is. This is another reason I hate cynicism. And I talk about this a lot, even just on Etsy. There's so many small, not huge companies, like individual artisans who are creating great stuff and just making it happen. And it's really sad for me where people can't see that, or if they're like, well, how could I be excited about a sculpture when. Blah, blah, blah, the Middle East. And it's just like, you can always look for an excuse not to look for joy, or you can look for an excuse to look for joy.

Yeah, Etsy's incredible. I feel the same way about Only fans.

Only fans.

I can't even get that out of my mouth before laughing at my own failed joke.

That's what she said.

All right. That might be one of the first. That's what she said. From Michael Malice. Yeah, I'm going to count that.

I don't know what I'm going to do with mine because I got my own. Mine's three feet tall.

Just like your box is much bigger. Yeah, it was giving me an inferiority complex. I think I'm going to invade Russia. That's a Napoleon reference. For those in the audience, I don't.

Know if I'm going to. I think I'm putting my bedrooms that's the first thing I see when I wake up.

Put in the bedroom.

Yeah.

Do we get through everything we're thankful for?

No, I've got lots of things I'm thankful for.

What else? Friends, family. Who said books I'm thankful for.

Career I'm thankful for. I am thankful for. And I know people are going to lose their minds, and I can hear them flipping out already. I am thankful for social media.

Yeah.

I'm thankful for several reasons. First, it is a way for people to make connections that they couldn't have made in years past. That if you got some weird hobby, you can find that other person's weird hobby and you make that connection. It's a great way to stay in touch permanently for people. Otherwise you'd lose touch with, you know, whatever venue. And it's also a great way to expose corporate depravity when you have these organizations that are dishonest. I think the community notes thing on Twitter is the greatest thing ever.

That's incredible. I wish they would pay the attention of the Michael Mouse account more often.

You shouldn't be encouraging anyone to pay attention to my Twitter account. It's a dumpster fire. And I don't mean Bridget. I mean like a literal Bridger fetish.

Bridget is amazing. But your Twitter account makes. Yes. Not here. I wish she did.

She's in Georgetown.

No, I mean in this. Where we're sitting. It's a joke, Michael.

Is it? Yeah, but I'm just really glad about. It's another way for people who before would have felt very alone. I know it makes some people do feel alone, but for other people, it makes them feel connected.

There's been a. A lot of talk about anti Semitism recently.

Yeah.

What's. What's your sense about this? Is there is anti Semitism like any other brand of hate? There's a lot of hate out there.

No, I don't think it's like any other brand of hate, because I don't think racists or transphobes or. Or homophobes or misogynists or xenophobes argue openly, or even not so openly for the killing of black Americans, transgender people, gay people, women, or immigrants. And it's not only something that's talked about, it's something that has actually happened. And not just the Holocaust, but just centuries of pogroms. Right. There's this great book that I read many years ago called the Satanization of the Jews. Camille Paglia recommended it and I read it. And they live in this certain specific Kind of anti Semitism. And again, I'm not talking about people who are against Israel something. I'm talking specifically about Jew hatred. They have this moral calculus that Jews are the only people who are capable of good or evil and Jews are exclusively capable of evil. And for example, if you look at the George W. Bush White House, you had W. You had Cheney, Condoleezza Rice, Colin Powell, Donald Rumsfeld, a lot of these neocon advisors. So if there's 10 people in a room and there's one Jewish person, it's his fault and the rest are Jew controlled. So again they only exist as a puppet of Jews in this kind of worldview. And it's like that to me. If there were no Jews on earth, it is crazy to say that John Bolton and Liz Cheney and Lindsey Graham wouldn't be pushing for more war. That makes no sense to me. It's like you blame the Jews when bad things happen, but when a Jewish person does something good, it doesn't really matter or just wait, he's going to do something bad. Well yeah, that's true. Human beings do good things and then they do bad things sometimes. But it only counts when that Jewish person does the bad thing.

I wonder what's a way to fight antisemitism and fight hate in general.

I think the only or the best way because I thought a lot about this, about how did gay Americans go from being universally hated and despised to the point that many people in the 80s went to their graves, those who had AIDS, without even telling their parents because they were so scared to. Now Times Square is just covered in pride flags. And I think and this, this also works for Islamophobia and some of these other bigotry is what I call the ambassador program because as soon as you know someone who is a member of a certain group, it is a lot harder to be bit bigoted against them because instead of this being this out group that's somewhere out there, it's like wait a minute, I work with this guy. Yeah, he's kind of a jerk. Maybe he sees things a little differently than me. But this guy is not a horrible human being. So I think the only way to fight any form of bigotry is to be a good example of the counter to these whatever archetype or stereotype is in the culture.

Karl Marx wrote that religion is the sigh of the oppressed creature, the heart of a heartless world and the soul of a soulless condition. It is the opium of the people, as the famous phrase goes. Do you think he has a point.

No, I hate that quote. I absolutely hate it. I despise this sort of Reddit Internet atheist activism for the simple reason that I know many people who in finding faith have become objectively better human beings. They start living consciously, they take morality seriously, they try, we all fail to be moral good people. So this sneering that these midwits, these marginally intelligent people have towards religious people now, lots of religious people use religion to rationalize their bad behavior or sinful or big ego, so on and so forth, that exists, that's true. But to say that it never helps anyone and it's universally. See, Marx was talking about a period, I mean, I'll defend his quote when his argument was the masses are being starved and oppressed, but they're promised, don't worry, you'll have riches in heaven, so you should kind of let yourself be pushed around now. And this is kind of this BS bargain that the people are being given. So that was, I think, the point he was making. It certainly doesn't apply nowadays. I'm close to the family in the Midwest. They're good Christian people. I remember very specifically this guy, shout out to him, Sean Sherrod. I went to college with him. David Lucas.

Have you checked out the comedy mothership Great?

Isn't Austin Willie Nelson? And I was 17, 18 freshman year, and I was reading all this criticism of the Bible and I was like, look, this is in there, look at this in there. And he put his hand on my shoulder and he says, michael, there's nothing you're going to tell me that's going to make me lose my faith. And that was a very self aware and profound thing to say. As I've gotten older and I know lots of religious people, there's no part of me that thinks they're wrong or they should be mocked. It's like, it also reminds me of when people sneer at addicts in recovery. They're like, alcoholism is a disease, it's a choice. It's like, wait a minute, you don't know what it's like to have your entire life ruined by drugs or alcohol. And if you have to tell yourself, you know, I have this disease and blah, blah, blah, and that keeps you from drinking. And now you're a moral, upstanding person who's reliable and takes responsibility for their actions, I don't see the harm at all. So I think this kind of activist atheism is cheap. I don't agree with it whatsoever and I do not like that quote at all.

But otherwise big fan of Marx.

I mean it's. I think there's a fan of mine. I forget who it was. Apologies. He had this great quote, he goes the gate and this is me talking. He goes the games people play to feel smarter than others is depressing and annoying. And I think this kind of fedora Internet atheism is a good example. Because here's the other thing. If you've proven that someone else is stupid, that doesn't mean you're smart. You could both be stupid. So congrats. You prove someone else is stupid, who cares? Yeah.

Been sneering involved forms.

Yes.

General is just not great.

That's one of the things I block out people on social media instantly. You're not going to sneer at me in my space. You could sneer me all you want in your space, but I'm not putting up with your crap. I don't know you.

MySpace, great social network.

Is that on 6 stat 66 street.

Awol.Com.

That'S how Lex comes.

Like a Pavlov's dog. That was the sound before you get to see spend 10 minutes waiting for an image of a lady load one line at a time.

Yeah.

I recently talked to John Mearsheimer, I don't know if you know him at all. So he has this idea about offensive realism. It's a way to analyze the world international relations and the basic idea, and I'll run it by you and see what you think is that states nations want to survive and they try to do so by maximizing power, military power. And he talks about anarchy quite a bit in that one of these underlying assumptions of this way of viewing the world is that states are anarchic towards each other.

Yes, that's true.

And they operate under a lot of uncertainty. States cannot be sure that other states will not use military capabilities against them.

Right.

They want to survive and they want to use military power to control the uncertainty, to protect themselves.

So I disagree in that regard. And I see on your bookshelf I think the world is a lot closer to Brave New World than It is to 1984. And I think it is. If you look at, let's suppose China's influence in America, the influence is far more through soft power than military power. China doesn't threaten America through we're going to kill you. It's more like their infiltration of universities TikTok things of that nature. Maybe this would have worked before the pop culture era, but I think one of the reasons we have this kind of American hegemony isn't just a function of American military. I think it's much more a function than American popular culture. When you're exporting ideas and culture, it makes other people in other countries feel closer to you and also regard you as a friend and also to adopt your value. It's a great way to spread propaganda.

It seems to correlate, though, right? It's interesting. It's an interesting idea. What has more power, the viral spread of ideas or the power of the military? It seems that the United States is at the top of the world on both.

That's true.

And so it's hard to disentangle the two.

Let's look at Europe. American culture is very popular in Europe in many ways. Right. Like the best music comes out of Sweden, Swedish indie pop. They're singing in English, even though so on and so forth. None of this is a function. Maybe it's a function of Post World War II to some extent, but I don't think it's a function of American bases there. I think it's a function of we're exporting our music, our TV shows and our movies.

Yeah, it's interesting if the battleground will be Brave New World, the battle of.

Ideas, I think it's clearly Brave New. It's so much cheaper. And again, this is one of the dark sides of social media to use influence than it is to use threats. I think Covid is a good example of this. So much of the pressure, yes, there was authoritarianism, but it was the fact that everyone bought into it, rightly or wrongly. But the vast majority of the population was behind all of these things, and that was through persuasion and because people are begging for it to come back in many cases.

So who's funding you? Which intelligence agency?

Assad.

This is how you do great interviewing. See, he didn't even expect that. Okay, what's that?

Mr. Ferret?

Mr. Barrett. You knew it, but you didn't have any documentation, did you?

I think Mr. Parrot is threatened by the better wings on Chance Murmur.

He gets like that when he's turned on. He's not threatened. You can't wait until he's all three of us alone together. It's going to be one hell of a party.

Beaks and feathers everywhere.

And metal. Yeah, this thing is beautiful.

It's ridiculous.

You have actually a lot of really cool stuff at your place.

So fun.

What's a cool thing that stands out to you? Maybe a recent addition.

So I went to the Dallas Museum of Art last year for my birthday, and there was a Painting I liked and I googled it and I saw the auction for that exact painting and it was like, I think three grand. Which is not cheap, but not something you think. You think in a museum. I could never afford something like this. Right. So when I was in, I went to Houston with some friends. The side surfs. Natalie, who made the cake of you?

Cake terrified my mom did it. Yeah. No, it's not the cake that terrified my mom. It's you, Michael Malus, cutting it off. Cutting the face off and laughing maniacally.

Well, Natalie's pregnant. She's going to have a daughter named Daisy, so congrats to Natalie. But I was in the museum with them and there was a statue of Thoth, who's the Egyptian God whose head is an ibis. It's a bird with a long beak. And Thoth is the God of the moon, God of knowledge. And supposedly he invented writing. So I thought, you know what? I've always loved ancient Egypt. I know a lot about it and especially the mythology. It would be really cool as an aspiring author to have an ancient Egyptian Thoth statue in my house. Well, it turned out that the Egyptians also killed and mummified ibises and buried them with scribes. And a week after I went to the museum, there was an auction for. For an ibis mummy. And I have it now in my house, still in its bandages, overlooking my desk. And we all know it's going to come to life and peck out my eyes and write with my blood. But that is one of the recent cool additions. Another thing I have, which is like, in terms of holy crap, I've made it. I have an original Patrick Nagle painting. And if people don't know the name, he's like the 80s artist. He did the Duran Duran cover.

He.

We never see him in nail salons. I have a male, which were very rare for him to do. So that's two of my kind of favorite pieces. He only drew women, predominantly. I have one where he drew a male. It was a guy in a gnat or something. And now I'm looking forward to. So Jake made me a three foot tall sculpture called Future Murmur, which I am ecstatic to get.

Just remind yourself of how many fascinating, beautiful people that are out there and.

Just the victory and holiness and technology and speed and how many people have, you know, fought so that I could do what I do.

Yeah, that's another thing I'm grateful for. Just like the 100 billion or so people that came before us.

Yeah.

And also the trillions of Life forms that came before that.

Oh, God. I've gone down this. This trilobite rabbit hole buying fossils because as a kid I thought trilobites were the coolest thing. And I've got like 15.

Yeah.

And what's interesting is when you buy trilobite fossils on ebay, they're listed as used because it's got to be newer used, according to the programming. So it's used.

Yeah, yeah. But just look, thinking about all that history, just all the life forms that came before it, seems like a really special thing we have going on Earth here.

Oh, yeah. I think that's very fair to say, but I also think this kind of is like, live life to the fullest. You know, Camus talked about living to the point of tears, especially on behalf of people who didn't have that privilege. So, you know, I dedicated the white pill to my parents who got me out of the Soviet Union and all the kids who never could. And it's like, when I die, I want everyone else to. Not only they're obviously gonna be happy, but. Yeah, like, I'm not here. Enjoy what you live for me, because I can't have that privilege anymore.

What do you think about Camusa writer?

I don't like his novels at all.

Oh, you don't at all? Yeah. You've talked about the plague to me.

Yeah, I didn't. I think the book is pointless. Fascinating, because all you need to do is read the synopsis and then you get it. Like, I don't think his book is.

Not true for most books. No, I mean, like, you could take. I. I don't know. I just don't agree at all there. I mean, it's. It's Catcher in the Rye. There's a lot of books that are. Seem trivial.

I don't think it seems trivial, but.

I think Animal Farm.

Animal Farm is a methodical, step by step examination of a transformation from one thing to another. The plague is not that.

It's a methodical examination of what a society is like under the plague, which could symbolize a lot of things, including the plague directly, or Nazi Germany or ideological movements or. It's similar to Animal Farm, maybe not as effective in terms of using this kind of symbolic.

Animal Farm has a narrative and. I'm going to spoil the whole plague. The book, the plague.

Okay.

There's a town, I believe, in Oman, a plague descends. People struggle to deal with it, and the plague vanishes as quickly as it came. The end.

Yeah. But there's the victims, the. The people that take advantage of it. There's the doctor that amidst the absurdity and the evil of the plague is fighting to do good.

Nothing. For me, there's nothing.

Okay, well, I could spoil Animal Farm. There's pigs. There's animals at a farm and they, the humans are abusing them. And then the animals overthrow the humans, but then the pigs become just like the humans. The lesson, kids, is that power corrupts no matter whether you walk on four or on two.

I thought the lesson was that pigs are the most human like animals on the farm.

I thought. I thought the lesson was that there's no sugar Candy Mountain.

That's right.

You've interviewed a lot of people.

Yeah.

What have you learned about getting to the soul of a person, the soul of an idea, from interviewing just how to do a good interview?

First off, I'm not interviewing just random people. I'm interviewing people who are accomplished. It's not a random group that's self selecting for something different. But I think that people love to, and this is very understandable, love to feel seen. So if you're someone who's done something, even if you're like the best guinea pig breeder in America, to have someone interested in your work and ask and listen to what you're saying. Because I remember every book I've written, I have friends and I wouldn't stop talking about the person I'm writing with or the North Korea. At a certain point, I'm sure they're like, all right, I don't care about this anymore. But it takes over your brain, you know what I mean? So if you are someone who has an interest or a hobby, I'm sure to some extent, maybe your friends or family are sick of talking about it or you don't want to talk about it with them. That's the private life where you could just be yourself. So I try to, and this comes from my co authoring background, when I'm talking to people to ask questions that they haven't heard before. There's a possibility that this actor I'm a huge fan of is going to be on my show. I don't want to spoil everything. And he's got a very specific role that he's known for. And I know I'm going to. I'm like, okay, I know it's going to be annoying for you talking about this one role, but my goal is to ask questions that you aren't sick of asking, having been asked. Porn star or no, not a porn.

Star, that joke failed. Also, edit out what do you know about breeding guinea pigs? You mentioned it. I'd love to hear.

I don't know anything.

I'd love to hear more about it.

This is. I always use this as an example.

I said there's.

There's. You meet someone at a party who breeds guinea pigs.

Right.

There's two approaches. Either you're weird. Get it. Okay. Or sit down and tell me everything.

Yeah.

And I'm very much. And all the people I like are the second group. When you meet someone who's doing something unusual and are passionate about it and, you know, are good at it, like, that to me is the motherload.

Yeah. That to me also is the thing I enjoy the most is, like. Because people that are passionate about it.

Who do you guys hate? Do you guys hate the hamster people? Do you hate the rabbit people? There's gotta be someone that you guys look down on because, like, the marine aquarium people look down. The freshwater aquarium people.

Yeah. It's a hierarchy.

Yes. There's always gonna be a hierarchy. This is where the left anarchists and I disagree because they think you could have egalitarianism. There's gonna be a hierarchy.

Hierarchies emerge.

Yes.

There's no anarchy in the guinea pig world.

No. It's just a different kind of anarchy.

Somebody's always breeding somebody else.

Yes.

And looking down on the others, it.

Someone's the other. Yeah. Whether it's the hamster people, the rat.

People, and everybody's breeding.

Yeah.

By the way, are you anarcho capitalist? What flavor of anarchist are you?

I'm an anarchist without adjectives. I like them all. The black flag comes in many.

All right, all right. You're quoting your. Yeah, no, I understand. A beautiful line in the book.

Thank you. I think the anarcho capitalists don't give the left anarchists enough credit, especially for their courage. And I do whatever I can in my power to talk about people like Emma Goldman whenever possible.

Do you still think that are some people better than others? Is a good litmus test? Yes.

It's worked 100% of the time.

And for you, the answer is yes.

I never answer.

There's two of them.

What are you getting all Hitchcock up in here?

Oh, hey, careful. I always got your back. What little habits in your life make you happy now that you're in Austin?

Oh, my God. I was prepping for this interview, and I imagined this coming up. And I knew that as I explained this. You know how sometimes when someone tells a story, like, at first it's amusing, then it's amusing and concerned and then you're like, holy shit. Like, like, where's the exit?

Yeah. I'm getting nervous already.

You should. So I'm going to tell you something I've told only a couple of people. This is my absolutely off the charts autistic approach to shaving.

Oh.

So I have this insane system. You asked about habits that give me a joy. I used to hate shaving. I used to hate it. There's something called wet shaving. So wet shaving is you get the brush, you get the soap that's in a canister, you stir it up, you paint your face and then you shave. The thing is, there are dozens of these shaving soap companies. Okay. So I tried a couple of hundred of these soaps. Because you're testing for scent, you're testing for what, the lather, thickness and also how smooth of a shave it gives you. Yeah, I have it down. I'm not making this up. I'm not this creative. I haven't down to a cycle of 67 soaps.

Yeah.

Okay. So this cycle, a cycle. So 67. Yeah. When I use up one soap that is a slot that I will have to try new ones and I will try new ones in that slot until I get one that I like and then that slot is filled. So right Now I have 67 that I use and I have 86.

Candidates. Like in.

Yeah, in the, in the queue.

Do you label them? Do you remember like which one is which?

Well, they all have beautiful labels. I mean these are artisans who are creating these amazing things. So there. I would encourage everyone to try this hobby who's a guy. It's so much fun. I will give a shout outs to the companies that, that are the best. So the best company in my opinion is a company called. They just changed the name because you know what they're originally called. I'm not joking. Yeah, Grooming department.

And now it's like not a bad name.

Yeah. But it has certain connotations in contemporary discourse. So now he changed contemporary discourse. Yes, he changed his name to Ion Skincare. A I O N that's the, the sense of the most sophisticated, the most diverse and the, the soap is just really high quality. Another amazing company is Barrister and Man and if I'm going to tell you to try one, it's called Cheshire. He comes out with new ones every month or so. A lot of it's miss a lot of it's hit just great, great quality stuff. Another great company is Chiseled Face. They make something called Midnight Stag, which basically smells like a garage. It's one of my favorite soaps of all time.

Yeah. What makes for a good smell for Michael mouse?

I have 67 answers. So some of it convert into one citrus. Some are citrusy, some are industrial, some.

So garage is more industrial.

It smells like a garage. Yeah. Midnight Stag. It smells like a garage. Some are fun because there's smells that smell like other things. For example, there's a scent in my queue called Finding Scotty. It smells like Swedish fish. Another great company is Phoenix Shaving, and they have one called Aloha Smackdown. Smells like Hawaiian Punch. They had one called Yule Ham that they made for me special. Smells like a ham. They had a ramen one. Rockin Ramen Smells like Cup of Noodles. So they're a great. And every year they do an advent calendar where you. For 12 days, you have a little sample of a soap and a sample of the aftershave. Nice. So those are. I'm forgetting someone and I'm feeling angry that I'm doing it, but those are some of the. Oh, and Katie's Bubbles is great. They're vegan, out of New Jersey. They've got one called Knee High to a Grape. It smells like grape soda. I think those are the biggest names off the top of my head.

Will that list converge down to a small set eventually or. No, 67. Down to.

Well, no, it's down to 67, so.

Oh, so it's always keeps.

Right. So there's a slot then. You know what I mean? Like, I'll fill that. You just. I'm saying.

Oh, so you will forever have the variety of 67?

Yes.

Huh. You know. You know what? You know how sad my brain is when I. When you were telling me this, I was like, I wonder how many soaps are left in Michael Mouse's life. Like, you can count your life by days, by months, by years, or by soaps.

That is depressing, that is dark.

Because each. Each experience of shaving is a little beautiful experience.

Yes, it is.

And how many do you have left in your life?

Right, that's true.

Yeah.

I gotta tell you, there's something else. There's a term called, my friend Jackie taught me called touching pan. It's a makeup term. So basically, when you use it and you could see the bottom, that's like a big moment.

Oh, it's a great thing.

Yeah, it's like. It was kind of fun. I'm telling you. Like, people can scoff. It is such a fun. And there's a lot of us online who are into this whole space. It's really, really fun.

When did you first discover this?

Can I curse?

Yeah.

You Cole Stryker. Because I was staying at my friend Cole's house in la. You, Cole.

You, Cole.

Cole is like one of the biggest hipsters I know. He's got the. The shirts with the pearl snaps and everything. And I'm staying at his house because I was doing Rogan. And he goes, oh, have you heard of this wet shaving thing? And he goes, look, this one's Pro Razo. That's like the Italian grandpa soap, which is also a great one. And I went down this rabbit hole, and I'm like, I don't even know how many. How much money I spent on this. And it's all because of him.

Oh, but it's like a happy fuck you. Like, fuck you, Cole.

Yeah.

I love you, Cole. Fuck you. Thank you. Yes, that's a good idea for a tattoo. You, Cole. How do you have advice on how to be happy?

Yes.

There's a lot of loneliness and sadness in the world here.

I can give a very easy piece of advice that worked a lot for me. Instead of telling yourself that you have these ridiculous standards, tell yourself, I can be better. Right? I don't have to be a great writer. I could be a better writer. I don't have to be a great podcaster. That will never happen. I could be a better podcaster. I could be a better person. I could be a better at the gym. I could be better with my time. And when you regard things in those, and especially if you have metrics that you can go by, you know, for example, I'll run this many miles a day. Things you have control over, especially as males. When you have this chart and the data is telling you you're improving right away, it's like you have this sense of accomplishment. So I think that is a really great way to find. And if something is not working in your life, let's suppose you don't have friends, right? There's the Internet. How do people make friends? Try things out. What's the worst that's going to happen? You're going to things it blow up in your face. Well, you learned something, at least. Don't be afraid of making mistakes. When I was a kid, I was so scared of having things under control so, like, I would never have to get hit in the face, metaphorically. And then I realized. And you realize this as well. Everyone who's important gets hit in the face. Look at the president, whoever the president is. It becomes a matter of being strong enough that you could take getting hit in the face. So that is a big important switch, your thinking.

Yeah. There's a Bukowski quote I wrote down. Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think I'm not going to make it. But you laugh inside remembering all the times you felt that way.

Yeah, yeah.

There's a part of me that's like that there's some days where I feel like this is the worst day of my life. And then like shortly after I think like chuckle at that.

Yes.

Just knowing the ups and downs of the brain and the mind and life and all that. You ever been depressed?

Yeah, of course. I'm more anxious than depressed. I don't really get depressed. I like, yeah, but I've been depressed.

Like low points.

Yeah, but I think I, I distinguish depression between low points. Right. Like if things are going bad and you feel bad, that makes sense. But I, I, when I think of depression, I think of someone who feels bad when things aren't bad. Like it's a, it's by, to me it's like almost by definition irrational.

Well, yeah. And there's different kinds of, I like there, there's a exhausted kind of depression where you're not, it's not so much sad as you're not, don't want to do anything, you're, you don't want to live, you don't want to. What's the, yeah, what's the point? What's the point? Yeah, and like an extreme self critical negativity which I'm also scared of because my brain is generally very self critical.

Because you're not taking up magnesium.

Do you take erectile or in the mouth you take it rectally. Okay.

But as for the magnesium, you should take it as a pill. Okay.

The way your mom explained it then is way different. What are you most afraid of?

Holy crap. I, I, I'm trying to think of anything I'm afraid of.

You know in 1984 with the, I.

Thought like even just like I thought.

I wanted to torture you, hypothetically.

Well, you're, well, mission accomplished. You know what I mean? I mean in terms of, I'm scared of increasing authoritarianism. But that's not personal and that's not, that's something that I don't think is as much of an imminent concern as like let's say in Canada.

Are you scared of death?

No.

You think Camus was scared of death? No, he just accepted it as it's.

Look, I, I, I can, I Honestly feel like if I died tomorrow, I did pretty good with what I had. Like, I, I think I did things that matter to me. I think I moved the needle on things that matter to me. I think I've been a good friend to the people I care about. I've saved a couple of lives. So I, I can, I, I think it's a very low bar for someone to be able to grow their grave and say, you know, I left the world a better place than I found it. I don't think it's that hard.

You ever been betrayed?

Oh, God, yes, Of course. Haven't you?

Not as often as I would have predicted.

Yeah. The Russian upbringing expects everyone to be like, just, it's a time bomb before they betray you. I've been betrayed. Of course. Yeah.

Yeah. Do you value loyalty?

I do. And I also made it a point to not let that betrayal color my future interactions and regard that as the universal or the norm. Yeah, I think that's very important.

Me too.

And also I feel bad. I, I, I've gotten lex enough that I feel bad for the person who betrayed me because it's just like, they didn't need to do this. And at some point, if you betray someone, you know, and you know you're not a good person, I believe that.

Yeah.

Like, even if you tell yourself, this something I had to do, you still know you had to do a bad thing to someone who didn't deserve it. And that's a really hard pill to.

Swallow in my situation. I still think good thoughts and empathize with the people that have done me wrong.

I don't empathize with them, but I sympathize with them.

My English is not good enough to know the difference.

Empathizing means you're putting yourself in their shoes. Sympathizing means you feel bad for them and wish them well.

Yeah, I wish them well.

Yeah. But I don't put myself like, I, it's, it's very hard for me to empathize with someone who betrays someone that they care about, because that is something. It's not that. Just I think I'm such a great person. It's that I feel guilt very strongly. So if I did that to someone who trusted me, I would really, it would fuck up my head for a long time.

Yeah, but maybe they were in pain. Maybe they were desperate, maybe to, to the wall.

Sure. They felt that way. Sure. But that's a sympathy thing, not really an empathy thing.

Yeah, yeah. Loyalty is a fascinating thing.

Yes.

I value trust a lot.

I know you do. Especially because you're in such a public. Both of us, we're, you know, very public positions. You have to be very careful who you surround yourself with.

It sucks.

Does it? Well, it.

It sucks because it's hard to. I usually just trust everybody.

That's okay. That's crazy.

But what's the alternative to be.

Have a filter?

Well, I have a filter in terms of who I interact with. Okay. But within the. You know, I see the good in people, but then, you know, in the. In the very rare instances that might turn okay.

And.

Yeah, it just sucks. It breaks my heart.

Yeah, I hear you. I completely agree.

Has your heart ever been broken?

Yes, love. Yes.

I'm just so relaxed right now.

Good.

Relaxed and happy.

Good.

This is making me really happy.

It's so. Again, it's beautiful in, like, eight different levels.

I think that's the deepest thing I'm thankful for, is just how beautiful people are, how beautiful the world is.

I really. And people are gonna laugh, and I welcome it. That's fine. I really sometimes feel like the guy in American Beauty looking at the plastic bag dancing in the wind, and he's brought to tears because of how much beautiful life is. And a lot of people feel the need to sneer at that scene. And Ricky Pitts, whatever. And I think he's got it exactly right.

I think he does, too. Well, in the end, you and I will be both laughing.

That's exactly and Right. And also seeing beauty where other people see garbage. And I'd rather be the person who sees beauty than the person who sees garbage. Yep.

Well, when I look at you, I see beauty when most people see garbage. And it's really unfair, Mr. Parrot, that you keep saying that. But all jokes aside, man, I'm really grateful for your friendship, and I'm really grateful for you as a person. Thank you so much for talking today. Thank you so much for talking to me throughout all these years. Thank you for being who you are.

You are welcome.

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Sa.