March 10 update

Hey, I thought I'd give you a brief update. So I got up here and saw Ned, and I was really flat, and he doesn't know if it's from the flight or if I've just lost too much weight. I'm down to 198 and about 5% body fat, 4 to 5%. And my challenge is in my head, I still feel fat. I know that sounds odd, but I've never been here before, and I don't know what my body's supposed to look like. I feel great. I've lost weight. Nothing fits. My clothes don't fit. You know, I'm in medium shirts now, and I'm pretty sure I'd get in 32 or 34 jeans. But in my head, I'm still looking, you know, comparing myself to other pictures of other bodybuilding guys going, man, this and that. And so I've got all that head trip going on, which is just really different for me. But discouraged is probably too strong a word. But I thought I was on track, and this is the power of having a coach. This is why a good coach is. He's looked at me and gone, "No, you need this, this, and this." And he sent me out and filled me up with glycogen, and he's right. This morning I look a lot fuller, a lot rounder in my muscles. But I'm a little bit. I'm really full of trepidation, and I you know I thought it was all supposed to go one way in terms of the diet, and you lose it, etc. But here I am, and I'm having to eat again, and it's it's messing with my head. You know, I'm having. 5 ounces of steak and egg whites and a little bit of cheese this morning, and then sweet potatoes. And I've just been on fish and broccoli for probably 4 weeks now. And, you know, to have something sweet, you know, last night for dessert, you know, I couldn't bring myself to have a beer because I'd bloat. I had a vodka. But yeah, it's different. It really feels different. I feel like I'm in virgin territory again. You know, I, I'm feeling really unsettled about it. So it'll be an interesting 2 weeks. All right. Cheers.