The Struggle of Male Vulnerability

But for a guy to do it, it's really still— for me, this was 15 years ago. So that's a— the world was a different place 15 years ago. Mm-hmm. And for— but still today, one of the major challenges is men. As a man, you don't want to be that vulnerable. You want to have somehow protected your 4-year-old self because as protectors, that's what we want to do. I wanted to protect my 4-year-old self and have enough moxie to be able to stand up for him, and I wasn't able to. So then on top of the shame of the activities comes the shame of the self-guilt and self-doubt about why weren't you man enough to stand up for that little boy. So there's all these parts, and at some point something just breaks, and most guys get recalled at about that age. That's, that's the only way I've been able to explain it. My, my brain just knew I needed to process something, and it just so went about doing it without my permission.