In this short dialogue, Speaker A and Speaker B discuss the experience of chronic immune and allergic conditions—particularly mast cell activation, persistent rashes, undiagnosed celiac disease, mold exposure, cancer, and Crohn’s disease. They highlight how many patients, especially women, react with anger and self‑blame toward their bodies when symptoms persist and treatments fail. Speaker B shares a personal narrative of years spent fighting her own body, developing an eating disorder, and feeling hatred toward her physical self. Through reflection, she reframes these reactions as messages from a protective body and introduces a "reparenting" approach: treating the inner child with kindness, gratitude, and compassion, allowing rest, and shifting self‑talk from criticism to love. The conversation underscores that the body’s fight response can become self‑destructive, and that consciously changing that internal narrative can support healing and resilience.
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When we're struggling with something like mast cell activation, you know, someone thinks I have a rash that won't go away and none of the medicines are working. They feel like their body is failing them when in reality our body is working super hard to try and keep us safe and healthy, and we're just not hearing or understanding the message that it's sending, right? So I would love for you to talk a little bit more about that because. I get women coming to me and they're just working against their body. They're just so angry at it and frustrated with it. And I'm like, no, this is all really good news. We can use this information. And when the rash starts to go away, that's a good sign that we're making progress, right?
And so when I'd make mistakes and my fingers wouldn't play the right tunes, I would get so angry at my hands and I would literally bite my fingers sometimes till they would almost bleed because I was like so mad at myself for not performing. In hindsight, I'm like, that sweet girl, I wish I could go talk to her because it was just puffiness from this mast cell allergic reaction, undiagnosed celiac, the wrong diet. And I developed an eating disorder for several years because of that hatred towards how my body was betraying me. And it was nothing to do with fat. And I've gone back and done the work around this, and it brings tears right now because my thought right now, and this is for you listening out there, if you have a part of your body that you are so hating, you need to work. And I shouldn't say need, you get the opportunity to reparent that little girl or the girl now that just wants to be loved and to be beautiful to be accepted. You're so strong. And this is when I'm 40 years old, talking to myself with kindness and compassion and gratitude for this incredible body that has taken me through like 9 lives. I should have died many, many times with all of my illnesses, and yet my body is so strong and so beautiful and so capable. And that self-talk around reprogramming how we talk to ourself is so important. But this time I was like, I'm gonna put my feet up and take this as an opportunity just to rest and it'll go down. And gosh, this is pretty ugly, but it's okay. My body's just trying. And I have a different program around that now. And I think it's so important that we talk about that because the last story, I was— got over cancer, got over Crohn's disease, living my life, started getting mold exposure and got really, really sick again in my late 30s. It's a vicious cycle where your own body is fighting and fighting so hard that it's causing internal damage and illness and potentially death. The day I realized that fight, that whole program around fight was not serving me and was probably going to kill me, I changed it.
