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It’s Okay to Grieve Your Breastfeeding Journey 💔

13 Apr 2026 · 1 min

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In this heartfelt monologue, the speaker shares her experience of breastfeeding grief and the need to forgive herself during her first journey with her son. She recounts feeling unprepared and overwhelmed, especially as her baby could not latch and required a breast pump to survive, while friends seemed to nurse effortlessly. The speaker describes the emotional turmoil of comparing herself to peers, the fear that her child might starve without the pump, and the realization that she must come to terms with these challenges and extend forgiveness to herself for perceived shortcomings.

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There's a lot of talks about forgiving yourself, about— I literally have to forgive myself for my first journey with my son. Like, I didn't know anything. I really tried my best. Like, I tried so hard. I probably would have tried less had I known what my life would have turned out to be, because apart from him, I probably would have been like, it's fine, I'd rather just type. But like, I didn't even know, and I was— I had so much breastfeeding grief that I didn't even understand what it was. Like, I, I had babies a similar time with a lot of my friends, which a lot of people do, because, you know, when you're the same age, a lot of times that happens. And they would like pick up their shirt and they would just nurse their baby, and it was going fine, and their baby wouldn't take a bottle. And I was like, what a problem, like their baby won't take a bottle, my baby won't take a breast. It is literally, literally, if his life depended on it, he would have starved if I didn't have a breast pump. This child would have starved because he would not— he could not take any, he could not latch at all. And I really had to come to a lot of terms with that, and I had to forgive myself