Jacob FuchsDirector of Pharmacy at CSC, St. Luke's Health System · Director of Pharmacy

Recovering from a Dumpster Fire Life: A Pharmacist's Journey #shorts

8 Oct 2026 · 1 min

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In this candid YouTube short, pharmacist and recovering addict Jacob Fuchs shares his personal struggle with rebuilding his life after addiction. He explains that despite achieving sobriety, attending therapy, and taking accountability, he often feels like "absolute garbage" because the consequences of his past actions linger. He emphasizes that progress is not about erasing past mistakes but about daily actions like getting out of bed, going to work, and being present for his children. Jacob offers encouragement to others on a similar path, reminding them that ongoing pain does not mean they aren't healing, and urges them to keep moving forward despite the difficulty.

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I don't know who needs to hear this, but you can be doing everything right and still feel like absolute shit. I'm a pharmacist and a recovering addict, so I spent my entire career learning how to fix things with drugs. Unfortunately, there's no FDA-approved treatment for watching your entire life turn into a fucking dumpster fire. I got sober, I go to therapy, I take accountability, I'm trying to become a better father and a better man, and some days I still feel like absolute garbage. Because here's what nobody tells you: rebuilding your life, making better decisions, doesn't immediately erase the consequences of your old ones. Sometimes progress is getting out of bed, going to work, showing up for your kids, not sending that 11-paragraph text to your ex. And listen, I didn't say I didn't write the text. I'm recovering. I'm not a fucking wizard. But if you're rebuilding too, keep going. Just because it still hurts doesn't mean you're not healing.