Part of my testimony

Hi, my name is Kristin, and I'll just do a quick prayer before I continue to say what I'm gonna say. Yeah, and I read the book of Ephesians, not the whole book, but I read Ephesians chapter 4. I just like opened to it in the Bible before preparing to make this video. Anyways, um, and maybe I've heard that people have had— okay, anyways, no, okay. Dear Lord, um, I just left this time up to you. I know that, um, um, you will, you will— if you want something to be done, it's going to be done. And just please guide me in how I speak, um, about my testimony. And to whoever listens to this, watches this video, and so on, that you just, you just fill them, Lord, and with your peace. And I pray that they surrender to you, Lord. In Jesus' name I pray, amen. Um, and if I didn't already say, please guide me and give me your strength and speak on behalf of me, please, Holy Spirit. In Jesus' name I pray, amen. Anyways, Hopefully you can hear this okay, but I want to speak a little, like just a little about my testimony. It's not like my whole life story testimony, but basically what my turning point was that probably my friends could see like that I, like my character has changed, not totally, but like I would say like a lot, and like my values and so on have changed. A lot now since, um, now it's 2023, um, it's December 2023 versus, um, I would say like December 2020 was really different. Like my life, I've changed a lot in my beliefs and so on, um, in, uh, the span of, yeah, that time. So There was a pivotal moment in my life which I've been asked before. I just like shared, and it's been like really hard for me to share because it was God— my eyes were opened. I had— in the Bible you can find there's a story in there about a man named originally Saul, and he later changed his name to Paul. He used to be really against Christians, killing Christians and stuff like that. And then he— I think I'm like, I don't know if you know the Bible 100%, but you'll have to fact-check me. I think he was like— anyways, he was on his way to a city, it might have been Damascus, and God blinded him maybe for 3 days, you know, just— yeah, not sure. But I'm not even sure where in the Bible this is, but like, I just remember the story. Anyways, the Lord blinded him, and then he had a radical— this radical encounter, and then he decided instead of killing Christians, he actually became a Christian. And, um, yeah, so I feel like I had this like Saul to Paul moment in my life where I feel like in my life before, like, I always, like, you know, I always believed Jesus is the Son of God, like, my whole entire life. But, like, I was— I feel like I was, like, on the opposing team, um, like, as I grew older, um, like, during college, like, you know, around, like, high school, college years and stuff like that, until, um, yeah, in 2021. I was, um, yeah, August, I think. Yeah, August, actually, it was like August Friday the 13th, um, I think in 2021, when, um, I was planning to move to Dubai, um, uh, just for like the own worldly pleasures of like I wanted like, you know, party and like live that life, you know. And so, um, it was in the middle of Corona, so I, yeah, I wanted to go to Dubai and I was living with, um, I was living in Hawaii at the moment. But yeah, anyways, so at that time, at that time in history, you had to get, um, you didn't have to get the COVID vaccine to go to Dubai, but if I wanted to get into any of the bars or anything, like, I would either have to get like tested like for coronavirus like every 3 days or just get the vaccines and then I wouldn't have to like, um, get tested. I could just like show the QR code and to get into the bars and stuff and nightclubs in Dubai. So anyways, I was, yeah, in Hawaii and prepping to go there and I was like, okay, well, like I'm the kind of person that like, I like to be like, make things simple. And so I was like, yeah, I'll just like get the vaccine and then when I get to Dubai, like, I won't have any problem to get into like any places because I'll just always like show the QR code vaccine card. So yeah, anyway, so, um, I went to get— I went to a clinic in Hawaii to get the, uh, Janssen Johnson vaccine because, um, like someone I knew was also going to get it at the same time as me. And so I was like, yeah, I'll just get the same, you know. Um, and it's just like a one-and-done thing, so I wouldn't have to like come back and stuff. So anyways, um, yeah, I have trouble looking at the camera because I'm like— anyways, but, uh, so yeah, I went and sometimes I do like these silly like fasting diets, but like it wasn't like for the Lord, it was just like fasting to fast. And so that morning, um, or that afternoon, I don't know what it was, I had only had coffee and so I had to eat in. And I have— I do have like a history of like passing out from needles. Like, um, when I got my ears pierced, I had gotten— I had passed out. And I, um, almost passed out like trying to give blood donation in high school. So anyways, that's not a good idea going into a vaccine. Um, but, um, yeah, so I went into the clinic and I just had like Yeah, I was, um, there in the clinic and the person I was with, like, I was in the room with them and so they first got the J&J vaccine and then after that, like, I was sitting in the clinic room and then I just felt like an overwhelming sense of like doom. It was weird, like, I'd never felt so much doom in my life, um, or yeah, but Anyways, so it was my turn to get the vaccine, so I got the vaccine and then I started— and I walked out, like they got my vaccine card and signed everything, and then we were walking out of the clinic and then, like I said, I've passed out before so I knew I was starting— I knew as soon as I was walking out of the clinic I was starting to get the feelings of like you're about to pass out. And so I— yeah, like you feel like tingly and lightheaded and Then you start to lose the vision and like sometimes not breathing well. And so yeah, as I was like walking out of the clinic, I started feeling that feeling that— and they had told you have to like go sit outside, like in the waiting room, or like in this case it was like out— there was also the outside area, so we went to the outside area and we're gonna sit for 15 minutes. But I knew like I wouldn't have been able— like I knew I was gonna pass out, so I was like trying to sit as as soon as possible. And like, the person I was with, like, I didn't— I wanted to be like tough, so I didn't want to like say I'm like, oh, I'm feeling lightheaded. I just like tried to make it quickly to sit down because I knew like sometimes I've prevented myself from passing out by just like sitting down or laying down quickly. Um, so yeah, I sat down on a bench out outside the clinic, like outside, and, um, yeah, there was a bush behind me and I guess I just didn't make it in time or something. But I— the next thing I knew is like everything was like out for me. Like it was black. And I'll tell like the account of like what I experienced and then like what people experienced, like, like, like other people experienced of seeing what was happening to me. And anyway, so yeah, in that moment, like, everything went— and I also recorded this in a voice memo, so now I'm saying this in an account of what I remember. Um, ever since, um, that time, I haven't opened— I immediately recorded a voice memo that day, or like the day after, because I know that of like what happened. And I had a vision, um, what happened in that vision, like and so on, because I know sometimes our memory can like, you know, not be correct. Um, I still been like, like, to be frank, I've been afraid to open that voice memo ever since that day. So I will at some point, but right now I'm gonna like tell the account what I can remember, um, just from my memory. And anyway, so yeah, passed out, everything went black, and then it was like everything, it was like blackness, and it felt like I was like zoomed somewhere, like it was like, "Choo!" And I felt like I didn't have control over much of my thoughts anymore. I just, it went like, I don't know, it was just like, then I just knew it was, then you just think, okay, I'm just here and it's blackness. And then like, almost like a tunnel thing of blackness. And then suddenly there was like two different visions I had. At this point, I can't remember which one was first, but And it might have been 3 as well, but I get kind of confused about like the other one I had as well, like if it had happened like during this vision time or like in a dream like the day before or day after. But anyways, and even after that I'd actually— yeah, I don't know. But so like I know one of the visions I had in this, like it was— and the reason I say it's a vision and not a dream is like because like the experience like was different, like a vision was different than a dream. Like I haven't— I don't know like the Google terminology, but like it doesn't— it's not a dream, it's like something else. And anyway, so I was like in this place, it looked like a Middle Eastern place, like it was like short It was like the shorter buildings and like the white sandish color. And there was, yeah, there was, yeah, I can't remember as much as like when it first happened, but there was like, I, it was Um, I'm just remembering that I think the other vision happened first, so I'll say the other. Okay, so the— remember there's like two that I'm sure I had the vision, so I'll say the other one first. The other was like, okay, so I was— it was like above like the Earth or something, and like there was like clouds, like you think of like heaven, but it was like you could see the Earth from like afar, and then I was like somewhere in these clouds, and there was like all these strange creatures like that I hadn't seen in my life, like animals. Like maybe now it's what they talk about in the Bible. Like I haven't looked up the pictures, what it said in the Bible, like, but like, like strange looking animals, but it wasn't like a scary thing, it was just like interesting. And yeah, I could see that— I knew I either could see or I knew that like they were preparing something, like, like you could look down on the earth and that they were preparing something, like, and now when I like talked with some people about like, you know, what it says in the Bible, it's like that God is like preparing like a new earth, or yeah, for us to live in, and so then I could understand like that's, you know, what they were doing. I could see that, um, yeah, like it was something, it wasn't ready yet, like the new, new Earth or something, but that they were preparing, um, something like they were preparing a new place, but it wasn't ready yet. They're getting it ready. Like, it's kind of like stuff going up on in the heavens. There's stuff going on on the heavens preparing the new Earth. Yeah, so I saw that and the animals and like other stuff, and it was like really light, like bright, bright, bright light, like daylight. Anyways, that was, um, one of the visions. And then the other vision, going back to like the Middle Eastern, like, town, city I saw— yeah, I just was like in the very beginning entrance, like, of it. Like, one, I didn't go deep into it. I was like on the outs— like, I was in the city, but it was like, you know, the latter part of the buildings. And, um, yeah, when I got there, I was like floating, and there were like lots of like other, I don't know, celestial floating— I don't know how to say bodies. I can't— it's not body. I don't know, it's weird. Like, I don't know how to describe it. It was like beings, celestial beings, and I can't like even remember what it looks like. Like, I feel like some of this stuff I saw in the vision, like, I couldn't I'm not even like— I— there were so many things I don't have words to like comprehend, and like maybe I wasn't supposed to like remember everything, but to remember like what I felt instead, um, more. And anyway, so there's all these like celestial beings of some sorts, or like floating, and it's like they were welcoming me, and but I didn't recognize— I don't think I recognized like really anyone. Like some people Yeah, anyways, I didn't really recognize anyone, and then I got to, um, I was like, one of these buildings, like, I felt like in— oh yeah, and so anyways, the only thing I could think is to put down to is like, then this was like the New Jerusalem or something like that, with these like Middle Eastern buildings and sandy color, and, um, Yeah, then also in here I felt, uh, that I was talking with someone. Like, it was some sort of— I knew for some reason I thought, like, I think I was sitting— it was like, you know, the French style, like, not like the design, but you know, in France, like, they have like the tables that like sit out like facing people, or like, you know, the tables that sit outside like cafes, bistro places. And so like, I think I was sitting like outside inside a place and then talking with someone, like a man, like a male figure. And, um, yeah, I don't know how to say man, but like some, I don't know, male figure. And for some reason I thought it was like, you know, one of like the old, the prophets from like the Old Testament. Like, I think it's to say prophets. No, not prophets. Like one of the prominent people from the Old Testament, like it was like Abraham or Moses or something like that. And I don't remember what we were talking about or if it was even talking, I don't know. But, um, yeah, that happened. And then suddenly, like, all I knew was like I was getting like sucked away from this world, like this other world, and, um, I was getting sucked away. And then— oh, but before that, like, there was like— I didn't have any— like, the whole place was just— it was just like peace and just like goodness and joy. Like, I didn't remember— in that place, I didn't remember anything like about like this— I don't remember anything about like this reality. And like, I— there was no tears and like no anything. Like, I couldn't remember anything. So, um, it was just like— it was like glory there, basically. But anyways, so back to— I was getting like sucked out of this— of that place. I was getting sucked out And I could remember, like, as I was getting sucked out, like, I, like, I literally felt myself, like, physically— I mean, not physically, I don't know how to say, but yeah, I was getting sucked out. And then as I was getting sucked out, for some reason, like, the human emotions and stuff were coming back. Like, I started feeling fear. Like, I started going— like, as I was getting out, I, like, I was like, oh. And like, yeah, I started feeling the human emotions again, like fear. And getting sucked out that I was— yeah, it was weird, like coming back to these senses, the human senses. And yeah, next thing I know, it's like then I saw the blackness again, and I could— for some reason it almost felt like a spirit through my body, like I could feel that, like a spirit coming, like I, it's like I could see the inside— not see the inside parts of my body, like of the light, but it was like darkness, like I was coming in then like this, and then I could suddenly open my eyes again. And I, in that moment, yeah, then I saw, um, yeah, then I saw the person I was there with and the nurse or like some other people helping. And then what I realized is like that my hands were like, it felt like the ligaments were like glued, like I couldn't like make I couldn't make like a fist, and I, um, I thought in that moment, you know, maybe overreacting, I was like, I don't think I'll ever be able to like use my hands again. They were like this in glue, and I, um, I don't know if they laid me down at that point or what happened. Yeah, I think they laid me down like on that like concrete bench like where I had fallen almost. And then, yeah, then they're asking me like, you know, the stuff like I hadn't eaten before and stuff like that. And then they put me in a wheelchair and put me back into the clinic and like got me food and like, you know, just checked on like, I guess like my pulse rate or something, right? Maybe the oxygen saturation rate. And they got me like back to my bearings. And, but I was like totally moved after that. Like mentally, I was in some sort of state of shock. And I, as soon as I was getting like psyched up from that world, that place, that world, and like I felt that fear. Okay, so my phone died, so it cut off. I was speaking the rest of the, um, the story, but my phone cut off, so I will— I'm just re-recording it or redoing it now. So anyways, I was speaking about like, um, yeah, when I came out of that experience, like, I felt like I got to know like the fear of the Lord and understand it a bit more that it's like the fear of the Lord is like being away from the Lord because I realized— okay, wait, I know it's the middle, but I want to read a Bible verse right now. That, yeah, like where I opened up to and read, and I read this like Ephesians 4 chapter before starting this video like I mentioned, but there's specific 3 verses I want to read. Um, so it's Ephesians 4:22-24. You were taught with regard to your former way of life to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires, to be made new in the attitude of your minds, and to put on the new self created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. So, um, yeah, um, I was in a lot of shock for a lot of, um, for a long time, like over— I mean, I'm still like, still Well, I've learned that, that it's important to respect and reverence God, and every breath we get comes from God. Like, we're all gonna— it's 100% chance that we're all gonna die one day. And so every breath I get, um, yeah, I get chance and choice on what to do because God gives us free will because he loves us. And that was something that like really perplexed me coming out. I'm like, you know, God being a parent to us, like a parent to their child, like you love the child so much, like you want to protect them, but then at the same time, like you love them that you give them like freedom of choice. And that's like something that's super interesting to me. If anybody wants to talk about that specific, I would— I'd probably like to talk about that. So anyways, um, but yeah, coming out of that experience and with Ephesians 4:22-24, like, definitely taught me, like, I, I didn't, like, I didn't put away, like, put off, like, everything, um, overnight. But God, after having that experience, like, and trying to seek, you know, God like people who seek, who are seeking Jesus more, and like reading the Bible and so on. And, um, yeah, watching YouTube videos. And anyways, um, God's been like convicted, and just like, you know, the Holy Spirit speaking to me. God, after that moment, God had been convicting me and just having me want to draw closer to him and draw— like, want— like, I was like After that experience, like, I literally just— I was like, where's church? Like, I was like, I needed to go to church as soon as possible. And, um, like, I learned, like, then when I'm in church, like, and like worshiping and pray— like worshiping God, like, I'm like really happy. And, um, yeah, I just like got this like fire for Jesus. And, um, after that, like, after that whole, like, time period and stuff, like, I realized, like, Jesus is, like, cool. And, like, and yeah. And now, like, 2 years after that happening, like, my life has become, like, way more stable and changed for the better. Like, before, I was, like, I might have, like, looked successful and all that, and, like, was maybe to the godly eyes, but it was like chaotic. Like I was living like in chaos, and now God has stabilized my life. And yeah, slowly been convicting me along the way. Like I'm not perfect, I'm never going to be perfect, but— and some people may say like, um, that, you know, why rush to follow the Bible and God now? Literally, like, yeah, Jesus is cool. Like, that— like, when I follow things more in the Bible, like, things go better. And it's weird because it's like I feel like an outsider to the world and like doing things differently, like not like cool or whatever. But I'm like, things get better when I follow the Bible and when I'm like not following like you know, chasing after that life like the rest of the world. Like, sure, like, you know, I'm not like, you know, going as like, you know, a nun or monk, like living far away from people. I'm still like, you know, in the world. But like, I think it says something like in the Bible, like to be like, you're living in the world but not of the world. So I'm seeking that more, you know, I still, you know, I'm still working on a lot of stuff. Even 2 years after that experience. But like, as I work on stuff like trying to be like more pure and stuff like that, like things have gotten better in there. I am in a testing period, I would say, right now, and trying not to like fall into temptations. But yeah, I just like, I get plugged into like, you know, a local church wherever I'm living, you know. I check out, you check out a few churches and you figure out which one God has like a place for you, you know. It's not necessarily like one's right and one's wrong. Like, it's like God has like that church, that church family for you. Like, you know, we're all the church. But so yeah, I found that. And like, when I'm struggling, like, I just like, yeah, I try to reach out to those girls like in a group text that I met at church, you know, just grab another, like, they were like all, we're all single around the same age. And like, yeah, say like, let's do like a Bible app, you know, Bible study together. Like, don't have to meet in person. And now I'm gonna do like a Zoom Bible study. Anyway, so that's a little bit of what happened to me. And yeah, to quickly say like what was happening on the other side of like those who were seeing, when I like passed out, they— the person that was there said I was like seizuring and thought I was gonna like die, you know. And the person I was with, um, was is like, you know, 50-something and had seen a lot in his life. And yeah, was like trying to hold me and like, yeah, thought he was gonna have to tell my mom that I was like— that I died. Anyways, I didn't, whatever it was. And yeah, I'm thankful for every breath and thankful that I've gotten to this stage of of being able to share the story. And just thanks to God, thanks to Jesus, um, the Triune God. Yeah. And I like something, uh, past Sunday I went to church in Malaysia. Um, yeah, like I just— anyway, so I went to church and, you know, some people like, it's hard to understand, like, you know, the 3-in-1. Like, we believe in— us Christians, we believe in one God. And, um, people have it hard to believe, like, Holy Spirit, Jesus, and God. Like, what's going on? And I don't know if this helps anybody, but it helped me a little bit. Like, the pastor last Sunday, he said in Malaysia, he's like, that, um, that, you know, we believe in one God, as in, like, if if you compare it to like, um, like H2O, like the compound, the, you know, it comes in different forms. Like it come— like it should come in like steam, it can come in like, you know, ice and water, liquid form and stuff like that. And so it's like, it's the same thing, it's the same compound, but just coming in different forms. And so God lives outside of time and outside of this reality, and so like he can show us you know, himself in different ways, you know, through the Holy Spirit, um, through Jesus, and, you know, um, through God, God as well. And yeah, so if that— I don't know if that helps anyone, but yeah, science. And thank you for watching this video. I just pray this blesses you and Yes. Thank you. Yep. May Jesus protect you always. In Jesus' name we pray, amen.