Leaving Medicine Guilt, Identity & NHS Responsibility

So what was that like when you came to that point? Did you feel like, what will people say? Am I letting anyone down? Did you feel like, oh, God, I don't know how I'm gonna say this? Is that. Is that something you thought about?

Hundred percent. The process of deciding to leave, it was so difficult. And it's like a mixture of things. It's. You know, I dedicated 10 years of my life to being a doctor. You know, six years in med school, four years of training. And so you do feel like a responsibility that you're kind of leaving the team behind. And, you know, the NHS has put so much money into you, into training you, and simultaneously, being a doctor was a massive part of my identity. Like, people, as soon as you say to people, oh, I'm a doctor, sometimes their approach to you changes and how they view you changes. And I was really proud to be a doctor.