A Navy Officer Who Failed As A Mother | Supermom Spotlight Laxmi Goswami | Riddhi Deorah

3 special spotlights. So Lakshmi is the first. Thank you so much, ma'am. Thank you for this opportunity. I'm going to, yeah, remove myself. Okay, I'll just stay here in case I want to see. That'll be perfect. First of all, you know, I'm really, really grateful to God that I could find you. And you are saying training is difficult. I would say motherhood is damn difficult than training, okay? You know why? Because training, that is, they are telling us what to do, they are teach— making us learn what to do, but In motherhood, nobody is telling us what to do. Wow. So I have your permission, I would like to share my presentation with all of you. And if you really, really want to know how, you know, from a naval officer I became an Inner Command Coach, put yes in the chat box. Thank you so much. Thank you. So for how many of you this uniform photo is looking really, really powerful? Put yes in the chat box if you can see that this is really powerful. Uniform looks really, really powerful. Yes if you can feel this. And if you can see my sad face Behind that uniform, put yes, that I can see you, a sad face behind that uniform. Thank you, thank you for putting it. So I would share in very brief that how my journey started and how from a naval officer who served for 12 years in Indian Navy, I converted into Inner Command coach. So it started with my motherhood when I was blessed with my second child. Everyone says motherhood is a very blessed feeling, this, that, multiple things. And I decided that I am going to have only one child. But, uh, once, like in 2016, I was blessed with my elder daughter. And after that, I thought that I will keep only one child because my husband is also a defense officer. We were posted like separate, separate places. My daughter was suffering, and that guilt was killing me from inside every single day. So I decided that I'm not going to have second child, and I'm not going to do this again with my second child. But after 2020, in 2020, I lost my father, and within a month of, uh, within a span of 2 months, I lost my mother-in-law. And you know, with that, everything fell apart. I felt like lost. What are you doing here in Navy, Lakshmi? You cannot be there for your family. I was posted in somewhere else, my husband was posted somewhere else, and my daughter was there with my in-laws. I could not reach for my father's funeral. I could not see him for last time, and that guilt still kills me. I kept on blaming myself. Somehow, somehow I just passed 2 years, and in 2022 I got blessed with my second child, my second daughter, Ashwika. I thought that it will change, you know, my journey, how I'm feeling from inside. But it got me another kind of problems which I started facing. From a confidence person, I started doubting myself as a mother. I went into a survival mode, maybe because I was not loving— I stopped loving myself. I forgot who I am. I got disconnected from my elder daughter, and one day it happened that, you know, I shouted on her so badly, so badly She started crying, I started crying, and I was shouting like mad, and I was not aware why. I could not find out why I was doing what I was doing then. And that one day was hell for me. Entire night I could not sleep, and I was just thinking, Lakshmi, you were there at some place where you thought that you know everything. But today you are a failed mother. I was exhausted, I was fear-driven. What will happen to my kids? Because you are not a good mother. And I was complaining myself, I was feeling like hell as a mother. I lost my identity. And if any one of you still feeling any of these points, put me in the chat box that sometimes we feel like we are failing as a mother. And sometimes if you feel that, you know, you your identity— maybe you are a doctor, maybe you are a lawyer, maybe you are an executive or a top head in your corporate world— but as a mother, if you feel that you are a failure, nothing works. Nothing works in this world. And then I was just struggling with myself. Outside, you know, I was commanding everyone, wearing that uniform, keeping that smiling face, but inside I was killing myself every single day. I had become a robot. Bache, her office. Bache, her office. In between, where I was? Why? I— no option for me what to do. I just thought, what should I do? Shall I kill myself? Because I'm not able to make that connection with my elder one. I felt like a burden, to be very true with all, because you are like my next family. And then the magic happened in December 2022. I was just scrolling out of frustration. I was scrolling Instagram and I found ma'am, Riddhi ma'am, the goddess to me. And after coming to EPH, you know, I cannot tell you what all changed from a Lakshmi who thought that I know it all. It slowly, slowly changes me. I became self-aware. I started loving myself. I started giving myself the worth. I was supposed to have. Instead of problem-focused, I changed my mindset to growth-focused. And the most beautiful thing, I rebuilt my mother-daughter connection with my child, my elder one. And slowly, slowly, what I could realize is that, you know, when you learn, when you take, and when you accept it, that yes, you are ready to learn, you start healing. And I'm really, really grateful to Riddhi Ma'am that she has given me, you know, the powerhouse of this life to me. She gave me the purpose of my life. Because you can earn lots and lots of money, but if you are purposeless, you cannot be happy, you cannot be satisfied. And that is what I have learned. So I started again learning from a girl who always thought I know it all. I became a lifelong learner, all thanks to Riddhi Ma'am and thanks to IPHM. I started learning psychology, I became a psychologist, and after leaving Navy, I became coach. And now I'm founder of Inner Command Circle, Inner Command Coach. But if I tell you how I made that decision, you will feel like, how can you leave Navy? And how many of you are thinking Dammit, are you an idiot? Why did you leave Navy? If you feel like I am an idiot, but I— if you can say that, why did you leave Navy? It was a very prestigious job, then why did you leave? Then we have to know this one thing: you can do anything in this world, but if you're not happy from inside, if you are not aligned, you will not feel happy. You will not be able to keep yourself happy. And if you are not happy, you your family cannot be happy because your family is nothing without you. The way you feel, your energy get transferred to them, and that is how your family feels. So I found her on Instagram, attended her masterclass, got some hope that this lady can help me. She knows what I am going through, and I joined her. And as ma'am was saying, that more you delay you will have the more loss. So, uh, I think in '23, because, uh, in my office we used to have that chota wala, non-smartphone. So smartphones were not allowed for us. Since morning to evening, I'll not have any smartphone. So I was not able to do anything. But one day, on one Sunday, I could attend ma'am's, uh, Platinum call, and it was just 80,000 then. And I thought, I will take it later, like ma'am was saying. And I gave it up. I thought, let me, you know, finish this Goldwala part first, because anyways I was seeing big breakthroughs. Things were changing, I was changing, my family was changing, my child was feeling happy. I thought, baad mein karte hain, and I delayed it. And will you believe, I made a decision in '24, and how much I have paid? Thrice the amount. Okay, I bought it for ₹2.2 lakhs. So I would say that one decision can change your life, and the sooner you take that decision, the better it is for you. And that day when I took Platinum, actually I chose growth despite fear, because I used to be very confused. If I, you know, buy like ₹2,000 ka thing for me, I will think 2,000 times. But when I spend it, I, or I would say when I invested those ₹2 lakhs, ₹2.2 lakhs For me, I was the most happiest person on this earth. I was jumping, I was dancing. Wow, Riddhi Deorah got platinum! And that one decision changed my entire, I would say, my framework, my mindset, everything around me. Because that gave power to my daughter also, that if my mother can choose herself, later she will also choose herself. So I am showing her that example that if my mother can invest in herself, she can also invest in herself. And if you want your daughter to invest in herself, put D for daughter. If you really want your daughter just to be like you, she can feel that she's worthy of it. And Platinum, it is full of magic, learning, awareness, and transformation. And you know, words are less to explain Platinum. It's not only about the calls, it's about the energy which you get in Platinum. And it is endless. Ma'am says you— she will put it 10 lakhs, even if she'll put 50 lakhs, then also people will buy it. Because you can, you know, you can get information from AI, from ChatGPT, from Claude, but what she is giving you, you cannot get from any AI. 2030, 50 lakhs. And sometimes I would just want to say one thing, sometimes that one decision changes your entire life, changes your entire identity. So look for me, I was a, you know, naval officer wearing uniform, having pride in that, feeling empty inside. But today I'm an Inner Command coach. Maybe I'm not earning what I was earning because everyone told me, you are fool, because you're leaving, you are earning 2 lakhs per month, and what you are heading to, you never know what you will earn or not. My husband was like, are you an idiot? What are you going to do with that? 1 crore a month, you have to tell them very soon. And I was like, I will, I will manage. If she can do it, I can do it too. Simple, one line. And he was like, okay, you do it. And then it did its magic. I got emotionally aware, I understood myself deeply. And that's how I would say the transformation from that naval officer who was feeling stuck, changing to inner command coach who is guiding now multiple mothers, hundreds of mothers. And my students, I can proudly say, my students are seeing the results. And I'm just the channel, just the channel, because God chose me to do it. And I'm really, really grateful again to Riddhi Ma'am, because you are the one who have shown me the purpose. It gave me clarity. For everyone, we have a triangle, right? And on this triangle, we put our values. Family was very clear to me. Freedom was very clear to me because I was coming from Navy and I never wanted the same kind of thing. Like, I could not go to my father's funeral. I could not see him for the last time. I didn't want that to happen again. So freedom was the most important thing for me. I knew that if my intentions are pure money will follow. And ma'am gave me the purpose, the service, the purpose of my life, that you have to serve. So the triangle— and now I will convert into a heart because it is my heart— family, freedom, and service. And that, that's how my coaching journey began, from where I started helping working mothers becoming their inner commander. So tell me, how many of you feel that outside you can change? You can wear a very good saree, you can wear a very different attire, you know, very costly attire, but if you are not feeling from inside, it's of no worth. Put NW if it is of no worth. If you are not feeling happy from inside, you can only feel happy when you are feeling happy from inside. And what will give you happiness? Your purpose. So service became the beginning of my purpose, the beginning of my happiness. Every one of us will have some resistances in their life, and I also had some resistances. My mindset where I thought I cannot do anything. Lakshmi, you are a failure, because I was not able to handle my motherhood. I thought what I will do? Maybe anyways, you know, I had learned, I got trained and everything was there, But I was not able to, you know, find myself. There was a question mark on me. Other than that uniform part, where was I? So from self-doubt, I reached to surrender, where now everything whatever happens, I just surrender to God and say, whatever you are doing to me, it is for a reason. Either it will give me a lesson, or, you know, it will become a magic for me. Simple. From self-doubt to surrender. That is how I changed my mindset. Time— most of the working mothers, like out of here, like as mamas, how many working mothers are there? Again, for how many of you, you feel that you do not have time? Put me if you feel that you do not have time, please. If I can do it, motherhood, Navy, where you are not required only for like 10 to 6 or 8 to 8 or something, it is 24/7. You never know whether you are removing the uniform after 5 minutes for 10 minutes or 2 hours, you have to again wear it and again go back. Maybe at midnight also I went, midnight also, leaving my children, everything. But what I knew is that motherhood will stay, Navy will stay, I don't know, but learning will stay. I kept everything along. My husband used to ask, what you are, you know, seeing in phone? I used to sit in kitchen, lights close everywhere, but I used to keep learning. Because it was showing me, it was giving me happiness, because I was learning and I was seeing the shift in my behavior because I was learning. So time is just an excuse. And if you can see that time is just an excuse, put E for excuse. If from today you are not putting that excuse. Money. As I told you, I used to be a panjus, super panjus. So fear of investing. But when I invested in myself, my God, it was unbelievable. As ma'am always say, the more money you put, the more value you get. And even you value yourself. It was life transforming. Your life transforms. So never fear investing in yourself. Many people still ask me, even, you know, it's been time, more than 1 year I left Navy. People meet me, my relatives meet me, and they say Why did you leave Navy? And I would say I was happy making that decision. I was terrified when I was taking that decision. I can discuss it with you. For all, I like, I did very confidently, yes, I love this, that. But with all of you, you are my family. I was dying, you know, taking that decision because removing that uniform which is part of you for 12 years was hell of a pain. For almost 2 to 3 months, I was missing my uniform because every day I used to wear it. So it was terrifying for me, but I chose alignment over fear. I said, once the decision is made, you know what you have to do. Lakshmi, let's no go back, let's do it. Now, support. Everyone will say, I, I do not have any support. How I would, you know, my husband is not supporting. My mother-in-law is not supporting, my family is not supporting, my child is very small, this, that, multiple excuses you will have. But when I took this decision that I'm going to leave, and the next part that I'm going to become a coach, not everyone understood. Even my husband told me, are you serious? Why don't you join corporate? Your counterparts are, you know, joining corporate and they're getting good amount of money, 45 lakhs per annum. This is a small amount. What do you want to earn? And I showed her, Riddhi Ma'am, this lady, she's earning crores per month. If she can do it, I can do it. Maybe I will take time, but I know I can do it. And I did not quit. So how many of you are not ready to quit? But kyu phar? Not quitting. I'm not going to quit. Because your growth will start when your comfort will end. And my growth journey from a naval officer who can lead— if you, you know, make 10,000 people stand in front of me, I'll be very confident speaking in my— giving them instructions, because I have like— I have trained more than 20,000 people in Navy. But making a video, oh my God, hell of a pressure. How I can make my Insta public account? It was— you will not believe, it took me like 1 or 2 weeks to make an account and make it public. Because for last 12 years I was not using any Insta, any social media, because it was not allowed. So again, creating a public account and putting your video onto it, it was more, more difficult than leaving the Navy, to be very true. I was, I was not at all comfortable, but I took courage. I kept doing, kept doing, and one day I got the courage and I start putting my things on Insta. I started my journey and it's been like 5 months. I have earned more than ₹1.7 lakhs. And because I started learning, because I got to know that, you know, learning is a process. You cannot say that I know all. So I started learning in other fields also. I started investing money in other fields also. I can proudly say, single-handedly, I have, you know, in last 5 months, I have earned ₹16 lakh plus through that investment. And more than everything, I got my mission that I want to help working mothers so that there is no Lakshmi left in this entire world who is feeling the way I was feeling one day when I thought that I should kill myself because I'm a burden. So I want to touch that each Lakshmi who is waiting for me, and I'm coming to you, I'm promising to you. So my uniform changed, but my purpose of serving never changed. And above all, you, Riddhi Ma'am, you gave me the spiritual growth. I used to do puja and everything, you know, very chota mota, like bhagwan ke haath jo liye, jhal chada hagai, and all that. But chanting, it was like next level. If someone used to do it, I used to feel 'What are you doing? Why you are doing?' But you have changed that thought process itself. Now I can say that I'm spiritually growing. Krishna is there with me always, and he's listening to me now also. So I'm really, really happy that you have shown me that path. And like with every journey, with every story, we have lessons. These are my lessons. Healing changes your motherhood. You might be feeling as a, I would say, a failed mother, or whatever you are feeling. Anyways, now you are in EPH, you might not be feeling. If at all, you know, if you have seen G1, G2, G3 also, then you must be in a very good state. But if at all you feel it sometimes, don't worry about it. Healing changes motherhood. Small, small, tiny steps will give you massive transformation. Only thing is, as ma'am says, do it, do do whatever it takes, period. No thinking after that, just keep on doing whatever she's saying, just execute. You are learning. When you start learning, that gives you emotional freedom, that gives you financial freedom, that gives you all kind of freedom, whatever you want, but only when you start learning. And this is my personal favorite, the fourth one. Choose yourself without abandoning your family. For many of us, we can think like my career is this, my career is that, but you are Prakriti. Purush and Prakriti, you are Prakriti, you are the nature. You cannot leave your family and you cannot grow together because you are the center energy of your house. Choose yourself without abandoning your family because when you grow your entire family grows. Your— I would say from you, your child is learning. From you, your husband is learning, and you are helping them in their journey. And a woman is unstoppable when she reconnects with herself. And if you are unstoppable, type 'you are unstoppable' that yes, I am an unstoppable mother because I am in EPH. Type 'you' in the chat box that yes, I am a powerful superwoman who is unstoppable. Because everything changed when I stopped surviving and started healing myself, reconnecting with myself. And that is the power. When you give the space to learn, that is when everything changes. And the credit, all this credit goes to ma'am, to EPH, to the leadership which I joined. I would just share these incidents. No, after Navy, Navy like Many of you might know, in defense, no, there is— you have a very close circle. You have few officers, their families, and you know, you fake smile, you say yes sir, no sir, that kind of thing happens. So you really don't connect with people that way. But when I took leadership and when I started talking to mothers, I was like, what is this? People are laughing, they're sharing their inner stories, and I was like, my God, this is magical! Thank you so much, ma'am, that you have created this for us. If you are in Platinum, you should definitely do leadership. And if you're not even Platinum, please take Platinum and then do leadership journey. You will see mind-blowing changes to yourself. And if you are choosing yourself as a leader, put L in the chat box that yes, I'm a born leader. Thank you for that. Now, 3 power pills for all the mothers here. Before working on anyone else, like ma'am always says, Connection before correction. Do apply this for yourself also. Connection, connection with yourself before correcting yourself. Before you want to work on your child, on your husband, on your mother-in-law, or whatever the entire world is there around you, you know, you keep on blaming. Please heal yourself first. Don't lose yourself. Just don't lose yourself. Don't lose your identity because you are the one that one day your daughter or son will look up to that, yes, she is my mother and I'm really, really proud of her. How many of you want to feel that, that my daughter or son should say, I'm really, really cool, my mother? Type me in the chat box, because they are learning from you. And if you say no, no, no, I cannot take that decision, if you are saying no, no, this is not for me, what they are learning you know very well. And learning creates freedom, emotional, mental, financial liberation, everything comes from learning. The more you learn Now it is coming to me. The more you learn, the more you earn, if you want to earn. And in earn, it is not only money. You earn respect, you earn love, you earn everything, whatever you want. Because when a mother heals, an entire generation heals. How many of you can resonate with this? Put R if you can resonate that yes, these are the power pillars for every mother. Thank you for that. And now the best part of this presentation. What I love about my mentor, she thinks abundantly, she dreams beyond imagination. Sometimes she will give me examples like, oh, what, what ma'am is saying, even it is possible. But again, you know, I remind only one line what she always say, if I can do it, you can do it too. That's it. Your growth, growth is never-ending. Keep on learning, keep on just learning, learning, learning, learning, and just surrender yourself. That's it, nothing else. And her speed, she's speedy, simple. My God, she can explain everything so simply. Sometimes, you know, as a psychologist, I have learned all those, I would say, you know, the jargons and everything, reading long, long definition, and she'll come and she will just explain in one line. I'm like, oh, how she could do it, you know, and the speed of her implementation, the speed of think to implement. The moment she will think, next time she will implement. Thank you so much for giving this. And because of this journey, I would say that I stopped living only through, you know, my duty, but I, I started learning and I started living consciously. Now I can say that I am a God-conscious mother who is learning consciously. And who is serving her purpose consciously. Wow, love it. Now my message to all of you. Thank you, ma'am. Yes, please. Now if you are ready for this message, put R for ready. My message to all of you: start small. One decision can change your identity, whether you like it or not. It can be a very small decision, like I will put ₹20,000 this time in Platinum. And I'm not selling Platinum to you because I'm a Platinum member. No. Why I'm saying this? It can change you. I paid thrice the amount. Sooner or later you will realize that Platinum is for you. But why you want to pay more and more if you can, you know, pay less and get into it? Heal yourself first, because once you heal, your family heals. And nothing can stop you. Never give up. Do not think that I cannot do it. Your story can inspire others. Like, for ma'am, she always say, I can do it, you can do it. And now I can proudly say, if I can do it, you can do it too. Thank you so much, ma'am. Thank you so much for giving me this opportunity. And I would just only say one thing: whatever I am today, I am because of you. From a sad, you know, lost mother to a happy mother who has amazing connection My younger one, she's just 3 now, but she entire day she will keep on reciting Radha, Radha, Radha. She's drinking water, she is doing that, you know. And before sleeping also we do like lots of practices, what you told. My elder one, you know, I feel so good and all thanks to you. Thanks to you. Wow, thank you so much. Anything, whatever is there in my life today, However happy I feel, it's all because of her. Thank you, thank you, God. Thank you so much that I could choose EPH. I could come and I can feel it. I can feel the transformation. And to each one of you who is doubting yourself today as a Gold Mother, no, next month, please do not wait. Please do not wait, because one decision can change your