I Was Screaming at My Son, and he still Hugged me | SuperMom Spotlight | Minakshi | Riddhi Deorah

The thing which, when I was exhausted while I was returning home, I knew I couldn't shout on anybody else, I couldn't scream on anybody else, but I was easily able to scream at this little chap. Because at the end, even after shouting, even after hitting— I was hitting also, by the way— so I was hitting also, I was shouting, And that only little chap, after saying sorry, I'm so sorry I did that, he was still hugging and loving me back normal. Today, I'm not going to share anything about my success story. It is a journey from guilt to growth. Emotional exhaustion to emotional awareness, to reacting to responding. It is something which I have lived with for over so many years. Never knew that any help ever existed. I never knew you ever existed. I mean, you are a silent angel supporting everyone. Back, the version of me which I did not like, I was working, I was doing everything, I was showing up all perfect, smiling outwards, struggling inwards. How many of you Think that you are still showing up when you're not even happy inside. If not today, at least before joining EPH. Yeah, because now we have healed. I was all exhausted, totally disconnected. Too overwhelmed, stressed, everything. But I was smiling outwards. I was still going to office with all smile and all happy start of the new day. So I'm into a joint family. Most of you know. I want to introduce that. Having being a part of joint family as a working mother. Having a child, it is not that easy how it sounds. I hope you would agree to it, right? But I was still showing up for everyone who was a stranger to it. To stranger, I mean who were not close to me, right? But there was a constant guilt. Because I was losing myself on someone very special. I was losing myself on that 5-year-old child then, my son. The thing which, when I was exhausted while I was returning home, I knew I couldn't shout on anybody else. I couldn't scream on anybody else, but I was easily able to scream at this little chap. Very convenient to say that because only single person who will not bounce back. 5-year child, innocent. He will not bounce back, right? Everybody else would. But in September 24, the statement hit me high. It took me to another level I have wanted to be in. This particular beautiful soul doesn't need this version of mine. In September 24, I was scrolling through Insta. That's how I see you, and thanks for showing up that day. I needed it the most. He's September born, by the way, and I met her in September. While going through that Insta reel, I immediately entered into the masterclass. And immediately I entered into the gold membership. For the first time, I spent five thousand immediately. But I thought I got bluffed. Literally, I got कुछ tag mango आ रहा है, कुछ आ रहा है, ये हो क्या रहा है? कुछ तो हो गया। I never knew this is how the pattern followed. But I entered cold, and I think I gifted that for my gift. You know, my child on his birthday, a better version of mine. I wanted not just for him, but for my own self. Because at the end, even after shouting, even after hitting, I was hitting also, by the way. So I was hitting also. I was shouting. And that only little chap, after saying sorry, I'm so sorry I did that, he was still hugging and loving me back normal. While everybody was still with the fool over move, he still had that smile and genuine love for me back again. So at least he doesn't deserve that bad version of me. So while I entered EPH, it was in September '24, and I was all confused. All confused. Suddenly, so many groups were very overwhelming for me. I was clueless. I called couple of times to Kanak. Kanak, what is that happening? Please help me. That's how I entered. Most of us might feel that, right? I was just searching for clarity. I was just scrolling and attending all possible live calls that time, and still I, you know, try to be on the calls. Else I'll see the recordings, but the life energy is definitely different. But I was all confused. कहाँ से क्या पढ़ना है क्योंकि इतना सारा ज्ञान एक साथ है वो कहाँ से read करना शुरू करना है यही नहीं पता। So how I started is till date I do this, right? So what how I do is I courses, I watch courses as per my requirement. So if I am having any kind of challenge with my son, I will see child connection. If it is about my relationship, I'll see relationship alakos. If I feel emotionally drained, I'll go to the emotional clarity. This is how I have been learning with EPH, and how that really helps me is it brings my— brings me back immediately on the track. It gives me live, real examples. Very simple, and then follow them. You'll get your results. It was that quick and that magical. In September twenty-four, I joined Gold. In November, I called ma'am on the valley day. To my surprise, during the valley puja, she picked up my call. Anything urgent? I said, yes, very urgent. I need help. She said, okay, tell me, what do you do? Like, I am working. I'm not able to do gold completely, and you're telling me to take platinum. How would I take it? I don't know how would I do it. She said, just go with it. It's okay. It's for lifetime, and you will never regret. Trust me. We spoke for a couple of minutes and I jumped into platinum. The same day I texted her, "Thank you so much for your time. I am into platinum now. Now handhold me again." Again, we got into life coaching and parenting coaching. Like all of us do. Whoever is in platinum would agree to it. I did all the courses as per my requirement, not for the certification, but something which I needed that time. And that really genuinely helped me a lot with each and every step I was struggling into. Everything. How this journey came difficult for me and how I landed in EPH or life, you know, the challenges starting hitting me, I want you to take to I lost my granddad in 2020, the dearest soul I could ever attach to. I felt I am all gone because I was so dependent on him, so much loved, so much spoiled by him. I still remember heading to office or coming back from office, stopping my car on the roadside, crying endlessly. Because I had to still show up happily while I'm at the destination, either to family or at office. But I was still struggling inside, and all the struggles were ending up to be on that poor soul that time. Now he's lucky. I got into life coaching and parenting coaching. I completed my course. I got the chance to be On the stage with her in Delhi event and did the entire journey. I want to tell you from self-doubt to platinum because stepping from gold to platinum wasn't an easy thing because I have never invested so much in myself. Never. I am working. I'm working for more than 17 years now. But my bank balance would be always too minimal, क्योंकि हम खर्चे बहुत करते हैं। So I'll keep that marginal thing which I would need for the month, and I pass on the balance. So I never had that money also with me. So it wasn't an easy task to come to platinum, but platinum was a self-chosen growth for myself because I wanted to grow. I wanted to heal, not just for my child. but for my own self. We got a lot of bonuses. Bonuses in terms of such a beautiful gang of mothers, a community always there to support, always there to listen, and no judgment. All are there to happily support and listen to you. We also got the bonus to be weekly getting separate, separate missions Which keep us aligned to be on the task. Don't forget, we are there to push you. That's what I get through EPH, and thanks to my leaders for pushing me too. What I got also as a confidence, because while everything was going on, I was losing my confidence because, as I said, I was stopping by on some corner to cry and then come back all normal. At least outside, but not inside. But this journey has helped me get that confidence level back. Growth. Growth has a different explanation here because it was inner growth, my family growth, my career growth, and just not that. I've got my purpose of life. So thank you so much, Shridhi ma'am. Thanks a lot, because now, now I have got the bonus of to help each other. I want to help and pass the same energy to those who are struggling silently just like me back then. Because most of us doesn't know before entering EPS that there are listening ears, there are listening community who can support so happily and everyone. So right now I am also practicing life coaching and parenting coaching under your guidance, just like your way, not so consistent, but trying to come back to the track while I'm working. Because I feel जिंदगी को काटना नहीं है, जिंदगी को बहुत अच्छे से जीना है। You guys must have heard from our elders बस कट रही है, but काटनी क्यों है? अच्छे से जीते हैं ना? थोड़ी सी तो है, अच्छे से जीते हैं। Thank you so much. So these are the three things I don't like about you, I admire about you. So I admire the most I don't know how she is so relatable in her examples. Everything she has a very perfect, relatable, simple examples which will make your entire queries, every list so simple. So I don't know where this comes from, but it's a major big skill because these things make so simple, so simple. It is not that theoretical studies back then which we used to study. It is much simpler to learn and grow parallelly with all real-life examples. Powerful energy and presence. So while I attend the live calls, this is the purpose to bring back my energy, because looking at you, at your energy, gives me energy to show up again and I think we all need that energy boost every time we face the low life things or the challenges show up, because challenges are the source to bring you or push you back to your real version. And consistency and constant support. I want to Tell you, we were in the same flight returning from Goa to Delhi. We landed at eleven. We were there till the luggage. Everything was happening there till twelve. Tomorrow morning five a.m. Sankirtan she is there. I was late. अभी मेरी नींद नहीं पूरी हो रही। पाँच बजे she was again back for sankirtan. Hats off, ma'am. Hats off. बहुत लंबी journey है वहाँ तक पहुँचने के लिए. It was a big journey. So thank you so much. So I discussed with couple of mothers. मैं कहा अभी तो हम आंखें मल रहे हैं, थक रहे हैं। But this lady is again back on the track. कुछ तो सीखना है ज़्यादा। Things I like about EPH. It's a practical transformation. So in history, geography, we have learned each and everything theoretical. इसने ये किया, इसने वो किया. Here we are learning all from physical, practical transformations. You talk to any random mother, any random mother, and you'll get your answer. They are the one who is— who are patiently listening you, supporting you, and I don't know, the answers are coming. I wonder where are these women in our real world back then who are not listening and supporting, but we have this full community here. For supporting each other, that's a big win. Learning during life challenges. As I said, whenever you are stuck somewhere, just go to that particular course. First video, you will get your help. Any single video of that particular course will help you. Besides that, all the live call recordings are there. You choose the topic, you are just answered. God has sent all the ready-made stuff for you to help you whenever you need it. It is just we are lacking behind to seek for help, but you have provided all different corners for it and a very supportive community, very supportive to the extent wherever you are, just a call away, and most of you I will be there endlessly for supporting. I still wonder, and I want to thank you, Riddhi ma'am, because, uh, I remember, uh, making an Insta page logo I sent you. And after so many, you know, thousands of mothers in the tribe, it is difficult for you to watch, but you instantly watched, you gave your feedback, and I corrected, and then you acknowledged also. So I was wondering if she can handle so many mothers so easily, so quickly, always available. I'm sure we can help at least each other to you know lift another world around us. Thank you. And while I'm ending this, I want to tell you my journey. Was not for a better version for my child. I think I needed a better version of myself. So each of us doesn't need to be healed for others. What we need is for healing for our own selves. Once we are on track, everything will fall on track. So don't stop.