DAY 65 – THE VOICES DON’T D*E. YOU JUST LEARN TO IGNORE THEM.

And then one night, I just didn't feel like having a glass of wine. Something just changed. It's not like I white knuckled it, but then I would go to restaurants, and every once in a while that tap on the shoulder would be like, have one glass. Have, you know, do this, do this. It could be fun. It could be a lot of fun. Then I saw the movie Beautiful Mind with Russell Crowe where he's got that mental sort of challenge and his best friend from college and that little girl. And I think somebody else follow him around. They're always in his ear. He somehow gets through this challenge. Somebody's talking to him, and he kind of looks over and they say, are they still there? And he goes, yeah, yes, they're still here. And he's just gonna do the best he can to ignore them and accept that they're part of life. I have certain inherent weaknesses. I have certain inherent temptations, and they haven't gone anywhere. Now I live with them, and I do the best I can to make sure I stay out of environments that really stimulate them. I don't go to bars, and I avoid situations of people and things that are going to increase those things.