The speaker describes learning to separate their ego from an observing self that watches patterns without judgment. By welcoming shadow parts with love instead of resistance, they found integration and wholeness after years of fighting themselves.
There's a part of me that feels this way. Then there's a part of me that's observing that part. The part of me that's observing is my true self. My true self is observing all of this ego patterns, all the cycles, all the parts of me that are out there responding to the human condition. Those aren't me. The real me is the observer. There's a higher version of myself that's seeing all of this happen. And so When I can welcome all my parts with love, then that trigger just, it melts, it softens, it dissipates. I understand why it's there and I love it. And it's then, then it's integrated. It's a shadow integration, sort of. But it's integrated in who I am. And then, then finally, after these years of trying to fight it, it's a part of me and I feel whole.
