How to Process Fear Before You Do the Scary Thing

Hey guys, today we're gonna be talking about something a little bit different. We're gonna be talking about how to process massive amounts of fear so that you can get ready to do something that's really outside your comfort zone. So this is coming up after I appeared on the podcast, The School of Greatness with Lewis Howes. And for those of you who don't know, that's quite a big deal. Quite a big platform. It was my first ever podcast. And given that I've only been on YouTube 2 and a bit years, the invite onto that platform, which I'm eternally grateful for, it happened very quickly. It felt like, not that I didn't manifest it, not that I didn't align with it, not that I haven't been doing the identity work and everything to get in resonance with that. But I know a lot of you were surprised to see how quickly that happened. Nobody was more surprised than I was. So I received the invite to go on that podcast on the 10th of March of this year, and I was so honored, so grateful, so excited. That is literally one of my favorite podcasts, if not my favorite podcast in, in that space, and I couldn't even enjoy the excitement or the gratitude or like the awe of the situation because I had so much fear. I had so much imposter syndrome. So from the moment that I received that invite, it has been a massive stretch on my identity, on my self-concept. It's been a journey of shadow work consistently, of course. And it also required me to really coach myself again, which I'm constantly meditating and I'm constantly journaling, but I haven't really had something specific and something this big that I've had to kind of hold my own hand through and guide myself through. So this is gonna be a little bit of a more intimate video. I'm literally gonna be walking you through what went down in my journal from the moment I got that invite to the day that I showed up on the podcast. The prep started when I got that message from the School of Greatness. On the 10th of March. And actually what I first did, so there's gonna be probably about 4, 4 phases of the preparation for this, but my first kind of phase was actually just me getting so busy and putting loads of things on my plate. And I didn't realize why I was doing this. As aware as I am, you would think I didn't realize why I was doing this. Until I looked back in retrospect. A part of me that felt like an imposter and felt like I wasn't qualified and was comparing me to the likes of Joe Dispenza or whoever else has been on the podcast, Robert Greene, authors, really influential, established people. My brain went, Katie, you don't have a book, you don't have this, you don't have that, you don't have this. So you need to go and do a bunch of stuff so that you'll feel better and more like you belong on this platform. This was obviously an unconscious thing. I didn't consciously think that, but I think that part of me thought, I will feel better if I have something more substantial in my body of work to show for myself on the day that I show up on this podcast. I was also finding it really difficult to pin down the date. I was trying to like map out how long it would take me to hit certain milestones in my business, in my YouTube and everything. So that I feel ready. It's crazy what the mind does when it's scared. So that I feel ready and qualified to go on this podcast, right? I know what you're thinking, this is such a flawed way of looking at it, but this is what I'm sharing. Honestly, this is what happened, right? So I somehow wound up between the 10th of March and the 27th of May, I wound up traveling to Sedona, going on a spiritual retreat, activating all of these parts of myself. I came back, I went to Japan, and then I came back, and then I launched an event, and I hosted my first 3-day intensive event. I also started working on a meditation app— so excited about that— and I started working on a lot of other stuff as well, which I'm not going to talk about because I don't know which of it is going to stick. I'm going to come back to a lot of it if and when it feels aligned. But I had all this stuff written down. I remember I kept making like lists of things that I had to get done. And I remember I got to a point, I think it was after the retreat, and I kept writing, I need to do this, I need to do this, I need to get this done. And I realized, like, there's no possible way for me to get every— all of these random things done to the depth and quality that I would like to do them before the podcast. Like, this is just craziness. So I started to kind of let that go a little bit, and I started to realize, okay, you know, you need to hone in on what actually feels most aligned. Yes, Yes, this invite was also an invite into my next level self. Yes, this invite was very activating, and it was kind of a permission slip for me to really step into my power and my authority and start doing kind of higher level things that the future me would do. Yes, but I spiraled too far where I wanted to get everything done so that I could definitely be qualified. So it enabled me to get started on a couple of things and get some things done that I really did want to do, one thing being the 3-day intensive, and then the other thing being the app. So I kind of made peace with all of that. But in hindsight, looking back, I actually reflected on this when I was in LA. I hosted that intensive event on the 18th of May for 3 days. My podcast was on the 27th of May. That was so obviously me also wanting to do this thing, but also wanting to stay a bit distracted. I could have waited until after the podcast to do this event, but I wanted to have it done as a sense of accomplishment that I could bring with me. So right after the event, I did feel good, but I also felt really drained. I needed a few days to recharge. And then I once again, even though I had started working on the app, I had run the event and it was amazing, I still had to face the fear that I had of going on this podcast. And a week before the podcast date, the fear was at an all-time high because I had done nothing really to work on it yet. I just was keeping myself busy. Yes, this stuff was helping a little bit because I was like, yeah, I'm capable. It was reminding me of, you know, my power, my capability. But actually, I was keeping myself so busy that I was disconnecting from a lot of my routines, a lot of my, like, my habits of reading, researching, brainstorming content ideas. I disconnected a little bit from that because I was too busy to do that at my full capacity. And I didn't realize it at the time, but that actually made me feel even worse and less confident coming up to the podcast, because that's like the foundation of how I teach, is when I'm regulated, when I'm meditating, when I'm connected, and when I'm thinking about certain concepts, brainstorming them, connecting dots. Like, that's when I'm in my lane. So a week out from the podcast, I was so terrified. And I remember I was talking to people about it and I was saying, God, I'm so scared. And then all of a sudden this voice came in my head that said, Katie, you are a coach first and foremost to yourself. So coach yourself. You know how to do this. Treat yourself like you would treat a client in this situation. I was like, oh yeah, true. I'm too— I have too much awareness to keep kind of meandering on in this like scared avoidance, really, state. So first I was trying to just go directly to changing my association of the podcast, like changing the meaning that I was attaching to it, changing my assumptions about it, changing the energy and my perspective around it. And that helped a little bit, but it wasn't really working. And I'm so grateful a friend of mine sent me a video on fear visioning. I'll leave it down below. There's a TED Talk on it where essentially, instead of trying to like positively visualize the situation, you actually go directly into the worst-case scenario that you're scared of. So if you're really scared to do something, oftentimes that fear is like kind of in your unconscious, it's just in the background, and it spirals out of control. It's kind of can feel a bit vague, can feel very unmanageable. And when that's the case, you have to like take it out and actually look at it so you feel like you can actually manage it, first of all. And until you do that, you are going to find it quite difficult typically to visualize best case scenario because you still have this kind of mysterious fear ruling you. Because I didn't even know, like, I just knew I was nervous, I knew it felt huge, I didn't know what I was actually scared of. So I did fear visioning as my real tangible step one to start overcoming the fear. All of that context just to get into this, but that's the journey that we were on. You know, I had months and months and months to prep, and it was the week before, my fear was up here to the point that I was like, oh, I hope there's like— so I didn't say this out loud, but it crossed my mind and I like swatted away. I was like, I hope something happens so I don't have to go. Like, I was getting into that energy where I was like, 'Oh my God, I actually can't do this,' right? So the first thing I did to start overcoming that was fear visioning. So fear visioning is essentially the process where you go through all of your what-ifs. So you think about this situation, and then you get a pen and a piece of paper, and in the first column you write down, 'What if I fear number 1? What if I fear number 2? What if I fear number 3?' And so on. So some of mine were random, and you don't hold back. Again, this is like the key with journaling, you guys. When you journal, you write down whatever comes to mind, even if it doesn't really make sense, or even if you know it's not really that logical, or it feels like it's not even that important. Just write it down anyway. So my first one was, what if I get there late? What if I have stomach problems? Was another one. Just being honest with you guys, right? This is something I was thinking of because I had a feeling I was going to be wearing white. I was like, The next one, what if I— this was at the core of my fear— what if I stutter when I meet Lewis and it makes everyone feel awkward? What? What if I get asked a question and I give a terrible rambly answer because I'm so nervous? What if I blank on a question and say nothing and won't know how to answer it, again making it very awkward and embarrassing? That was at the core of my fear, was that, you know, I had this deep feeling that, oh my God, what if, what if I'm really not supposed to be there? This is such a big leap for me. What if I blank? What if they're like— I was so scared that it would be this moment of like, who invited this girl and why? And so as painful as it was for me to admit that that's what I was nervous about deep down, yes, there was a part of me who still couldn't believe that this, that we'd arrived at this level yet. And this is what that part of me was fearing. And so it was really cathartic actually to just let that all out and be really honest about what it really was I was scared of, because I had low-level fear from literally March, from when they messaged me, and I didn't really know what it was, but this was at the root of it. So then in the second column, you write down what can you do to prevent the feared outcome from happening or at least decrease the likelihood of it happening. So for if I get there late, I wrote down leave much earlier than you think because I have a difficult time perceiving how much time I have. If I have a gap of time, I tend to just fill it. So I made, I set the intention that I would give myself an extra like hour than I thought I needed. Okay, so that made me feel better about that. Uh, the stomach problems, I said I can eat really clean and take stomach tablets if I needed to. Perfect. So I actually bought them in advance. And I know this sounds kind of silly and you're like, what the heck? But like, you guys have been on this journey with me for however long you've been here. Some of you have been here from early on. And my biggest goal, my biggest intention with this is to keep it as real and authentic as possible. Because sometimes we see people achieving a certain level of success, which I guess I'm now getting there. Amen. And we kind of forget that they're just people who, before their big opportunity, went out and bought Imodium because they were scared that they were gonna have stomach issues. Okay, so I'm keeping it real with you guys. I went out and I bought stomach tablets because it just gave me that reassurance of like, I'm covered, I'm protected. If I do have a nervous stomach, I will be fine. By the way, check with your healthcare provider. I'm not recommending that you buy that stuff, but I'd taken it before in my powerlifting days. If you know, you know. So I was fine with that. We're talking about— oh, you guys are literally my— I'm like, the way that you guys showed up for me in the comments in that podcast, I just feel closer to you guys than ever. And I'm like, I'm literally not holding back. I'm going to tell you everything. So for what if I stutter meeting Lewis and I make everyone feel awkward, What could I do to prevent that? This is where it gets a little bit more like vague. To prevent or decrease the livelihood, I can pause and breathe before speaking and focus on being over performing. So even though that's a little bit more nuanced, just writing that down, like setting that intention that I'm gonna take my time speaking, which I really did, and that I'm gonna focus on just being who I am, being authentic. Staying connected and true to myself rather than focusing on what people are thinking about me. I know that's an obvious one, but writing that down and saying this is what my focus was going to be, it made me feel much better about the nerves of how I was coming across or not knowing what to say, because I know from that energy I don't really need to worry about that. It's much less likely that that's even going to happen. The next one was, how could I prevent giving a really bad answer because I'm so nervous and just rambling? So what I said to prevent that was take my time answering, lead with love, authenticity, and not performance. And the perspective I wanted to go in with to keep that frame was connection and openness and non-defensiveness. I wrote not defensive. So as you do an exercise like this, you can really feel into what the antidote actually is for the fear that can set your energy right before the thing that you're nervous about. So that it's much less likely that the thing that you're scared of is going to happen. And again, just writing that down made me feel a lot better. The next one: what if I blank on a question and I say nothing and it's really awkward and embarrassing? What I wrote down to prevent that or decrease the likelihood of it was: wire in the belief that I can give an aligned response to any and all questions, and I can easily answer every single question asked of me. So these ones are obviously not like action-based, but because we know on this channel how to shift our energy, how to change our perspective, and how to change our narratives and our beliefs, those can also be really powerful preventative measures once we've actually identified what it is that we're scared of. And then the final column is repair. So if the worst-case scenario does happen— I know this sounds counterintuitive and we're not manifesting the worst-case scenario, but if the worst-case scenario does happen? What can I do to repair it? And this, even though you don't want it to happen, it kind of takes the end of the world feeling sting out of it because you're like, okay, even if it does happen, it's not going to be ideal, it's going to probably still be very painful, but at least it's something I can kind of just manage, right? So the first couple, I feel like I already managed them with the preventative measures, but For repair, I just wrote accept and move on. For what if I stutter and make everyone feel— I've never stuttered a day in my life. I don't know why this was coming up, but for what if I stutter meeting Lewis and make everyone feel awkward, for repair, I wrote down take a breath, slow down, pull your energy back, and send yourself love, because that always brings me back into my body because I have a practice of doing that every single morning. For what if I get asked a question and I give a bad answer and I end up rambling because I'm so nervous, for the repair step for that, I wrote, you can ask them to crop that if you prefer. Don't dwell on it. Get present to the next question. You're okay. And remind yourself it's not the end of the world. So that made me feel a whole lot better. Thankfully, I have experience recording content, so I know that little things can be cropped out. You can make a mistake, take a breath, and start over. I've been doing that for a few years now, so it's kind of natural for me. So I just reminded myself, just because the setting is different, you can still do that in this setting. You can take a minute and say, hmm, could you ask me that in another way? And they'll just crop that out. So it's not the end of the world. So I reminded myself of that, made me feel a lot better. So for the next one, what if I blank on a question and I don't know how to answer and it's very awkward and embarrassing? What the repair step I had there was, I can just say, are you asking insert. So like I could just gain clarity basically, like, what is the question? Are you asking this, or is there another way you could phrase that for me? Um, or just answer what you think, and again, if it makes no sense, they can crop it out. So that fear visioning helped me so much, really opened up my energy. It removed the paralysis, kind of that grip that fear had on me unconsciously, because I finally took all the fears out of the dark and I just looked them in the face and I was like, okay, and it just made me feel a little bit more in control. It made me feel like I wasn't running anymore and I was actually really facing what it was that was really scaring me. So the second thing that I did was I started to figure out, you know, the version of me who I could see successfully doing this interview and handling all the questions with ease, with grace, with authenticity. What was the gap that I was feeling, or the disconnect that I was feeling between me a week before and her. Like, why was it that I didn't fully feel like her? And I was sitting with that question. I was like, why don't I feel fully connected to that, like, higher version of me who just knows her stuff? Because I know she's in there. I've been her. I know who she is. I'm familiar with her. But I just felt like I was a bit removed from her. So this is a version of like creating your avatar who has achieved, which we've spoken about before, defining your desired reality, which I had defined. I wanted it to go this way. I wanted to feel authentic. I wanted to be believing that I had an answer for every question, that I could just relax and be present and be myself and share my truth. And that was my desired version of this experience. And then I extracted the version of me who was in that desired experience. And I was looking at that version of me, and I said, something different about her versus the energy that I've been in. And this is why I love this practice so much. It always gives you like that missing— it could be one thing, it could be multiple things, but there's always something in that gap. And if you can figure out that thing, you're going to close that gap and you're going to become that version of you. So for me, I suddenly realized, and it was so freaking obvious now looking back, I hadn't been reading, I hadn't been studying, I hadn't been that consistent on YouTube as I used to be. I hadn't been going as deep in my own work and my own studies and like just reflecting on everything, consciousness, the universe, everything that I love to think about and study and connecting dots. I hadn't been doing any of that for a while because I was keeping myself so busy. And so I had actually disconnected from a lot of my foundational things that my very first stick figure, my very first avatar did. And I knew in that moment, I need to bring that stuff back in. And I'm gonna feel so much more anchored to myself, to my truths, to my insight. I'm gonna feel so much more myself going into this if I can bring in this foundational thing that is just a core part of how I operate now. And actually on the flight to LA, my Wi-Fi wasn't working. I'm so glad it wasn't. 'Cause what happened was I ended up just opening this journal and taking a pen and just asking myself loads of questions about the universe, about consciousness, about trauma, about healing, about, you know, why things are the way they are. How come some people heal and some people can't? Where did we come from? How does manifestation happen? Like everything, everything, everything, everything that I've ever pondered. The questions that, you know, I've, I've built this whole work around, the questions that I've spent years and years answering and trying to answer for myself and for you guys. I just got in my journal, I, I don't know, I think I wrote like 20 or some more pages, and my hand nearly fell off. I just couldn't stop. And it felt so good to just let that flow out of me and let myself really reconnect to that kind of I don't know, I have like this scribe energy internally where I feel amazing when I'm thinking and pondering things really deeply and just letting myself write and really, really connect dots and really question things. So I spent almost all of my flight doing that, and that really reconnected me to that version of me who was connected to her truths. So I actually wrote down, I'm so grateful for this awareness that's come through. I wasn't just nervous for no reason. It was amplified because of feeling disconnected connected from my creative core. I haven't been reading or brainstorming, so I'm doing more of that, and it's where I'm supposed to be. And so, and then the floodgates opened and I was doing even more and more. But that was a missing ingredient for me that I didn't realize. Like, my nerves and my fear and my imposter syndrome were amplified because I actually didn't feel like my full, authentic, aligned, empowered self. So I guess step 2— we're gonna have to change the name of step 2— was notice where you're misaligned with your most empowered self and bring yourself into alignment. That's going to help you feel a lot more capable and a lot more grounded going outside your comfort zone and doing this scary thing. And you won't feel like an imposter, because how can you be an imposter when you're being who you're supposed to be? So step number 3 is I started changing my associations and my perspective on the experience. And I did this through visualization. I didn't do a whole lot of this— a little bit of journaling, a little bit of visualization— but really, depending on how much fear you have, it really doesn't take that much. I, I think I was energetically primed to do this because of the previous steps. So the way that you do it is you close your eyes, you get into a meditative state, you relax your body completely, let your brainwaves slow down. Let your imaginative faculties come online, and then you call to mind the experience that you're afraid of or that you're nervous about, and just notice how it looks when you call it to mind. Notice the feelings in your body, notice the thoughts in your head, notice your associations. At first, for me, when I called it to mind, it was— usually this is what it looks like when you're nervous about something: it's going to be very imposing, it's going to feel really like bright, almost like overexposed. And because you feel exposed, it's like, whoa, um, a little bit intimidating, a little bit threatening, tense, nervous, sweaty, like all of this stuff. That's what was coming on for me. And it felt very cold. And immediately when I was looking at this, you know, it was kind of like blue and cold and tense and just like stiff. And immediately when I saw this in the visualization I just knew, I was like, it's not like that. I know it's not like that. Like, I'm so excited to go on this podcast actually, because I genuinely love the podcast and I genuinely love Lewis and his energy. I think he's a really genuine person and I've always loved his interview style. He's always stood out to me. He's got incredible energy. He's really just genuine. And I just knew that coldness does not belong in this picture, right? That association is a false association that my brain is projecting because it's the fear of the unknown and it's the fear of a new level. So what you can do immediately is you can start to change the settings just on the picture that you're visualizing. And this is, this is extremely powerful. So you notice I did this before for public speaking as well, and it worked wonders. You notice what it looks like at first, and then you begin to tweak the settings. So I made the lighting much warmer. I kind of made it a little bit hazy and like cozy, so it wasn't as sharp and scary. I made it less cold feeling, so I made it cozier. I made it warmer. I imagined feeling really comfortable and really soft in my outfit. I ended up picking a really silky shirt, so I ended up actually feeling very soft in the end. And then I switched my perspective. So I changed the settings on the environment. Then I shifted my perspective to how I felt towards the people in the environment, because that is such a big component of something like this as well. And where there was any like fear or resistance toward Lewis or any of the team or the whatever the environment was gonna look like, I softened that down, I softened that down, and I invited closeness and connection where there was distance in my imagination. And then I did something really powerful. I zoomed out. Now, I don't know where I got this from, But I essentially zoomed all the way out and I saw from a bird's eye view. I kind of took my awareness out of my own perspective and I looked at a bird's eye view and I was like, these are two figures in the same space coming together to have a powerful conversation to help a collective of people. What is the energy of that? And I could immediately feel this is empowering, this is loving, this is authentic. This is warm, these people are on the same team as each other. And it just made me drop all of this pretense of how I was gonna be perceived or whether I was gonna fit in in this new environment. All of that faded away. And I accepted in that moment that we're on the same team. These people are technically kind of part of my tribe. They're part of my mission and I'm part of theirs. So we're together on this. We're not against each other, we're not apart, there's no judgment, we're a team. And it changed the feeling that I had towards the people in that environment so much. And the reason I'm sharing that, you know, is to let you know that you can do this with everything. Like, let's say you're starting a new class and you're nervous if you're, if you're going to get along with people in the class. All of those people are on a similar energetic frequency range as you. In order to be able to show up to that same space together, you have to have some alignments in your energy. So in some way you're already connected, in some way you're already family, you're already part of the same tribe. So focus on that connection rather than the fear, and it will really quickly change your associations with this experience. And when I came out of the visualization, I just did a bit of journaling once again on what I wanted to deliver to people, the energy that I wanted to be in. And at this point, I was able to really connect to the fact that I wanted to feel authentic, I wanted to feel calm, I wanted to feel open. I wanted to feel like we were getting to the root of things without rambling for too long. I'm grateful for Lewis because he kept me on track. And I just wanted to feel that I was as present as I could have been. That was one of the big things I identified is my fear was that I was going to be so in my head that I kind of was overthinking everything and didn't get to really drop in. So then my desire and my intention was to just be present and connected. And let whatever happened happen, which required me to release control as well. So I journaled on those intentions. I connected to those feelings, and I just kept telling myself, it's not even about me. Like, it ain't about you. Imposter syndrome is quite self-centered. This conversation is not for really for me or for Lewis. It's for the people viewing it. It's for the people who it's supposed to help and supposed to serve. So I kept readjusting my focus to that as well.. And that really helped me to stop putting myself at the center of it because it wasn't really about me anyway. I actually saw someone say this on a podcast before, and it kicked in as I was doing this work. He was saying like, I'd be so nervous right now if I was focusing on myself and, and how I was coming across and how nervous I was and whether I was saying the right thing. He's like, but I'm not. I'm focusing on this conversation and what we're talking about, and I'm focusing on the people who are listening. So while I'm so focused on them and serving them, there's no way that I can keep that same amount of obsession with myself and how I'm being perceived. So that's a big shift that I also made from the visualization and the perspective shifting aspect of this. Which, just as a side note, like, all of my best insights and moments and creation have come from that energy. Like, it's not even me. Like, this information comes in from where, I'm not sure. For me, I ask questions, I ask questions, I reflect on things because I'm wondering. I feel in the collective like what you guys are struggling with. I know from my own experiences and my own traumas and my own suffering what the struggle is. So I ask questions and I, I watch things and I read things, and then I don't know the answer. And then I'll wake up and I'll kind of have an answer or framework, and then I'm like, I can't wait to share this with the tribe, with the community to help them. Like that is the energy of servitude. That is where the best creations come from. Just a side note, if you're a creator, make sure you're in an energy of servitude. Okay, the next thing that I did is I honestly asked myself, was there anything I could do to prepare myself like tangibly for this podcast? And typically I'm somebody who, you know, I do very well in the flow. And I had this narrative leading up to this, like, there's nothing I can do to prep for a podcast anyway. I've kind of realized that that was a little bit of avoidance. And yes, I didn't want to over-prepare, I didn't want to overly script, but you can do prep without learning things off by heart, and you can do prep that's going to actually help you flow better. This is something that I learned through this experience, that it's something that's really obvious now looking back at all my content and filming things in the studio and everything like that. But like the videos that I've done the best in, I haven't learned anything off by heart. I don't have like paragraphs saved by memory, but I have a very clean, like clear, pre-prepared outline and an intention. I have a clear intention of what I'm gonna speak about and what I'm gonna help with. And so I kind of became aware of like, that's, that's how I get into the best flow, is when I come in already connected to that. Like, that's the prep, right? The prep is becoming connected to your intention, to your message beforehand, and then the flow is letting it come through however it needs to come through. Okay. And so getting ready for the podcast, I was like, how can I connect myself to my intention and my message in advance without overly preparing. So what I did is I went through what I knew was going to come up, which was, what does greatness mean to you? He always asked that. And/or he always asks, what are 3 truths you would leave on this earth if you could only leave 3 behind? And knowing myself and knowing the way that I ramble and I like to go in depth and on tangents, and I, I see how everything connects, so it makes it very difficult for me to separate things out like that into 3 3 points. Um, I thought to myself, okay, I'm going to write down— I literally took my laptop out and I wrote down my core, like, I think it was like, ended up being 5 truths. And I just did that. I didn't pick which 3 it was going to be. I didn't script it, but I just got them out in front of me the day before just so I could have them right there in my awareness for when he asked that question. So I'd have something tangibly that I felt connected to in that moment rather than trying to think it up in that moment, right? What does greatness mean to you? Immediately I knew it was going to be authenticity, so I was like, cool, that's going to be your authenticity. I don't need to prep that too much. And then in advance, they, they sent me a couple of like broad topics or broad questions. Uh, the interview ended up being a bunch of questions that were not on that list, which I was really grateful for because it let me be in the moment even more. But within those ones I noticed the ones that I felt a little bit nervous about, and then I dug into those. So there was one about, like, it was a really broad one about, like, frequency or manifestation. And I remember thinking, that could be an hour-long question for me to answer in and of itself. That's why I'm nervous. So I wrote just a couple of core truths and core points that I would want to definitely get across in that question. I wrote them down, and I felt so much better the moment that I did. Because at first, when I heard or saw that question, my brain went, shh, scattered in a million different directions, wants a whiteboard, wants to provide a framework, can't do that. Oh my God, panicking, not in the right context to answer this the way that I normally do. So the fact that I was able to go there, pull out like the few core things that I felt were most important, and just write them down in advance, it made me feel a lot more calm and like, okay, I got this. I can just go straight to here, straight to here. You've got it. So that's the prep that I did. And then I also just visualized, you know, giving answers in a calm way. That's all I really did the day before. And at this point I was feeling ready. I was super nervous a week before, like peak nerves a week before. I was pretty nervous maybe 3 days before, and then 2 days before it was reduced. The day before I was just a bit tense. I wasn't nervous. I was like very much in anticipation. And then the morning of, I woke up and I was feeling like, whoa. Okay, today's the day. So I did my normal morning meditation, and once I was feeling super still and regulated, I envisioned meeting my higher self. So I could just see her in front of me. I connected with her energy, and I kind of let her send to me any energy that she wanted to send me for the day ahead, and I received it, and I imagined just absorbing it into my body, and it was really, really nice. I really felt her support for it. And then I asked her, what would you like me to know for today? This is a really big day, you know, this is a lot. It's a big jump in my identity and my visibility and everything. It's a big manifestation. It's just a big moment. So what would you like me to know? What would you like to tell me? And she looked at me with so much love and she said, you are just supposed to enjoy this day. You're supposed to have fun. You're not going on here. You're not doing this thing to prove anything. You'd already proven everything. The moment that you received the invite in March, the proving was done. There was nothing else you needed to add. There was nothing else you needed to show. You already qualified. And so today is about showing up and making the most of it, having the best time ever and relishing in the fruits of your labor and appreciating the mountain that you've just climbed. And I was, I just felt this massive weight come off me. And it was that last piece of perspective shifting that I didn't know I needed until I got it. And I remember I cried. It was such a big relief. It was a huge release. And it just made me go, oh my God, like that is the energy I wanna be in today. It's like, this is a moment, this is a milestone for you to appreciate all the work that you've done all the growth that you've had. It's not a moment to prove anything. It's the moment to like enjoy the fruits of your labor and just be who you are and know what you know, share what you're supposed to share and enjoy it and get to do it with somebody who you really admire and really resonate with in this space. What a better way to do it. And oh, I can't tell you what that did for my energy. It just, when I tell you, like I was nervous, but I was so happy so much more excited and present than I was nervous, which is all I could have asked for. I was so, I felt so good after that, that I could even eat breakfast, no problem. I got ready, like everything was just cool. And yes, I was a little bit tense. I was a little bit nervous when I got there and it was just all super crazy and big. But by the time I sat down to do it, I was more in like connection, presence, enjoyment than I was in, oh my God, this is so scary. And that was my biggest intention, because honestly, a week beforehand, if I had walked into that studio and did that podcast, I would have froze. I probably would have ran out the door. So those were my steps for processing a massive amount of fear and imposter syndrome leading up to the biggest opportunity of my life to date. And I want to share this with you guys to show you the behind the scenes of someone who is manifesting her dreams in reaching these levels of success and to remind you that, you know, I'm still human. These people at these levels, they're still human. They still go through this stuff. They're still learning lessons. And every new layer requires new inner work, requires new layers of awareness. And if you have something that you're super nervous about, I really wanted to make this to give you tangible things you can do. And again, I'll link the fear visioning video down below if you want to go deeper on that. Because you have the tools to coach yourself through this. You have the capacity to help yourself no matter how nervous you are, no matter how scared you are. You can help yourself. You can shift your perspective. You can make the changes that need to be made so that you can show up in the best energy, the most optimal state that you can on the day. And yes, obviously watching it back, I can see there was still a little bit of nerves. I was still a little bit more stiff than I normally am. But honestly, I always say this to you guys, and I had to say this to myself, like, your mind is racing after you do something like that. Or if you do public speaking or something really big that's like really outside your comfort zone, your mind is racing trying to process this thing. It's going to nitpick every little thing that you could have, would have, should have done differently. And I think when you are in that state, you need to remind yourself that the version of you who enters this next level, it's going to be the minimally viable version of you who can play in this level. It's not gonna be the fully optimized, fully empowered version of you for that level, 'cause otherwise you'd be already transcending to the next level. So it's not fair to hold yourself to that standard when you've just become the minimally viable version of you to get in the door and start playing at that level. And there's only room to grow from here. Unfortunately, if you're gonna be stepping into your full potential in this lifetime, you are going to have to face and process quite a bit of fear. I actually am getting to the point where I believe that God places our fulfillment, our purpose, and our highest potential on the other side of our biggest fears. That's what I have lived personally. That is what I have learned. And the only way through the fear is by facing it. Fear is a mile wide and an inch deep. I always say that I got that from Laila Hormozi, but it's so true. And there's another quote as well: "You often suffer more in imagination than you do in reality." As soon as you face the fear and you start walking into it, the fear itself actually drops off, and you begin to see that there was never anything really to fear in the first place. And actually, there's so much good, there's so much to gain on the other side of the things that you fear. And as soon as I walked into the podcast studio, I was reminded of that because it was cozy, it was warm, it was amazing. It was run so smoothly. I was made to feel so comfortable, and my imagination was just making up this big scary story that wasn't even reality. And that is always the case with fear. So just remember, fear is at an all-time high when you're on the bench looking at everyone in the game, thinking about getting in the game. As soon as you get in the game, the fear disappears. So don't rob yourself of a life that could be lived in your potential, actually with so much less fear, because you decided to run right through it. I hope these steps helped you. I hope they empower you to step into your path to overcome your fear. Thank you all so much for your support on the podcast. You guys are incredible. I don't know if anyone else— I'm probably biased, but I don't know if anyone else has gotten the support that I've gotten from you guys when they've gone on that podcast. You really showed up for me, and I love you all so much. I'm actually so moved. I'm going to get emotional, but I'm just so moved by how supportive you guys are, how much you've just been on this journey with me. I really, really can feel it. I'm absolutely honored that you are my tribe, that you've provided this life for me and the opportunity for me to live these dreams and this platform. Honestly, I'm humbled, I'm in awe, I'm so grateful for every single one of you, and I'm sending you all so much love. That's all for this video, guys. Love you all so much, and I will see you in the next one.