Listening to Your Mind Is Killing Your Dreams
In this motivational monologue, the speaker reflects on a recent period of personal transition and shares a framework for rescuing and realizing one’s aligned dreams. She argues that the rational mind, designed for survival, is the primary obstacle that kills visionary ideas. True desire is felt in the body as an expansive, feminine energy linked to the subconscious and the Akashic field. Rather than trying to map out a detailed logical plan, she advises taking the smallest possible step that feels intuitively right, allowing each action to shift one’s vibration, identity, and perspective, thereby revealing the next step. This incremental, step‑by‑step process is described as a feminine, co‑creative journey that requires surrender, trust, and shadow work to integrate hidden fears and limiting beliefs. The speaker emphasizes the interplay of masculine action‑taking and feminine creative flow, urging listeners to follow the inner fire, let the universe present challenges and opportunities, and avoid over‑intellectualizing. She concludes with a call to embrace this paradigm shift toward divine feminine activation, assuring that anyone can actualize their dreams by consistently stepping forward despite uncertainty.
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Hi, my loves. Welcome back to the channel. Welcome back to me as well, if I do say so myself. I've been in the void, you guys. I have been in the void. At this point, you will have seen a YouTube video from me, probably around self-worth was the last one. Before that, honestly, for the past few months, I've been in a period of in-between, of transition. of shifting from one identity, one state to another. I'm beginning to arrive in embodiment. Hallelujah. And the first thing that I need to speak about with you guys from this new state of clarity is how much you have been killing your dreams and how you're actually gonna resurrect them. Because if there's one thing that I know, Throughout all the shifts and the changes and the things that I've taught and everything in between, it's that my mission is to make sure that you stop killing your dreams. My mission is to make sure that you realize that you have dreams that are aligned with you, realize that you're not stupid or crazy for having these dreams, and then realize that you actually can fulfill these dreams. I know that sounds insane. I know, I know, I know. So the reason this is coming front and center today is because today is the 99 portal on the date of recording this. I found today to be a very energetically activating day, meaning I downloaded like a massive vision, all these different ideas, all these different projects. Some of them, it's the second time or third time they've come through. And some of these ideas, you guys, are so unbelievably massive, even though that's subjective, like, If I were to present these to, I don't know, someone who's light years ahead of me in this field, I'm not gonna give any spoilers, they'd be like, that's tiny. But for me, they feel massive. And when they came through today, these big visions, these big desires, my brain did that thing that all of our brains do whenever we get this big desire or this aligned vision that comes to life. My brain immediately went to, But how? But how am I gonna do that? But can I actually do that? But I've never done anything like that before, so how will I do that? Yabba yabba yabba yabba. The mind is the number one killer of dreams in this world. Do you know how many amazing inventions, projects, services, Healings, creations have been killed because of the nonsense of the mind. The mind is only there to keep you surviving, you guys. Your mind is a survival machine. It's not a thriving machine. So I suspect there's been millions and millions of dreams, mountains and mountains of untapped potential. Left in the etheric, whimsical realm of imagination and not brought down into this world. Why? Because of the traps and limitations and projections of the mind, which are all illusory, which are all illusory. So this is a typical process that someone goes through. Okay, la la la la la. They're walking through life. They're living their normal quote unquote normal life. They get an idea for something. Maybe it's to start that fitness business. Maybe it's to change career. Maybe it's to manifest that dream relationship. Maybe it's to move to that crazy random place. You get the desire and the feeling in your body. That's coming from your feminine energy, which is connected to your subconscious mind, which is connected to the infinite field of everything that exists. It's also connected to the Akashic Records where your unique soul's path, your higher self's plan for you in this lifetime exists. So usually you are accessing and tapping into that, especially when you have a full body yes, you have a full body excitement for this thing that's come into your awareness. You feel it in your body, it lights you up. How do you know that? You feel— and I want you guys to start really, if you can, using your body as a tool to navigate your life more than your mind. How you know something is an aligned desire, when it comes into your awareness, Even if it's scary, even if your mind thinks, "What the hell? How am I going to do that?" You feel an expansive sensation in your body. That's how you know it is aligned. The more expansive it feels, the more aligned it is. So you feel that expansion. You feel that excitement. You feel that like tingling, like wow! Yes, yes, yes, yes. That's an aligned desire. Great. Okay, amazing. What happens next? You get this beautiful, gorgeous, aligned desire. It's full of energy and joy and excitement. And what do you do? You take it to your intellect. You take it to your logic. And the first thing that you say is, but how? You try to compute this grand, vision of the future with everything that has happened in the past. You try to fit this old version of you that's existed up until now into this new vision, this new reality. So guess what happens? It doesn't fit. I almost want you to conceptualize. Let's say your vision, your, your desire Is like this pink, because I'm wearing pink, I'm thinking about pink, this beautiful, like soft light pink frequency. Okay, that's the energy of this desire that's lighting you up. That energy is quite aligned with you. It's, it's, it's signaling alignment, and it's signaling you returning to more of who you are, more of your essence. That's why you feel a resonance with it. That's why it's an aligned desire. You right now, you might be Maybe a little bit more like a burnt orange frequency at the moment. That might be your energetic vibration right now. And so you are essentially looking at this thing that is a soft pink vibration, and you're taking it and you're looking to the manual in your burnt orange vibration Programming, and you're going, "Hmm, that's not gonna work. I don't know how I'm gonna make that happen. It's stupid. It's not gonna happen." Do you see how insane that is? Do you see how insane that is? You will never. If you're making big jumps, if you're going for big dreams and big desires, if you're quantum leaping, you are never going to know how. You're not. Supposed to know how. All the ways how that you know in your intellectual, logical brain—they only correspond to what you've experienced up until this moment in your life. Nothing more, nothing less. Maybe you learned a couple of ways how off a book that you read or some successful guy that you knew, but the way how. to a dimension, to an experience that you've never experienced before cannot exist within your logic because your logic is programmed with what you have already actually physically experienced and nothing more. So if you want to transcend what you've already physically experienced in this lifetime and go to a brand new experience, one that's, I'm assuming, a lot more expansive and a lot more aligned, then you have to let go of the instruction manual, is your logic, that came with your old physical experience because you're not staying there. You don't need to keep a hold of this orange instruction manual when you're going to the world of soft pink butterflies and fairies. You don't need that. That can go in the bin, actually. So this is the biggest thing that is keeping people from their dreams. And it breaks my heart. And I almost did it to myself today, which is insane. But I didn't really. I caught it really quickly. You are not going to know how. You know, when I started this YouTube channel, I didn't know how. I talked myself out of posting a video a thousand times because I didn't know how to make a good video. I didn't know how to make a viral video. I didn't know how to be a content creator. I didn't know how to make like the vision that I had in my head for this channel when I first started the channel. I didn't know how to make the channel that in the beginning, okay? But you have to be okay entering into the arena of creating this vision, creating this desire as a complete rookie, as a newbie, as somebody who's like falling forward and has no idea how. Because guess what? You get the instruction manual by doing, by gaining practical experience. So I almost want you to think of it, okay, you have this dream, this vision, this desire. It's this pink, soft pink vibration, okay? You're over here and you're in the world of that like orange vibration. You wanna know the full way how, the full path that's gonna get you to here before you feel ready to start moving. The truth is, you will never— when you're back here in this vibration, in this reality, you will never know the full way how to get to here. But, but the universe is not that cruel. Your higher self is not that cruel. No, that would be a sick and twisted game. That would be just so twisted. It would just be cruel. No. You would not be given this desire, this vision, if there were not one Step that you could take from this old energy, from this old reality, or your current energy and your current reality. There is always one move you can make, one decision you can take, one action, one step, one phone call, one journaling exercise, something. There's always at least one thing that you can do From where you are right now that's going to move you in the direction of your desired reality, of this crazy big delusional vision. There's at least one thing you can do. If there's one thing I know for sure, it's that there's at least one thing that's going to move you in that direction. Why is that good to know? Because that's the only thing you can control. It's the only thing that you need to focus on. And when you go all in on doing that one thing that you can do right now to move you towards this big, crazy, delusional vision, what happens then? You're basically stepping— now we're gonna get it, it's like a color gradient, right? You're moving from orange to pink. You're stepping on a stepping stone that's still like 99% orange, but now it's got 1% of that soft pink vibration in it. Okay. Cool. What happens when you do that? Your energy shifts ever so slightly. Your identity shifts ever so slightly. What happens when your energy shifts? Your perspective opens up and changes ever so slightly. What happens when your perspective changes? What you perceive, what you observe, what seems possible to you, the ideas that you have, the things that come into your awareness Change. So then lo and behold, because that's changed, you're now aware of another step that you could make. You couldn't have become aware of that second step until you made the first step. Why? Because the first step shifted your energy enough so that you become resonant with the awareness that you needed to take the second step. Okay. Amazing. Now, you know, a second step. Now you step on the second step. Guess what? Now you're 98% orange. You're 2% pink. You're moving, and you're going to feel the whole time like it's delusional. You're going to question yourself the whole time. You're going to be full of self-doubt. You're going to be like, "Is this even the right thing to do? This is pointless." Blah blah blah. But you're just going to keep stepping. You're going to keep stepping, and the path illuminates as you walk it. Your energy shifts as you move along the path. By the time you're on step ten or step twenty. You're gonna be in a place that you didn't even know existed, right? You're gonna be stepping on a step that back when you were in step 0, you didn't know that any of these steps existed, which is why looking for the way how before you step is a total waste of time. You'll be waiting your whole life to figure it out, right? So you're now on a step that you didn't even know existed. How many times has that happened, by the way? Just think of in your life the amount of times you've started an endeavor, or maybe you started a job or a relationship. and you're a year in or a few months in, and your experience on what's happened is so much different to what you thought it would be, right? So it's the same thing in this. You don't know. You do not know how the path's gonna unfold. And this is also like, this is the way that you create. This is a very feminine way of creating, which your creativity is in its essence a feminine energy. It's creating from a place of trust and surrender, from a place of feeling intuitively. This is the vision. I feel it in my body. This is where I'm meant to go. And now I'm going to feel into my body and feel what's the step that I can take from here. It might be that you go to a dance class. It might be that you just make a phone call. That was my first step when I started on YouTube. You guys, my first step wasn't starting on YouTube. My first step was going, "This is crazy that I want to do mindset coaching. Nobody I know does that." And then my brain went, "Ah." You know someone who knows someone who does that, and I messaged that person. That was my first step. You know it took me months to even do that first step. So my first step was a conversation, which opened up the next step for me because I started shifting my energy into actually okay this could be something, right? So the path illuminates as you walk it, and. You might be halfway through the path. You're standing on step 20, for example. Your identity has shifted a lot. Your energy has shifted a lot. But what can happen when you're on this path is I described it earlier as like this line, right? It's not a straight line. It goes down and it goes up and it goes in and it goes out and it weaves around and around. And most of the time, if I've learned anything from everything that I've manifested and everything that's happened in my life over the last couple of years, which has just been insane, As soon as you set the desire, you set the vision, and you, you say, which is a very masculine energy thing, you put your stick in the ground, you define it, and you say, I'm going there. And then you surrender out of the masculine into the feminine. You surrender to the co-creative process with the universe, and you open up to letting the path unfold in the way that it needs to. The path will unfold in a way that you don't expect it. But the exact situations, the exact dynamics, the exact interactions, the exact opportunities, the exact challenges, the exact circumstances, the exact triggers that you need in order to become the version of you that can have this vision, this dream, those things will be placed in your path. Not by you, by the divine intelligence that created you and created this entire extremely intelligent universe that's more intelligent than you and your logic. Sorry to say it, but it is. But what a relief you don't have to figure everything out. You can actually surrender to this and go, wow, okay, there's a bigger picture at play here. What a beautiful thing to be aware of. Let me just get out of the way. Let me get out of the way. Someone asked this in the community this week. They were trying really hard to embody their future self, and they were having a lot of difficulty with their current situation, saying that it was triggering them out of them, out of being their future self, and how can they stay in that energy? And I just said to them, like, look, this situation that you're in, you're in it for a reason, right? There's probably something that you need to learn in this exact situation if you've decided. that that vision, that desired reality is where you're going, right? And you're doing your best to let go of the how, to follow your intuition, to stay connected and open, to respond instead of react to your circumstances. If you're doing your best to do all of that, then oftentimes the things that are in front of you, they're there because they're there to shape you essentially into the exact person you need to be to have what you desire. But the catch is you can't see it while you're in it. And this is kind of what we call an in-between phase. It's like the void where you don't know which way is up, you don't know which way is down. You'll have moments where you're like, oh yes, this is why, and this, okay, we're moving, we're grooving, I've actually come so far. And then you'll have moments where you're like, what is going on? I'm back in the third dimension. You know, whatever, whatever it is you're trying to do, you're like, Am I crazy? I've lost residence with all my friends. I want to go back, but you can't go back. And you're kind of just in resistance at that point to whatever's happening in your life, when the very thing that you're in resistance to on this path is probably the very thing that is supposed to teach you, train you, and change you into the exact person that you need to be. So for example, let's say you're in this work dynamic and you're like, if I could just Get rid of this work dynamic. If this work dynamic with this colleague of mine could just stop happening, then I would be able to fully embody my higher self. Then I would have my dream job, and this would all be over. But what if that dynamic and that challenge with that colleague is the very thing that's teaching you the patience, the communication, the non-reactivity that you need to learn in order to become that higher version of you? What if it's showing you an unhealed part of you that still is afraid of conflict, for example, when this next level version of you needs to be comfortable or more comfortable with conflict for whatever reason, right? So this is what I mean. And the reason I'm giving you these examples right now is because when you're going from where you are to the dream destination, there's gonna be a winding, curving, dipping and diving, rising and falling journey and path of things and experiences and goings-on. And guess what? It's perfect. It is perfect. Your only job is to trust the process. And in that process, you do not allow, as best you can, the mind to come in and tell you that it's not logical, that it's not practical, that it's not reasonable, that you can't do it because you're not capable. Well, of course It's not going to be you. It's going to be another version of you. It's going to be the version of you that's gone on the journey to getting there, that's shed the old parts of themselves, that's stepped outside the comfort zone, that's done the winding road and shifted their vibration. It's going to be that version of you that's in the vision. So this version of you doesn't need to keep listening to this version of you's mind. Because this version of you's intellect and mind and logic doesn't know. They don't know. They're running an old tape back. You don't need to keep listening to that tape. And if you want to live a big life, if you want to live your dreams, you've got to stop listening to the small old tapes that have nothing to do with your dreams. 'Cause they're not gonna take you there. They're gonna just keep taking you away. They're gonna keep taking you to the dream graveyard where the dreams never ever happen. And the thing that I really wanna like get to with this is you have no idea how, literally, 'cause it's not in your mind, you have no idea how capable you are of great, amazing, aligned, expansive, things. You have no idea how capable you are until you start just stepping forward and doing the thing. No awakening, no expansion, no revelations, no activations of potential have ever happened inside the comfort zone. I'm so sorry to tell you, they've never happened inside the comfort zone. But any person who's achieved anything great started Not being great. They started bang average or perhaps even below average. And the way that they became great is by simply stepping into the unknown and allowing the path to unfold as they walked it. If you had told me 2 years ago or 2 and a half years ago, however long I started this channel, that this channel would be what it is today, I only had a goal of 100,000 subscribers, you guys. I wasn't even aiming that high, right? I need to redo my vision. No, I don't actually. I have enough vision downloads today for one day. But I wasn't even aiming that high. I didn't even know, like, guys, I thought my end identity— and this is why I've been having an identity crash out since March— I thought my end identity was YouTuber. I didn't even aim that high. But if you had told me that once I started on this path, I would spiral and become the woman that I am today, the creatress that I am today, I would have— I would never have believed you, right? It's only for the going on the mission, on the quest, on the journey that I was able to discover all of these dormant powers and talents and faculties that were sleeping within me, waiting for me to just move and activate them. So, like, your dreams are so doable. All of that to say, your dreams are so doable. You guys, if I someone who came from the back end of nowhere in Ireland where, you know, nobody really does this kind of thing— more and more people are doing it now— where, you know, this felt like just a stupid delusional pipe dream for the longest time. If I can make my dreams come true just by doing and falling forward, so can you. So can you. There was nothing special about me when I started, or I didn't think, right? I figured out what was special about me along the way. And the same thing will happen to you. I promise it. I promise you it will. But you've gotta start to find that out. You've gotta start to find that out. The beauty of going for an aligned desire is that it strips away all the parts of you in that path and on that journey. It strips away all the parts of you that aren't really you. And there is no greater gift you could give yourself than to go on a journey to fulfilling an aim that's going to take you out of a box of an identity that's not even you, that was created by your conditioning, by your trauma, by your programming, right? There is no greater gift you could give yourself than coming into your power and coming into your authenticity. And one of the best and most potent ways to do that is to run headfirst at something that feels aligned, that lights you up, but you're scared as shit to do. To do. That will rewire you. That will throw you into shadow work. You're gonna have to face all the parts of you that think you're not enough, that are afraid to be seen, that are afraid to be heard, that are afraid of your power, that are afraid of success, that are afraid of failure. Afraid, afraid, afraid. You know, all these parts of you, you will have to face all of them on that journey. But when you have the vision that's pulling you, it will help you through those moments. It will help actually illuminate those parts more than just sitting idle, right? It's like that analogy that I give sometimes. If you've got a glass of water with soil in it. So let's say all the soil is these unconscious shadow aspects of you that are your fears, your limitations, your insecurities, like all these, like you're perfectionist, like all these things that you think are you. Like that part of me who thought I would never be good on social media or my voice was weird or whatever. Like what the hell? Or I used to have a part of me whose biggest fear was public speaking. She would cry right now if she saw me, but— Right, all these, all these little unconscious parts that were created throughout your life in moments of distress or trauma, they're there like soil in the bottom of the glass. If you don't move in any significant direction, if you don't really aim for something different, your water is just going to stay stagnant and those parts are going to stay unconscious. But when you start moving towards something, especially something that's in alignment, right? Really, it kind of has to be an aligned desire for this process to really, really work. There's lipstick all over my glass. Don't judge me. What happens then is it's like someone turns the tap on and the soil starts to come up and come out and starts to be purified because all of these parts of you that aren't really you, that are scared and insecure and all of these illusory things, They have an energetic vibration that does not correspond with your dream reality. So you've got to integrate those parts of you in order for those vibrations to cease to exist in your being so that your energetic vibration can match that of your desired reality so that you can live it and experience it. Mm-hmm. So typically that journey is a shadow work journey. The good news is You can take the first step. You can do it scared. You can do shadow work. I'll leave my shadow work video in the description. You can, even if you want a community of supportive people to do it, you can join my community. You can find people who are doing this with you. And you don't have to figure it all out at once. You can do these things in little bits and pieces. And the best news out of all of it is, it's It's not, you're not gonna be alone, right? You are in this co-creative process with the universe. So the universe is gonna show you what you need to heal when you need to heal it. The universe is gonna show you where you need to step when it's time to step. The question is, are you going to respond when that ball is in your court? Are you gonna kick the ball back to the universe when they kick it to you, right? Mostly I feel like right now we are in a time of divine feminine activation. I just did a divine feminine activation meditation today with my community. And what that means is the old structures and ways of being, creating, living, earning, existing, working are changing. And the old way of sitting down and writing a to-do list and trying to intellectualize your way into alignment and into fulfillment is dying out. It's old news. It's not gonna work anymore, right? If you've been forcing yourself to fit inside a box, to chase versions of success that feel like death to you for a long time, then it's time to throw out the box. It's time to start getting delusional, making your own rules, and following what actually lights you up. Because when you follow what lights you up, That is coming from your creative feminine energy, your life force. When you use your masculine action-taking energy to support that feminine creative life force, that's the yin and yang within you operating, your masculine and feminine in harmony to actually create in the most powerful way that you could possibly create as a creator being, which you are designed in God's image. So This is like my logical explanation as to why you should be following what lights you up. When you move from a place of inspiration, from a place of connection to yourself, from a place of feeling like that feeling of excitement and desire and acting on it despite it not making sense, following those intuitive nudges each day, even though nobody understands what the hell you're doing, least of all you, what that does is it keeps you connected to that vision. To that feminine creative energy. And when you have that, that's like your inner gas, your fuel, okay? Your masculine energy is your inner car. It's the vehicle. It's the action taker. Most people are just in the vehicle. They've got no gas. They've got no gas because they're disconnected. They don't, they don't care about what they're doing. They're not connected to what they're doing. They're talking themselves out of all of their dreams and the things that excite them. And so they're in a car with like this much fuel and they're not really getting anywhere. But if you are in the car and you are actually just following your alignment and you're following the dreams and you're following the things that light you up, you've got so much fuel and life force behind you that your actions become effortless. Okay. Maybe at first you might have to get used to building masculine structure if you have issues with discipline and whatnot. But over time, what happens is You are so lit up by the thing that you are doing that you can't help but to do it. That is the divine masculine in its purest form. It's supporting, protect— protecting, providing, and initiating on behalf of that divine feminine feeling, of that divine feminine spark. Okay, so if you really want to be the most successful version of you, this is the way to do it. It's not by trudging up a hill pushing a boulder, forcing all of your actions, forcing all these systems and rules and restrictions and ways of doing things that feel like crap. No, it's by doing the thing that lights you up, following that inner fire, following that inner light, and then the actions, the structures, all of that falls into place naturally. It's almost like you can't help but to take action on the thing because you're so excited by it. For example, right now it's probably like 11 PM. You know, I've been beating myself up the last couple of weeks for having my sleep cycle messed up because I'm like, okay, intellectually, if I fix my sleep cycle, if I get it perfect, then I'll wake up in better energy in the morning and then I might get all my things done. When, like, if I keep denying my rhythms and when my inspiration hits, then I'm never gonna have the energy that I actually need to create what I really need to create. Okay, are you with me? This applies to men and women. It's obviously a little bit stronger if you are incarnated in a female body, but we all have masculine feminine energies within us. We're supposed to use both. So let's say, for example, it's almost 11 PM. Let's say I didn't record this video tonight and I forced myself to go to bed. I had all of this, all of this like creative energy, all of this insight that wanted to come out of me, right? That's that feminine creativity. I shut it down and I do what's logical and I put myself into bed. You can guarantee I'm gonna be sitting in bed like trembling, like Foaming at the mouth. I'm not gonna sleep for hours. I'm still gonna wake up late. And guess what? I'm gonna have interrupted that creative flow, that divine feminine energy, for what? I would have betrayed her. My masculine action-taking energy would have betrayed her just to do what's logical. And then they come out of synergy and balance, and then you come out of flow. Okay, so all of that to say, wherever you are right now, let's say you have that big dream, that big vision. Don't try to take steps that are logical, okay? If there is an obvious step that you're like, okay, this is the one that makes the most sense and it feels pretty good and pretty aligned, okay, go for it. But sometimes the step that you need to take makes no sense, but you feel it. You feel it intuitively that it is right. You feel your energy expand when you think about it. Take that one. Right? Just take that one, and especially if it feels expansive and it puts you outside your comfort zone, especially if it feels like it's going to expand your energy and your identity, and it's outside your comfort zone, so it's also going to rewire a perceived limitation that's in your mind. Because this whole journey, you guys, from here to the dream, is basically just a process of dis Dismantling every little illusion in your mind about who you are and what you can do. And that is all, all that they are, my friends, is illusions. They are all illusions of the mind. None of it is real. Okay. With that, my loves, I'm going to leave it there. Please remember, you are perfectly capable. You just have to start stepping From where you are and do what you have or what you can here and now. And before you know it, what once seemed so delusional will begin to become reality. If someone else can do it, my love, so can you. You got this. I'm sending you so much love, a big hug, and I will see you in the next one. Bye.
