#505 Career PTSD Revisited

Flow Dreaming. It's a show where we talk about the power of your mind to change your world around you, to literally affect the fabric of your reality. We talk about this feeling of hope and joy and relief. And that is what being aware of your flow does. It gives you a feeling of power again in your lives. And that is what being aware of your flow does. It gives you a feeling of power again in your lives. Breathe. It is the feeling that you bring forward. It is your emotional connection that really sets the tone for what is going to be happening to you and for you. And you know that feeling when you touch it, it just spreads through you. I'm Summer McStravik and welcome to another episode of Flow Dreaming. Hi, it's Summer. And a quick request before we jump into the show, if you like or even love what you're about to and the number one reason this show has gotten around and stays in the favorites in itunes and the App Store, it's because of your reviews. And we are in our 11th straight year because of you and your reviews. People rely on your opinion and frankly, they often misunderstand Flow Dreaming. And the only way to correct that is through you leaving a few words about the program. And I can't do it. I would if I could, but it has to be you. So if I've made any impact on your life at all, please, please scoot over to itunes on your podcast app and either subscribe to Flow Dreaming or write a review of the show or the app or both. And mega kisses for doing both. I'll send some good flow your way, too. So pause the episode and do it now or just get onto the show. Welcome, everyone, to Flow Dreaming. Hi, I'm Summer. How are you today? I'm delighted to be here. I say this all the time, but it's true. It's true. It's true. I'm excited because I get to revisit a topic that I haven't spoken into for several years at least, and it was one of my most popular, popular episodes. In fact, I got a couple of emails just in the last couple of weeks from people who said, where is that? I'm looking for that old show. I'm looking. It was the best one you ever. And I thought, you know what? I need to update that sucker. So that's what we're doing today. Career PTSD revisited. So let's get going here. First of all, in the newest format that I've been playing with with my my podcast, I will not be taking calls. I experimenting with A new format where I'm kind of getting deep into a topic for, I don't know, half an hour or so. We take a little break and then we come back and we go into flow. We do some flow dreaming around that topic. And my intention is to kind of build up a library of these really juicy, focused, honed episodes that you're able to go back to and say, okay, this is the one I need today, or this is the flow dream I need now. And eliminate alternating the call in aspect, at least for a while, is going to allow me to really stay in this focus. So for those of you who've also been emailing me, hey, where. How do I call you right now? You can't, of course, if you're listening to this on demand and you know this is an older episode, who knows what have. What may have changed? You can always go to my website@flowdreaming.com, just click on the podcast link and that's where you'll find all the latest, you know, information about the show, including all that, different ways to listen. And my God, there are a ton. In fact, I just got us on iheartradio. So if you're looking for new, new ways to listen, check out iheartradio. I'm there now, too. Okay, so let's get back to this idea of career PTSD revisited. So last night I was actually on the. The phone for an hour with my. My little brother. He's a lieutenant colonel in the army, and we were talking about ptsd, you know, from his perspective, having been over in Iraq and, you know, some of the guys under his command. My experiences with PTSD as a cancer survivor, and we were kind of correlating how similar it is. Right? You know, ptsd, Post Traumatic Stress disorder, or. It's a condition. It's an emotional condition that can actually root itself in your body and become a physical condition as well. Right? Because most things that we experience emotionally root themselves in our body. It's like our body, our cells anchor it. If you go into a state of panic or anxiety or fear, your body is definitely participating in that. It's an emotional response, it's a physical response. And your intellectual self, your mind is just sitting back and saying, hey, wait, this is screwed up, this. What's going on here? You know, why are you guys all firing off with all of these feelings? When you're not in danger, your mind kind of has to take a back seat and then clamber back into to control again. When you're experiencing a form of ptsd, It's a lingering aftershock, right? It's a feeling that what happened before may happen again. I might be in danger, and I can't let it go. That sense of impending danger or doom or peril surrounds me, colors me. It's just under the surface. And those of us who are cancer survivors know this. We have emotional healing. Once our bodies are healed, we have a lot of work to do on our emotional selves, our mental selves, to heal that feeling of, will it recur? Will this happen to me again? Am I still going to die? It's a road you have to kind of walk through. It's the same thing that a survivor of a conflict, army, terrorism, same thing that they have to move through. Will I be hurt again? Am I safe here? What about your work and career? I know, strange. You're like, what these. Your work and career in no way can equate with something like being a cancer survivor or a survivor of a, you know, 9, 11 or anything. What? Hear me out. When you experience career ptsd, it's not something that usually occurs in just a day. It's something that works on you over time. You know, it. It chews on you. It's like termites in the attic. Takes a while continuously gnawing on you, changing you, changing the way that you approach life, that you think about yourself, everything. And most of us don't even realize that we have career PTSD until we have left the situation. When you're in it, you probably are not going to be aware of it. When you're battling cancer, you're not thinking about ptsd. You're in the moment. You're fighting a war, a war to heal yourself. When you're fighting overseas, you're in the moment. You're fighting for your own preservation. And when you're at work in an unhealthy, difficult environment, you are likewise fighting for your own preservation. Same thing. Same thing. So I am dedicating this episode to all of you who've ever experienced a work situation where you came home each night depressed, angry, upset, emotionally flatlining, feeling like you just, you know, took another one in the gut, feeling like you picked up on everyone else's negativity. I'm devoting this, this, or dedicating this podcast to those of you who cry before you go into work in the morning, who dread Mondays. You know what? I have been that person. There was a period in my life where I would stand in the bathroom and put on my makeup and cry and redo my makeup. And change my clothes. I once had a boss who felt so threatened by me that I would purposely put on my worst outfits if I knew that I had to see her or meet with her that day. In fact, I wrote a blog post about it. The ugly black jacket I wore for my boss, Go look it up on my website. I put that on, and I had two little kids and I had snot all over my sleeves, and I rumpled it up. It was horrible. It was a polyester wreck. I didn't want her to feel threatened. I needed my job. I needed it. I had kids to raise. I needed it. So I downplayed my light, covered it up, tried to not be a threat, tried to fly under her radar. Yet my work was speaking for itself. I was crushing it. So every day, I'd walk in with this terribly conflicting, emotional, energetic landscape. On the one hand, I was proud. I felt great. I loved my work, loved my job. And yet another part of me said, shh. Don't show it. Don't talk about it. Keep it under wraps. Be careful. Be very, very careful. What happens in flow? You guys who've been listening long enough, you should know this by now. What happens in flow when we walk around with two conflicting simultaneous energy states inside of us? It's a battle. Sometimes you say, well, they just cross each other out. No, not so. They're at war with one another. Your resources are split. You have to actively contain and hold and feel both aspects. And that's what a lot of us do at work every single day. If you have a boss who's yelling at you, you have to hold that and contain that. Why? Because you want your job. You need your job. So you have to stuff it. You have to do something with it. Not many of us simply allow it to roll off of us. Doesn't affect me. I don't care. Not many of us can do that. Most of us have to somehow process that abuse. Some of us are so used to that abuse, we don't even see it anymore. Think about your co workers who come in with all of their negativity and they just talk about it all day long. You become so used to it, you stop seeing it. You stop noticing it. Yet there it is piling up around you, infiltrating you, infiltrating your field, infiltrating your emotional self. Day after day. You spend more time with your co workers than your family. Generally speaking, your folk, your co workers become your family. So what are you taking from them? What are you receiving from them? Every day I learned years ago that companies act a lot like their founders, right? If you look at a company and you look at a family, they're almost the same thing. And this is a conversation again with my brother last night. We were saying how, you know, the military acts a lot like a big company. I'm like, I come from the world of entrepreneurship and he's in the world of military. And we said, yeah, you know, the same dysfunctions that happen in families, happen in companies, happen in military. It's groups of people, folks. It's just groups of us gathered together and we have the same common dysfunctions that flow through every kind of grouping of us together. People say politics are screwed up and then they trust companies and businesses instead. And then some people say, no, I don't trust businesses or corporations, but I trust politics. Why make that distinction? They're all just editions of each other groups of people working together with the same kinds of dysfunctions. So here's how it works, right? I'm going to give you a little context for maybe what led you to this place inside yourself to discover if you are carrying around a kind of PTSD and maybe you're still at your job and you're carrying it, or maybe you've recently been fired or laid off from your job and now you're really feeling the effects of it. I want today's episode to really help heal you and get you on the next new road, the one you need to be on to recover from this. So when a business is birthed, you know, and this could be the restaurant down the street where you're the server. It could be a, you know, a giant corporation where you go up to the eighth floor every morning and get in your cubicle. It could be any kind of company, any kind of business when it's small, it's going to act a lot like its founder, right? Maybe under a hundred people. The person who started the company had a direct hand in what is known as the company culture. The flaws that you find in that founder, you will find in the rest of the company. It's like a crystal with cracks through it, right? The founders cracks are going to be mirrored in the way that that company runs. You know, most companies, they say most small businesses go out of business. Isn't that crazy? You want to know why? Want to why? Think why? I don't think it has a lot to do with economics sometimes. Yes, it does, right? If you're starting a business and you know, the economy implodes around that area, you know, in the Year you start, it's probably going to go down. But I think most small businesses and businesses fail because the people who started it have some issues and things going on inside themselves that they cannot solve. And if they can't solve it, their employees are not going to be able to solve it. If they don't know how to budget or spend correctly, then their employees are going to be following that lead. If they don't know how to manage people, then they're going to be completely losing, constantly losing employees. You see this, you know this, you look at your work probably right now, if you're experiencing PTSD and you're thinking, I have no, no idea how this freaking company continues to exist with the way that it's run. Who, who said that before? Like, raise your hand. Yes, I have said that before. And yet it does. It's like a dysfunctional family. It keeps just slopping along poorly and everyone inside is unhappy. Yet no one leaves. No one leaves. Why? And the ones who do leave, you say, oh, she escaped, she's so lucky. I've been in companies like that where people say, oh, she escaped, she's so lucky. As a company gets bigger and the founder steps away, you know, we're talking corporations now. That company culture becomes part of who that company is. If the founder's done a good job, then those companies become known as, you know, a workplaces. Great, you know, great places to be. Yet there are plenty of places where that never happens. And weird, disgusting, emotional, energetic and physical patterns become just epidemic inside those companies. Who among you listening right now have ever felt like you had to fight for scraps? Right? There was only so much power that was given down and everyone is fighting for it. You and your co workers, like, who gets the newest office chair, right? That's fighting for scraps. Who gets to make an important decision? Fighting for scraps. You shouldn't be fighting over those little things. Those are ridiculous. That's a sign of an unhealthy company. In fact, if you're fighting over anything, that's a sign of an unhealthy company. Instead, you should be working together here. How can I help empower you? What do you need? Can you help me with this? I feel healthy. I feel like I have all the power that I need to do my job really well. I feel that my employees or my co workers or the other departments or, you know, the other staffers, they support me. They really want to see me do well. Can you imagine that feeling? Or is that completely opposite what you're Experiencing if it's opposite what's going on, why is everyone withdrawing or withholding support for each other? Can you see how this makes a business sick? If all of the employees are doing that, makes it sick. When it's, well, everyone is not thinking about themselves, their scraps, but they're thinking about the company, what's good for it. So I had a big disillusionment in my. In my life years and years ago. You know, when I first started working for other people, I always thought, well, you do what's good for the business, right? That's number one. And gradually, I realized most other people I was working with were not thinking that they were doing what was good for them. And it was weird. It was so weird because I was thinking, what's good for the business? If I do something good for the business, that will reflect well on me and I'll be rewarded. And everyone else was thinking, no, no, I need to do what's good for me. And maybe it'll be good for the business, and maybe it won't, but it'll be good for me. Two incredibly different approaches. Now, I talk about this because when we get into flow and energy and emotion, right? Your approach, where you're coming from, your beliefs, your expectations, that is what shapes who you are, who you become, and the kind of experience that you receive. So the people who are going out there thinking, I'm only doing what's good for me in this job, they're having a very different experience of work than the person who's saying, I'm doing what's good for the company. Which one are you? Which one have you been? Which one have you, unfortunately, perhaps been molded into becoming? And eventually I got to the point where I said, I have to do what's good for me. I have to become exactly like the people I don't like. This is where PTSD starts. When you begin compromising, when you begin fighting for scraps, when you begin absorbing this poor culture around you, and you become so used to it, you don't even see it, right? I mean, we always say, why do women stay in abusive relationships? He hit her once. Why did she go back? She's crazy. No, she's not. She's just so used to it. She's forgotten that there is any other way of being. And we, too, forget that there are other ways of being. It becomes our entire world. We can't see outside of it. You're like a mouse in a big old cardboard box. You only see the walls that are surrounding you. Forgotten that there is any place else, any other way that there can be. You theoretically know it, but you haven't experienced it in so long. You've been training yourself. Look at it like this. Every single day you go to work, you've been training yourself in how to handle that environment. You've trained yourself in that. How do I handle an abusive environment? How do I handle an abusive environment? That is what you've trained yourself for as much as you've trained yourself for. How do I get this work done now? What happens? What's the eventual kind of, where does this lead? Where does this go? Well, look at work as a relationship. Let's go back to that again. When you are in a partnership with someone, you come together because you match. You align your lives, align your lifestyles, align. Where you live perhaps is in the same city, or you went to the same classes together, or you go to the same gym. You're in a state of flow together, a state of alignment together. Your hearts are at the same place. You have the same desires and goals for yourself or to create a family or whatever it may be. You come together, you're aligned. When you start a new job and it's a good job, it's like entering a new relationship. It's like falling in love. You're aligned, you're excited. You're like, wow, this could go someplace. Think about those jobs where you've started, where you're not that way. Ugh, it's. I'm just going there because I need the money and I don't want it, but I have to do it. Right. That's like you dating that guy you don't really like because it's just something to do, you know, it's not going to last yet you do it anyway. And who ended up dating that guy for five years, right? Yeah. More of you are like, yeah, I've done that before. Whose ends up staying in that job for five years? So let's go back to maybe it was a good job. Maybe you were actually kind of excited. Stoked. Yeah. I got this job. It's great. It's my next step. It was good for a while, and then it started to not be so good. And you started to feel like, wow, things have changed. It's not good. I got a new boss. I got transferred. My job changed. It doesn't feel good anymore. I don't like these people. I don't like this work. What's happened? What's going on? Right. This becomes a critical juncture, and most of Us have experienced this change in circumstance. Look at it like this. Look at a partnership. Each person has to keep growing. They have to keep growing at the same pace to fulfill each other. If you continue to grow and your workplace doesn't. Right. This is really common. The workplace is kind of stagnating. It's not really going anywhere. And again, this may be coming from the founder, the person at the top who's just saying, eh, you know, I'm just kind of tired of it. I'm over it. No, no, no. Who knows? But something has occurred where everything is just, you know, not really going anywhere. And yet you are. And things change and you're not connecting anymore. You've outgrown the job, you've outgrown the workplace. Yet you don't want to admit it to yourself any more than a person who's been married wants to admit that maybe I've outgrown my partner. God, I really want them to catch up. Can't we go to counseling? Wouldn't you love to take your job to counseling with you? Too bad we can't. And that's when you start to fit in. You start to dumb down, or as my earlier example, you start to dim your light. I can't be that way. I can't be that way. I. You know, I learned in the job that I'm speaking of, that if I shine too bright, I will be punished. If I shine too bright, I will be fired. If I shine too bright, I'll be held down. If I shine too bright, other people will try and take my job because they'll see that other people don't like me, and I'll be vulnerable. And all kinds of stuff, all kinds of new and icky landscapes start appearing. PTSD landscapes. Conclusions I reach naturally because now I'm not growing and living. I'm dealing with and surviving. That is where you end up with ptsd. That is where, when you finally exit, you end up with this whole set of conclusions inside yourself that frankly, are quite wrong and gross and scary and upsetting. And you have to work to rehabilitate yourself, rehabilitate your mind. So what happens in the. In the end? Right. How does this. This difficult work situation end up? Well, usually two ways. Either you become so frustrated, you just quit. Hate it. Hate you, Bye. Sometimes that happens. Usually what happens is you get forced out. There is something where eventually the workplace. Look, you cannot. If you are in misalignment with a situation, it will not last. And I wrote a blog post about that, too. It's called oh, Lord, Let Anything Hurtful Spit Me Out Like a Bad peanut. I love that title. I hope you can remember it. Just. Just go to the blog and search the word peanut and you'll find that one. But it describes the exact process of what happens when two things are no longer in alignment. You will be separated. And you can do it consciously, or you can allow it to happen painfully. That's where some of you get laid off or fired or something happens to just make the division boom. You just can't stay energetically. Doesn't work anymore. Because remember, your job is feeling it as much as you. It's not just you being unhappy. The other partner is unhappy too. They perhaps may be secretly suffering or not consciously suffering, but they're suffering too. And if it's a. If it's a climate of suffering that you're leaving, they may not even realize it's you. It's just the climate. You just contributed to that climate of suffering. Remember, when you go to a workplace, you're one person inserting yourself into a group of five or ten or fifty or one hundred or a thousand. One person in that big crowd. The dominant energy comes from the crowd. So every time you insert yourself into that crowd, they have more energy than you. If you have to go in every day putting up some sort of defense or shield, that's work that's wearing that will wear you out so fast your head will spin. So this is why you eventually change over time. Some people reach the point where they should be spit out where the alignment happens. And instead of saying, okay, I'm done with this. Get me out of here, they go the other way. And they get, you know, they say, you know what those 99 people who influence me every day at work, whose energies that I'm swimming in, I give up. And they become one of those people. And that's why you see a lot of good people who are robots, they've given up. They're like, I don't. It's too hard to be misaligned, so I'm gonna go ahead and align to the bad place. And they don't know they're doing it, of course, but they've just given up because they're afraid. That's why we do it. That's why we give up and. And stay in bad situations. Whether it's a relationship or a workplace, we give up. Harder to leave, scarier to leave. What will happen if I leave? So what happens when you leave? Those of you who have been out of work for a While. And you're wondering, why am I not getting another job? I'm asking you. Have you healed yourself? Have you healed yourself? Whatever you left your last job with is what you are entering your next job with. Inside of you. You hear that? Really hear it. Whatever you left your last job with is what you're entering your next job with. If you left your last job with regret, anger, feeling ousted, feeling unappreciated, and you're looking for your next job, guess what? Those feelings don't just go away. They're there. They're in you. Unless you have done clearing and healing, unless you have flow, dreamed differently, unless you've gone in there and actively said, yeah, ooh, gotta heal and let go of that. Gotta. Gotta clear that trauma, then it's still there. And if you're sending out resume after resume, I've talked to hundreds of people over the last decade or more, sending out resume after resume. No one's calling me back. I got one interview and that was it. What's going on? I'm like, well, look what's inside of you. You don't really want a job. Jobs are ugly, scary, and difficult. You hate getting up in the morning. You don't want to be driving on the freeway every day. You don't want to commute anymore. You don't want to give up your time. You're afraid that the job is going to suck. The boss is going to suck. This is all swirling around inside you. And so when you say to Flo, I need money. And yet you have all of this inside you, what's Flo gonna do? It's gonna say, ugh, I don't know what we're gonna do with this. We better just not do anything. It's a stalemate. This is where you need to heal. Give yourself recovery time. You've been bruised, you've been, you know, you've been like a fighter in the ring, being asked to go right back in with your face bloody. Let yourself heal. And, yeah, I know, maybe. Maybe you need the money. You're like, summer, you know, I've only got, you know, 30 days before my unemployment runs out. What do I do? Heal? Ask yourself. Look inside. What do I really feel about work? What do I think will happen? What am I dreading? What am I anticipating? Do I really feel that my next job will be better? Or do I think it's going to be more of same or worse? What do I really feel? What are my real inner expectations? Go deep flow. Dreaming is a process for emotional reconditioning. It's also a process for manifesting because frankly, when you emotionally recondition yourself, you are manifesting whatever it is that you're feeling. Right? This is why flow dreaming is different than the law of attraction. It's who you are is what you receive. Who you are is what you receive. If what you are is God. I'm an amazing worker. I love, I am passionate about this. I am in service to this. I get a kick out of this. I love this. I want to dig my hands and feet and fingers into this. Someone wants me to do this for them. Some business wants me to do this for them. I am the best darn teacher. I am the most impressive policeman. I am the absolute best hang gliding instructor. I am the lawyer that you want to higher because I am so good. I am so good. I love this and I love my co workers and I love the way that my work is structured and I feel good. The way that I earn money, the way that I spend my days, I feel good about. If you go into life from that point of view, what is flow line up for you? Is it gonna line up something that doesn't match? Is it gonna line up a sucky boss? Who is gonna. Who's gonna say no to all of that? No, you can't have that. No, you can't have a good day. No, you can't have that. No, it's not. And if it does, you're not gonna last at that job. You're gonna be there about two weeks and something's gonna happen and boom, you will lose it. It will not match you. So why aren't we all feeling that way? PTSD, folks. That's why. Because we've got deep stuff in us that needs to be brought up, healed and flushed through our hearts. Did a podcast a few weeks ago, the head and the heart. Look it up. It's about how things get stuck in us. And this is a prime example. When you're ready to get that good job, when you're ready to embark on that new career, you need to be healed of all the past trauma, all the past expectations that your last job or series of jobs created in you because you will receive what you are used to. You'll. You'll get more of same. Every. Every one of you. Who's saying, yeah, summer, every job has ended up being the same, right? You get more of same. Why do you get more of same? Because it keeps aligning to what you of same. If you fail to make those changes, those upgrades, those healings, Those expansions inside of you. Flow just responds to what you're giving it, which is pretty much the same. And you know, to be honest, most of us don't make those that big of a change inside of ourselves on our own. You have to find a way to keep you accountable to that change, to keep you invested in that change. That's why we end up working with career coaches or go to getting into MI school. Tons of people in ME school who are making career changes because they know that. They want to see it and clear it and move through it. They want a whole different way of being in life, and that's what we do. So think about these things. How have you been bruised? How have you been damaged? Write it down. Start the. Start the healing now. See it, then you can flow, dream through it. You can replace it. You can actively change what you're giving out. You can change your expectations. They do not have to be the same. Like that woman who says, the next relationship I have will not be emotionally abusive. It will not. Your next job will not be emotionally abusive. It will not be a place where everybody is fighting with one another or oppressing one another or distrusting one another or any of those unhealthy things that have sprung up in that culture that you got sucked into or that that culture developed over time and that you started to align yourself to over and over because you needed the job and you allowed yourself to be changed until you just couldn't stand it anymore. Right? Heal that, change that, grow that. I have a couple of playlists that I want to recommend to you. Right? Flow dreaming playlists that will also help you on this process. One of them is called the Lucrative Fulfilling Career playlist. Lucrative Fulfilling career. The other one is one you wouldn't necessarily expect. It's called Heal My Heart, Heal My Past playlist. Heal My Heart, Heal My Past. Both of these are collections of flow dreams, which are audios that you can listen to on your phone or your computer. And these audios are flow dreams that walk you through the process of healing, that walk you through the process of inner change. Transformational, emotional, energetic, flowing change. Look for those flowdreaming.com or someday soon on an app where you'll be able to also find them. So, yeah, tell you what, I'm gonna go to a quick break and when we come back, I will help you begin this process of clearing and cleansing out your emotional career related ptsd. So stay with me. We'll be back right after this. Hey, it's summer again and we're on a break. But this is where I catch you up on a couple of things that can really help you go much deeper with Flow Dreaming. First, if you're wondering how do I flow Dream? What is Flow Dreaming? Then I have a free kit I created to teach you how to be in Flow Flow, how to talk to flow, how to manifest in your flow. Go to flow dreaming.com, enter your email there, and you'll get my tutorial on how to do all of this. I also give you a free Flow dream to get started with. And this gives you the first step toward creating a freaking awesome life. And it also puts all of the concepts that you're learning this podcast into context. So pop in your email on my homepage flow dreaming.com right now. Why not? We're on break and I'll send it right to you. Then, if you want to go a step further, you can begin expanding your library of flow dreams, which are these emotionally delicious audios that help you grow your power and manifest your future. This is the stuff. This is what we actually work with, how we do it, and they're on all kinds of topics. You can end fear, you can get unstuck or find your perfect career, be seen, get out of debt, find your soulmate, clear your body of toxins. It's just the list is practically endless. These playlists are very powerful and very effective. In fact, I get emails every day with thank you notes from lottery winners, people who've just gotten married, people who got these huge unexpected bonuses at work, or they've reduced massive amounts of pain or debt, or they've healed themselves either inside or in their body. So please visit the shop@flowdreaming.com and see how you want to begin changing your life. Now back to the show. Welcome back, you guys ready to Flow Dream? All right, remember, Flow Dreaming is not meditation. It's funny. I was looking through some of the reviews of the Flow Dreaming app, which many of you are accessing actually this episode, the podcast through the Flow Dreaming app. It's free. You can find it on your Facebook. Your. Your what itunes Store, Google Store. And someone had. Had posted like, I love this program. I downloaded the app thinking it was a yoga practice. And I was laughing, I was thinking, wow, you certainly got a shock. We do not do yoga here. But Vinyasa flow. I could totally get how, you know, how you found it that way. So anyway, Flow Dreaming is not yoga. It's not meditation. It's not creative visualization. It's its own little beastly Thing. Fabulous, wonderful, rich, gorgeous emotional process, right? So we rely on guided daydreaming, strong emotion, and an understanding of flow itself. Flow, the ease, grace, beauty, forward motion of our universe, of life itself. And as my breaks have mentioned, you can go to my website and download a free kit, making it free, at least for the time being. That teaches you how to flow, dream. So if you haven't got that yet, just play along. If you do know what you're doing, let's get into some rich, deep and juicy emotion right now. All right. Eyes are closed. Relaxing, releasing. You want to let go of all your body's tension doesn't belong here. Not in Flow. Deep breath now all the way to the bottom of your lungs, down in your abdomen. And you hold it a moment or two and release. You let your shoulders drop, feel your throat open, your neck, rolling on your shoulders. Jaw releases your brow between your eyes. Let's go. You feel yourself, your body, as a physical thing. But there's more to it than that. Layers and layers. You recall that you have an energy body, a beautiful layering of yourself, infusing all of your cells, radiating out from your cells. And what some call the aura, your radiance. You feel that now, as if you were aglow with light. And you notice how this glowing light is not isolated. You imagine it. You daydream. It's. It's somehow connecting. Like a stream of light flowing in across the vastness of space into a whole stream of other lights. Connecting up, connecting in. Connecting. The forward motion of life, the universe. God, source. Growing, expanding moment by moment. The universe as it ages you. As you age, you are a light traveling forward at the speed of light, past the speed of light. You see yourself and feel yourself in this grand way. Grand, grand way. Flowing, floating, cruising, cruising forward. And then it occurs to you, oh, I came here to do this something. Came here to solve something, feel something, understand something. So you take a little detour. You kind of peel off an on ramp until you find yourself in a sacred space. Maybe this looks like a room in your own celestial home. There's a desk, chairs, couches. Some ways, it's like the most beautiful office space you've ever seen. Your inner office, your command center. It's where you spend your days, your time, your hours, your work. You sit yourself in a chair, pull yourself up against the desk, and you see all the papers spread out in front of you. Papers that represent where you've been, the kind of work that you've done. And you notice a lot of these papers Are representing states of mind, of feeling behaviors, expectations that don't meet your standards. You can feel that as anger, as upset as disappointment. And you take these papers one by one, and you crumble them, crinkle them up in your hands, throw them away. There they go, over your shoulder. Not just hitting the wastebasket. They hit the wastebasket of time, of your past. They descend, disintegrate. They get reabsorbed into your own self, your flow. You do not affect me anymore. I will never experience that again. I will never have to deal with this again. I am loved. I am adored. I'm wanted. I'm good at what I do. Anyone who's ever told me otherwise, I don't need another one like you in my life. I don't need that lesson. I don't need to feel that or be in that kind of environment ever, ever, ever again. I've done it. I've been there. I've experienced that. And I'm over it. Once is enough. I don't need to keep recreating it, and I don't keep recreating creating it. I truly let that go into my past. And I'm so committed right now, so committed inside to growing myself into the being that I know I am filled with confidence and filled with faith, Filled with knowledge of what I can do. Filled with knowledge that the next place I bring my talents to, they will see it and they will reward it. That's the experience I want. Next. Flow. I want that experience. What is it going to be like to be working in a place or with a team where they actually love me, like me, adore me, give me more. Where I can shine, where I'm asked to shine, where I can grow. That is the next new experience that I want. I want to learn what it feels like to thrive and be appreciated. Flo, give me that. That is who I am. That is my next work relationship. Bring it in. I'm so ready for it. And as I say that, I feel my heart just open, expand my arms open and expand and flow. And I say I receive it. I take it. Thank you. Thank you, flow. Thank you. And that's how I end my flow. Dream on that note of thanks and expectation. Even now, as I find myself returning and I open my eyes. And there you have it. A flow drain that helps you reposition yourself, right? Moving from awareness of where you've been into what you're actually asking for next. There's an emotional shift that should have happened for you while we did that. Now, remember, this doesn't happen overnight. You don't listen once and boom, we're done. You listen again and again. Play this podcast again and again. Go get one of those playlists where we go even deeper and richer into this. Believe me, it is so worth it. This is your future hanging on the balance, right? This is your career on the line. Okay, so that's it for this week's episode. My love goes to all of you. Come say hi to me on Facebook. In the meantime, come check out my blog, as I mentioned mentioned and@flow dreaming.com and I'll see you all next time for more Flow Dreaming. All right, that wraps up our episode today. But before you go, two things. One, you can get the Flow Dreaming app in the Google, Amazon or iTunes app stores. It allows you to search and sort to mark your favorite episodes. It's completely free to download, and it gives you access to the latest several dozen of these episodes, as well as to the Premium episode library, where there are more than 400 episodes that date back 10 years. The app's free, so go download it now at Flow Dreaming in the App Store on your mobile device. And last, if you love my show, I'm going to give a shout out to my mom's podcast. It's called the Dear Venus show and she's an amazing intuitive and a medium and super, super funny. Search the words Dear Venus in your podcast directory or online and that way you can find her too.