My Husband - Neville Goddard (04-30-1965) | Full Reading + Commentary

Neville Goddard 1965 lectures April 30, 1965 Tonight's subject is my husband. Man's historical life is really a dramatic story which presses toward the fulfillment of God's purpose. God Himself is active in this great struggle, guiding and directing all the affairs of men towards his own purpose. And so the subject, my husband, that your maker is your husband, the Lord of hosts is his name. That is the 54th chapter of Isaiah. Your maker is your husband. The Lord of hosts is his name. Verse 5. In this chapter we're told I called, that is, the Lord called you like a forsaken wife. Then he goes on to explain what he will do for this wife that He Himself forsook. He said, I forsook you for a brief moment. Well now, a brief moment in the eyes of God is not a moment in our eyes on earth. I forsook you for a brief moment. For a little moment I've hidden my face from you. But now I will redeem you. Isaiah 54, 7 and 8 and he will bring this one that he forsook, bring it back on to an everlasting union. We are told in the book of Hosea. And the day will come you will call me my husband Ishi and no longer my baal B A A L My pronunciations are not going to be totally spot on, but I'm guessing that's Baal or my owner, my lord. 2:16. Then I will betroth you to me forever. This so called day of the Lord, where He only simply sent us out and forsook us for a day, is 6,000 years. In the language of scripture we speak of a day which is simply a watch in the night. A thousand years, we're told, is only a watch in the night. Well, there are three watches in the night. That would be 3,000 years. And there are three watches to the day, the visible day. So we have six watches in a day, and each watch is equal to 1,000 years altogether. 6,000 years. So he forsook us for this short interval of time, which in the eye of God was simply a moment, but for us passing through the darkness of the day of God. For we are told by a day of God is not light, but darkness, as we are told in the book of Amos. It's not only, excuse me, is not the day of God darkness and not light? Is it not gloom where there is no light in it? 5, 20. For this is the world in which we live, and we are the forsaken. But tomorrow, at the end of this moment in time, a short moment in the eye of God, but a very long trying one in the eyes of men. The eyes of man. Excuse me. He will then gather us together one by one, and become betrothed to us forever and forever. So we are told in the book of Genesis. A man must leave all things and cleave to his wife until they become 1224 you4 and I do not believe it on a certain level that he is cleaving to us. And he is himself is suffering with us as he takes us through this day of the Lord, called the day of darkness. But he is so when we are told by the great mystic God, became as we are, that we may be as he is, we may be inclined to think these are simply the words of the poet Blake. But they are not just the words of the poet. They are true. God actually became man, that man may become God. And in the end, we are not two, we are one. He gives up, he empties himself and takes upon himself the form of a slave, and was found in the form of man, Philippians 2, 6, 8 but in the end, man will not call him my baal, for baal means my owner. If he is my owner, then I am his slave. You will not call me my baal. You'll call me my husband. And the husband and the wife in that day will be one, they will not be two. And so he cleaves to me and takes me through to the very end. In the very end he has already all the signs by which he will prove to himself that he's redeemed me, and he and I are one. Now we are told the New Testament interprets the Old, not the other way around. No one understood this story of the Book of Isaiah. My Maker is my husband, the Lord of hosts is his name. What does it mean that the Lord called me like a wife forsaken, like someone that is grieved in spirit. For a moment, a brief moment, I forsook you. But I will gather you with great compassion. And after one little moment, I will bring you into my everlasting Father. Only for a moment, I forsook you. Really? Now, in the 16th chapter of the Book of John. In a little while you will see me no more. But then in a little while, you will see me. Verse 16. Now he likens this departure from us and his return to us as a woman in travail. In this same chapter, he now takes this story that when a woman is in travail, she is in sorrow because her hour has come. But when she is delivered of the child, she no longer remembers the anguish because of the joy that a human being is born in the world. So you are in sorrow now, but you will see me again, and your hearts will rejoice and no one will take you from your joy. So in this interval we are all concerned, horribly concerned, and we find out certain techniques by which we can realize our objectives. Then comes the whole thing pounding in us again, pounding in on us again. Not only our individual lives, but the lives of those we love. A telephone call, the morning mail, or just a contact. And you don't want them to go through the struggle. And so you wonder, why can't things be just as they ought to be, as you see them as all things are crowding in on you. This is called the day of the Lord, the day of darkness, not the day of light. In the end you come out and you are one with God. For there is only one God before me. There was no God, nor shall there be any God after me. In the 43rd of Isaiah, there was no God before me, nor shall there be any God after me. Verse 10. There's only God. God actually emanating himself. And I am and you are the emanation of God. We are his emanation, his bride. Till the sleep of death is past. When the sleep of death is past, then I am the very beginning that brought the whole thing about. So I'm not doing it on the outside, apart from the begetter. The begetter became me. God actually became me, that I may become God. He became me. He shattered himself and lost himself in that blank space. Individualized it completely, not less than Himself, because he wedded himself to it. And on the return, I am one with him. He brought us all back together, a far greater being than it was before. The that fragmentation. Now here we are told, you have died and your life is hid with Christ in God. You have died, and your life is hid with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, you will appear also with him in glory. Call it Colossians 3. 3. My life is hid with Christ. But he tells me first, you are dead. The King James Version says, you're dead. The Revised Standard Version states, you have died. Paul in his letter. This is from Colossians. Paul in his letter to the Galatians, makes the statement, I have been crucified with Christ. I have been crucified with Christ, and only Christ rises. Question mark. Yes. Well, if I say to you, who are you? You will Say to me, well, I'm Bob. I'm Bill, I'm Herman. I'm Mary, I'm Judas. And you name all these names and you really believe it. So tonight when you go to bed, that's the being you take to bed. Bob, Herman, Judith, Mary. And any name that you claim is your identity. If I tell you that is not really your identity. If I tell you that you are Jesus Christ, would you believe it? If you don't take Jesus Christ to bed with you as though you were he, well, then you will take the limited being called Neville, John, Mary, any other being in this world. Then I tell you I have been crucified with Christ. And in his letter to the Colossians. Colossians, you have died and your life is hid with Christ. And when Christ appears, you appear with him in glory. Now Peter tells us in the first Epistle we are reborn through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead. One, three. There is no other way for man to be born from above. Born of God, begotten of the spirit, not of the flesh. If I am begotten of the flesh, it is from below. If I am begotten of God, it is from above. I mean, this totally makes sense. And I'm not into the. There's centers in your body, seven or eight of which the chakras. It makes complete sense when you look at the base chakra to the crown chakra and everything in between, the heart, the throat, you know, all of these chakra centers make sense in what he's describing. It reconciles for sure because down there is the earth. The base is the earth level where you're born. And then when you're born again, you're up here out of the crown. I think the crown is up here, but back of the head. Consciousness travels upward. It makes sense in the way it reconciles. That's all I'm saying. I haven't. Haven't. I'm not a specialist at the chakras. But it's hard to deny their validity in that angle of learning or teaching or what have you. Don't even be confused. I have definitely bought the pearl. Not pushing anything else except for Neville. The enlightenment of our imagination, that is the creator of all. That's what I'm all about. Let's stick to that core. But it's fascinating how these things do reconcile simply. If I am begotten of the flesh, it is from below. If I am begotten of God, it is from above. He tells me I'm reborn through the resurrection. Of Jesus Christ from the dead. This is the dead. It's like being a Jerry Garcia fan in the 90s, in the 80s and 90s for me. I am told I am crucified with him. But I always thought, until it happened to me, that he rose 2,000 years ago. Something not in any way associating with me, save as a concept I should adopt and believe that he came with a special mission. The story was told me by my mother first and then my Sunday school teacher. And then as I read the book, I always thought, until it happened to me, that it happened 2,000 years ago. I never identified it in any way with me. Remember, this is the dead. We are crucified with him in this tomb. It's quite a reversal of thinking, for sure. I mean, who else, who else but this wonder, wonder of a being known as Neville? And Abdullah, his teacher, always got to be a teacher hiding somewhere. Abdullah helped really bring that thing wide open. Abdullah, boy, oh boy. Give thanks and praise. Wow. But the wonder of the way Neville's delivering this material is just incredible. Sometimes I have to take a pause and just go, wow. But here we are again. So when I tell you now, I'm not theorizing, I am not speculating, I'm speaking from experience. The story is true. You are born again through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead in you. For if you have died now, this is the letter. Someone writes me a letter. I open the letter and I'm reading it, and it begins, you have died. Well, I'm alive. I think I am. So I read the words, you have died and your life is hid with Christ. I died here. I am alive. I'm reading a letter. For this is the letter. I don't understand how I could be dead. For I walk, I eat, I dress, I do all these things, and yet I'm told I've died. And then comes this experience. Suddenly you must have died, but you never knew it. In what is called the day of the Lord, which is all darkness, you had no knowledge of it. Is not the day of the Lord darkness and not light, said Amos. Is it not darkness and not light? All gloom and no light within it whatsoever? Well, I didn't know that. I thought this was all light. I had intelligence. I could actually bargain. I could do all kinds of things and act like an intelligent being. And therefore it seems light to me. And I am told, is not the day of the Lord all darkness. I was totally unaware that I dead, was totally unaware that I was buried until that moment in Time when God decided to unite me with himself. I have to just take a comedic pause on this whole concept because in my experience, in my timeline, and I was at Jerry Garcia's, one of his last concerts in Las Vegas. What a time, let me tell you. That was. And he was. He. He left the party in 1994 and we were at that show in 1993. A whole bunch of us drove out there. It was wonderful, amazing. LA Coliseum, that show was in the early 90s as well. I mean, it was just an interesting take because there was what's known as Deadheads, the Grateful Dead. And as Neville's breaking this all down in 1965, I'm pretty sure the Dead already had started as a band, which is a fascinating concept that these lines definitely cross over. But just in my experience, to have this whole grip of an army known as the Dead. I'd wear a T shirt and we'd go skiing, me and my friend. And we'd be at a restaurant in the Northwoods End in Azusa. And the main manager would come up to us. This is early 1990s, 30 something years ago, 33 years ago. I'd have a Grateful Dead shirt on from the LA Coliseum. I remember the manager coming up to me goes, man, we used to follow the Dead. I never heard that said so many times. People would literally leave high school and follow the Dead. They'd go with them and just follow them wherever they played. They were the highest grossing band for a large period of that early 1990s and late 80s. They would gross back then 1980s and early 90s dollars like 26 million a year, which was a lot of money for those low priced tickets. And that was a lot. They were the highest grossing act every year. But the grip of people, and they allowed everybody to record their concerts. You could take in your little tape recorder. Everybody would trade tapes. There was a massive tape trading entity that existed. I've met people. When I visited Alabama, my Navy buddy, we met a guy that was going to see the Dead. The next night. He showed me his closet was just stacked with cassette tapes of all live shows. And they would trade. There was a trading circuit, if you will. But back to the concept of the Dead. It was such a comfortable conceptual thing, considering this whole Jerry Garcia experience, little dancing bears and all that. They had already coined the term, but Neville had already coined it in his interpretation of the book. But it just brings that whole entity to life in a nice odd way. And I am told, is it not the day of the Lord? Is not the day of the Lord. All darkness. I was totally unaware that I was dead. Totally unaware that I was buried until that moment in time when God decided to unite me with Himself. He took me through the furnaces, through the long, long journey of 6,000 years. At the end of 6,000 years, he said, now you will call me my husband, and no longer will you call me my owner, my baal. I will betroth you to me forever, in fulfillment of my promise in the beginning that I will leave all and cleave to you, my emanation, my wife. We become one being, one form, one flesh. And I didn't know this. So if I am born from above, through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and when I rose in the tomb, I saw no one but myself, then I know who Jesus Christ is. So I say to you before the experience, you are Jesus Christ. He is not pretending that he's you. He became you. When you read it in Galatians, you think a man became one single little being born of a woman 2000 years ago. I am not speaking of that being. I am speaking of the cosmic Christ, the universal Christ that became every being, every. And it rose, had to rise in one. First, when all the time was fulfilled, then one broke the seal. And then from that moment on, the door is open. And one after one, I will gather you one by one, O my people of Israel. Isaiah 26:12. So he gathers us all one by one, as his bride. But gathering us one by one as his bride, he cannot put me on the side. He is my husband. But there is no more He. And then the one called wife, we fuse. For we are told in the beginning, he must leave all and cleave unto his emanation, his wife, until they become one. So there aren't two in the end, only one. Then he brings before the vision of the One to whom he is now fused, the series of events which reveal to the One who now awakes how true the word of my husband is. So hear everyone this night. And may I tell you from experience, you try it when you go to bed tonight. It may seem arrogant, it may seem blasphemous. No matter how wonderful you are in this world, forget it. Exclamation point. All the honors of this world, all the possessions of this world, are as nothing. That when you are really one with this being, you own the world. Everything, E, I, Y, P, O, everything is you pushed out. That couldn't be possible unless you were already the owner. As you're told in the 50th chapter of the Book of Psalms. Here. If I were hungry, I wouldn't tell you. For everything is mine. The cattle on a thousand hills are mine. And were I hungry, I would slay and eat verses 10 and 12. I wouldn't ask permission to take what is mine. In the 24th Psalm, the earth is the Lord's and the fullness thereof, Verse one. So it's all yours. But it's it. But it isn't yours, John Brown. It isn't mine as Neville Goddard. It isn't yours as Mary Smith. It is only yours as Jesus Christ. So if tonight you dare to assume I am Christ, I don't care what the world will tell you. Let them speculate. I am not speculating. I am speaking from experience. So you say I am Christ and don't bat an eye and feel what it would be like to be this Christ. For I know in my own case when that power possessed me and I rose within myself, entombed. And if, as Peter said in his first letter, the first chapter, the third verse, we are born again through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead. And only Jesus Christ is resurrected. Well, if only Jesus Christ is resurrected. I was sound asleep and dead to the reality that I am. He didn't know it until it happened. For if only Christ resurrects, and I know I resurrected, I didn't know he was the universal Christ. I was taught by my mother, by my teachers. It was a unique little experience that happened in this strange, fantastic way 2000 years ago. No one told me this was a cosmic Christ rising in every being in this world. But rising in such a unique way it could only rise one by one. We are so unique in the eyes of this presence that we can't be called even in pairs, must be called one by one. And so here he rose within me. But I thought at that moment or prior to that moment that he was another. Well, if I am born from above only through the resurrection of Jesus Christ and he rose in me because I. I rose, then I am He. So to go to sleep in the consciousness. Excuse me. So to go to sleep in the consciousness that I am Christ is all the difference in the world to your night, to your day, to your entire life. It doesn't matter what others think. Don't think now. I told you my track record. 30 years, 33, 34 years, whatever. Coming up on 34 years. Do you think if I cared what other people think, I would go one week in this type of work? But I always knew Even at the very beginning when my mind was blown by my teacher. This is more valuable than anything else. Because to know this I can then help my friends, my family. I can actually guide through some extra knowledge what could enlighten that's way to me more valuable than any other rejection or disgrace or somebody thinking something about me. I never went down that road ever. I don't recommend you consider that in any time as something that's pressure to you when it comes to understanding what it is. This wonderful treasure known as your imagination. Now I know we're studying it through scriptural terms. The terms are all the difference because Neville is telling us that we have an instruction book and here's how to understand it. One level. Another level is it's just your imagination we're talking about here. It's so simple we don't need to muddy it up with script. But we want to be clear on the little divisions everywhere. We want to be clear on this fact that it rises within you. And this other part that's just mind blowing. How can so many different people from so many different walks of life have the same visions? The same visions. So with Neville, how he reconciles only makes complete sense. That's where it all comes back home. I'm telling you just wow. So I go to sleep in the consciousness that I am Christ is all the difference in the world to your night, to your day, to your entire life. It doesn't matter what others think. It doesn't really matter. You don't go out and take an ad in the paper. You don't go out and make any kind of promotion, any scheme as to who you are. You don't care what the world thinks because it doesn't really matter. All you know is what you simply take this. All you know is that you simply take this consciousness with you into your waking day and that moment just before you retire at night. You try it SATS state akin to sleep. Right when you go into your sleep or right when you go into your day, you're going to go into your unconscious subjective whatever or you're going to wake up and come alive into this day known as your daytime. Those are the two windows. You don't care what the world thinks because it doesn't matter. All you know is that you simply take this consciousness with you into your waking day or and at that moment just before you retire at night, you try it. Now let me share with you a simple, simple technique I love when Neville does this. He's giving personal instruction. Listen up. It's very simple. It's very simple for those who cannot meditate more than a matter of seconds, more than a matter of moments, and can't dramatize anything. This works like a charm. I am on that list. Meditation for me. Not easy. Shiny object syndrome. In this world, it's getting better. You sit quietly, close your eyes, turn your attention only into your skull from the outside into your skull in a little while. With practice, it may not come the first day, but I don't think it will take too long before suddenly your skull and all the dark convolutions of the brain will begin to grow luminous and you will see golden liquid clouds forming all over your head. And while in this state, think of anyone in this world but anyone. And when you think of them, think of them with empathy, not sympathy. Empathy. Bring them into your mind's eye and rejoice with them because of their good fortune. Empathize, sympathize. Sympathizing is the acceptance of their lack, whatever it is. If they are unwell and you feel sorry for them, you only reinforce what they seem to be to you. If they are in need and you sympathize, you are simply accepting that limitation and make it all the more real in your world. Learn to actually bring, to pass through empathy whatever would give you joy concerning them. Empathize. Exclamation point. Try it sitting in a simple. Sitting in a quiet, simple way, not bursting one blood vessel, not making any physical effort to do anything. Just simply losing yourself in the joy of another's good fortune. Try that, but always do it with empathy. If you do it in empathy, you're doing it in love. You cannot empathize with another and not be in love. You can't do it. Therefore, you are doing the right thing. So tonight, when you retire, and I would not mislead you, I assure you, when you retire, change your identity, though you have not yet had the experience of the resurrection and the birth from above. Speaking from experience, I tell you you are going to be resurrected in that wonderful skull of yours called Golgotha. You alone will be born. And if, as told in scripture, we are born from above through the resurrection of Jesus Christ, and in you and you alone are resurrected. And you and you alone are resurrected. When you are resurrected and only Jesus Christ is resurrected, then you must be He. So before you have the experience, believe it and therefore begin to identify yourself with Him. Don't wait for the experience, but identify yourself with him now and share the power that is Christ. Before you have the Experience of the resurrection and the birth from above. The day will come, you will actually be able to have this experience of saying my husband rather than my owner, my baal. Then I will betroth as he said you to me forever. No longer will there be any division. The forsakeness is over. But I did it for a purpose, said he, preparing us to prove to us there is no other power. So in the wilderness we went, not an aimless wandering, but a purpose blank space towards this union where we were forsaken. Now you can see the words, I forsook you. I didn't do a thing that was wrong that caused me to be banished into this wilderness, as told us in the eighth chapter of the book of Romans, that the creature was made subject unto futility, not willingly, but by reason of the will of him who subjected the creature in hope. Verse 20. So I didn't do it. You didn't do it. We didn't do it. We were banished. And the words are, I forsook you for a brief moment. A brief moment. Through the eyes of man is 6,000 years. This isn't to us a brief moment, but in the eyes of God it is a brief moment. Only six watches, each watch being a thousand years. So in the 90 of Psalm, a thousand years in thy sight is as a watch in the night. Verse 4. And there are three watches in the night and three watches of the day. So put them together. There are 6,000 year watches. Together they form the day of the Lord. And it is not the day of the Lord. Darkness. And is not the day of the Lord. Darkness and not light and gloom and no brightness, no light within. Yes, this is the world in which we live. It just makes sense and it's very tough to me. Comforting to understand. He has your back. You're never ever alone. Tonight, a man with $1 billion. 1965, 10 times that, let's say $10 billion. Tonight, a man with $1 billion. And there are men living in this world with a billion dollars who are about to make their exit from the world. They will leave it to those who don't care for one moment that they ever lived. May I tell you, especially when you get beyond the second generation, go beyond the third. Who cares what grandfather or grandmother ever looked like. I never had that kind of reverence or lack of. Somebody told me somewhere you respect your elders. And I just always did. I never ever thought any other way. I don't understand this, but it's true. I've seen it. I want to repeat this because to me, it's just so foreign. It's just so like really the billionaire who was about to leave, and there's many at this time in 1965 who had a billion dollars, who were literally about to leave the party. They will leave it to those who don't care for one moment that they ever lived. May I tell you, that's the grandkids. Especially when you get beyond the second generation, go beyond the third. Who cares what grandfather or grandmother look like? Ever look like today, they are waiting eagerly for mothers and fathers to die. You mean they are going to prolong their lives another year? I must wait another year before I get their fortune. That has been the history of the world. And so all of this is darkness, complete darkness. You can't do a thing about it. My teacher used to tell me on this point, she told me so many things, this was one of them. And I would just go, really? They would tell me she had clients and people she talked to and counseled and just dozens and hundreds and thousands. But she would say that these people were waiting for their parents to die. And typically the parents outlived the child. I was like, what? So the child is waiting for the parents to die so they can get their house or get their money or get something physical, you know, material. And then they would be surprised because the parents ended up typically outliving them because they were living their life. They were not living their life. They were putting into delay their life. Actually, they were not living in the present moment. So what do you do? You go back in the wheel of recurrence. You're missing the mark so heavily, the only option left is go back in the wheel. Let's try this again. She would tell me these stories and I was just like, wow. I never could fathom, even in my complete seeming state of ignorance, ignorance of a lot of deep metaphysical ideas or principles, I still couldn't fathom these things. They just didn't seem logical to me. They didn't seem to have any common sense in them yet. Naivety was my strong point. You mean they are going to prolong their lives another year? I must wait another year before I get their fortune. That has been the history of the world. And so all of this is darkness, complete darkness. You can't do a thing about it. And you know, that reconciles with what my teacher told me too, was that we talked about when we were doing symbols lessons, when she was teaching me the tarot cards and I was learning symbols, and she said that dark, black, the Color, black is ignorance, and that white, the color light, white is the knowledge. So when you're going from black to the light, the dark to the light is going from ignorance to knowledge. So it definitely reconciles here. And is this world all darkness? This has been the history of the world. And so all of this is darkness, complete darkness. You can't do a thing about it. We were subjected unto this futility and being prepared to prove one thing, that there is no baal, no other God, one God before me, no God existed, nor shall there be any God after me, saith the Lord of hosts. You read it carefully. The 43rd of Isaiah, verse 10. Only one God. And that God became us in the most literal sense, that we may become God, but we didn't initiate it and we don't consummate it. God initiated it, emanated himself and fragmented himself. We are the fragmented beings. But he buried himself in the entire world that he emanated and then redeems it all, one by one, and brings it all back all to himself. This time augmented beyond the wildest dream. This fragmented world became the limit of contraction, the limit of opacity. And when he brings it back, there's no limit to translucence, that expansion, that is God. And you and I being one with God, not two, we enjoy that translucence. I had just a glimpse of it in 1926 in Larchmont, New York. He's 21 years old. He was born in 1905. I had just a glimpse of it in 1926 in Larchmont, New York. I was the guest of the. Of a manager of the club, but with the line of demarcation between the manager and his guests and the members of the club. And this was a Saturday night, and all the young boys and girls came to dance. 26 was prohibition, as you know. Well, all these lovely young boys and girls, and they brought their own homemade hooch. And it was quite a party. Oh, that's what a concept, man. Blank space. And management thought it unwise that I, as a guest of management, should attend the dance along with those who were members and their guests. So I retired early, got into my bed. I was reading the book of Life of Buddha, and I turned the light on. A thing I rarely do is to read in bed. This night I did. As I was reading the book, this night I did. And as I was reading the book, I fell into a trance. It was quite early in the evening, and the noise was going, all this music from below. But suddenly I heard nothing. I was in it. I was in one deep trance. And. And when I awoke from that trance the next morning, it must have been 9 or 10, the sun was out, party was over, the book was on my chest, proving I had not turned in, proving I had not turned in the interval. For had I turned one moment, the book would not be on my chest. The light was still burning and the book was on my chest. Open end, blank space. So in that interval of maybe 11 hours, I fell into this deep, deep state of infinite, pulsing light. There was no circumference, there was no world, there was nothing. I was the only reality. There was nothing but infinite, pulsing light. A beauty and an ecstasy you can't describe in words. So I tasted of the union of this that is spoken of in Scripture. Call me now the day is over, and call me my husband and call me no more my owner. And in that night I simply became one with infinite light. And there was nothing but a joy and an ecstasy. I know this is, I know there is in store, in spite of the union, the oneness. And all will experience it. There will still be a union interpersonally. I know that that was not fully revealed to me, but that I do know. But I've experienced the union, that oneness of infinite, pulsing ecstasy. Blank space. So here I am not theorizing, so I'm asking you. This night when you go to bed, identify yourself, not you and Christ. Say I am Christ. If the word offends you, say I am God. If you can't do it, come as near to it as you can. But don't take your present identity forever with you into that deep, for you will limit yourself by that association. Don't forget each self concept has a set of limitations that goes with it. If you're in a state of poverty, you're in a state of poverty. Here in consciousness. The limitations that go with mindset known as poverty are with you. When you say I am your name, your name is in a state. Don't take that to bed with you. Take I am God, I am Christ. Get into that feeling of infinite. For you're called upon in this to simply bring about a change. He likens us to a woman in labor. And when we are in labor, we are in sorrow because of the moment. For our delivery has come. Because the moment our delivery has come, the moment is upon us. But after the child is delivered, but only after the child is delivered do we rejoice because the human being has been born into the world. Now there's a difference in the words in the 16th of John, verse 21, the first one is translated correctly. Child. After the child is born. That's right. Now, the King James Version will say after that and use the same word child again. It's not. It's an entirely different Greek word meaning a human being, which is the Revised Standard Version gives us as a footnote. They use the word child not to offend the mind, but they give you a footnote saying the Greek word is a human being. You are that human being. First you are in labor. Now a human being is born, and now you rejoice because of that. And there is no more sorrow. Then he reappears in your world. He disappears for a while. Then he reappears. So God disappeared from our world. We thought he was in the stars. We thought he was in the sun. We thought he was in something else. He disappeared because he hid his face from us for a short season. We didn't know he so became us, that that was his hiding. He is so close, so much our very being, that he is to us a hidden God. But he was never so far off as even to be near. For nearness implies separation. That's what he was. He so became us that he was to us like a hidden God. And we thought he might be even nearer as we approached Him. As though he were near. He isn't near. He can't even be near. For that does imply separation. And he isn't separated. He actually became what I am, what you are. And he isn't pretending. That's why he seems to be a hidden God. But if only God resurrects, and when you resurrect, it's only you, then now you know who he is, and therefore who you are. Because if I am born from above only through the resurrection of Jesus Christ, and I was resurrected, I didn't see any Jesus Christ on the outside. I was the only one resurrected in that sepulcher of my skull. And then I came out as one being born to find the symbol of my birth wrapped in a swaddling cloth called a little child. And I took him in my arms, just as you're told in scripture. And he held the child in his arms and said, you must receive the kingdom as a little child. And he held him in his arms, and it broke into the smile called Isaac. Well, if this thing happens in this way, well, I can tell you from experience, before it happens to you, start this very night to identify yourself with Jesus Christ. No matter what you did today, that would be unbecoming to such a character. It doesn't matter. All things are forgiven. All right. Everything is forgiven. That should feel pretty good. Everything. All doesn't matter. Anything before now doesn't matter. I don't care what you've done. In the end, everything is. Is forgiven. I have to say it again. Cowboys and Aliens. You know what I love? The preacher's hand to the guy. Daniel Craig's character. I know I've said it before. I'll say it again and again and again. God doesn't care who you were, son. He only cares who you are. Or in another way, I think in the movie. God doesn't care where you were. He only cares where you are. It's the same thing. Wisdom. Right there, man. Come on. So tonight, identify yourself with him and feel I am Jesus Christ. And may I suggest if you do, your dreams will change, your visions will change, because only Christ would have such visions. And I state, if you're here from the beginning and you and you've gone through the law series of the videos and you've gone through any of these lectures or all of these lectures and you're keeping good score at home and you've gone all this direction, you cannot deny your dreams have definitely changed. Almost definitely. Please share. Even just a small one. Share. Put them in the comments. Any comment on any video. I guarantee you, if you stick around here just a little while, your dreams are going to change just a little bit. What else can do that? I'm referring to the truth. That's what I'm referring to when I say that tonight, identify yourself with him and feel I am Jesus Christ. Okay. And may I suggest, if you do, your dreams will change, your visions will change, because only Christ would have such visions. So to identify yourself with Christ as Christ, you will automatically change the nature of the vision. God is speaking to himself from the depth of himself through vision. So you'll see a far different future for yourself. But if you go to bed this night as John Brown, who is in pain or who is in want or who is distracted, rest in a thousand little ways. That's what you'll bring back tomorrow morning. If you take worry to bed, all you're doing is creating more of it. Just forget everything in your bed. I am Jesus Christ. Be still and know that I am God. Now, I'm comfortable with that one. You can say, I am Christ. I am Jesus. I am God. It's all the same thing. I like I am God. I'm comfortable with it. I am God. What would God do next? And fall to sleep. Whoo. Get ready to go back to that simple little technique. And I can't tell you, even if you don't think of anyone, but how can you stop that impulse of thinking of someone with sympathy? I don't know. But just to sit in the silence and have the dark convolutions of the brain burst into light. And they do this pulsing, golden, liquid light. And while you observe it. And it's. It's a thrill just to observe. And then in that, think of someone and empathize, celebrate, feel the joy that is their joy. Because things are as they ought to be for them. And bathe them in it, as it were. Rejoice with them. This is a very easy thing. And very. Not only easy, it's not tiring at all. There is no effort to this technique. None whatsoever. So here the promise is fulfilled when man can say, my husband, meaning God, for God promised him from the beginning he would leave all and cleave to his wife until they became one being. So they become one being. So there aren't two. Two can't resurrect. Only one can resurrect. Two are not through the skull, only one comes out. When the witnesses come to bear witness to that which has happened, they only mention one name. And you are that name. You're the being. So the whole thing unfolds within you, the whole drama of life. People are looking for it in some other way. It doesn't work that way. It's not secular history. As we said earlier, the whole drama of life, the whole of life's dramatic struggle, is moving towards the fulfillment of God's purpose. His purpose is to so fuse you to himself that there aren't you and God, that just God and you are God. So it's his purpose to give himself to us as though there were no other. And when it's accomplished, then I am He. You will know. It will flood your being, like from your tippy toes, from the tips of your toes, all the way up through your entire being. And you will know I am he. You will be in such a joy, it's hard not to scream from the rooftops, especially with a mouth like this one. It's hard not to. Literally. I had only one person to talk to who was very religious, has tattoos on his hands and feet of crosses. And I thought, oh, this guy should understand. No, when you see me, you see him who sent me. I try to share that idea. No, but it will just in your own personal way, it will come in and it will just fill you completely. So I tell you tonight, I have experienced it. We told you last Tuesday night he gave you two children, as you're told in the eighth chapter of the book of Isaiah. And behold my children whom the Lord has given me. Then he named the two children, verse 18. They are not really what scholars believe them to be at all. They're jawbreakers. If you want to sound the names. And they claim it means the first child, the eldest child means the return or the remnant returns. But you'll find a footnote in the Revised Standard Version, that the word really means a remnant will repent. A remnant will repent. Well, we can tell the whole vast world today this story. Only a very small section would really believe it to the point of practicing the art of repentance. Repentance being a return. Yes, fine, it's a return. A remnant will return. For I start from a certain project and then I decide to change my mind. Not doing that. I'll change my mind and return. So a remnant will return or a remnant will repent. So I tell you, by a change of attitude, instead of saying, I'm John Brown going to bed, I'm Christ going to bed. That's a return. That's a remnant. How many of those who hear me will do it? It's not that hard. I'm Christ recording a video. I'm God talking to you. I am Christ using the toilet. I am Christ cooking my food. I'm Christ drinking water. Not that hard. Try it. There's just a few of us. But suppose I said the same thing tonight over radio or over TV to the whole vast world, what percentage would think I was sane? An nth part of 1% would listen to the point of applying it. So only 1nth part would become the remnant that would return or repent or turn back and actually identify themselves with being Christ. So that's the first child, the Christ child, the little child that comes through one's effort to say, practice the art of repentance. For the first words put into the mouth of Christ in the earliest gospel, which is Mark, is the time is fulfilled, Repent and believe the gospel. So the first words, that's 1:15. So the first words in his mouth repent and believe the gospel. And the second child is the one who conquers the enemies of Israel. And the one who conquers the enemies of Israel is David. David conquered the enemy of Israel and took the stronghold of Zion and rename Zion the city of David. 2nd Samuel 5, 7. We are born in the City of David. And we're told that the Lord's home is Mount Zion. So the second one that comes, he gave me two children. And the second one is the proof of the overcoming of all false beliefs of the world. So no longer can I say my baal, I can only say my husband. So I can't turn to teacup leaves and ask anyone to read my future for me. Or astrology or numerology or any other. Or monkey bones. They have all kinds of things in the world. Sitting in the bus coming home the other day in Beverly Hills, an old gentleman got on a strange, weird looking creature. And the beautiful little girl was seated in the bus with her mother. She must have been about 2 years old, pretty little beauty. And she was moving back and forth on the bus and the mother was trying to make her quiet. Her mother was so young that she was irritable with the child. With a parent my age, blank space holding her. But this was a young mother and she didn't care that the child was pretty or not. So the old gentleman said, I am a prophet. I can foresee the future. Want me to tell the future of this child? Of course, the whole bus, they were alive, the future. But the little child was so pretty. It was a beautiful little child. And all of them heard him. He said, I will tell you the future of this child. She will not die a spinster. Well, it was so obvious. She would not die a spinster. Not this little child. Of course, they all looked for something else. They thought she would become a queen or a duchess or a fabulously wealthy person. No, she was a sweet little child. And being a humorous old gentleman, he said, she will not die a spinster. But they were not going to live with that. They wanted prophecy. As these people go to these gypsy tea rooms all over the world, we have them in New York City. You'd be amazed how many people go and come out believing too. You know, it's funny mentioned numerology there. It's a skill of mine, a skill set. And I never really. It's funny because the way my teacher taught me in the use of these divinations, she taught me about seeing the future and seeing the past. How do you describe. Was something that she would use to get your attention. So when I first came to her, she would go, okay, you've done this in your past. So that got me to wake up. And then we would talk about it. But the main motivation was always to bring enlightenment, awareness of self. Believe me, the last words in that reading, I'LL never forget because they hit the spot at the right time. Because it was the last bit on the recording of the tape. The tape stopped right after this last interchange. And this interchange was. Well, she said to me, you walk up to your grave and you see yourself lying down in there in the hole. I go, yeah. She goes, what would you do different? What would you do in your life if you could? You see yourself already in the grave. And I was just blown away because with her, it was never really about divination. It was about the enlightenment, which is what fascinated me right off the bat, which is why Neville fascinates me around the home, around all the bases, coming home. But it is fascinating he brings that up. My teacher never used it like that, nor did he teach me that either. But it is fascinating because I think when I look at palms, the last time was so many years ago in a group setting. And that really gets people excited, really gets people. Palmistry is one of those things that people, because it's attached to their body, versus you write down on a piece of paper. Fun stuff for fun entertainment. But they're not going to live with that. They wanted prophecy. As these people go to these gypsy tea rooms all over the world, we have them in New York City. You'd be amazed how many people go and come out believing too. Oh, really? Believing, exclamation point. And if they are really believing now, it will come to pass. They will think the power was in the leaves that the little old lady poured out for them. Hasn't a thing to do with that. In the end, you will not say my baal. In the end of the Lord's day, when the darkness has come to an end and the light breaks upon you, you will say, my husband. Then the two will become one. And you have no other God to whom you will turn. No other God to whom you will turn. Meaning reading your teacup leaves and tarot and astrology, palmistry, numerology. You can't turn to any other God. And he is so fused with you. You can't turn to anyone in this world. Tape ends. Man, I just love these new lectures, new to me. You might have read them, but I don't know. They are my. They are blowing. My husband. April 30, 1965. Two years to the day. My brother will be born in two more years. 67. Sometimes I think Esau and Jacob. My Esau is my twin. I was first as Esau, my twin, born stillborn, died at birth. Sometimes I think that my brother born 13 months later is that twin brother on a delay program. Because my brother and I, we love each other. We just. There's a good bond between my brother and myself. We love each other greatly. It's a Wonder my husband. April 30, 1965 we're going to see you in the next one.