When did the speaker first experience suicidal ideation?

Name: So grateful for @claytonechard for coming on the podcast & being as vulnerable as he was.
Uploaded: 2025-04-16T02:16:14+00:00
Duration: 49 s
Channel: Hannah Hammond
Description: A short podcast-style YouTube clip in which the speaker (guest) recounts long-running struggles with suicidal ideation beginning in seventh grade…

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So grateful for @claytonechard for coming on the podcast & being as vulnerable as he was.

16 Apr 2025 · 1 min

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A short podcast-style YouTube clip in which the speaker (guest) recounts long-running struggles with suicidal ideation beginning in seventh grade, intermittent recurrence over years, intense emotional pain, and coping strategies — notably increased exercise (gym) and beginning to talk about feelings as a path to relief. The clip emphasizes vulnerability and the need to release accumulated stress.

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In seventh grade.

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I am so extremely miserable. I don't even know if I want to be here anymore. So that's where I started having the, you know, suicidal ideation. And I had it in seventh grade. But I was honestly too afraid to do anything. Like, the thought of taking my life scared me a lot. I was like, I'm not brave enough to do it. That's what I genuinely thought. So I was like, I'm too afraid to do that. But I had those thoughts, and I did love my family, and I was like, I would want to burden them with that. So, you know, I kind of struggle with that on and off. I'd have these thoughts come up for years. Like, not all the time, but they come cycling back in. The pain kept piling up. And then final. Finally I got to a place where I was like, I have to somehow be able to release this. I have to be able to release this stress. Well, the gym was a great stress reliever, so I just hit the gym harder after all these years. But then I was like, I have two hours in the gym. I don't want to do two hours in the gym. And so I was like, okay, well, I need something to get rid of this. And I realized it was like, you have to start talking about it.