The Re-Civilized Woman: Stephanie Welch on Sex, Society, and Self - Pt 1

When I think of evolutionary feminism is a term that I've used and it's the idea that rather than try to have women make progress by becoming more indistinguishable from modern men, we have more to gain by becoming more similar to ancient women.

Hello friends. Welcome back to Everyday Ancestral. I am your host, James Berry. Today our guest is Stephanie Welch. I've known Stephanie about three or four years now. We met through the Weston A. Price Foundation. She used to work with Price Pottinger. Stephanie is a self described disruptive anthropologist, ancestral health advocate and a pioneer of evolutionary feminism. She personally dedicates her life to exploring the boundaries of relationships and sexuality and using an evolutionary lens to examine and challenge many commonly held beliefs and taboos that prevent us from attaining our full human potential. She brings a highly multidisciplinary approach to promoting human flourishing. In this part, one of two episodes, Stephanie Welch recounts her struggles with self esteem and confidence stemming from aesthetic issues like nail biting and how self care practices transformed her outlook. She highlights how her career as a massage therapist taught her discipline and the impact of desexualization in professional settings. She shares insights into her late bloomer experiences including overcoming social struggles and redefining her femininity. And she introduces the idea of ancestral health as a framework for understanding societal mismatches in gender norms and personal relationships. Now remember, if you are enjoying Everyday Ancestral, please follow and subscribe to the channel. Share it with your friends and leave a review on the platform. You're listening or watching us from. Every action you take towards spreading the Ancestral word helps to let us know you're enjoying what we are doing and encourages us to stay on this path. So please enjoy Everyday Ancestral and our guest, Stephanie Welch. Episode 1 of 2 Enjoy.

Stephanie, so good to see you. Thank you for joining me. Let's start with the question that is on everyone's lips. At the age of 19 you overcame extreme nail biting. How did you do it?

It was at the end of high school. It was at the encouragement of my aunt. Actually she was a very important person in my life, almost like a second mom to me. This was a habit that plagued me all of my childhood. I don't remember this ever not being an issue. You know, I would just chew them down to nubs, tear, shred. They looked all awful. It was a huge embarrassment. Right. So it was is one of the things that I felt like contributed among other things to my being a little bit of a late bloomer in early life was just how I presented myself. I overcame that and Take very good care of them. Now, that did change when I was a massage therapist. The very first day of massage school, they said, fingernails are no longer part of your life. And I was actually a little bit concerned, you know, thought, what have I done? This was something that was so important to me. But I thought, you know, this is a path I want to take in my life, and it's more important to follow this than to hang on to this idea that I need my nails.

Did you do anything? Mindset. Whereas, like, how did you actually stop biting your nails? My two daughters do, and so I would genuinely want to learn.

I think it's a very tactile habit because for me, the thing that made the biggest difference was just taking care of them. So I had to learn to file them super diligently. And I also, you know, started using nail polish as something to protect them and coat any possible imperfections. When I shifted to more paleo nutrition, the quality of the nails actually improved. But I did take care of them, and really it was being very, very dedicated to filing them very carefully so that there was no rough edges, anything like that. Because it was the sensation of some imperfection, some roughness, some jagged bit. They just went to my mouth in an attempt to remove that roughness or whatever it was. It was keeping them perfectly cared for, manicured, smooth, like I said, putting a little coat of nail polish, anything on there to keep them smooth. And that made a huge difference. If it happened again. I have a terrible time keeping them out of my mouth, but I know I'm dedicated to fixing it as quickly as possible.

But now you mentioned that you saw yourself as a late bloomer. You labeled yourself that. What makes you say that? What is a late bloomer in your experience?

I was definitely the dorky, nerdy kid on all throughout elementary, middle school, high school. I had a terrible time. I didn't believe my dad when I was a kid, and he said, one day, you know, you're gonna be interested in boys. And I was like, nah, that's never gonna happen, right? Every single year I can remember in middle school and in high school, I would have my big crush of the year, and I would, like, follow them around. I would try to sit near them all year, and finally I would try to get up the courage to, like, ask them out by the end of the year. And I got rejected every single time.

You did the asking out.

Nobody ever asked me out. It was a non starter. I didn't know how to communicate. I didn't know how to present Myself, I may be a little bit autistic. I've never been tested for that. But countless people have assessed that as part of what's contributed to my personality over the years. So I could not get a date for the life of me, up through high school, until my first year of college. That was the case up until that point. And I overcame quite a few things that I think helped me end up in relationships for about the next decade after that. And then I regressed into some of the things in terms of how I presented myself in the world that I stopped doing, some of the things that I learned. I had another period in around 2014, 15 into 16, where I struggled with that. Again. I have a lot of familiarity with the common male perspective of rejection and having difficulty finding and getting into relationships.

When you at first were feeling rejected and then you said you kind of found some things that you changed before college. You mentioned one of those previously to me was like, you got contacts. Was it just aesthetic things or what actually changed? And then what was it later that you realized this isn't working for me anymore? So what did you initially change to kind of find that physical connection with men? And then what did you eventually change to find that connection within yourself?

I'm sure that some of it had to do with behavior and personality and trying to learn how to connect with people better. But aesthetics has played a big role for me. Certainly that has been something where, you know, as I said, as a kid, I didn't know how to present myself. I had some of these things working against me in terms of the very thick glasses, my nails were unpresentable. I didn't know how to present myself in a way that exhibited cues of femininity. I started figuring some of those things out in terms of I got contacts, I stopped biting my nails, and I learned a little bit about my hair right around the end of high school, just getting into college. So I started putting some of those pieces together, and it definitely helped. You know, obviously that's not the only factor going on, but that was a puzzle piece that definitely contributed beneficially. In my case, as I mentioned, when I got into massage school, the nails, which is the first thing you asked about, that was the first thing to go again. And this was around 2009-2010, as I was in school and beginning my massage therapy career, the nails went first and then immediately the jewelry. Because if you're massaging somebody, you know, you can't have things on your hands, arms, wrists. That's going to be getting in the way of giving someone a massage. And of course, you don't want anything that's going to dangle and touch the person on the table. You, you can't have hair falling on them, right? So if you're going to have long hair, you have to wear it back or up all the time if you're working. And it is a lot of work to take care of long hair. I don't know if you've ever had to, you know, do this yourself, James, but it takes a lot of.

It's surprising, but I did at one point.

It's a lot of time and energy and products and styling and anyway, it's a lot of work. If you're not going to wear it down, it's hard to justify putting the effort into having long hair. So I started cutting my hair shorter and shorter. And of course, you know, the massage therapy profession, the regulation of it largely exists to legitimize it and to differentiate it from anything that could remotely be misconstrued as prostitution. And so there's so much in it that is oriented around desexualization of both the treatment and in many ways, the therapist. For example, you dress modestly because you don't want to give somebody the wrong impression. That was another thing. You know, my clothing started becoming the most kind of simple, basic, modest, nondescript, boring, completely non accentuating kind of clothing. And so every aspect of how I was aesthetically presenting myself started to dissipate from around that time when I started my massage career. And around 2014, I was in the process of transitioning out of a relationship and trying to date again. And I found myself right back in that same position I was in. Nobody would go out with me. And, you know, I kind of looked in the mirror at one point and I thought, well, I kind of look like a boy at this point. And I just know that that is not helping me at that point. I'd had relationships for, you know, at least 10 years at that point. I was consistently in long term relationships. So I knew that it wasn't only personality factors that I had the capability to be in a relationship, but there was something that was not working for me in dating. And that kind of prompted my sort of quest for reclaiming femininity. Starting with, what are these sort of external indicators of aesthetics and attraction that I can present and that might make a difference? You know, I realized at that time too that this really aligned with my perspectives on ancestral health, because we've talked about many aspects of ancestral health and evolutionary Mismatch. And I saw that in many areas of life, obviously nutrition is one of them. That, you know, we understand that an ancestral perspective on diet is more helpful than much of the conventional guidance that we have had. But I saw the same thing when it came to concepts of masculinity and femininity and relationships. And much like the conventional guidance had shown up in terms of nutrition, which we had to kind of overcome the sort of FDA guidelines in the food pyramid and all that, when I was in college, I was also getting all of this teaching kind of from a gender ideological perspective that diminished the sex differences between men and women. And I sort of got this impression from a variety of gender studies classes and, like gender in art, that gender was just completely socially constructed and that there's really no difference between men and women except this incidental genitalia differences. And that was just another thing that I started to really question as I was using an evolutionary lens to understand the world. That. Is that really the case? And is denying differences in our biology, physiology, and psychology. Is that helping us in the realm of pursuing human flourishing? Or is this another area that we really need to consider from an ancestral perspective? So I started to think about that. I think one of the most influential books I read around that time was Sex at Dawn. Is that one? Are you familiar with Sex at Dawn?

No, I'm not familiar with that one.

It's by Chris Ryan, and it talks about many aspects of sexual. Sexual dimorphism and how it contributed to different behavior patterns between men and women for our reproductive strategies and how that affects us now. So it's known for providing kind of an evolutionary argument for polyamory, which was something I had actually gravitated towards a long time before I encountered it as an evolutionary perspective. Those things were tying together to me that the ancestral perspective on men and women and masculinity and femininity and relationships and, you know, how we express ourselves, that might be a really key part of another aspect of human flourishing that goes beyond just nutrition and fitness and other aspects of mental health.

How would you define femininity? Just like, what's kind of your elevator pitch of, like, if someone said, well, what is femininity to you?

It would be exhibiting characteristics that are aligned with our evolutionary expression of female versus male kind of biology, physiology, psychology. I look at it in terms of, again, how I present myself aesthetically is just one piece of the puzzle. Of course, we get a lot of information about one another from visual indicators, but also a lot of psychological aspects that Women have certain motivations that are influenced by our biology, for example, towards cooperation and sharing of resources. You know, as the sex with the much greater obligatory investment in offspring, which is referring to kind of the fact that we do the gestation of offspring, you know, the nine months plus breastfeeding and so on. Amount of care that is obligatory to the female sex. That has also produced related psychological tendencies, including the need for cooperation. Because the risk level is so high, given how much energy has to go into every single offspring that we produce. If something were to happen to us, there's a very, very high risk to our children. If something happens to us, there's a need to have more caretakers who are invested in the well being of our offspring. I actually like to think of the female psychology as a little bit more socialist and the male psychology as a little bit more capitalist and opportunistic in terms of how we exhibit ourselves. Another example, rather than living with a romantic partner, I currently live with a female housemate. And we support each other in terms of sharing of resources and responsibilities and things. So that's part of that kind of cooperative nature that we have. There's also kind of the sense that femininity is more associated with being and masculinity is more associated with doing so. There's something that we kind of express in that way in terms of as a woman, my presence and the care and nurturing and just qualities that I contribute just from the essence of vitality has a certain value that I bring to the equation. And it's beneficial, or it can be beneficial to recognize the alignment of that, that that is something that we as women, from a perspective of femininity, contribute kind of the value in our just life and vitality. And it's a more masculine approach to be more oriented towards action and outcomes and results and delivering on things. You know, if we look at those as things that we can be attracted to as well. As a woman, I'm attracted to men who are very effective and get things done. And if we see that as something that we can align toward positively rather than something that we need to fight against, then that can be helpful. So I would say when I think of evolutionary feminism is a term that I've used, and it's the idea that rather than try to have women make progress by becoming more indistinguishable from men, from modern men, we have more to gain by becoming more similar to ancient women. Some of it would be the roles that we play in terms of nurturing and domestic contributions and Just kind of the complementarity of the male and female ways that we exhibit biologically, physiologically, socially.

Well, I definitely want to explore the difference between kind of femininity in the past versus how we see it play out now. But before we fully go there, do you think that femininity and masculinity equally share their contrasts? And what I mean by that is that it seems to me that usually femininity is defined by masculinity. But is masculinity defined by femininity? Because it doesn't seem like it, particularly while we've been in such a patriarchal age. A lot of times, femininity or what it means to be a woman, particularly in very specific sections of our society. So let's just say like executive world or within entrepreneurship, Femininity and the power of a woman sometimes seem like they were being defined by how they compared to. To their male counterparts. And almost like the woman had to be like the man in that position. I know that you don't look at it like that, so I would love you to kind of share. What does it mean to be a feminine woman? Let's just say in an executive or entrepreneurial capacity? Like, how can we define femininity without comparing it to masculinity?

That's an interesting question. Question. And I think if we're talking about a role of CEO and how someone is going to express masculinity or femininity, I think there's something somewhat inherent in that type of a role that is a more masculine expression which could be embodied by someone who's either male or female. So when I mentioned, you know, evolutionary feminism in our ancient past, there was a huge value that was seen in women as being in the roles of domesticity and child rearing and motherhood and things like that that we've actually devalued in the attempt to pursue kind of independence for women. This is where we've done this thing where we decided that the way to make women independent was to model what men have done in terms of going outside the home and getting into the labor force as a way of acquiring money and resources. So a CEO role is essentially doing that. It's not an aspect of domestic or child rearing contribution. It's something external to that. And in the process of encouraging women to pursue those kind of roles, which is not in itself a bad thing, but what it has done is it's actually devalued the contributions of things like domestic labor and childcare, because those used to at least have Some kind of monetary representation. When it came to a single income family, say, where the husband was going out to work outside the home and bring in the money and then pay for the needs and expenses of the wife and children, the work that she was putting in was financially represented in that agreement by the fact that he was bringing in the money and paying for her expenses. But we took this view where we wanted women to become independent again, which is in itself a great thing. But we chose this model where the only thing that has a monetary value is work outside the home. So that's one of the things that I think has actually been somewhat detrimental, is that we have devalued all of the things that relate to taking care of a domestic environment. Cooking, childcare. You can get paid for cleaning someone else's house, you can get paid for babysitting someone else's children, or for cooking someone else food, if you're a chef or something like that. But we've just sort of eliminated the value of these things in our monetary representation. And a friend of mine once said, I don't know where this, if this is a real statistic or just a generalization, but she said, you know, if you counted all of the contributions that women make inside the home, our GDP would double. We don't think of it that way.

What's interesting though is we have a very big movement happening around trad women. Have you heard about that? So people are looking for more traditional femininity, traditional women. What do you think that's about? You know, do you think that in a sense that is an example of like ancestral times, rubber banding back to ancestral times and realizing actually we've lost our way and that this is something that's more desirable, that. Do you think that's more that evolutionary feminism and.

Or.

Because some people would argue that it's actually backstepping. I don't gather that that's how you would look at it.

I'm inclined to see it as kind of a rebound that we took a step in a direction that is less akin to our nature. And people are seeing that it's not always working out for them the way that they might have imagined. And they actually do have a desire for a certain degree of greater differentiation between the sexes and for a greater return to certain division of labor. That has actually been very effective. And you know, I'd say somebody who I hear talking about this a lot is Jordan Peterson, and he always gives an example, a couple of examples. One is that in countries with the greatest amount of like sexual equality. You find the tendencies between men and women to gravitate towards different types of types of employment are more gender differentiated than in other places. So more women tend to be nurses, more men kind of like mechanical and labor pursuits and things like that. When given free rein, we actually have tendencies to move in these directions. It's not necessarily a bad thing to recognize that these are things that we're good at and that we maybe have moved away from and that there's value into coming back towards that.

So you actually got a master's in art history. So clearly that kind of bug towards studying the past is really strong in you. But then you quickly switch to a more physical, body centered career, which is the massage therapy. And then of course you've mentioned, you know, your interest in nutrition as well. We're kind of segueing into kind of some of the work you're doing now and what led you to that. But like you're delving into exploring what sexuality is and intimacy. Did you feel like this was missing from current society?

I've spent most of my life trying to understand human nature and what we need in order to live successful, fulfilling lives. And in my teens I moved away from religion as a helpful method of guidance for how to figure that out. I kind of rejected that. And I'd had this sort of a little bit of an evolutionary mind, but it came into play. And you pointed out, yeah, around the time when I was completing my master's degree, I went to school with actually no idea what I wanted to do and I was just studying interesting things. So I had ended up with a master's degree in art history. Stuff from the past definitely was very interesting to me. The catalyst at that point was my second partner that I had long term partner was somebody who was in very poor health at the time. He was not in great health when we met and it got progressively worse over the course of about four years. And when he was 28, he was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. And that was just halfway through our relationship. And I really started to see that things were deteriorating around me. So that was a prime example in, in my close sphere that something was going wrong, that people were suffering, struggling in a lot of ways. And I was convinced and proved to be right that lifestyle factors were playing a major role in his health. And it started to become important to me to try to understand what was going wrong and how to potentially fix it, because I didn't want to go down that path.

So you weren't experiencing any issues around your lifestyle or eating at that time?

I was not at that time. So of course there are many factors going into the equation. I would say, you know, we were eating similar diets at the same time, but not identical. Not certainly quantity was not identical and things like that. I just started to get an interest in nutrition as something that seemed to be important. And it was about 2008 to 2009. I was finishing the master's degree. I was working in the Museum of Fine Arts in, in Boston and I was, was in the Egyptian basement and I was cataloging ancient Nubian artifacts and things like that and acting as a research assistant, helping to set up exhibits. And something kind of clicked for me that the work that I was doing there, even though it was interesting, was not that relevant to people's day to day lives in terms of the needs that were out there. And again, the, the health things that I was seeing around me. And I was trying to decide whether or not I should continue on to a PhD in art history or if I should do something different. And things came together with the idea of going to massage school and getting into the health and wellness space as a way to connect with people and really understand what was going wrong, like what people were struggling with their health. I didn't think that becoming a doctor was going to be the best path. Not only because I'd already been in school for a really long time at that point, but I wasn't sure that the traditional medical model was going to be the right answer. So I wanted to continue to learn.

And explore why the body versus because you even just said I was getting into nutrition. So why didn't you then continue into nutrition? Why did you move towards the body?

I simultaneously pursued both of them. So I had long thought about massage as something that I was interested in or wanted to study. I learned to massage myself as a young kid and just feeling, you know, what was going on in my body. So I was kind of attuned to it. The same partner who I was with at that time, I used to massage him all the time to try to address the symptoms that he was having. There were many factors. In fact, I played an online video game for many years of adolescence in which I played a healer character and you know, her special power was to be able to touch people and take away their pain and injuries. I saw this and it just kept coming across my awareness as something that was a viable and quick turnaround career path from the art history. And it just seemed like something where I could get into the health and wellness space readily with a toolkit that I had already been wanting to enhance for myself. That would give me a lot of access to people. And there's. Nutrition is just one piece of the puzzle. In my paradigm of re civilization, I've got seven pillars, and nutrition is the first one, but physical health is the second one. And, you know, mental health, and it goes on from there.

We're going to come back to those for sure. I want to talk about that. You're saying it was more immediate. Clearly, massage therapy has a much more grounded, clearer path of like, okay, I do this, and then I can start charging this. You can immediately incorporate the career versus nutrition is very like, how do I make money from this? But then you left massage therapy, and I know you already shared that. Part of that was about realizing that you were losing your femininity, or at least how you defined femininity at the time and wanting to recapture that. And then that took you to Nevada. That, to me, while it might verbally sound like a huge jump when people hear it, actually kind of like makes sense in a weird way. But I'd love to hear your thoughts on that.

To me, it was a very logical progression. All these things, you know, led from one to the next, all different aspects, again, of trying to better understand human nature and what we need for optimal flourishing and success and fulfillment. The massage therapy, I stuck with that for about seven years. I was certainly successful. I had a solid schedule. I was seeing lots of clients, and that worked very well. But there were some things that was kind of running out of steam. You know, I sort of felt like I had, on the one hand, learned most of what I needed to know from the work of doing massage. I had gotten a good handle of, you know, how I understood nutrition. I had gotten a good handle on how I understood biomechanical health. From what I learned in that I had my whole phase of shoes are not Paleo. That was my barefoot phase from 2013 to 2016. And that was the first thing that took me, for example, to the Ancestral Health Symposium and promoting those kind of things. There was this process where I had gotten detached from my sense of femininity. And about 2014-2016 was when I had started to really put some effort into trying to figure that out. And it little by little, was working on some of those aesthetic aspects. I started, instead of filing my nails completely away, even though I was keeping them smooth, I started to let them grow a little bit more, maybe do a subtle French manicure. I started to let my hair grow out just a little bit more. I started on my own, trying to regain some of those expressions of kind of aesthetic factors. 2016 was the first time where I actually managed to get a couple dates of people that I was interested in. And I felt like I was kind of starting to get this. I'm starting to figure it out again a little bit. And then at the end of 2016, I remember I was home for Thanksgiving and I was just checking my email and I opened up this newsletter. It was from a financial guru, Ramit Sethi. I think there was an article in there and it said the women who are the best negotiators in the US or something like that, these women that they were talking about, who were these superb negotiators, apparently were working in the legal brothel industry in Nevada. And I was like, oh, that's really interesting. I thought, you know, somewhere in the back of my mind I knew that there existed a legal sex industry in Nevada, but I didn't know anything about it at the time.

Is Nevada one of the only states where it is legal?

It's the only state. And to the extent that it's legal, it's within extremely limited parameters. So 99% of what happens out there is not legal. There's only a tiny little bit that actually follows the very, very specific state and county laws that actually is legal.

Can you just quickly share those? So we're talking about legal sex work. And so Nevada defines that as what?

There are certain aspects that are state oriented. So I think the state health department has certain things to say about it. But actually what the state does is it gives permission for county based regulations if they meet certain criteria. So only counties with a certain maximum population are eligible. So, for example, the cities of Las Vegas and Reno are not within legal limits of this. You have to actually be outside of the main cities. It has to be within a licensed establishment. I believe you can't create any new licenses at this point. So there is a limited number of remaining licenses.

Is there any restrictions on like what it's defined as or what you can do? There's regulations on areas and population. But like, how do they define a legal sex recorder? Do they say, okay, you can go all the way or you can do this, that. Or is it like, no, no, you can only go from A to C, but you can't go from D to.

F. So the way the laws are written, other states have laws like this too that define what prostitution is as a crime and that list out, for example, this is not a direct quote of a law, but these are kind of how laws are written. So it's like offering to engage in sexual conduct or sexual contact or sexual intercourse. These are all, like, defined in the laws in exchange for compensation or a fee. Committing this constitutes, like, a misdemeanor or blah, blah, blah, whatever the case is. And the way that it works in Nevada is you have certain conditions that are the exceptions to the law. So if you meet these specific criteria. So it starts with what counties can do it. And the counties license the establishments. And then the individuals who are employed there have to go through the sheriff to get a work card. And then the business has to be conducted inside the house that it applies to. And you have to go basically behind closed doors to negotiate with the clients about the activities and money. But if you meet all of these criteria, then you are not breaking a law and you won't be prosecuted for engaging in it.

Continue then. So you saw this article. We're intrigued. Did you just go out there, like, how did you then embrace this idea?

Going back to the practical considerations, I would say that the first thing that caught my eye was this idea, like, wait, this article says they make, like, half a million dollars a year? Well, at that point, I had so much student debt, I was like, huh, it's not true. I should say that is extremely atypical. That is very uncommon. But that caught my eye. And then that set me into thinking about all these other aspects. Here I was on this quest for femininity, trying to understand what it is to be more attractive and seductive and create romantic and sexual connections with people. And I'm also on this ancestral health path. And I'm trying to understand is this idea of what I was hearing in college in terms of the gender ideology, is this idea of, you know, social construction, is that another thing that we need to move away from and better understand our biological, psychological, physiological differences? Which I ultimately decided that really is something I think is important for us to acknowledge and become more aligned with if we want to have the most success in flourishing in accordance with our nature. So there's this ancestral health perspective on it that's like, here's this environment of sexual commerce where people are not consciously exploring these things, but, like, this is kind of the nuts and bolts of, like, when people are exhibiting their most innate desires and drives. This is happening in this kind of environment. And, you know, it's a big deal, and people are strongly motivated and driven to pursue this. So there. There's something really significant going on in this environment of sexual commerce. So I got really curious about that. And then I mentioned when it came to the massage therapy, that part of how it exists is to distinguish it from prostitution. And it's great when, say, you know, you're doing sports massage, you've got somebody with a pulled hamstring, like, you know, you're trying to help them in a therapeutic way that makes perfect sense. But there is always something that I thought about this that, like, the profession talks about itself as being such a holistic practice that the massage profession purports to treat people in a way that's very holistic. At the same time, there's this need in everything that we do to sort of pretend that sexuality just does not exist when it comes to clients. So on the one hand, in a practical sense that you have in a massage session, there's this box in the middle of the person's body that you just can't go near. You just have to pretend it doesn't exist. And if you accidentally end up there, it's terrible thing.

When you were a massage therapist, did you keep those kind of strict boundaries or did you ever.

A hundred percent.

Were you working for yourself or you were working for someone else?

A little bit for myself, but I worked the majority of my work through a couple of different practices. One was a physical therapy company. One was just a group practice of massage therapists.

Then you kind of delved into the sex. Working and trying that out. Did that feel more free because it you weren't boxing, or were you boxed in in a different way that was kind of like unexpected?

There was definitely some freeing aspect of that to be. And this varied a little bit depending on the places that I worked. I worked at two different places in Nevada.

You worked at two different places?

I started at one, and it was not as well run as the other. The second one that I worked at, I felt really did a good job of giving me kind of the independence to operate my business essentially to my own freedom and preferences within. Like I said earlier, the limits of the legal profession are very narrow. Right. So similarly to the way that I pursued the massage therapy career, a hundred percent by the books, never crossed a boundary. And part of the way I just conduct myself, like, nobody even propositioned me. So my experience with client services was just having a very clear professional demeanor, and nobody really ever tried to cross boundaries with me.

But what do you mean by crossing boundaries? What's an example of crossing boundaries?

Most people ask the question, like, as a massage therapist, do people Ask you for more? Do they ask you for a happy ending? Do they ask you to do sexual things with them? That never happened to me in my massage career. And so it's partly just like one. I did follow all the rules. I had all of these steps in my sort of ritual of the process of having sessions with people and just my personal demeanor. So I didn't run into people propositioning me anyways, even in the regular massage profession. But the constraints of the legal industry in Nevada is very specific, again, that you can only do it in certain places. You could say that's restrictive in a way, but within those confines, I was basically free to. To do things the way that I chose. So I did feel that, you know, I was able to. To do that. And it was one of many aspects of, you know, I've mentioned a number of the thoughts that went into my making that choice. But self determination was another aspect. And being able to say, you know what? I did choose to abide by all of the guidelines and the regulations that I had in the licensed massage profession, but that's not the only way to look at how to operate in the world. I did feel a desire to not be limited by other people's particular sense of propriety or stigma in terms of things that I might explore. So that was certainly a liberating aspect of it. It was many other things, too. You know, I remember from. I would say, at least when I was a teenager, thinking about these things and thinking it was very strange to me that prostitution was illegal anyway, that this was prohibited. Like, why is it between consenting adults that this is something that is criminalized? And so I always had this mindset towards decriminalization.

Why do you think it's criminalized?

I've actually come across something recently from an evolutionary perspective, and I believe this was an article. I want to say, Marty Hazelton was at least one of the authors on this, that there are strategies in our history in terms of how sexually restrictive different groups and cultures are and the degree to which they impose their own norms and behaviors on others. Because it has an evolutionary advantage. There's a strong chance that a lot of those tendencies are what has contributed to our current standards of norms, both around things like prostitution and even around reproductive rights or abortion and things like that. Because if you have a group which uses restrictive sexual strategies, meaning like monogamy, for example, as kind of the basis for organizing families and resources and childcare, if you have a restrictive strategy in place and then other people in your community don't follow the same rules, it reduces the reproductive fitness of the people who do follow the rules. So if, as promiscuity increases in a group where some of the people are following restrictive strategies, it creates greater risk for the males to have their wives potentially impregnated by other people or for women to lose their access to resources if their husband decides to leave them for someone else. So there's an evolutionary basis to some of the things that we consider morality around these activities. So that I thought was really fascinating as a an actual evolutionary strategy. I thought in terms of like, should it be criminalized or not? If I really want to make an argument about that, one of the best things to support my argument would be to have firsthand experience to draw on. So I thought, let me check that out. And I did find that one. I really do think that the negative effects on a given individual are much more closely tied to the circumstances and the stigma surrounding how they have gotten involved into it or how they are remaining involved in it than the nature of the work itself. But one of the more important things that I found is that what it actually does is. Let me back up a little bit because one of the interesting things that I found is that I had so many people who had come to me and the clients are almost exclusively male, but they would come and they would say, you know what? I'm not like all the other guys out there. I really care about pleasing a woman. They all would say the same thing. And on the one hand, that's a very encouraging thought that like, there's this, you know, major goal is really that men want to please women.

But that's kind of bizarre to me that so they're paying you to pleasure them or to be have an experience where they climax themselves, but then they're telling you, I'm actually in it for you. That doesn't even make sense to me.

It seems counterintuitive. But here's the thing is like their underlying drive is that they have this desire to please women. What they have typically found and why they're there is because the women, if there are any women in their lives, the women that they have had experience with don't seem to be particularly pleased with them. If they were, they wouldn't be showing up needing to find somebody to pay for it.

Hold that thought. I have lots of questions, so we'll do little bites. You're kind of insinuating that many of the men were actually turning towards legal sex worker prostitution because they didn't feel like they were getting the response from the partner that they had that it wasn't about, oh, I want more sex. It was more of like the reaction to the sex I am getting is not the one that I crave or desire.

So it could be a matter of that they are rejected by women and they have no women who are available to them. It could be that they are, you know, in a relationship or married, but their partner isn't receptive. It could be a variety of situations. But the takeaway that they have from it. This is my sort of conjecture, my way of making sense of this is that they have the impression that most women just don't like sex that much. The women are not coming to them for sex either, because most women just aren't that into sex, or the woman that they're specifically with isn't that excited by sex. Part of the problem, I think, is that they don't look at sexuality and sexual performance and things as skills. They tend to think of it as an innate talent that you're either good in bed or you're not good in bed. And as an ego thing, nobody wants to conceive of the idea that they might not be good. The other interpretation of that, again, is just that, well, it just seems like most women just don't like sex that much. And so their interpretation then is that they need to find a woman who likes sex so much that she would do it as a job. And so that's who you know. Then they're coming to.

Well, thank you so much for joining. That was part one, episode one of two. Coming up in part two next week, Stephanie dives into her work with the legal sex trade, using it as a lens to explore societal norms around intimacy and autonomy. She discusses how evolutionary psychology explains patterns in male female dynamics and the stigmas surrounding sexual commerce, highlights her critique of modern narratives on gender, emphasizing the importance of understanding evolutionary roles for societal balance, and previews deeper discussions on ancestral wisdom and modern societal challenges. All of this in part two. And honestly, it was her experience in the sex trade that I really wanted to capture. So I'm so excited for you to hear part two. Come back next week. Until then, stay curious. My friends, thank you so much for joining me on Everyday Ancestral. If you enjoyed this episode, hit subscribe so you don't miss the next one. You can find the show, notes, links and resources mentioned@eatpluck.com that's e a t p l u c k.com and and hey, if you know someone who'd get something out of this. Share it with them too. Stay curious, live well and keep it ancestral.