Lava-Mātra: A Moment with Jayapatākā Swami: HG Sāraṅgī Rādhikā Devī dāsī #JayapatakaSwamiArchives

Jai Guru Maharaj Srila Prabhupada Hare Krishna. Dear Vaishnavas, my name is Sarangi Radhika Devidasi. I am from La Paz, Bolivia, South America. And I am blessed to be able to share a bit of my experiences with our beloved Guru Maharaj. His Holiness Jayapatakaswamy Maharaj. So I met devotees, ISKCON devotees in 2008 through my family members, my cousin Radha Patmini and her family. They are a key in the beginning of my spiritual life because it's because of their mercy and their association that I got attracted to Ka consciousness. I remember the first time I visited their home. I saw three beautiful, attractive lordships and they were Jagannath, Baladevin, Subadar Maharani. And I remember when I saw them, I just was so curious about who are they? It was the first time in me, in my life, it was the first experience that I had. So after that I started being in touch with them and that's how I felt attracted to Ka consciousness. Then after some time, someone was doing book distribution in the streets and this devotee stopped me and he showed me a couple of books and one of those that really caught my attention was the on the Way to Krishna. So I took that book with me and that was life changing for me. Even though it's a very small book, it's a very thin book. But Srila Prabhupada words, Rla Prabhupada's words are so heart touching, so deep, so clear that it was like the push for me to continue going to the temple. So it was in 2010, after reading that small book for one year or so. It was small, but I was reading again and again and again. So after reading this book, I decided that I must attend the temple programs now. So that's how I started in 2010 under the guidance of Omkeshavaya Prabhu Maharshi, Dhas Prabhu Bhaijayanti Mataji, the Vilasini Mataji, Pushpanjali Mataji. All of them gave me their love and their shelter and they welcomed me in the temple and they were guiding me in my spiritual life. So I'm really, really grateful to all of them for guiding me. And they are still guiding me until today with their example and with their association. And then it was in 2012 that Guru Maharaj was coming, was coming to South America. He was going to South America, to Cochabamba after a very long time, after the stroke. At that time I really had no idea about who he was, I didn't really have much information about him. I just knew that most of the devotees from the Lapas Yatra were disciples of Guru Maharaj. But I really had no more information about him. But then when senior Vaishnava, he asked me if I was going to see Guru Maharaj, if I was going, if I was traveling, because he was going to Cochabamba and I was living in La Paz and I was depending on my parents. So my parents, since I was very new to Krishna consciousness and to the temple, my parents were always very protective and taking care of me. So this devotee asked me if I was going. And I told him that unfortunately I won't be able to come because I don't have money to go there. And my parents didn't really want because they were just trying to take care of me. They didn't allow me to travel and everything alone. And this devotee told me, you must. But I remember the words, how he said, it was like, no sarangi. Well, I was Stephanie at that time. You must see his Holiness Jayapataka Swami Maharaj. And that made me feel so curious. Who is his Jayapataka? Swami Maharash. Then how is Vaishnava's mercy? Everything is by Vaishnava's mercy. So he donated me some money so I can go specifically to see Guru Maharaj. So I just went back home and I told my parents that I have got the money. Please let me go. Please let me go. And my parents allowed me because they knew that my Bhajayanti Mataji and Maharishi Prabhu were going. So they said, okay, you can go. And that's how my journey towards Guru Maharaj started. Without knowing that he would be my spiritual master. Then when I reached in Cochabamba, everybody was in ecstasy because the weighted moment was finally coming. And that was Guru Maharaj's arrival there. And everybody was so enthusiastic. And I remember that we all were doing kirtan outside, waiting for Guru Maharaj to come. And then the car was coming and the kirtan started going more and more louder. And it was such a beautiful atmosphere. It was really, for me, as a newcomer, all of these experiences were very heart touching. It was like, what is this? What is going on? So many emotions, so many feelings in connection to God, in connection with devotees, in connection with Vaishnavas was something that. It's something that makes our faith stronger and stronger day by day. So Guru Maharaj was coming and his car was coming. And I Remember, I was really curious to see him now after listening to so many things they said about him. My heart was with this, I must see him now. I must see him now. So when Guru Maharaj came out of the car, this is one of the first impressions I had. And it's something that I think it keeps me moving towards Krishna even now. And it's when Guru Maharaj came from the car and he just put his right foot on the floor, on the ground. And when I saw his foot, just his foot, I was just. My heart started beating so fast, as if I was maybe recognizing someone. But I don't know how to explain that. But my heart started beating and I started crying. I was unable to understand, especially as a newcomer. It was the first time this happened me. And by the time Guru Maharaj put both of his seats, I was already confused and gone. And so many deep emotions came from within. And then Guru Maharsh came out from the car and he raised his arms and he started screaming, shouting so loud, go Ranga, Go Ranga, go. And these three Godanga just pierced my heart for the first time. The first time I saw him, these three words just pierced my heart. And that was my first impression when I saw Guru Maharaj for the first time. It was, I think, once in a lifetime experience. I've never felt anything like that. Never. Until now. And then we all went inside and Gurudev was giving Mahaprashad cookies. And he was distributing these cookies to everyone. And that was the first time both of us interacted for the first time. So he looked at me straight in the eyes for about 10 seconds or maybe less. But you know, you can feel when he's looking straight to your eyes, you feel he's not looking at my face. You feel he's scanning your soul or something like that. So he started looking at me. And then he asked me, what is your name? And I told him, maharash, my name is Stephanie. And he said, no, you're not Stephanie. And then he gave me a specific name of a deity. Just like when they say you're Sarangi, Radhika, Devidasi, like a name. But that time he gave me like a nickname, let's say like that, the name of a deity. And he told me, Devi. And then because I was new, I had no idea about who is this deity. And then he was giving the the cookies. And then he took one cookie and it was a broken heart. It was a half piece. And Guru Maharaj looked at it and he put it aside and he Took two pieces of two entire cookies. And he told me, yes, now this is fine. And he gave me the two cookies. And for me, this is something that how Guru Maharaj makes feel everyone care about. He cares so much about everyone. He's so much into details. He's so loving, so caring, so giving. Even with the small details, he makes us live. He makes us feel protected in every single way. So for me, that was really hard, touching when he did that, even if it's a small cookie. And then after that, the next day, they called us for his breakfast. Guru Maharaj was there. And we were able to go a group of devotees for his breakfast. And we started chanting and singing and dancing. And Guru Maharaj, I remember when he was looking at the Matajis, he was explaining how the Matajis should dance gracefully for the Lord. He was trying to make his hands like this, telling us, you should dance gracefully for Krishna. That was something really, really beautiful also. Then another experience and something that really caught my attention was when Guru Maharsh was doing his therapy in the pool. All of us, we are there by Krishna's grace, we were allowed to be there. And he told all of us, okay, so I give one step and you chant the Mahamandra and you count. And I give the next step and you chant and you count. So we started chanting. At every step he was giving. And for me, that was something he was preaching. You know, he's preaching with his example all the time. But. But as a newcomer, I was really surprised how this personality is making us call God's name even at every step, at every step. So that was really, really important, a really important lesson for me and for everyone. I think that we have to keep Krishna at every step of our lives. Like there is no way. Every step is every step towards Krishna. And with Krishna, that was the lesson that Guru Maharaj gave me at that time. And it reminded me also of the pastime of Vishnu Priya Devi when before eating rice, she was chanting the Maha Mantras. Well, so much purity, so much focus in the consciousness. That was really important for me at that time to learn, especially as a newcomer. It was my first time being in touch with him. So that was in 2012. And that year I got the mercy of getting shelter onto his lotus feet. That was one of the most special things for me. After having these experiences day by day, even though were not so many days at that time, it was enough for me to feel that I want to be closer to this personality. I want his guidance. I would really like him, to become my spiritual master. And he gave me the mercy of his shelter in 2012. And that's where my ka consciousness, life and everything, my entire life basically changed drastically, drastically, drastically in every single way. And then in 2013, next year, after one year, it was my initiation day. It was in Santa Cruz. And I was really nervous because I was told that we have to give an exam. So I was preparing my essays and everything. And I remember that I was not ready yet. I was just holding my essay paper sheets. And then I was going outside to give it, I think it was to Ekanatra, who I don't remember well, but I have to give it to someone so they can present all the papers to Guru Maharaj. And I found Guru Maharaj coming across, and I was so nervous. And he saw that I was holding my exam, my essays, and he asked me, how are you? I said, I'm fine, Guru Maharaj. And then he asked me again, what is your name? For the second time, one year later. So I told Guru Maharaj, my name is Stephanie. And then I was so surprised that Guru Maharaj looked at me and he said, no, you're not Stephanie. And then he again gave me the name of the deity that he told me one year before. And he said, you are Devi. And then at that time, I was not so shy anymore. So I was trying to ask Guru Maharaj a little bit more about this name. And then he explained me a little bit in details that it was about Krishna Balaram and Olin Vrindavan. And for me, that was something that I came to discover many years later, that Guru Maharaj knew my heart from the first time. Actually, he was just guiding me from day one, from the first day we met. And now after a couple of years, now this showed me how much Guru Maharaj knows my heart. And that time he asked me something. Did you study for my exam? And I said, yes, Guru Maharaj, I studied. At that time, I realized Guru Maharaj really likes all of us be prepared in Ka Consciousness, that we study Shastra, that we do everything consciously. So even now, now I remember every time that it's important for all of us to study shastra so we can grow in Ka Consciousness with the right guidance, under the right guidance, which is Guru Sadhg and Shastra. So after that, he so mercifully gave me his blessings. And he told me, okay, I'll see you in the initiation tonight. And then after that, by his causeless mercy, that was the night that I got initiation, my first initiation in Santa Cruz, that was in 2013 now. And Guru Maharaj has a way to communicate with all of us in different ways. And he was very kind. He used to comment my dreams. So I have some experiences through some dreams to a few dreams with Gurudev. I remember once I wanted to learn how to play harmonium. So I was living in Bolivia, in La Paz at that time. I really didn't know how to play instruments, but I had the desire to learn and to play. So I ordered one harmonium from India, so they send it to South America. But the day it came, my harmonium was completely destroyed because the distance was very long and they didn't take care of the box properly. So when my harmonium came to my home, my harmonium was not in a good condition. So I felt very broken, very sad, very broken. Because I really wanted to learn to chant for Krishna, to sing Krishna's name. And I prayed to Guru Maharaj. I said, I tried, forgive me. At least I was trying. Kindly forgive me and. And guide me. So the day my harmonium was destroyed, I just didn't try anymore. And that night Guru Maharaj came in my dreams. And he was in a place like in a. In the center of a place. I just look at him from a distance and I was so happy. Guru Maharaj is there. So I didn't realize anything. I just started running towards Guru Maharaj to pay my obeisances. Then I realized when I was reaching, when I was going there nearby him, I saw that it was like a stadium. Guru Maharaj was giving a lecture or a class or something like that. And it was like a crowded place. It was totally crowded. And I really didn't realize about that. So I felt very, very embarrassed, very ashamed. In my dream, I looked at Guru Maharaj. He looked at me. And then I bowed down and I paid my obeisances. And Guru Maharaj looked at me and he told me there was a harmonium at his feet. I just bowed down and Guru Maharshaj looked at me and he told me, play, sing for Rla Prabhupada. And I told him, I don't know how to play a harmony. I was so scared. But I said, guru Maharaj, I don't know how to play a harmonium. And then he told me, you know, you know you play. Then I said, okay. And then I started playing and I started singing in my dream. And then the next day after this dream, I thought, let me check the harmonium. So I don't know how, but I just fixed. Took me like an hour. But I fixed it. I never had a harmonium before in my life, but somehow or other the harmonium was fixed and then I started trying to play and everything was coming, even though I don't have any musical knowledge or these kind of things. But when I was trying, even though slowly, slowly, slowly it started happening. So I feel that was just my weirdest grace through that dream that he gave me. That's something he always teaches us that never give up on your services, on whatever you are aspiring to, offer to Krishna, to Srila Prabhupada, to Vaishnavas, to everyone. If it's about Krishna consciousness, don't stop, don't quit. You will do it. You can do it. With Guru Krishna, Guru Krishna and Vaishnava's blessings, everything is possible. So another dream that I had with Guru Maharaj was on Nithyananda Trayoda. And this is one of my favorite dreams. It was. I don't remember when the date exactly, but I remember we had to prepare the decoration for Nithyananda Trayoda. She and there were not many devotees who were able to go and buy the flowers and take the flowers to the temple and do all the preparations, the altar decoration and all these. So with a couple of friends, we did it. We started at 5am I remember we skipped college classes that day, but we went to buy the flowers and we started very early. And we were so happy doing all these garlands, making the garlands and just singing and chanting and garland after garland after garland. Then we realized it was about 5pm or something like that. I don't remember if it was a little bit later, but it was time to close the temple. We prepared all the decoration for the next day. And then that night Guru Maharaj came in my dream again. And that was a really beautiful dream. Some Gorni Thai was there. Some deities, really big deities were next to Gurudev. And Guru Maharaj was there. And they were like, I don't remember if they were doing some Abhishek. It was like an abhishek going on. And Guru Maharaj looked at me and he asked me, so what is your offering for Nithyananda Prabhu? And I just looked at Guru Maharaj and I said, we could make some garlands, I could make some garlands. And then Gurudev said, okay, bring your offering. So in the dream, so many Brahmanas started holding big, big like pots or buckets. And these buckets were full of garlands, so many garlands. Bucket after bucket after bucket in a Long line. And then Guru Maharaj was looking at all of these garlands and he was so happy. So he raised his arms and he started saying, jainy Thai, Jainy tiny, tiny, tiny Thai. But it was so loud, you could feel those words. And then Guru Maharaj told them to offer these garlands to Nithyananda Prabhu, to Mahaprabhu, who were doing Abhishek there. They were doing Abhishek there. And then Guru Maharaj was still continuing pronouncing Nithyananda Prabhu's names in such a loud but sweet way that when I woke up, I just could hear Guru Maharaj's words in my ears. Jai nitai, nitai, nitai nitai. And that was Nithyananda Trayodaji. That was the day of Nithyananda Trayodaji. So that was one of the. The most beautiful experiences. And also this made me feel that Guru Maharaj is really guiding us and he's keeping an eye in all of the services that we are trying to do, he is guiding us. He's with us in everything that we do in devotional service and as an offering to Krishna. Gurudev is always there guiding us and taking care of us. So. So it was something really beautiful. See, another experience that I had with Guru Maharaj in dreams was when I was in Peru, in Jausica. I lost my passport in Peru, and I was forced to stay there for 30 days until I get my new passport. So I stayed in Chosika, in the ashram. And then I had to go through some interesting circumstances there. In the last week that I was there. In my last week in the ashram, there was a natural disaster. And I was being disturbed by some entities because the place where I was living at Washington, haunted. And this time they were really disturbing me a lot. And I was not able to keep calm at that moment, I was really disturbed, really scared. And it was a really tough night for me. So I was unable to sleep. I was just trying to pray and chant and praying that the electricity will come back at some point because these entities were disturbing me quite a lot, even touching me. They were knocking the door. They were throwing things. It was something really disturbing. So I started praying and I just fell asleep because I couldn't anymore. I was without energy and I was feeling very weak and really, really scared at that time. And that night, Guru Maharaj came in my dreams. And that was. That was a really meaningful dream for me because I cannot forget what he told me in this dream. Guru Maharaj was standing in front of the place where I was staying. And he was staring completely, very peacefully for a long time. Like he was meditating on something or. I don't know, he was observing the place. And in front of the place there was a tree. And Gurudev just came closer to the tree and he started staring at the tree very carefully. And then he took his upper cloth and he started turning it into pieces. He was cutting it. And then he started embracing the trunk and the branches with his clothes. So at the end, when he ended up doing this, the entire trunk and the branches were saffron. And the tree was incredibly, with a really, really bright green. There in the ashram, there are some tulsi, many tulsi there. Everything was completely beautiful and very bright. And when Guru Maharaj finished, he told me, no one will ever be able to harm you. I am protecting you. No one will harm you. Never. But Guru Maharaj words were very. He was very serious at that time. And after that, after this incident, these entities didn't disturb me anymore. And everything started. The time started passing by quite faster and I had to go back to my country. But this dream was quite meaningful for me because Gur Maharaj clearly showed me his protection under any circumstance. And he was clear in his statement. And I think all of us can experience his protection all the time. So that was another incident through dreams. Then there are some other incidents that happened when Guru Maharaj showed me that he truly knows my desires, he knows my heart's desires. I remember it was 2016 and it was my first time in India. It was the first time I was not here doing service. I came for pilgrimage. And then I was going back to my country. So I really had no idea when will be the next time that I'll be able to see Guru Maharaj. So I really wanted to see him. But it was not possible. I was not able to come here to Mayapur. Guru Maharaj was here in Mayapur. I was in Vrindavan. And I was really praying that I really hope I could meet him. I could see him at least before I go back to South America. Somehow or other, Krishna did the arrangement. And Guru Maharaj went to Delhi for a checkup in the hospital. And some godbrothers informed me at that time, I was with Kamalakshi Mataji. They informed us that Gurudev is going to Delhi. And that day, both of us, Kamalakshi and I, we were going to Radhakunda. We were in Chatikara waiting for the bus to Radhakund to go to Radhakund. And then we got the call and the messages that Guru Maharaj was in Delhi already. So we had two choices. We go to Radhakund or because we are here in the main road, we can take a bus to Delhi right now. And then we can come back late night. So we decided to go to Delhi because we really wanted to see Guru Maharaj. And we went to Delhi without any plan. We were just hoping to see Gurudev there. But that day was as if everything was arranged not by us. Krishna was just taking us there because when we reached, we went to Delhi temple. And I really don't know many devotees there because it was my first time in India, so I didn't know many devotees there. So when we went, the first person we asked, like Hare Krishna Prabhu, we are His Holiness Jayapataka Swami disciples. We heard that Guru Maharaj is in Delhi in the hospital. Do you have any idea how we can. How can we reach there? Then he said, yes, just give me one minute. I don't know how. He got a driver. And the driver took us straight to the hospital. It was as if someone was waiting for us there in the temple. The first person we asked, and he's just sending us with his driver to the hospital. And then we reached there. And because I was going back to South America, this is a little bit silly, but I wanted to have a picture with Guru Maharaj because I don't have many. I didn't have many at that time. And I was really shy to ask for a picture. Guru Maharaj, can we take a picture? I was feeling really shy, but it was in my heart. It was. I really wanted to have these memories with him. So when we went, because we were going to Radhakunda, I was taking a camera, a big camera with me. But when we went inside the hospital, the security guard, he kept my camera aside. He said, no, this is prohibited. You cannot bring the camera inside. We said, okay, no problem. My phone battery was gone. And then I said, okay, I'm hopeless. Now. There is no chance for any picture. There is nothing. And we went inside with Guru Maharaj. We could have his darshan. It was very quick, but it was really beautiful. He was explaining at that time, I was having some. Some questions inside, but I was not able to explain because so many devotees were around. But I was inquiring something within me. And then Guru Maharaj started telling in a very. He started explaining how next day he would go through endoscopy. And so he started telling us, you know, Tomorrow someone will put a tube and they will check with the camera what is right, what is wrong inside me with my health. But then he said, but at the end there is nothing wrong because we are under Krishna's control. Krishna decides everything. So we depend completely on Krishna. When we are depending on Krishna, nothing is really, really bad or really wrong. And that was a very important message from Guru Maharaj for me to learn to accept everything as Krishna's mercy and to learn to accept and face whatever comes to us and embrace everything as his mercy and to do the best we can, no matter what. So that was something really, really sweet, a really sweet experience with Guru Maharaj. Then I went back to South America. And in 2017, just right after the incident in Peru, in Jasica, when I went back, I was going back to my country. I got a message from Mayapur and they were inviting me to come here to do service for Guru Maharaj to be part of the Victory Flag publications in Spanish to help with his books. And I was really excited, really, really overwhelmed when I heard about this service because this is one of the main connections for me. So I was invited to do the service for the Victory Flag publications. And this is one of the most important things for me because I'm really attached to books. I've always been very fond of literature and everything. So surprisingly, I was getting this opportunity to serve Gurudev Bani, which is transcendental knowledge. So it was something very special for me. So I seek the blessings of my parents to come here. And I got it. I got their blessings. And now I feel very happy to be here now for the last seven years being part of this wonderful team and wonderful service. At that time, I remember Kamalakshi Mataji, she was the chief editor. And our translators were Ojaswini Mataji, Achintya Prabhu, Damolar Prabhu was also helping Haridas, Chaitanya Prabhu. Then Lilavati Mataji joined, Annapurna Mataji joined. And then so many Bishaka Mataji. So many beautiful, so many beautiful memories. It's a really important and key part of my life. This service is a very important key and a blessing from Guru Maharaj that I am able to come here and do a little bit for his Vani. There are many, many memories. I remember once when we had to print a book, two books. I was informed that we have to print two books in one month. And I was really, really shocked and scared. And I was thinking, are we able to do this? So I started praying and praying and praying and praying to Maharaj, Please give me your blessings. I really need your blessings to breath. Sometimes we feel many things can be too big for our hands to handle. But when we have with Krishna Vaiava's blessings, everything is possible. So I was praying and then I said, okay, I will go to the temple for Darshan and I will pray there. And then we will start working on the books. It was for Prabhupadacharya and for Godruma Kalpatavi as far as I remember. So we started, I went there and I was praying to Guru Maharaj, please, I just need your touch, just your touch. I need your touch. And I know your blessings will help us to achieve our goal. And when I was going to the temple, Guru Maharaj was going there in his car. I think he was going to his full therapy at that time, I didn't know about it. And then everything was in a rush. Everything was very quickly. But I was praying to him in my heart to give us the blessing so we can do this. And then when Guru Maharaj was passing by, he just immediately put his hand, I felt his touch. And for me that was like the blessings that I was praying for. And that felt really sweet. How Guru Maharaj can understand our hearts desires. And yeah, I forgot to mention how when we went to the hospital and we were visiting him after the meeting, after he was giving us some instructions and sharing with us because I had this desire of getting the picture with Guru Maharaj, but I was too shy to mention. Then Guru Maharsh looked at me and he said, now we can take our picture. And I was so surprised because I didn't mention anything to him, not even to Kamalakshi. I was feeling too shy about it. But Guru Maharaj showed me many times he knows everything. And this is the proof for me. When we read in Shastra that the spiritual master is the external manifestation of Paramatma, of the Chaita, Guru, he comes in front of eyes to give us instructions. So every time I think about it, I just see how Guru Maharsh is manifesting all the time. And it's unbelievable how he truly knows everything. Everything. There is no way to hide anything from Guru and Krishna because they are witnessing absolutely everything. We might think they don't because we don't have the vision, but they truly do. So. So, yeah, that was another experience that I got in the service. I remember another time I was really sick. My health was not well. I was having a terrible lower back pain. It was really, really bad. My Body was really exhausted. I was not able to continue doing. I was feeling I didn't have the energy to continue doing the services. So I wrote a long letter to Guru Maharaj explaining absolutely everything, everything in detail. So I was hoping Guru Maharaj will read all these and he will tell me, okay, don't do the service anymore. You can leave the service. But nothing like that happened. When I got his answer, Guru Maharaj showed me how caring he is with everyone, but how practical he is as well. He started giving me advice like what kind of exercises I can do to make my health better. And he started telling me some yoga postures that I should learn, that I should practice. And then he started telling me, don't do. He started giving me instructions how I should divide my, my service in different timing so I can take some rest and I can stretch. And he gave me so many options to improve my health, but also not to leave my service. And he even told me, I can buy a special chair for you so when you sit down for a long time, your lower back will not have any injury or anything. And that was really heart touching. How caring he is, how personal he is. He truly cares of us like a father. He is our eternal spiritual father. And he really, really takes care of us in that way. But also in this letter, I could learn that we can find many never put excuses for our devotional service. We shouldn't put excuses, we shouldn't give excuses to perform our devotional service. Obstacles will always come whether we want it or not. These circumstances, we will have to face these circumstances somehow or other. But if we have a priority, if we have a goal, then we can learn how to overcome the. So we should be practical. That's something Guru Maharaj taught me that day, like, be practical, but don't stop your service. He didn't tell me, but basically he was not giving me any chance or any option that, okay, you can stop your service or anything. He was giving me ideas how to improve my health, how to get more energy, how to become healthier so I can use everything, I can dovetail everything in Krishna's service. And that's something that whenever I'm about to give up now, I just remember this, that no, there is no way to give up. There is always a way to keep going in our devotional service. There is always a way to keep going. Krishna Consciousness. And this is the power of the blessings of our spiritual masters and of the pure devotees who are always guiding us through that, to that, to reach that. So that was another Moment that Guru Maharaj taught me another thing. Don't give up in devotional service, no matter how many obstacles you might have, just keep going. And things got better within time. Now I'm much, way better. I don't have the same problems anymore. I followed whatever Guru Maharaj told me to do. And I'm feeling much better now. My health is perfect now, by Krishna's mercy. So, yeah, that was another experience with Gurudev. And the last one, something very recently, was when we were preparing, we always tried to print a book for the Vyasa Puja. We always try to give this as an offering for his Vyasa Puja. And I was not feeling well for the last two months. Maybe I was having too many questions, no answers, so many doubts. My mind was really disturbed. And I was praying one day, I couldn't handle anymore. And I just decided, I will sit down and I will speak with Guru Maharaj. So I just decided to sit down and. And I pray to Gurudev, please guide me. I know you can remove all these doubts, all these disturbances that are not allowing me to focus in my spiritual life. Please guide me. So after this prayer and after doing my Takurji Seva, I just finished that. And automatically something pushed me to my laptop and I started working on a book called Touching youg Heart. And that was not in my plan to print that book for the Vyasa Puja offering because we were working on another book for the last two months. But I started working on the book, I started checking, and I had very personal questions. And what surprises me is that Gurudev gave me the answer to all my questions throughout all the book. Gurudev was removing doubt after doubt after doubt after fear after fear after fear. Then when the book was finished, when I finished working on the book, my heart was completely different. It's like Guru Maharaj removed all the darkness that was distorted, preserving me immediately. And I was so grateful to him that he's always guiding us like that, you know, and this book is touching your heart. And I think that's the power of the bani of our spiritual masters, of our beloved Rla Prabhupada of our Acharyas. If we really surrender to their instructions, if we take it to the core of our hearts, their touch can really transform our hearts with ka consciousness and can really change us. And after that, the book was ready. So I sent that book for printing. And that was the book that we could offer to Guru Maharaj in this Vyasa Puja. But yes, this is how it's important for us to honor and remember that these saintly personalities are our real wealth, are the only thing we have, are our only hope. And if we cling to their words, if we cling to their instructions, if we try our best, we do our best even though we are so limited sometimes. But if we do it wholeheartedly, they will always guide us, they will always help us. No matter what, they will always inspire us and they will take us, take us from the hand and they will take us back to God hand. They will take us back to Krishna. So I think as, as disciples we should always remember how important is to really honor the presence of our spiritual masters. These personalities are gracing this earth, they are blessing this earth. And we shouldn't take for granted their presence, their instructions. We should pray for their mercy, we should beg for their mercy. And we should try our best to truly please them by being Ka conscious because that's what they want from us. So that's what I wanted to share. Thank you so much for this precious time and kindly forgive my bad English, it's not my native tongue. But I hope we all can always remember all the precious moments that we have with our spiritual masters and that this can motivate us in our spiritual lives. This is like a motivation for each one of us. His instructions and all the moments, the priceless moments that we spend with them is what is going to always push us towards our goal. Hare Krishna Guru Maharaj Srila Prabhupada Ki Jai Hari can you tell us how you see Guru Maharaj following Srila Prabhupada? Distractions. Wow. Guru Maharaj is so surrendered. I remember when we were working on the Prabhupada Chara Nasraya book. That book is Guru Maharaj's heart because it's all about Rla Prabhupada. And that's what Guru Maharaj wants all of us to do. To follow Srila Prabhupada's instructions, to try to always serve iskcon. And Guru Maharaj is the perfect example for us to learn to be surrendered to our spiritual masters. And he is non stop. He never stops. Guru Maharaj is 247 doing everything. Everything is about Krishna consciousness. Everything is about how I'm going to start serve devotees, how I'm going to serve iskcon, how I'm going to serve Srila Prabhupada. And that fills our hearts with so much enthusiasm. Gurudev is really enthusiastic and that's something I really like about him. How he is so dynamic and is always trying to do something, always. And that's like a real good thing to remember that we can always do something. We can always try to do something to please Christ. Krishna. Angridev is. We can see how he doesn't. He is beyond this bodily platform. So many sometimes we get sick and we find, this is an excuse that I cannot do this, I cannot do that. Gurudev is unstoppable, unstoppable with his services, and he does it so sincerely. He's doing this from the core of his heart. So we should take his example on how to try to serve all the time to our spiritual masters, to rla Prabhupada, to Iskcon, not to give up, never give up, and to follow the instructions, to honor the instructions, to really try to follow the instructions as much as. As we can. That's something I would say about it.