Seeking Jesus gradually weakens your sinful nature as layers of sin fall away. But modern life trains your body to crave constant stimulation, so prayer feels unbearable at first. The tension and boredom you feel during prayer is your old self resisting exposure.
When you seek God, your sin nature weakens. So if you have some habit, some mindset maybe that you are trying to change, some attitude that you can't seem to shake free from, if you have some darkness that surrounds you that you're trying to break out of, then when you seek the Lord, that begins to fade away. You put Jesus first. Jesus becomes your focus. Jesus becomes your obsession. Jesus becomes the subject of your affection. And now, as he's your focus and you begin to seek him, there are layers of sin that begin to fall away. You begin to shed the old nature. This is why, by the way, it's very difficult to pray. For you, it may be that when you go to pray, you sense this tensing in your body where you can't sit still for too long. Think about all of the ways that we treat our minds and think about all the way that we've trained ourselves to just have everything instantly. The way we scroll through social media, the way we order our food and it comes to us, the way we travel fast and live fast and, and everything is fast-paced. So when you And so when you go to pray, this is a different experience now for the flesh, and the flesh starts to become weak. It starts to become bored. It starts to look for any distraction. This is why you're distracted when you pray, 'cause the flesh is too strong. And so the flesh starts to seek any opportunity that it can to escape that place of prayer, because it is in that place of prayer that the old self becomes so weak that it cannot rule over you anymore.
