God doesn't hold your past against you. Through Christ, the Holy Spirit convinces you that you're righteous, sanctified, and filled with peace, joy, love, power, and boldness. See yourself as God sees you: already victorious.
We have to stop thinking like victims. We have to stop thinking according to the old nature. We have to stop acting as if God holds our past over our heads. He does not. In fact, we have a new and bright future in Christ, a victorious one. And the Holy Spirit wants to convince you in regards to this victory. He wants you to see yourself as strong in the Spirit. He wants you to see yourself as the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. He wants you to see yourself as being sanctified. He wants you to see yourself as one who is filled with peace and joy and love and power and boldness. He wants you to see yourself the way He sees you. It can seem so spiritual, can't it? To just think so little of yourself, but that's the old you. The new you, the redeemed you, that's the one who's in Christ. So He convinces you that God has already won. He persuades you that you are victorious over the enemy in Him.
