Bizzie Gold describes borderline personality disorder as a cyclical delusional state that starts as competition and becomes addiction. She traces how childhood shaped her pattern recognition abilities and asks why people refuse to see factual evidence even when confronted with it.
What does borderline personality disorder look like? It's considered to cycle around a delusional state. With my mom, it showed up as competition, but also then turned into addiction, as it often does with borderline personality disorder, because they turn to that to cope with their inability to co-reconcile reality with people around them. Much of what I understand now through my body of work is understanding how childhood inputs do generate outputs, and for me, it certainly generated an output of being very good at pattern recognition. It caused me to wonder, how could somebody be this deep in self-deception that even when confronted with a factual record, they, they can't acknowledge it.
