A short first-person reflection from Joe Polish about his experience with addiction and the fulfillment he finds helping others overcome similar struggles. He describes living a "double life," acknowledges his addiction primarily harmed himself rather than others, and expresses a desire to reduce harm caused by others’ deeper pain.
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And it's one of the hardest things talking to people that have addictions and seeing some of the stuff and it's difficult work and at the same time it's one of the most fulfilling things that I do. It is the most fulfilling thing that I do. It's the most fulfilling thing that I do just to see someone just that pain and that angst because I resonate with it. I mean I lived truly a double life. Fortunately my double life did not hurt mostly hurt myself. You know, it would be inaccurate for me to say I'm aware of how my energy would affect other people when I was in active addiction but I didn't go out and hurt people. I didn't commit violent crimes. I never became a predator, you know. And some people do. Their pain is so deep that they do awful shit to humanity. And so I want to stop or eliminate or reduce that and it feels really good when I do.