Hating Myself | Melissa Wood-Tepperberg

What did you get caught up in in the first few years of being in New York that really messed you up? When I shut that door after moving away from it all and being with myself, honestly, in a sense of peace and quiet was the first time I felt all the waves of it. Like it was like definitely a panic attack, I believe, because I think at that time I didn't even really know what anxiety was, but I was like, mm-mm, nope, and like shut the door to it. And that really translated to like going out, drinking, and then- It was numbing yourself. No, no, no. I remember just like getting up, looking in the mirror and being like, I hate you. I just had like tears rolling down my face and I was like, I don't want this anymore.