Between 40 and 60, a strength that once brought order becomes a prison as life's chaos overwhelms it. The speaker calls this the core program: an overdeveloped neural pattern that leaves you unable to please others, neglecting your health, hitting bottom. The fix isn't self-help or medication but reconnecting with your own inner understanding and learning unconditional self-love.
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at about 40 years old, there's this emergence of what we would call the core program. It's between 40 and 60 where people would describe it as, I don't understand, the thing that I've always been good at that got me to where I am is starting to be the thing that's suffocating me, making me a prisoner. That's the core program. Yeah. It's overdevelopment of that neurology and that will bring you to your knees. So people have their long dark night of the soul or they hit their bottom. It doesn't have to be with drugs or alcohol. It's like, I just can't keep pleasing people. I've given no time for myself. And so now, um, the aspects of myself or my health are starting to degrade, or someone has built up this personality that is, I'm the one who's able to bring order to chaos, but now there's so much chaos that chaos just beats them down. And in that beatdown, which again is a byproduct of this overdeveloped aspect of your nervous system, um, you are incapable of solving it on your own. So it doesn't matter what great personal development tool that you have. It doesn't matter what pills or potions you take. It doesn't matter what shaman you find with a great playlist. None of it works because that is meant to actually bring you back into relationship with the higher power of your own understanding so that you can finally experience the unconditional love that is there for you, but was never meant to be given to you by your parents.
