A speaker narrates witnessing a loved one’s daily suffering and paralysis from stress. The account focuses on the emotional burden of responsibility — caring for two young children, employees, and the risk of business failure — and the narrator’s helplessness at being unable to alleviate that pain.
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Well, every day you see the pain on his face and in his body every single day. And I remember the most just waking up during the night and, you know, turning over and he is just lying there in bed, kind of frozen, eyes to the ceiling, trying to figure it out. Trying to figure out where, you know, how to keep it going, what's going to happen, what is the future again, as you said, you know, family, two young kids, employees, you know, do we need to let people go? How do we keep them? You know, what the future. And then also the sense of potential disappointment to the father. What he was building and, you know, and everything was so much weight on his shoulders. And I'm looking at him and I'm helpless.
I don't know what more is painful. Is it me witnessing him and kind of trying to absorb his pain or my own pain of not being, being able to help? Like, how can I help? Yes, I'm there.