Have you allowed any inner resistance to hold you back?

When I quit advertising to try to write a novel, I put in like about 2 years of writing, and I had no business writing a novel. I had no clue what a story was. I had no work ethic, nothing. But I got to the, to the very end, you know, within like, you know, a few days of finishing it, and I just freaked out. I blew it up. I blew my marriage up. I blew my life up. And that, that was pure resistance, resistance with a capital R, defeating me. And I had no clue, no clue it even existed, no clue it at all. And then I knocked around to working a million jobs, kind of running away from writing. And finally, when I sort of got back into it and started to actually try to write seriously, I realized that this— that there was this force that had been kicking my ass all this time. And I thought that I was just a bum and a loser and I didn't have it. I was crazy, whatever. But I sort of just gave a name to this force and called it Resistance, which is what it felt like to me because it was— it would resist me. You know, I want to write something and this force was resisting me, you know, distracting me,