A doctor recounts becoming dissociated after sexual assault and choosing surgery while in that disconnected state, only to regret it immediately. They say their instant regret felt different from what others report experiencing.
Me. I didn't have that resolve anymore. I didn't have that connection to my body anymore. And so, for me, I remember it was, like, maybe even three to four months after that assault, where I was like, you know what? Maybe I'll get it. Because I was so disconnected from my body, so, like, not even thinking about the severity of surgery and, like, undergoing what it would take and the repair on my body, I didn't even think about that. And so I got it from a place of disassociation, truthfully, and almost instantly when I got it, I regretted it. And that was an interesting thing for me. And I know that's a rare thing for most women. I know a lot of people who get.
