A woman got breast implants while dissociated from trauma, immediately regretted them, and spent years hiding her body in shame. After six or seven years of trauma work, she reconnected with herself and realized the implants didn't belong. Now she loves her body again.
And so I got it from a place of disassociation, truthfully, and almost instantly when I got it, I regretted it. And that was an interesting thing for me. And I know that's a rare thing for most women. I know a lot of people who get the explant surgery, they often think, like, oh, I'm. I'm really sad about my new body. I've got to get used to this new body. And I loved my boobs, and I love what they look like. But for me, I had so much shame around them and almost hated my implants and the choice to get them or the size of them or, like, what. The whole. The whole thing. It just didn't feel like me. What was interesting is, you know, most girls get implants, and then they're showing them off, and they wear, like, the bikinis and the dresses. And I dressed very conservative. I was always wearing things that, like, hid them because I had so much shame around it. And. And I think it just never felt in alignment with who I was. And yet I didn't heal that sexual trauma for about six or seven years. So I, for six or seven years, was just kind of hiding this part of myself. And then when I finally went through the work of healing that trauma and reconnecting to my body, I started to love my body again and really started to get the gravity of, oh, my gosh, I've got foreign objects in my body that are causing havoc. And.
