Healing 2.0: Change Your Story, Change Your Life

This is Hidden Brain. I'm Shankar Vedantam. When Leon Fleischer was a small child, his older brother took piano lessons. The brother didn't much care for them. But afterwards, little Leon would climb onto the piano bench and play, note for note, the pieces his brother had practiced. That's when his mother realized Leon was the one who should study the instrument. Leon Fleischer made his debut at Carnegie Hall in 1944. He was just 16 years old. Who is to perform Brahms Piano Concerto No. A New York Times music critic said this performance established him as one of the most remarkably gifted of the younger generation of American keyboard artists. He went on to perform with the world's top orchestras throughout the 1950s and early '60s. Pause the story here, and Leon Fleischer's life is a triumph. But then something unexpected happened. He started to notice an odd stiffness in his right index finger. His 4th and 5th finger started curling under. The pain and stiffness grew steadily worse. Within a matter of months, his career as a concert pianist was virtually over. As you can well imagine, without becoming melodramatic, it was—

I was in a very despairing state of depression for about 2 years.

If we were to take stock of Leon Fleischer's life at this point, we might say it was a tragedy. But Leon Fleischer still had so much music in him, so he reinvented himself, becoming a much-admired conductor and teacher. Meanwhile, he continued to try every available measure to heal his right hand. Eventually, a combination of Botox injections and deep tissue massage started to help. In 2003, Leon Fleischer made a triumphant return to Carnegie Hall. He was 75 years old. The next year, he released a CD, his first two-handed recording in over 40 years. Today, we kick off a month-long series that we are calling Healing 2.0. We look at the nature of loss and also a mind-bending idea about whether we should try to do away with grief altogether. Plus, we explore whether trauma really does make us stronger and how to craft an apology. This week on Hidden Brain, how the way we understand The ups and downs of our lives can shape the ups and downs of our lives. Support for Hidden Brain comes from Liberty Mutual Insurance. Making smart decisions includes considering how to protect your car and home and how much you're paying to insure them. Liberty Mutual customizes your car and home insurance to save you money. Because when you've worked hard for something, Choosing insurance should be easy. Start your quote at libertymutual.com. Support for Hidden Brain comes from Planet Visionaries. Professional climber and environmental advocate Alex Honnold hosts Planet Visionaries, a podcast spotlighting the people tackling climate challenges with real hopeful solutions. Throughout season 6, Alex brings together extraordinary changemakers for powerful conversations about grit, determination, and the power of hope to fuel our fight for a better future. In partnership with the Rolex Perpetual Planet Initiative, this is Planet Visionaries. Listen or watch wherever you get your podcasts. Support for Hidden Brain comes from Southern New Hampshire University. The brain isn't fixed. It's flexible. That means we're always capable of transformation. A master's degree from SNHU can help you build the skills to become whoever you want— a leader, career changer, dream chaser. With no set class times and low online tuition, SNHU makes grad school possible. Because it's never too late to learn something new. Get started at snhu.edu/brain. As we make our way through life, it can feel as if we are buffeted by a swiftly moving series of events. Sometimes it's all we can do to keep our heads above water as we wait for the next wave to crash over us. But research in psychology hints at a different process unfolding beneath the waves, an undercurrent that has powerful effects on our well-being, mental health, and life outcomes. At Olin College, psychologist Jonathan Adler studies how our minds are shaped by this undercurrent and how becoming mindful of it can help us better deal with setbacks and failure. Jonathan Adler, welcome to Hidden Brain.

Oh, I'm so excited to be here with you.

Jonathan, I want to take you back to your college days In Maine, you were a capable and hardworking student, but you were also struggling with a secret. What were you going through?

Yeah, like you said, I was a good student. I was curious and took classes in a ton of different departments, but socially I was more reserved. I had a really tight group of friends in high school, and I was sort of angry that that chapter of my life had closed just because high school had ended. I was also struggling with my sexuality, though that's not something I was necessarily conscious of for a big chunk of college.

So you came up with a solution to these challenges, and it was something of a radical solution. What did you— what was the plan you devised?

Yeah. Well, so a lot of college— a lot of students at the college spent part of their junior year studying abroad, and that seemed to me like a rare opportunity to take a break from my regular life and figure out some things about myself. So I ended up in Perth, which is on the west coast of Australia.

Wow.

Which is— it's literally as far away from my life as you could get. I mean, if you draw a line from New England through the center of the Earth, you end up off the coast of Perth.

And this was your way of reinventing yourself?

Well, it felt like an opportunity to step outside my life and sort of explore who I was in a context that wouldn't then have any ramifications for the life that I was Uh-huh.

So, okay, so you fly all the way to Australia. What happens? Did you find that your social life improved, that you found deep connections with other people?

No. When I arrived, I knew that I was going to need to find some friends, so I auditioned for the theater department's play. I was studying psychology and theater in college, and I knew that being involved in a show was a surefire way to make fast friends. and that it also was a place where there might be opportunities to date. And so the play that the department was doing that semester was this weird postmodern adaptation of Chekhov's classic Uncle Vanya by the admittedly brilliant British playwright Howard Barker. And there's this relatively minor character in the original play, Astrov, who's this brooding intellectual who just thinks but never does anything. And I figured, oh, that's perfect for me. to my astonishment, I got cast as Vanya, which is one of the only leading roles that I'd ever had.

Wow.

Yeah, so most of Chekhov's plays are about people who are stuck in their lives and sort of consumed with what might have been. The joke about Chekhov is that nothing ever happens. And so this playwright, Barker, took this play and decided to imagine what would happen if the same characters just did whatever their impulses told them to do. So in this version, there are gun battles and unconstrained sex and a whole lot It's a whole lot of chaos. It's total liberation. And I was an anxious actor. And so having to carry this play in a role that was deeply unsuited to my natural tendencies, it was all-consuming. I had gone looking for the kind of liberation that these characters were given by their playwright, but in finding it in this fictional world, it completely shut down my own world. I felt I had to spend my time mastering this incredibly complex and unnatural language. I mean, the first line of the play is just the word uncle repeated over and over, and I just lost all the bandwidth for everything else. It ended up being one of the loneliest periods of my life, with me actually starting to count down the days until I could come home.

Oh, wow.

And what I had envisioned as a time for freedom and exploration actually became this burdened, lonely time. And I think it set me back in the process of coming out.

So you returned to Maine after the semester abroad. You're back now in the same college where you were previously frustrated. What goes through your head at this point?

I think I felt profoundly disappointed in myself for not having capitalized on this rare opportunity and stifled to be back in my old life without having figured anything out. And yeah, so I think I just sort of put my head down and kept doing what I knew how to do, which was be a brain, not a fully integrated body.

Jonathan's time in Australia felt like more than a misadventure. It felt like a sign. He had made the trip with high hopes, hoping to become a new person. When he returned no different than before, it didn't just feel the same. It felt worse. Many of us have had experiences similar to Jonathan's. We suffer setbacks and failures, humiliations and disappointments. When these happen to us frequently enough, we start to think that we will never be happy, never be whole. When we come back, why unhappiness can breed unhappiness and how to break the cycle. You're listening to Hidden Brain. I'm Shankar Vedantam. Support for Hidden Brain comes from Instagram. Instagram Teen Account's automatic protections limit who can contact teens, the content they can see, and the time they spend on the app. Teens are automatically placed into teen accounts. Teens under 16 will need a parent's permission to change any of those settings to be less strict. Learn more about teen accounts and Instagram's ongoing work to protect teens online at instagram.com/teenaccounts. Support for Hidden Brain comes from Quince. We all have those pieces in our closet that we can count on. The versatile jacket, the perfect t-shirt— these are the pieces that make getting dressed easy, and that's what Quince does best. Quince makes elevated everyday essentials using premium materials in designs that are timeless, thoughtfully crafted, and made to be worn again and again. And when the temperatures start to drop, Quince makes it easy to build on these everyday staples with versatile layers designed to keep you warm and comfortable All season long. Find your next fall favorites at Quince. Download the Quince app for app-exclusive offers or go to quince.com. Get free shipping on your order and 365-day returns. Now available in Canada and the UK too. And when Quince asks where you heard about them, let them know it was Hidden Brain. This is Hidden Brain. I'm Shankar Vedantam. Jonathan Adler spent much of his young adulthood feeling unsatisfied, yearning for more. He sensed he was gay but didn't feel comfortable coming out. He spent a semester in Australia to break free of the constraints of his college life in Maine, but found that he was just as lonely on another continent. Sometime after he returned to the United States, however, Jonathan made a discovery. He came by the work of a pioneering scientist in a field known as narrative psychology. Dan McAdams at Northwestern University was arguing that the stories we tell about our lives have profound effects on our well-being. Jonathan moved to Northwestern, became Dan's PhD student, and later his scientific collaborator. In time, Jonathan came to see his own life through the lens of his research. He realized that he had been telling the story of his life in a way that was self-defeating. And he came to see that by telling that story differently, it could make a profound difference. We'll get to that in a moment. First, I asked Jonathan to explain to me the basic idea behind narrative psychology.

You can't totally control the things that happen to you in your life. You have some more say about how you make sense of it. And it's important to remember we're talking about stories here. So we know from research on memory that we're not Very good at recording the objective facts of our experience. For a long time, that frustrated cognitive scientists, but in more recent years, it's become clear that our memory works like this for a good reason. So if you think about why we have memory in the first place, it, it's not so we can hold on to every single thing that's happened to us in some veridical way. We have memories so that we can make sense of what's happening to us right now and anticipate what might happen next. So If you walk by a cave and a bear jumps out, you don't necessarily need to remember that cave and that bear, but you need to remember that dangerous things might hide in dark places. So the slippery reconstructive nature of memory is a feature of the system. It's not a bug. And stories are an amazing tool for holding on to the meaning of our past experiences. So the objective facts of our lives are what they are, but the stories are about where we draw connections between things, where we parse the chapter breaks of our lives. And those are narrative acts, not historical acts. And the way we do that can have big implications for our well-being.

Jonathan and Dan McAdams have found that one of the most crucial choices we make in telling our stories— and it's important to underscore that most of us make these choices unconsciously— is where we start and stop the different chapters of our life story.

All lives have good and bad in it. And so stories that start bad and end bad don't feel great. And stories that start good and end good, those feel good. But what we find in the research is that where we draw connections between the negative and the positive matters a lot. So stories that we narrate as starting bad and ending good, we call that a redemption sequence. And stories that start good and end bad, we call that a contamination sequence.

I see. So a redemption sequence is in some ways something bad happens to you, but in some ways you're rising from the ashes, redemption. And a contamination sequence is things are going pretty well, but then something bad happens to you and then everything is downhill from there. So one basically has an upward trajectory, the other one has a downward trajectory.

That's right. And again, we're remembering these are stories. So this is how we narrate the experience, not necessarily the objective facts of our lives, because all lives have good and bad.

I mean, your story about going to Australia, for example, you know, you go to Australia with high hopes. You get the starring role in a play. We know many people would say that's a very good thing to have happened to you. And then the play turns out to not be quite what was best for you or the role turns out to be not what was best for you and you end up being very lonely. Then you can sort of see a downward sort of spiral in some ways. In some ways, it becomes a contamination story, a story where something good turned bad and then you come back to the United States and now it feels like the bad thing that happened in Australia is with you even now. That's sort of how contamination works. It has a contagious effect and spreads and infects other things.

Yeah.

That's right. And again, I didn't know about Dan's work at that moment in my life, so I wasn't thinking about it in storied terms. But indeed, I think I was living out what I can now retrospectively see was a contamination sequence.

I want to talk a little bit about the effects of these sequences on our life, the effect of a redemption narrative and a contamination narrative. What effects do these different stories have on our lives? What's the difference on our mental well-being and happiness of redemption stories versus contamination stories?

I have a nice short example of this from a participant in one of my earliest studies. Briefly, this was a middle-aged man. He's recounting the story of the first date that he went on with the woman that he ultimately goes on to marry. And the facts of the story are they go out. When he brings her home, they're standing on her front porch and he leans in for a kiss. And then her dad opens the front door and interrupts them. So in the version that this man narrated when he shared his life story as part of participating in our research, he frames the experience as a redemption sequence. He says, it really brought us close right at the very start of our relationship, and we stayed that way ever since. So this embarrassing moment had given them something to laugh about on their second date, and, and maybe it accelerated their connection. But he might have narrated the exact same sequence of events by concluding that it was this stain on the beginning of their relationship that could have contaminated the relationship in a way that they moved on from, but never could erase. So neither version is more accurate in the historical sense. These are narrative interpretations that take on different thematic arcs, redemption and contamination, but these different ways of narrating our lives have different implications for your wellbeing. We find over and over that when redemption sequences occur in people's life stories, they tend to be associated with positive well-being, good life satisfaction, lower levels of things like depression, higher self-esteem. And it's just the opposite for themes of contamination.

So what's important here, and you've mentioned this before, is that the underlying facts of the story don't have to change for the story, in fact, to be a very different kind of story. So for example, in your own life, you're still a, you know, You're a gay man coming of age at a time when homophobia is rampant. You're still lonely in college. The Australia trip was less of an escape and more of a setback. But you can tell both a contamination story as well as a redemption story built around those facts.

That's right. And again, the shift there is about where we draw the chapter breaks in my life. So if we end that story, end that chapter when I get back to college, it feels like a contamination sequence. But if I string it together with the things that came next, spoiler alert, it feels like a redemption sequence.

Tell me what happened next and how it becomes a redemption story.

As I neared the end of college, I largely dealt with my internal turmoil by just throwing myself into my work. So I was one of the top students in my class, and I got some awards. And I took a research job after college at Harvard, which was— my plan was going to graduate school. And I felt like I had done everything expected of me. I didn't really seek out any mentorship as I applied to 10 very competitive PhD programs. Then when the whole process was done, I only got into one program. I always tell students, you only go to one school, so it only takes one, and that is true. But at the time, it felt like a shock. Don't get me wrong, I was actually really excited by the one option in front of me, but I had sort of imagined that I might have more choice when approaching this next big chapter of my life. And as you said, the one school I got into was in the Midwest, a place that I had never been for more than a few days. And so I was thinking a lot about what it would mean to be a gay man living in this different part of the country than I was used to.

So how does this become a redemption story? I'm still— it sounds actually the contamination is getting worse here because you apply to all these colleges and you don't get into them.

Right. So here's what happened. So I went to campus for my interview, and it was spring break week, so no one was really around. But after the formal stuff was done, I sort of casually walked by the LGBT student group's office, and there was this little yellow envelope of business cards tacked to the bulletin board outside that said something like, questions? Email us at— and then, you know, some generic email address. So when I got home, I sent this email saying, I'm thinking of coming here for graduate school. I've never lived in the Midwest. What's it like to be there and be a gay person both on campus and in the surrounding community? And we didn't even have internet at the house that I was renting with some friends, so I had to sneak into the computer lab at the nearby college to check my email. So a few days later, I got a perfectly nice and very thorough email reassuring me from a senior undergrad about what it was like to go to school there and live in the town. And I'm sure it was a copy and paste of an email that he had sent many times before, but—

Sure.

I appreciated how clear it was and the bits of humor sprinkled in. And I wrote back to say, you know, thanks, that was super helpful. And then this student said, I'm actually graduating early, but I'm gonna be hanging around. I'm handing off the listserv, but if you have questions, you know, just send me an email. And so quite a bit of time goes by, and I did commit to going to school there. When it was time for me to start looking for an apartment, I reached out again. And more than 20 years later, we are now married and have 2 kids and a dog. So those first emails weren't even remotely flirty, but they were attuned and connected and kind and funny. And, and eventually they did get flirty, as did my responses. And so I look back at this turning point in my life with a profound sense of, first of all, gratitude, but also redemption, right? What at the time felt like close to failure, right? That all my work in college and all my ignoring of my personal life for the sake of my intellectual life had presented me with only one option, now feels like the universe trying to make sure that I found my way. And within a year, I was having a more gratifying intellectual experience than I had ever imagined, and I was in love.

I'm wondering in some ways if the narrative changing played some role in sort of these things happening in your life. Is it just that you had a series of bad luck and bad events happening to you, and then you had a series of Good luck and good events happening to you? I mean, that might be the case, but that's not particularly interesting from a psychological point of view. Do you think that the way you were thinking about your own life and your exposure to Dan's ideas had reshaped your ability or your willingness to be open to thinking about a relationship in a different way or thinking about flirting on email with someone?

Yeah, I really appreciate you bringing that up because indeed one could say, well, the objective facts were things were bad and then things were good. It really matters where we draw the challenge. chapter breaks in our lives. So yeah, one could say, well, that horrible chapter is over and this new chapter is just a good chapter. But I actually think it is the way I have woven those 2 experiences together in my life story where it feels like redemption. Instead of being a story where it was bad and then it was good, this is a story that is about a shift from loneliness and compartmentalization to professional and personal fulfillment and identity integration.

Notice where you start and stop Jonathan's story makes a profound difference about whether the story is a redemptive story or a contamination story. If you draw a connection between his unhappiness in college and his setbacks in Australia, and the fact he got into only one graduate school after working so hard in college, that story looks like an endless loop of setbacks. On the other hand, if you tell the story of a lonely closeted gay kid who just happens to get into the one school where he is going to be professionally successful and personally happy, then it looks like the heavens have parted and a star is pointing the way forward for Jonathan. The objective facts of the story don't change, but the way you think of the story changes profoundly. You can see how powerful this is in a study conducted by William Dunlop and Jessica Tracy. They were researching the stories told by people fighting addiction.

They looked at the relationship between personal narratives and the maintenance of sobriety and among people navigating alcohol dependence. So they asked people involved in Alcoholics Anonymous support groups to tell the story of their last drink. They actually had 2 samples, one of people who had remained sober for 4 years or longer, and another sample who were in the earliest stages of sobriety. And in both groups, they found that people who told redemptive stories of their last drink were more likely to stay sober than people whose stories didn't contain redemptive themes. So, for example, They talk about one participant who felt like the last drink for him really symbolized the low point, and it was the moment when he committed to really turning his life around, and which he then goes on to do. And that is emblematic of many findings in the field, some that look at behavior, some that look mostly at mental health outcomes, where we find that the stories that we tell about our lives are strong predictors of how we're doing.

Jonathan has also found that the way we tell stories about our lives can have biological effects. In one study, Jonathan tracked a group of parents experiencing chronic stress. His co-author on the study, Ashley Mason, was interested in the science of telomeres.

So telomeres are the end caps on our chromosomes that protect them from getting frayed or tangled each time a cell divides. Because each time the cell divides, they get shorter and shorter, and eventually the cell is left unprotected and it dies. So some scientists see telomere length as a biological marker of aging. And we know that under conditions of chronic stress, telomeres wear down faster. So in this study, we had a group of chronically stressed participants. These were parents who had children with quite severe autism spectrum disorders, and we compared them to parents of neurotypical kids, which, as a parent of neurotypical kids, is still a stressful experience, but the degree of chronic stress is different. So we had their stories at the beginning of the study, and then we had measures of their wellbeing and also data about their telomere length at that first time point, and then again, 18 months later. And what we found was that among these chronically stressed parents, their stories mattered a lot. What was interesting was that the key narrative theme in this study was not redemption. It was a theme of integration. where we think about the extent to which participants were able to make sense of having had this challenging kid and integrating that into their own life story. So we found that among the chronically stressed parents, stories of integration were associated not only with their self-report of lower levels of psychological stress, but also with significantly less telomere shortening over 18 months. So as far as I know, this is the only study to show a connection between the themes in people's narratives and biological markers of stress and aging. But it suggests that there may be biological consequences of our stories, not just psychological ones.

What did the parents say in terms of the kinds of stories they told, in terms of stories that were effective or less effective?

One of the parents in the study talked about the ways in which parenting is the ultimate life test, is what she said. And she said, you know, you can read a ton about all this stuff, but ultimately you have to learn from your kid. And for her, that taught her a lot about who she was as a person, how she was open and not open, and how she felt like having this challenging parenting experience really helped her reshape who she was as a person and what it meant to her to not only be a parent, but a human in relation with this other human who she loved dearly.

Now, when you hear someone tell a redemptive story and you see that they are experiencing better mental health, there is a question that arises, which is, in which direction does the arrow of causation run? You know, are they telling redemptive stories and therefore feeling better about their lives, or are they feeling better about their lives and therefore telling redemptive stories? At one point, you followed a group of patients as they worked with a psychotherapist, and you charted both the changes they experienced while in therapy and the stories they told about their lives, and also which preceded which. What did you find, Jonathan?

Yeah, I became obsessed with that directionality question. In that study, I enrolled a bunch of people, adults ranging from ages 18 to 92. They were seeking individual therapy for a huge range of problems. So there were folks with really significant psychopathology, like depression, anxiety, eating disorders, but there were also people just wanting to do some work on themselves. There was a woman who wanted to think through her own childhood as she was about to become a parent. There was a woman who was feeling lonely in retirement. So before they started with their therapist, we collected their stories and we measured their wellbeing, used standard measures. And so then on the other side, we had nearly 600 narratives from across all these participants. And what we found was, first, people got better over the course of treatment, which is good because decades of research on psychotherapy suggests that it works. And we found that people's stories changed in meaningful ways over the course of treatment. And then the changes in the story actually came before changes in well-being and not the other way around, because it was as if people were narrating a new version of their lives. And then a week or two later, their well-being would catch up with the story.

As we go through our lives responding to ups and downs that come at us unpredictably, It can feel as if we are hostages to life events. This is why many people see the hand of fate in the things that happen to them. But everything looks different once we realize that we are not simply a beleaguered character in our life story. We are also the author. When we come back, 4 principles to tell wiser stories about our lives. You're listening to Hidden Brain I'm Shankar Vedantam. Support for Hidden Brain comes from Instagram. Instagram Teen Accounts automatic protections limit who can contact teens, the content they can see, and the time they spend on the app. Teens are automatically placed into Teen Accounts. Teens under 16 will need a parent's permission to change any of those settings to be less strict. Learn more about Teen Accounts and Instagram's ongoing work to protect teens online at instagram.com/teenaccounts.

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Annie was one of these unbelievably driven, successful students. She was— had done extremely well in medical school, landed a great residency, was working a million hours, but she had started to experience some tingling on one side of her body, and she went to get it checked out. And, you know, she was very well connected in the medical sphere and waited to see the uber specialist who quite brusquely told her that she had multiple sclerosis.

I want to play a bit of tape here from Annie herself talking about how she reacted to the news from her doctor.

It took me a long time to come to terms with that diagnosis, to accept it into my life. Really, it was difficult for me because I'd always thought of myself as somebody who was really strong. My body had always worked for me, done what I wanted it to do. And to think of myself as someone with an illness I really had to redefine myself and get over some denial.

Jonathan, you say that Annie was engaging in an internal process of accommodation. What do you mean by this? And is accommodation a good thing?

So most of what we do most of the time, we call assimilation. We, we go on living our lives, and when new things happen, we just assimilate those experiences into the story that we've been telling. Whether we do that consciously or not. But sometimes something happens that really makes us question the story we've been telling, and in those instances, the story itself needs to change to accommodate that new experience. And what we call accommodative processing is a key narrative variable in supporting our well-being, but it doesn't support our well-being in exactly the way redemption does, for example. But accommodative processing, it helps us feel like our life has meaning and we understand it, even if it doesn't always feel good. And so Annie tells this story that once she did finally start to accommodate this experience, when she did really start to reshape her identity to include this idea of herself as having an illness, she stepped away from her very prestigious medical career. She went down to part-time, and she founded a nonprofit organization called Health Stories.

Yeah.

Collaborative. And I met Annie about a year into that process, and she was going around and collecting other people's stories and curating them. And 10 years later, we have worked really closely together developing programs that leverage the science of narrative in order to support storytelling in the highly fragmented and fragmenting medical ecosystem.

When we modify our life stories to accommodate new life events, those events no longer feel random and aberrational. The less we feel buffeted by random events, the more we feel like we are in control of our own lives. This leads to the next idea. Jonathan has found that stories that give us a feeling that we are in charge of our own lives, Agency is a theme in people's stories.

We assess it along a continuum from sort of being able to direct your life, and then down at the other end of the continuum, you're sort of batted around by the whims of fate. And again, these are themes in stories. No one is completely in control of their lives. So it's the way you portray the main character in the story, i.e., you.

Jonathan cites the remarkable story of a woman named Layla.

So in the last 5 years, I've been doing a lot of research focused on identity development among people who acquire physical disabilities. And Layla was a participant in one of my studies. She tells this story of having these horrible headaches, which gradually intensified to the point where she couldn't function. She spends time in 3 different hospitals in Nairobi, Kenya, where she lives, and no one can figure out what's going on. She decides to fly to India to see a specialist, and he sends her right into surgery, and when she wakes up, the pain is gone. But she also can't see. And the surgeon had been able to alleviate this, the unexplained swelling in her head that had been pressing on her optic nerves, but the nerve was also irreparably damaged. So for a few months, everyone held out hope that, that her vision might return, but Layla was actually the first one to accept that it wouldn't. She said, I realized as soon as I started accepting it, I started becoming less frustrated and sad. And though it was incredibly difficult and scary for her, Layla gradually threw herself into the task of becoming a blind person. So she shifts careers. She moves to the United States to get training in computer science, where she starts working on adaptive technology for other blind and low-vision people.

I want to play a clip of Leila talking about her experience. Here she is.

I think my blindness is the best thing that ever happened to me. Like, even right now, if a doctor came here and told me they have a cure, I would not take it. Thank you. Because I think for me, it made me understand myself and it made me like— it gives me these new challenges every single day. It presents me with something. And through those challenges, I'm able to understand myself.

So that's a remarkable account, Jonathan. But as I hear Leila talking, I feel like I've heard the same thing in the deaf community. Many deaf people today say, you know, the real problem is not with deafness. I just happen to speak sign language. I speak a different language than you do. Now, we can all debate how and whether something should be considered a disorder, but I think the point you're trying to make here is that the stories we tell can either put us in the driver's seat or put us in the passenger seat, and Layla is clearly choosing to be in the driver's seat.

That's right. Traditional models of disability in the United States have this medical approach where disability as a problem to be solved or eradicated. And social models of disability or relational models really push back on that and say disability is in the interaction between my body and the built and social environment around us. In Layla's story, like you said, there's also this sense of agency. Now that this is part of who I am, what am I going to do with it? How can I take control of this? And use it for things that matter to me.

You can see a theme emerging here. As you tell the story of your life, do you see yourself as a passive subject, someone to whom things happen, or as an active protagonist, someone who is directing the course of her own life? Now, as Jonathan says, every life offers lots of evidence that allows you to draw either conclusion. Given this, Jonathan is saying, choose narratives that put you in the driver's seat. Most of the narratives we have discussed so far have championed the idea of the individual. But it's also the case that no man is an island.

Yeah. So, right, in our conversation so far, we've been very focused on individuals. But of course, we aren't these isolated individuals. We're all connected, and communion is a theme that captures the quality of people's connections to others. So in my research with people who have disabilities, there's often a lot of talk about their connections, not only with family and friends and coworkers, but with the broader disability community.

So at Olin College, you help organize a yearly event called the Story Slam, at which students perform renditions of their stories, tell about the events in their lives. And in advance of One Year Slam, you worked with a student named Antonio. What was his story, Jonathan?

Yeah, so Antonio was really interested in thinking through what it meant to him to be a first-generation Latino student at this small engineering college. And he described feeling isolated, during his weekend on campus as a prospective student, it wasn't the conversations about science that made him feel left out. It really was the small talk. So he has this great line in the story where he says, I'm definitely not fluent in cheese. And what he means is that disconnection gets coded into even the most mundane experiences, not just the grand low points of our lives.

But as isolated as he was feeling, Antonio homed in not on his isolation, but on a moment of connection. I think I finally found somebody who understood. Diego was a person who had also danced at quinceañeras, who had also brought lunch in a repurposed sour cream container, and applied to the same college scholarships for low-income students. One would I didn't even think we had done all these things side by side. So I can hear the theme of positive communion here, Jonathan. Antonio's telling a story that says, I'm not alone.

Exactly. In this room full of people who did not look like him, Antonio found someone who did, and they really connected. And he says, you know, Diego threw down this challenge. If you think there should be more people like us here, then come and fix it. And Antonio says, you know, I'm a competitive guy. And the next fall, I was on a one-way bus trip to Olin College.

So, Jonathan, one final feature of a constructive story is that it generates meaning for the person who tells it. You say we're not always able to tell a happy story about what happens to us, but we can try and tell a meaningful story. And there are benefits to telling such stories. Can you explain what you mean?

Yeah. So to pan back for just a second, when we think about the broad study of wellbeing, it tends to cluster in sort of 2 domains, which get their cumbersome names from Aristotle. So on the one hand, we have what's called hedonic wellbeing, which means it feels good. And on the other hand, we have a kind of wellbeing called eudaimonic wellbeing, which means it feels meaningful. And these 2 domains of wellbeing are actually relatively uncorrelated with each other. And if we think about our lives for a second, that makes sense, right? We all do plenty of things that feel good, but don't feel particularly meaningful. Like we might binge-watch TV or something. And we can all think about experiences that feel meaningful, but don't feel particularly good. So in my work with Health Story Collaborative in particular, we find that feeling good is not always an option for people. Telling redemptive stories or stories high in the theme of agency and communion, that's not always possible. And in those situations, we're often interested in the ways in which people can really think through the hard parts of their lives and find some meaning out of that. And even if the meaning doesn't ultimately feel good in that sort of happy sense, That meaning is still incredibly worthwhile.

I'm trying to imagine how someone who is going through a rough time might hear this episode, Jonathan. And I worry that that person might say, you know, I've just lost my job. I've just gotten divorced. I've just lost a close family friend. And now Jonathan Adler comes along and tells me that if I'm unhappy, It's because I'm not telling the right story about my life. How would you respond to that?

I want to say 3 things to that person. The first thing is, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that things are so hard for you right now. Of course, they're hard, and of course, you're not feeling good. The second thing I want to say is, there are all kinds of ways of making meaning of these experiences. And so we might think about exploring themes of agency or communion. If you lost your job, are you feeling connected to your spouse or your kids? Or, you know, if something challenging has happened, might there be some growth that comes from it? So we might explore those themes. But the third thing I want to say is our personal stories exist in a broader narrative ecosystem. And in the United States, there is an expectation that we can narrate challenging experiences in our lives with a redemptive spin. We Americans love the theme of redemption, and we expect people to be able to do it. And I call this the press for redemption. And in my work with Health Story Collaborative, we often find that people feel like they're having this double whammy experience where, you know, I'm sick and I'm not telling the right kind of story about it. So my cancer didn't teach me that I'm such a fighter, or that people love me more than I ever would've realized if I never had cancer. No, some people say, you know, this just sucks. And I think in those instances, we want to acknowledge that and not try to convince them that it doesn't just suck. Let them know that there's a reason they feel like they're telling the wrong kind of story, because our culture puts a particular premium on a particular kind of story. And then to help them find other kinds of narrative routes that might lead towards a sense of meaningfulness. Even if they can't make you feel better.

So many of the examples we've talked about here have involved individuals. But as we've started to see, I think, towards the end of this conversation, we're slowly broadening out beyond the individual because, of course, these ideas are relevant outside of individual minds as well. So societies tell themselves narratives. Nations tell themselves stories all the time. Do you think ideas of narrative psychology speak to how nations talk to themselves and perhaps how they ought to talk to themselves?

I do, and this is really at the forefront of the field. So my colleagues Kate McLean and Moin Syed have written really compellingly about what they call master narratives. So these are the dominant storylines in our culture that tend to be invisible, but also ubiquitous and sort of rigid and powerful. And we are always in a constant dialogue with the master narratives in our particular cultural contexts. Families have narratives that guide the way relationships unfold, and as you said, countries certainly do. So again, narratives are not all good or all bad at the individual level, and they're not all good or all bad at the national level either, but these national narratives are emergent from the collection of individual narratives that the members of that country tell.

So a number of years ago, Jonathan, when you were still living in Illinois, the junior senator from your state gave a memorable speech at the 2004 Democratic National Convention. I want to play you a clip from the speech that first put Barack Obama in the national spotlight.

I'm not talking about blind optimism here. The almost willful ignorance that thinks unemployment will go away if we just don't think about it, or a health care crisis will solve itself if we just ignore it. That's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about something more substantial. It's the hope of slaves sitting around a fire singing freedom songs. The hope of immigrants setting out for distant shores. The hope of a young naval lieutenant bravely patrolling the Mekong Delta. The hope of a millworker's son who dares to defy the odds. The hope of a skinny kid with a funny name who believes that America has a place for him, too.

Hope—

hope in the face of difficulty. Hope in the face of uncertainty. The audacity of hope. In the end, that is God's God's greatest gift to us, the bedrock of this nation, a belief in things not seen, a belief that there are better days ahead.

I'm wondering, Jonathan, as someone who has studied narrative psychology for a number of years, how do you hear that speech?

So then Senator Obama was tapping into the American master narrative of redemption, right? Each of those images includes this shift from negative to positive. And, you know, like all political speeches, this was a strategic communication with very particular aims focused on stirring the public to support this speaker's preferred candidates and issues. So appealing to entrenched master narratives is a very strategic thing to do, and many, many politicians adopt redemptive themes in their speeches. And obviously there are many wonderful aspects of that storyline. And as we've discussed, problematic ones too, but we see evidence of leaders serving as narrators-in-chief. They shape our narrative ecology as they model storytelling for us.

We started this conversation, Jonathan, by talking about ways in which you came to understand the life events in your own life and to tell stories about those life events in a way that was More positive than negative. I'm wondering, after all these years of studying narrative psychology, do you do this on a regular basis now? What are the stories you tell yourself today in terms of where you are and where your life is and where you want your life to go?

So it's not that I am consciously going through my daily experiences and editing them into the kinds of storylines that I have learned are likely to support my well-being. But when difficult things happen in particular, I think I do pause and I remember that there are different kinds of well-being and that the way I make sense of those experiences will lead me to different kinds of well-being. But I think for a lot of people, just the awareness that you are not only the main character in your story, but also the narrator, and that the way you choose to tell the story of your life really matters, that can be an empowering insight.

Jonathan Adler is a psychologist at Olin College. Jonathan, thank you for joining me today on Hidden Brain.

Oh, it's been an incredible pleasure. Thank you for inviting me.

Hidden Brain is produced by Hidden Brain Media. Our audio production team includes Bridget McCarthy, Annie Murphy-Paul, Kristen Wong, Laura Quirrell, Ryan Katz, Autumn Barnes, Andrew Chadwick, and Nick Woodbury. Tara Boyle is our executive producer. I'm Hidden Brain's executive editor. For today's unsung hero, we bring you a story from our sister show, My Unsung Hero. The story comes from listener Rich Addison.

So when I was young, I was very shy. I was an only child who was pretty comfortable talking to adults, but I never had any brothers and sisters to practice on. So I wasn't very good at kind of mixing it up with the other kids. And I remember being very anxious about going to school. And on Sunday nights, I would not be able to sleep, just worrying about what would happen with the other kids. So now, flash forward a few years, and I'm in high school. And I realized that I had to be different, that I couldn't keep being so shy. So I went about developing a quick wit and a sense of humor. that would keep other kids off balance so I wouldn't have to feel powerless. You know how sometimes people say the best defense is a good offense? Well, that was what I was doing. But the sense of humor I developed was kind of biting and kind of critical. So now my hero is about to come into the story. And this was my friend Holly. And one day Holly and I were talking and she said to me, you know, Rich, sometimes you really hurt people's feelings. And at first I was just shocked. I said to myself, that can't be true. I was entertaining. I made people laugh. I liked people. These were my friends. I didn't want to hurt them. I couldn't be hurting them. But I kept thinking about what Holly said, and I kept turning it over in my mind. And eventually, I realized that she was absolutely right. And I started paying attention to how my humor was affecting other people.

And I—

Changed it. It didn't happen immediately. It didn't happen overnight. But I changed, and I wanted to be more compassionate towards people. And I wanted to have a different kind of relationship with them than always keeping them off balance. So after I went on to become a clinical psychologist, And in my role, I try to help other people have generous interpretations about themselves and others. And I've also made a career out of training physicians to do that. And I really am so grateful that I made that shift in my life. And I really owe it to Holly. And I think back to that time so many years ago, and when she cared enough to say something to me, something that probably wasn't easy to say, but it was something that changed the direction of my life in a very significant and very gratifying way. So thank you, Holly. You're my unsung hero.

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