Making sense of what your body feels

Remarkable day. I hope today finds with this moment of brightness, vibrancy and positivity. I've actually been going through a pretty tough time the past few days and I noticed I'm sleeping a lot. Not much of a sleeper, kind of get my normal sleep and that's pretty peaceful, wake up rejuvenated. But as of recent, for the past two, three days, I would say I'm sleeping more than usual. I'm taking a nap in midday, and even at night time, I'm enabled to actually deliver on my routine, my PM routine, which is frustrating me a little bit. So I took a deep dive and leaned on my journal as I do most of the days, when I really need to understand what's going on and process the difficulties of life. And it was eye opening for me to find out that last year, during this time, I lost my mother in law, who to me was a mother, not a mother in law. She lived with me for a decade plus. She was a valuable, valuable, valuable part of our family. The upbringing of my children, the support in my family. And I think my body remembers, even though my heart may not my heart, but my mind may have kind of, you know, been busy with the to do's. And then now in the here my body is kind of reminding me this was very tough time, you know, for myself, my kiddos, and of course her family and her children and her loved ones. Because she added such a beautiful glare to life. She reminded all of us to keep in touch with those who matter to us, to ask people how they are. Once she passed away, the amount of people that reminded me that, you know, she would just call and ask how I am and ask how my family is. And then she would ask us, her kiddos, to kind of follow up with those people, making sure that if they're not well or they need a support that we can actually provide that for them. And as she was in the hospital, hospital bed, you know, I didn't really get to see her as much as I wanted to. I wasn't there with her during her last moments. And for me, it's a lot to deal with, it's a lot to process because there's a part of me that wishes things were different, that I was physically present with her, that I could serve her in some way and add value to my life more than hers. I would say at that moment in time just to show her that how much I value and appreciated her. But I know that wasn't the case and I accept that as, you know, as the best course of action for me as the way that my life was meant to be. But when you're going through these challenges and you can't really understand something that's out of the norm, first and foremost, you know, be kind to yourself, just as you would be kind to your loved ones or to a friend, or even to your own kids, you know, or your own partners or your own relatives. Be kind to yourself. And the second thing I would advise is to be graceful. And grace is this poetically beautiful word that I am trying to incorporate more and more into my life. And that basically means, you know, let things go, let it be. Don't overthink it. Don't judge yourself for what you think it is. And what this allows us to do is kind of move past the situation with a sense of wisdom. And the third thing I would say is find a way to deal with your emotions. Don't suppress them, however you deal with them. That's talking to somebody, just vocalizing it. That's, you know, going back and maybe revisiting the memories, even in your own mind, and taking some time out to do that, or even something as simple as journaling, whatever that is, you know, process things, so hopefully you can come out stronger. And with that said, sending you a whole lot of tranquility today and tons of Umbergi. Take good care of yourself.