A first-person testimonial by Iris (from Germany) describing an acute illness that began like a severe flu the night before a planned trip and then failed to remit. She experienced prolonged fatigue, flu-like symptoms, post-exertional malaise, functional impairment (difficulty walking stairs, social withdrawal), and frustration with medical providers who found no cause. Iris discovered the Gupta Program (Ashok Gupta), found its explanations and meditations immediately validating, began daily meditation and later yoga, and reports gradual symptom improvement and restored activities (meeting friends, walking dogs, practicing yoga). Recovery included dips but also tools to manage setbacks.
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Germany
December 10, 2024
Ashok Gupta
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I'm Iris, from Germany. Before I got ill, I was in a lot of stress because I had planned a trip to Thailand and Cambodia by myself. On the evening before my flight was due, I brought my dog to the dog sitter. And I'll never forget, I came back to my flat and wanted to finish packing and all I could do was collapse into my bed and I was like, with a heavy flu. I was really ill. I had to cancel everything. And, yeah, and then I just didn't recover. My doctor said, yeah, it'll just be a flu. But then it didn't go away. It lasted weeks and months and I just didn't recover. I had like flu symptoms. I had a sore throat, fever, headache. I was really exhausted, fatigued, had trouble walking up the stairs. It feels like. Or it felt like I was suddenly in a different reality. I couldn't meet my friends. I was even exhausted after a short telephone call. When I tried to work, I was completely exhausted and fatigued and ill for weeks. The only thing I could do was read, be in bed. And it was a very hard time, you know, giving my dogs a walk. My legs were shaking and sometimes I was sweating. It was difficult. And you kind of become a bit desperate because the doctors, they couldn't tell me anything. I had blood tests, examinations, went to different doctors, and I said, everything is fine. And no one could even understand or tell me what it was. Or my doctor said, well, try to get back into things slowly. But that was exactly what didn't work because of the post exertional malaise. And he didn't seem to understand that. So that was very worrying. And sometimes you don't trust your own body or your own mind anymore because you shouldn't be ill. Everyone says there's nothing wrong. I came across the Gupta program and I listened to the free videos and I thought, oh, my God, that's spot on. That's exactly what's happening to me. And it sounds so logical. And it was a big relief that someone. That there was someone, Ashok, who understands this condition and that there was even a way to heal, that was really a big relief. And I was like, I have to do this. I really have to do this. And in the beginning, I remember I was standing on the mind map with shaky legs and thinking, what am I doing here? But the thing was, it helped. And the meditations. I'm so glad I got ill because since then I'm meditating every day. And this is really amazing to calm down my nervous system. And it made me realize that for most of my life, I've been really I had this background anxiety all the time when I had work, you know, appointments or anything really, there was always this Will I be able to manage it? Will I handle it well? And so I became aware of that through the program and that there are ways to to handle this and to feel better and to feel calmer. Gradually, the symptoms faded, but of course, there's always the time when you have a dip and the symptoms come back. But the great thing about the Gupta program is there is also ways to handle that. I really loved it when I could go and meet friends again, for example, in a cafe and have breakfast together. And that was great. I'm doing yoga, which is lovely, and that was a milestone, I would say moving my body again, the feeling of my muscles moving and it's working.
