Suicide Prevention Sat - just in time

Ta-da! All right, so what time is it? It is 8:59. I'm barely making it, hence no one is here yet. So welcome replay viewers, thanks for checking it out. I know that someone will be here soon, but anyway, what is tonight? It is Saturday. What does that mean? That since 2018 I've been doing Suicide Prevention Saturday at some point in time, either on Saturday or on Sunday, usually at 9 PM. Now there he is. Sorry, man, I did not get you a link because I just created this. All right, sorry. So y'all don't know, um, like if you're on the other side, because we're on Facebook and YouTube and both Facebook things. So DJ pops in first because he knew I was going to be here, even if I did not. Put up a pre-thing. Hey, C&T Moo, I have not seen you in for a while. Um, hello, Baron. Maybe we'll have an after chat for this. No, not really, because I'm gonna go back to sleep after this. I shouldn't say back to sleep, I did fall asleep. Gunpowder Beauty, how are you? I have not seen you in a while either. This is like old home night. It's because you were all just watching Barbecues, huh? And so you just happen to be here. Oh, Paul, so sweet. Um, if any of y'all don't know Paul, he is on My Goodness My Brain. Um, I'll be on his show next week, uh, Friday night. We're gonna be talking training stuff. Or wait, it's this week. Well, depending how you look at it, it's the next Friday that we have. Well, I'll be on 6 PM Eastern. Um, so, oh well, see, we're extra special blessed because Fiona is here because she's not at a concert. It's a Friday night and she's not at a concert. So, uh, my dear friend, I hope you are doing well. Everyone, I'd like to all say hi to Harding, um, wish him luck for his heart. Um, I don't know if he ended up getting rescheduled. I don't know, dude, I gotta keep up with you better. So anyway, I'm gonna hide your little comments, and because DJ's not here to help me, so I need to remember to put stuff up like this which I have to go to a different thing. So here we are, it is 9:01, so I can officially, officially start. So, so many things to talk about when it comes to suicide prevention. As some of you know, I am currently in EMT training, and today one of our topics was, uh, sex trafficking and human trafficking, because as EMTs you are required to report to DCF if it's a child. And I missed the part about who we're supposed to report to if it's human trafficking. So anyway, I'm not an EMT yet, so it doesn't really matter. I mean, I have to pass the test, but— so here's the thing. When we're watching the EMT training and we're watching, um, the different videos of like how kids get put into sex trafficking and the things they tell themselves, one of the girls' stories was she was 12 years old, she had an older gentleman pay attention to her, and she felt special because that older person paid attention to her. And they started to have a relationship. And then once the guy was sure that the girl was really into him, that's when he chose to start using her, um, because for her to do anything for him. So The lines are pretty much the same. However, when I was taking my notes on all of this, the thing that made me think about tonight is we, we humans all do the same sort of thing. We love attention. Like, I mean, I'm not trying to pick on Harding, but like Harding says, um, I made you all disappear. Um, Oh wait, sorry, since I just said his name, I'm also gonna pull this up. All right, so all of you out there, those of you who believe in prayer and all that good stuff, pray for my buddy Harding here on 11/2 at 6:30 AM when he goes in for open heart surgery, because we'd like to keep him around. He's a really cool dude. All right, so humans, what do we do? We love attention. We love getting the yes, we belong. Um, we love feeling loved. We love the specialness of that relationship. That is the end-all be-all, or at least what we think. For a lot of you, I believe you just came from watching Barbecue's— so my, my friend Barbecue did a video on how, how he got into depression and what happened while I was in there, and then how he managed to work on it. That's a short version. If you want to go watch it, go to Guns and Barbecue, and it was just a premiere. It just ended like 15 minutes ago. So we have to be aware of what we're doing to ourselves a lot of the time. And when you realize that we all actually kind of run the same playbook in here, in that number one, we want to survive. How do we survive? We become part of a tribe. Okay, so How do we become part of a tribe? Oh, we have to have that connection. We have to feel like we are not alone. I'm sorry, I don't mean to be all bouncy, but I'm on my laptop. So how do we not feel alone? We need to have that connection. Now we have these conversations where you want— you're listening to me right now, and like I said, I'm hiding the comments right now so I can actually finish a train of thought because y'all know I'm like very squirrely when it comes to reading what you want, trying to respond to it. So I will get back to that. Um, but the connection in our society currently has been getting smaller and smaller and less and less because we don't have that real actual interaction. I am talking to you, you all are commenting, and we— I can, I can leave the comments hidden so that I don't respond to you directly. But even when I am responding to you directly, it's not the same as being in the room with you and having that actual connection. I was just talking with Tara, and I believe it is her birthday today. So y'all, I don't know, is Tara in here? Uh, see, now I gotta go look at the thingies again. Um, wait, good evening. My friend dropped off his firearms at my place due to a nasty divorce. Oh yes, that is a smart man. See, this is why I don't look at the comments. So anyway, uh, hey GT3, and, um, uh, you are welcome, G-Webs. Wait, how come it's not changing? Wow. All right, see, this is why I really should have gotten, um, DJ in here. My bad. Um, okay, sorry, I'm just gonna go real quick. Sleep, Brooke. I need to get some sleep. Yes, I really do. I'm not gonna lie. So, all right, I think I've said hi to everybody. I'm gonna go back to— yes, it is Tara's birthday. All right, so y'all, you know, if you know where she is, go to Tara, uh, Tara Smith's Kitchen, uh, DJ, if you'd be so kind, um, and just go, you know, drop her a happy birthday on one of any videos that she's got up there. So there is that. Oh, there she is! See, I'm talking about her, and there she is. All right, so That is that. All right, so sorry, back to ignoring the chat so I can stay on track. Oh, but then I can't— we're gonna leave Tara's thing up there the whole time. Okay, so see how I'm struggling to stay on track? A little bit like barbecue sometimes. Oh, and I forgot to silence my phone. Life is hard. I did a video a couple days ago about how hard life is, and the video was about how it took me about 10 or 15 minutes to to physically get dressed. Now, for most of us, it doesn't take that long, or at least that is the belief that we have. Because I put a piece of clothing on, I think of something, I'd go do the thing, and then I realized I'm not dressed yet. So I'd have to go back to the bedroom, finish getting dressed, and then I'd put one more piece on, and then I'd leave the bedroom again, realize I'm still not dressed. So it took me a long time. And Tara and I were just talking, and she's like, So many people think everybody else has their stuff together and they're the only one suffering. And this, I think, is part of the importance of like Barbecue's conversation that he just had about his struggle is like, someone needs to know you're struggling. And hey, if you have all your stuff together and everything is great for you, People need to know that too. Uh, because those of us that don't have all our stuff together need to figure out how to get our stuff together. And we need to know how you do it because it doesn't just happen when people have that beautiful home that is just all neat. Here, I'm going to show y'all. See this? This is my laundry. The laundry is not done. And, uh, it's not like that laundry has been sitting there just today. No. Friday? No. That laundry's been there since Thursday. So God bless you all who get laundry done every day. Um, well, it's not my thing, but we need to get better at that because clutter— this is clutter— is definitely, um, it's an emotional drain because no one can sit on the couch except for me right now because it's full of laundry, and that's not a welcoming thing. So what does this have to do with suicide prevention? Well, we all need help. We all need help in different ways and places. We need to be able to reach out for help. The EMT training that we were doing about the sex trafficking, one of the things that really made me think about tonight is the fact that people get caught and they get stuck because they feel like they're alone. They feel like there's no one else. They feel like they don't have any alternates. Um, and there's nowhere else to go. We are challenged by feeling alone, and yet we want our freedom, and yet we need each other. And all of these things don't always add up the way we want them to be. If you go back to Barbecue's channel, uh, and sorry, GJ, because like I said, I'm not looking at the comments because I want to try to stay focused for a few minutes, um, if you will throw a link to that uh, premiere that he just did. So you all can go back and watch that. But it's just like, in the sex trafficking thing, the girls felt alone and trapped. When people are in abusive relationships, um, people always like, well, why don't they just leave? Why don't they just leave? It's like, you don't understand. They feel alone and trapped, and they usually want to save their abuser. They figure if they could just be a little bit better that they would be able to stop it or make them— that person love them enough. And what we forget sometimes, we have to flip it upside down. It's like, if I were in an abusive relationship and I needed to get better in order to fix the person who's abusing me, it's the other way around. It's like, do I need to get better? Yes. But part of that is putting up the actual barriers to understand that, no, I don't really deserve to be abused. And how this plays into the suicide prevention stuff is that depression, a lot of the times, is us abusing ourselves and saying, I'm not enough, I'm too ugly, I'm too fat, I'm too this, I'm too that, why can't I be better? And we're actually doing the emotional abuse to ourselves. So for those of you who do not understand how depression works, it's pretty much kind of like everything sucks and it's my fault. And this was the same, same theme of the women who were in sex trafficking. Everything sucks and it's all my fault. And it's like, it's a horrible, horrible thing. So when we were talking about EMT class, it's like, as an EMT, we're supposed to help them. However, our help is taking them away from what they know, which is the life. And they were used to their freedom. They had their handler, who is usually someone they're deeply in love with and will do anything for. They have their freedom and they have someone to guide them. So when we see something like that, we're like, okay, we're going to help you, and we take you away from all that and we confine you to a hospital and we confine you to a home or any of that, they're just trying to go back to the love. They say that it takes up to 7 times for someone to get pulled out of the life before they will actually stay out of the life because it's all that they know. How does Titan suicide friend on Saturday? Again, we do the same things in our heads. We're just not aware of what we are doing. So, all right, I'm gonna go back to comments because that was really kind of it. Um, so let's see. Driving to yard. Happy birthday, Tara. Um, I'll put DJ's— oh yes, go to Instagram, Tara Smith. There you go. Cool. All right, I'm not even reading this, I'm just clicking on things. I have a few people who are responsible for dressing me. If they take too long, they are fired. So you get— oh, maybe I should try that. Maybe that should be my thing. Um, but yeah, no, for real, it's frustrating because literally I'll be half dressed and I'll start walking out of the bedroom and I'm just like, where am I going? I need to finish dressing. And it's just like I imagine this is what ADHD is like, where you're like trying to do one thing and then onto the next, on the next. So, um, let's see, what do you say? I fired them for sitting there that long. Yeah, well, apparently I need to hire more people to do these things. Um, no, like everyone points out, if we do a little bit every day, it ends up not being that much. The challenges between myself, my daughter my son and my husband, we are just crazy busy going and doing stuff like mad. All right, if you have your shit together and aren't struggling, are lying through their teeth, just saying. Well, so yes and no. I kind of agree with that. And it's like, we all have our stuff together. Like, someone the other day said to me, um, what the heck was it? It's like, I'm having a bad day. It's like, no, you've had some bad moments today, but none of us really ever have an entirely bad day. Um, yeah, Tara's working on her birthday, so that sucks. She didn't get the day off for her birthday, but it's still her birthday and it's still one more solution, uh, revolution around the world. So you're 6 feet above the 6 feet under. And if it's pain and suffering, at least you're still around to feel the pain and suffering, and there's something you can do about it. Or you're maybe going to be the next Gandhi because you have been going through so much. Um, and yes, what DJ said, if y'all did not see Barbecue's premiere, check it out later. Um, because I don't know when I said put a thing up. Oh my goodness, oh, now you're all chatting. All right, people are abusive, also don't see it. True. Well, maybe it depends, uh, if someone is physically abusive, they know they are physically abusive. Do they feel guilty for being physically abusive? That too, which doesn't make sense because then they say they'll never do it again, then they do it again anyway. Um, so here's fun fact for you. Yes. Men are sex trafficked as well as women. However, it's 84% women. I can't do the math without looking at it. It is whatever the other part of 84 is. So anyway, 16% men and like 1% transgender is what the current stats are. Oh, PNW, how are you? I don't think I said hi before. Um, yeah, so people that live trauma as kids often find trauma as adults. Yes, because we like our tribes, and our tribes are what we know and what our, um, our normal is. So there was a really great Ed Mylett, um, video interview about this woman who, at her first memory at 4 years old was being told which hotel room to go into and not to forget to take the envelope when she left. And that was her first memory of being sex trafficked at 4 years old. Uh, the other thing we learned today, the youngest sex trafficking starts at like 2, or— yeah, it's horrible. So anyway, um, back to what PNW said. It is all they know. One of the things that girl said in Ed Mylett's interview was the fact that she was special. She wasn't to tell anyone what happened because she was special. She was in her mid-20s or 30s before she left the life. So— oh, sorry, I got to see all her happy birthdays. So thank you everyone. I think I'm almost done. Um, let's see. ADHD is horrible. Try imaging watching 5 different TV shows at the same time with the volume at full blast on each channel. Ah, so D23, are you telling me that that is what you have? Um, because like I said, I just feel like— Squirrel! Sparkly squirrel, what's up? All right, hello Vanessa Kitty. We gotta do lunch for real. I even have your address. I could just drive and see you, uh, maybe when I am not going 24 miles an hour. Maybe, I don't know. All right. Oh, big announcement, uh, Saturday night I'm gonna be offline next week, so I will figure out something to record and put up for y'all, but I will not be here. Speaking of getting sleep, I'm actually going away next weekend for a girls weekend, and I am not going to be online, on Facebook, on the phone, none of it. It's going to be one of those things. So, Suicide Prevention Saturday, what do you need to do? You need to also take care of yourself. Um, um, so yes, I will make sure you all know. Oh sure, now he shows up. Just, I'm like, no, really, I'm done talking. Mario, I was so thinking of you today. Uh, if I had my act together, I was actually going to send you an invite to, uh, uh, come chat tonight, but we'll talk another time. Yes, it is a girls weekend next weekend, uh, and like I said, I— yes, I— so I do, I totally need it without a doubt. And yes, see, everyone's happy to see Mario. We love Mario. Um, Mario, dude, you totally have to— oh, see, yeah, I get to be like Mario because I'm going on a girls weekend. He just came back from Mighty Oaks. I— maybe that's— oh dude, seriously, I just announced I'm not going to be here and I need to record something. You, me, this week, uh, let's talk about the Mighty Oaks thing and how that all went, and that will be next Saturday. So yeah, so Super Mario, we got to, um, give you a little red hat that has a big M on it. All right, gentlemen and, um, ladies, you're welcome, DJ. Um, yes. So yeah, no, I'm taking a whole weekend. I am leaving on Saturday, not coming back till Tuesday, um, is the plan. Uh, trick-or-treating with the kids on Monday. So anyway, but yes, I'm gonna be offline. I'm so excited. So with that, now that we've all said hi to Mario, I am gonna go out. I've got a pistol permit class to teach tomorrow because, you know, It is Sunday, and that's usually what I do on Sundays if I'm not at a match or volunteering at a match, which was last weekend. And I will see all you lovely people. I won't see you next Saturday. I will give you something though. I will do something for you, and I will try to put more interesting videos up. I'm going to try to work on more stuff here on the YouTube channel side. It's gonna be more how-tos and little things like grip reloads, stuff like that. So if you have any ideas or preferences of stuff that I'm gonna do shorts, I'm gonna do like 2-3 minutes. I know shorts are supposed to be less than a minute, but I can't do a reload— well, I can do it, read it in less than a minute, but I can't explain what I'm doing less than a minute. So, um, yes, we won't eat any mushrooms on trick-or-treating. I am pretty sure of that. All right, yes, Sunday is gun day. Every day is gun day because you can say Monday is gun day and Tuesday is gun day and Thursday. Yeah, so anyway, all right, all right, Miss Tara, uh, you enjoy cupcakes or something, uh, fun when you get home to the wife. And yes, I need to get someone to help me edit all the stuff that I have because there was lots of really good stuff that I have. So anybody who wants to help go through oodles of content and pare it down, let me know. I'll give you access to my Google Drive because I have lots. So anyway, all right, good night all. Sleep well. I know I will. I'm about to go crash. Love to you all. Know you are loved. Know you are cared for. Yes, the world needs you. Don't commit suicide. If you have a problem, get some help. Reach out because People need help, and sometimes you need to help people by asking for help. All right, love you. Goodbye. I'm really gonna hit the button twice.