Is this you? Doubt blocking your blessings?

Hey, hey, hey, beautiful heart! How are you doing today? Let me just turn up the volume here. Um, okay, so I was doing my thing before turning on the camera and meditating on the energy and what I was picking up. And, um, I already knew based on the energy I felt this morning that this reading was going to be around, um, doubt, because that's the energy I picked up on, which makes sense. We have been on some pretty good high energy that has helped clear up some things over the last couple of days, but just like everything else, things shift, and now At the time of this recording, we are already under the Mercury retrograde energy. It will officially go retrograde in Pisces, um, on February 26th. This is February 25th at the time I'm recording, but again, readings are timeless, so whenever you're coming across this, then, um, it's for you. But anyways, what was happening is I grabbed my Waikau deck to shuffle as I'm meditating. I kid you not, and I left it exactly the way it fell and I hit record. So, doubt is poison to your manifestation. Guys, this is the freaking theme of the reading, and literally that was sloppy, but literally I'm just sitting here doing this and that's how it flew out. You can't have courage without fear. I love that one because it's really true. All right, now that we know doubt is, um, the subject and the topic we're gonna dive into today, um, bottom line, doubt for sure is poison to your manifestation. I call it the subtle silent killer. I should really say the 3 S's: the silent, subtle, or actually let me change that, subtle, silent, and I forgot the last one. Oh my goodness. All right, sorry, neurospiciness has kicked in. My brain is running in 15 different directions at the same time. All right, so anyways, back to doubt. Um, it is the subtle silent strangler. There we go, that's what it is. Um, why? Because doubt is an unconscious program. The key word— keywords: unconscious program. If you've been with me for a while, you know if it's a program, we can override it. If it's a program, it started back when we were younger. To have courage and strength, you look— you have to face that fear head-on. Most fear is coupled with doubt. That's what makes those two a dynamic duo. All right, so moving right along regarding this energy, yes, we've got another wallop. So if you were feeling over the past couple of days, even if it's just in one area of your life that you felt like you gained some clarity or you were able to breathe a little bit easier and kind of move forward, don't get discouraged if today feels slower, sluggish. This type of energy is definitely an energetic setup where, and with Mercury going retrograde, it's the breeding ground for doubt. So that's why we're going to talk about it. Okay, for those of you who have seen this card here, it's the Lovers and the Moon. I'm just going to say this off the bat, it could change as we get further into the reading, but when this came out, I immediately heard this is not about a love reading. So if you saw that and you got some feelings one way or the other that this is about love, it's not. The Lovers card is also a choice, and this is— this whole energy is tying to yesterday. Again, it comes to a choice. What are you going to put your attention on? So With the Lovers card and the Moon coming right up, what was the first thing I said about doubt? It's subtle, it hides. When we get the Moon card, that, you know, lets me know, hey, not everything is being seen for what it is. So this doubt, especially if it is like an old programming in your head, meaning it's monkey mind, the critic, just annihilating you no matter what you've just chosen. If you're in this energy today of, I don't know what to do, I don't know how to do it, it all feels so overwhelming, and you just kind of want to shut down or back away from it, don't. Just know this is the energy and it's absolutely okay. Um, but this is where you want to be equipped with subtle shifts, tips and shifts, to remind yourself that today's energy is going to be a little wonky and funky, and doubt is the subtle strangler that is hanging around just waiting to pounce. When you're aware of it doesn't mean, you know, the human's not going to show up and lose its shit. It absolutely can. That's okay. That's, you know, how we learn. Remember, check in with your body. What is your body feeling and doing when you're sitting with the doubt? Are you noticing you're feeling heavier and your thoughts get heavier? And more and more of the same doubt thoughts come up. Now you're, you know, going through your archives, your historical archives, like you're a damn museum cataloging. When did I feel this before and what happened? Let me see right there. That's the problem. Do not go to the journal. Do not go to the mental artifacts of the past and try to catalog catalog what is going on so that you can analyze and try to make an informed decision under the guise of, well, I don't want to do that again, I don't want to make that same mistake. Well, baby, baby, baby, let me tell you, that train of thought has you right there, not on the train of doubt, honey, you are the conductor of that thing. And before you realize it, you're going to be going full steam ahead on the wrong track. The reason I say wrong, because again, in consciousness there is no right or wrong. It's about the experiences. But if you— if that resonated and you're cataloging all of the past or consulting the past to make a decision in the now for your future, you are the conductor of the doubt train. Not going to sugarcoat it. But the thing is, because you are the conductor, you're leading the show. You can decide to get off that train, stop the train, change the tracks. And that's what, um, today really is an opportunity for. Because guess what? As I said, Mercury's gonna go, um, retrograde tomorrow, so we're in for 2 to 3 weeks of this funky quicksand type of energy. And remember, Mercury is going retrograde in Pisces. Pisces is slower, it's dreamy, it's um, it is very intuitive, but it's also a slower moving sign. Um, it likes to stay more in fantasy versus looking at what is holding it back and pushing forward. So be aware. So again, making the choice to stay out of doubt and shift, you are going to uncover and see where this subconscious, silent, subtle strangler is hanging out in your cells and keeps sabotaging your progress. Because look, when you make this choice to not entertain doubt, then you've got the Sun, the Two of Cups, and Strength. And this Strength card coupled with you can't have courage without fear. She's embracing the lion. Now this is a woman who has been through some ish. She doesn't look like what she's been through. Anybody relate to that? If you can, put those high-five emoji hands in the comment. Because guys, if you resonate with me and my readings and my work, then I already know you have been through ish in your life that would blow people's mind. You do not look like what you've been through. Now, that doesn't mean that people don't know a little bit about what you've been through. I feel like people just know maybe 3% of the depth of the ish that you've dealt with. You have carried a lot of burdens on your own. That's this woman here. But when she embraces the lion, this strength is about the courage. Why? Because she had the courage to look at the fear, the doubts, the self-abandonment, rejection, all of that, to look at it head-on for what it is, and it absolutely changed her whole trajectory. Now, not making that choice, staying in doubt, we've got Justice in reverse, Four of Swords, the Tower. We have the Page of Cups in reverse and then the Two of Swords. So again, we're opening with a choice and a decision, we're closing with a choice and a decision. What happens in between is the ebbs and flows of the energy based on where your attention is. Are you feeding doubt? Are you feeding belief, hope, and faith? Um, because your whole foundation is trying to change, you are in this transition. The Tower doesn't mean— doesn't always mean a negative. A Tower comes in when we're not making the choices that we should be in the time frame we should be, and the universe comes in and says, nope, I got something better for you. I'm gonna shake the shit up, get you on the right track. So for those of you resonating with this doubt and being the conductor of that train, if you don't make the choice to change you will have an experience that will lead you to a different track. That's all I'm saying. So how you have the experience is 100% going to be about where your attention is. Page of Cups in reverse. So we at least got our emotions, um, these are The way that I'm feeling this is you have the doubt thoughts. These are the immature emotions that kick up with the doubt thoughts and become a mirage. I call it a mirage because it's not truth. It may have been your experience in the past, but you've left your past in the past. Now every day, especially with Mercury in retrograde, you are going to have a chance to revisit that. In other words, it's like every day kind of checking in and saying, hey, do I still believe this? And if not, then I'm going to change. That's where this Two of Swords comes in. You have a choice to make. In every situation. If you have a history of not choosing you, maybe dulling yourself down, letting somebody else have the spotlight, blah blah blah, ask yourselves, is that truly who you are? Is that who you're meant to be? Or has that always subtly bothered you because you were being called to make choices based on you? Me, not anybody else. The people-pleasing, putting everybody else timeline, we've left it behind. We don't do that over here. For some of you, that could be what this whole thing is about. All right guys, I'm gonna leave it here. I hope that helped. As always, sending you oceans and oceans of love from my heart to yours. Namaste. Bye-bye.