Give yourself permission to not do something hard. If the urge disappears, it was never yours to begin with. That's how you tell the difference between what you actually want and what you think you should want.
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They may be hard, they may be scary, they may be all kinds of things. And the only way to get through that is to take the first step to get through that. And maybe what you do is you back fully away from it and go, I give myself permission not to do it. And then you see how that feels. Because it's like, well, if I gave myself permission not to do that, was it mine? Am I still aching to do that? Or was it somebody else's? That ended up being a giant should and a priority one on my list, and it's not really mine. I actually don't want to do it. Awesome. I've cleared out a bunch of clutter in my life that has been shoulds of someone else. I should do that. I should study this. I should know that. I should pursue this. I should.