Letting Go of Who You Were For Who You Can Become

What do you do when the tools that once helped you succeed and the identity that got you there suddenly stop working? My guest today knows the answer to that question firsthand, and so do I. We talk about that. Ruby Frimone was at the height of her career when a devastating personal tragedy set up a cascade of events that changed everything. She faced harassment, stalking, a million-dollar lawsuit, serious health concerns, the loss of her personal identity, and eventually, a period where she was planning How to end her life. But this is not a conversation about staying stuck in the darkness. It is a conversation about what happened next, how Ruby began rebuilding her life with the support of her husband, therapist, and closest friends, why traditional personal development advice that you and I have been given and we've tried it, it wasn't enough for her trauma, and how somatic work helped her reconnect with her body, her emotions, and her sense of self. We'll talk about the difference between a difficult season and what Ruby calls dark night of the soul. We'll explore how trauma can live in the body, why calming yourself during anxiety isn't simply distraction, and a practical exercise that you can use immediately to begin expanding your capacity to feel difficult emotions without being overwhelmed by them. And stay with us until the end because Ruby shares the first step she recommends for anyone who feels like they're falling apart. And I'll share the belief that helped me through some of the darkest moments of my own life. A brief content note before we begin. This episode includes discussions of suicide, trauma, grief, and mental health crises. If you or someone you know is in immediate danger, contact local emergency services or a crisis resource in your area. With that said, it is my great pleasure to share this vulnerable, real, and raw conversation that can help you through the darkest times in your life. Ruby, it's so good to see you.

Hal, it is so good to be reunited here online.

Yeah. And you used to live near me and then you moved to Montana.

Yep. We moved to our dream state.

Yeah. Is it just beautiful there?

It's stunningly gorgeous. Like, every season is gorgeous to me as well.

That's incredible. So, today, there's so much we could talk about. I've had you on the podcast before. This is your second appearance, which, by the way, that's a very small percentage of folks that I love so much and get so much value from the conversation that I bring them back on. I know you've gone through what some might call like a dark night of the soul. You've gone through some real traumatic events. And you and I have talked like we've both been literally to the point of contemplating suicide.

Yeah.

And I know we're not alone in that. I know that we actually represent, I don't know what percentage, but a large percentage of people that are listening to this that are either going through that now or have gone through it or might experience life events that put them in that place in the future. So, with that, I love your story. I want to hear your story and share it with folks. And then, You went through all the dark night of the soul, as did I, and now we're both on the other side of it, so to speak, and not that life doesn't have more in store for us. But, yeah, share with folks some of the cascading events, some of the dominoes that led to your challenges.

Yeah. Beginning of 2022, I was literally at the highest point of my career. Everything felt great. Everything felt easy. There was a flow. My husband and I were finally in a place where we were trying to get pregnant.

Okay.

And then in June 2022, we experienced a shock trauma where our dog Leia went quote unquote missing. But what had actually happened was she was killed and the dog sitters lied to us. Without going too much into the detail of that, and we can link the story actually in the show notes too, I think that would be helpful.

Yeah.

This ended up being one of the most prolific dog care provider cases in the state of Texas. It gained— we were on Fox News. We ended up changing the laws in Texas for animal cruelty.

Wow.

Lots happened. However, going through that trauma, there was a lot involved. Harassment, stalking, being sued for $1 million, a countersuit for defamation. Having my entire life and history online being used against me, I went from fight into straight up dorsal vagal shutdown. My hypervigilance was so high that I couldn't leave the house. I couldn't get groceries. I couldn't go anywhere by myself, which was very different from the hyper-independent woman that I knew. You know, like now all of a sudden I am a dependent. I can't do anything on my own. I'm depressed.

Yeah.

I'm anxious. And then let's just throw into the mix, all of a sudden I'm in early onset menopause. So my hormones are declining because of my dorsal vagal shutdown state. My kidneys started shutting down and my vascular system was shutting down. So my body was literally shutting down. So it wasn't just emotional trauma. It was the emotional trauma that impacted my physical health.

Yeah.

And this was between 2022 and 2024. And during that time, I slowly let go of pieces of my business that felt too overwhelming or too much to manage. And I just kept my private clients. But when you let go of so many pieces of your life that you've built an identity around, there's like another form of grief that comes in. And that's the grief of losing sense of who you are, the significance that you hold. And losing that was like, it felt like sand through my fingertips. Like I started to lose sight of who I was. I didn't feel the same. I wasn't able to socially engage in the same ways. I wasn't able to engage with life.

Hmm.

And in December of 2024, it all just became too much. And I entered a chapter of being suicidal where I was spending a lot of time trying to figure out how I was going to kill myself. I had a plan. That was the thing I obsessed on all day, every day.

Hmm.

And in January 2025, I almost was admitted to a center with the help of my therapist because I decided, okay, let me try to live with the support of my husband and my therapist. But I couldn't find a center that would support me in ways that felt really aligned, like without pharmaceuticals, because if I was going to live, then I want to live my way.

Yeah.

So I ended up increasing the amount of therapy I was doing, including other therapies, quitting work completely. So letting go of everything, everything I had spent years building, who I thought I was, just letting it all go, which again, like there's a lot of grief With letting go of who you think you are. And with that loss of friendships, relationships, like, it just felt like my entire life was hitting rock bottom and I lost sight of everything.

How did that impact your marriage, by the way? I know that for me, my marriage barely survived my darkest point because it was like my wife at some point was like, is this forever? Like, is this the new you? Because this is not the man that I married. And I'm like, I don't know.

God, I think it would be interesting if the four of us got in a podcast together to talk about this. It was really hard. We—I mean—we were already kind of up and down before that, and then this was the biggest test of our marriage because, just like you said, my husband married a hyper-independent, successful woman who made her own money, who contributed. And then all of a sudden, I'm like manic, having like. extreme manic episodes, a shell of myself, unable to even just like connect with him and completely, completely dependent on him.

Mm-hmm.

And so for him, he was going through his own grief of losing the identity of the woman that he had been with while I am going through the grief of losing my own identity. So it was definitely challenging and we made our way through, but It wasn't easy. And I think we made our way through because as I was focusing on my own therapy and healing, I really did keep him in mind. You know, I really did consider what the impact of this was on him. And we continued to keep those lines of communication open, as open as possible, because it was really hard to communicate about that at the time. Yeah. But he was also my rock during this time, right? He was the one that saw me every single day. No one saw me in a lot of this because I hid, you know, I hid from the world. But he saw me and he loved me through it. And as much as it was extremely challenging to do so, he did. And I feel like because of him and because of my therapist, Like, I really made it through. And that 2025 was really just that year of healing, of completely surrendering, allowing, letting everything go, like everything that I had a tight grip on, just letting it all go and holding faith. Like, God has a plan that I'm going to choose to trust that this is leading me somewhere.

Yeah.

And That faith and walking step by step and taking it slow, which is very different for this hyper-independent type A woman.

Yeah.

You know, going step by step and ensuring that everything that I'm doing is actually contributing to my foundation instead of tearing it up was what brought me to where I am today. And our marriage is the strongest it's ever been. Because we made it through that together, right? High fives. Yeah.

That's amen.

But I feel more connected to myself, to the world around me, to the people around me, to my work, to my purpose. I feel more alive than ever before. And I also look back and question, was I ever really alive or was I just surviving?

Yeah. Yeah. I mean, it's amazing too. I mean, you literally wrote the book Potent Leadership, right? And so, that is such an identity crisis to be like, I'm supposed to be the one who I'm supposed to be the light. I'm supposed to be the light worker. I'm supposed to be the leader. I'm supposed right like I I'm suppo I teach others how to manage their right. So I mean, I can I can very much relate like and then when you're going through it, and I think it's so important that we're having this conversation for folks because um you every everybody no matter how much of a pedestal you might put someone on like oh my gosh they're the CEO of this, whatever. They're the author. They're the speaker. They're so successful. They're a human being. I don't know who said it, but once someone's like, we're all just teenagers in 40-year-old bodies or 30-year-old or 50-year-old or whatever, however old you are, right? We're all teenagers. Like, we're all insecure teenagers trying to prove ourselves, dealing with trauma in various ways. Some of us were bullied. Some of us, didn't have love from our parents, like all the stuff, it doesn't go away. And so, I think that we're all vulnerable to the challenges that life faces. And I want to ask you about the tools that you use. Some of it you've kind of alluded to, but I think that's what's so crucial is all the adversity that I've been through, that you've been through, right?

Yeah.

The fact that we had an arsenal of tools being perspectives, paradigms, practices, you know what I mean? Like, all these things that we've learned through personal growth and development over the years, through the work that we've done, that it's like we now can— at least I have this tool, I have this resource, this perspective. So, I'm curious what your tools have been that have gotten you through that anybody listening is like, That's something that I can apply in my own life.

Yeah. What's interesting is so much of the personal development space and coaching world that I was immersed in and even plant medicine world, a lot of that wasn't applying anymore and that was confusing me. Like, all the tools that I typically go towards were not working. And I realized through therapy. So, my therapist is a psychotherapist. She does IFS, which I absolutely love. It changed my life.

What does that stand for?

Internal family systems.

Your family.

Yeah. And she's also a somatic experiencing practitioner, which I will soon be. I graduate this year. Um, but the SE work, all of that really supported me because it felt like offering myself positivity or like focusing on the silver lining, focusing on what's, what, where this is leading me was actually leading me. Right. And what I really needed was to acknowledge the horrific nature of what I was going through. So not being a victim, but recognizing that through this crime that happened, I'm a victim of a crime. Mm-hmm. And that has an impact. I think so much of the personal development space is not very trauma-informed. And so they have this whole like aversion to victim mentality, but it's important to understand when you have been victimized. So me taking that time to show myself compassion and grace and recognize like all the stuff that is not okay helped me. It's like heal the inner child that was hurting, heal the adult self that just needed recognition and acknowledgement of what she was going through. Because I was already surrounded by people in Austin telling me, well, what's the silver lining? And I'm like, my dog was killed. Like I'm being stalked. I'm sued for $1 million. Like what do you mean there's a a silver lining, right? Like that just pushed me the other way. Whereas if someone would just sit beside me, hold my hand and watch me cry, that was everything I needed.

Yeah.

And that shift has supported me in how I carry myself today, how I, how I treat myself today, how I show up for friends, for clients. It's impacted my work. And as I mentioned, like through this journey, I also started my 3-year program with somatic experiencing because I loved Working, like how that impacted my healing process. And for those who don't know, the simplest way I can describe it is we work with the trauma responses that are stuck in the body. So rather than talk therapy, we work with the responses that are showing up in the body, which leads to the recurrence of patterns in your relationships and the way you operate through life. So it was like my old toolkit wasn't That effective during this time, but it helped shed light on other tools of incorporating it and weaving together the old with the new to pave a way forward. It highlighted all the ways in which I actually wasn't supporting myself prior to this.

So, the somatic work, I actually would love to dive into that, especially when you're about to graduate. Is that correct?

Yes. It's a 3-year program, so I'm very, very excited.

Yeah. So, you've been in it for 3 years and when are you done?

I'll be done in November. I head out and they're all in-person training. So, they're intense, like 5 days.

So, for those— yeah. So, I really want to double tap on this for at least a few minutes or more. The somatic, I want to give a couple examples. And somatic, first, define it real quick, right? I take it as like our body and how our body stores emotions. I think of the book, The Body Keeps the Score. But yeah, how would you define for someone that's not familiar with the term somatic, what are you referring to?

The whole self. So, mind, body, spirit, the whole self. It's not just the physical body. It's not just the mind. It's taking into consideration the entire organism of the human.

Got it. Okay. And so, am I correct in understanding that our body literally stores Trauma that we might not even be aware of, right?

Definitely. And an example, like how many people listening, you've experienced something in life and later in life, you see the same thing, similar car, you smell a certain smell that reminds you of something in the past, and all of a sudden, you can feel your body going into constriction, like the memory's coming up.

Yeah.

This happens in more subtle ways than we think. It doesn't always happen like that. And I'll use a personal vulnerable example here. So speaking on stages, hosting events, writing my book, having a podcast, and there's a chapter in my book where I talk about how we're all seeking significance. Yet here I was thinking I wasn't doing that. Well, looking back, all of this was me chasing A sense of respect that I never got within my household, right? So, my childhood trauma has played a huge impact on how I have led myself and my life. Yes, it helped me gain success, which I'm thankful for, and I no longer want to operate from that way.

Yeah, yeah. It's a good self-awareness. So, an example for me, somatic, like the release, I was at a Front Row Dads event a few years ago and day 1, night 1, it was like 90-minute breathwork session. I'm like, I've done breathwork before. It doesn't really work for me. And so, I'm laying there on a yoga mat and I'm listening and I'm like, I'll play along. And I'm doing the breathwork and just pretty intense breathwork. And I remember I was thinking, this doesn't work for me while I was doing it, which is wild because like I literally was like the psychology was all wrong. That didn't change the somatic work and the somatic release that I was about to experience. So, I'm doing the breathwork and all of a sudden, I think it was probably 7 minutes in and it was getting, I mean, difficult to do. I'm like, this isn't comfortable. I don't like this. I want to stop. And all of a sudden, I start bawling my eyes out, just crying. And I'm not a crier. Like, I literally have 40 years of pent-up tears in my body. And using the positive thinking to suppress the emotion and not feel it. So, not only do I start crying my eyes out, but I start talking to myself. I wasn't even really conscious of it. And I was basically just telling myself, it was like God talking to me, just like, Hal, I love you. And you've never allowed yourself to feel pain and you need to allow and release and all the things. And so, that was a personal experience I had. And I just want to give one quick other example that I just came across the other day. In fact, anybody can watch this if you go— are you familiar with Human Garage?

Mm-hmm.

Yeah. So, Human Garage, they do somatic work. And if you go to their Instagram, it's one of their pinned posts. I think it's the second one over right in the middle. It's LeAnn Rimes. Grammy-winning musician. And, he's doing work where he's simply putting pressure on her jaw with her finger to where her face is cringing. And eventually, within a matter of seconds, she releases and she just starts bawling uncontrollably. And, it's not physical pain, it's emotional pain. And, he's got many examples on his Instagram of that. So, I wanted to give those 2 reference points for someone so you have just an understanding of Like, what is stored in our body that therapy or psychology may not be able to release or access that it takes physical somatic work to do. So, with that being that I have no expertise in this area, I would love for you to share a little bit about what can someone actually— what can they do if they know they've got trauma and they know maybe it shows up in anger or it shows up in fear or different ways, what are some somatic practices or resources that they can use?

Yeah. So, with somatic experiencing, it's a little more subtle. So, we don't focus on huge forms of catharsis. We focus on— if you think about the body and in each of us, we all have only so much capacity and so much resilience. This is called our zone of tolerance. And, when people have a lot of trauma, it's a little bit Smaller. So we don't have much room to experience the waves of our emotion, which is why we get overwhelmed easily or we shut down easily. Somatic experiencing works to open that window up slowly so that you start to develop the capacity and resilience to move through the ebbs and flows of your emotions. This is true regulation. Regulation is not you're grounded all the time. Regulation is you can feel anger and come back down. Mm-hmm. You can feel sadness and come back down. You have the resilience and the capacity to move through the human experience. And so SE, short for somatic experiencing, helps. This is how I help my clients, is develop that window of tolerance, develop capacity, develop resilience. So let's use anxiety because I think everyone, I think everyone nowadays deals with anxiety on some level, right?

Yeah.

Imagine for a moment you're anxious. Where do you— what do you tend to notice in your body? There's usually some form of physical sensation, a fluttering, a zap. Some people experience it as like shakiness, wobbly. And all of a sudden your vision becomes very narrow and you're only focused on the anxiety and what it feels like in your body. You can't think of anything else. In those moments, trying to get someone to, okay, just breathe. Sometimes that's really hard just to breathe.

Okay.

But can you just for a moment look around your room? And as you look around your room, move your head and your neck. Don't just like, because most people when they're anxious, they're only going to move their eyes. Move your head, move your neck, and let your eyes fall on something that feels somewhat pleasant to look at. So right now, my eyes are falling on this crystal I have on my desk. It's really pretty. You can focus on what looks nice about it. Why do you like looking at that thing? And then all of a sudden, your body will start to regulate itself because you are bringing yourself out and using another sense to direct yourself. Some people aren't really vision-oriented.

Hmm.

A lot of people are tactile, fuzzy blankets, weighted blankets. So, when you're having or experiencing anxiety, is there something that you can touch? I often touch my dogs because they're fuzzy. I'll put them in my laps like a weighted blanket. So, animals serve a great purpose in supporting us.

My son yesterday was about to do an interview for the Tony Robbins UPW youth event and he was so nervous and he picked up our little kitten and it completely calmed, right? So, he did exactly what you're talking about.

Because you're, you're, you're giving yourself the experience of just coming out of the body long enough to feel something outside of you, which supports you in creating that regulation. And in doing that, you're helping yourself regulate. You know, this is why the work I do with horses has been so profound, because the horses are able to reflect so much of that for my clients.

I think I told you on our last interview that we did a couple years ago that my wife had gone, we had gone to, I forgot where we were at, But she did work with horses and it completely transformed her anxiety. And yeah, that's amazing. Now, what about someone that— like, I want to play the devil's advocate here, which is, aren't you just distracting? Am I just distracting myself, though? So, I'm looking at this. I got this awesome, beautiful picture on my wall with a guy and a sunset and it makes me feel really good to look at it. Yeah. But then as soon as I go back to like work or email or whatever was causing me anxiety, didn't I just distract myself? And, and maybe there's value just in that. I don't know. What are your thoughts?

It's actually building capacity. So the way you want to look at it is like, imagine you're having anxiety right now. Again, like you tend to go into this, we go into this tunnel vision, everything becomes about the thing that we're anxious about, or everything becomes about the sensation in our body that we're experiencing because we have anxiety. So people who have panic disorders tend to focus a lot on, oh my God, the body. It becomes too overwhelming to be in the body, or it becomes too overwhelming to be in front of the laptop, the thing that is activating us. This is not a distraction. This is a way to open up the window of tolerance. So by finding something nice to look at, petting my dog, I am opening up my capacity. And then you can go back to the computer screen. That's the thing that, that's activating you.

Yeah.

But then go back to the dog and then go back to the computer screen and then go back to the dog. And what you're going to find is that your capacity for the computer screen is going to widen. It's going to broaden. You're going to experience a healthier capacity for that. You know, one thing, like if someone is experiencing anxiety in a certain part of their body, you know, my chest feels like it's fluttering, I can't breathe. Is there any part of your body that feels really steady and grounded? Even if it's just your big toe or the soles of your feet. And for them to connect, oh yeah, you know, like the soles of my feet. Yeah, I feel grounded in the soles of my feet, but I still feel like the anxiety in my chest. Okay, let's go back to the soles of your feet. Focus on the soles of your feet. Maybe rub your feet against the carpet. See how that feels. Now go back to your chest. How's that feeling now? Better, worse, or the same? A lot of times people will be like the same or slightly better and you just keep oscillating between the two. And eventually that feeling in the chest will start to dissipate. Why? Because we've widened the capacity and we've brought our attention to something that is outside of that thing that we've been obsessed on. So it's not— a distraction would be like, fuck this, I'm going to go sit in front of the TV and watch Netflix.

Or check your phone. Yeah, yeah, right?

Right. Yeah. Yeah. Check your phone. What is that actually doing for you?

Yeah. And what's amazing is, as I'm thinking through what you're talking about, it's like, um, let's say I do look at this picture and I go from feeling anxiety or stress to feeling calm and peaceful. I'm literally telling myself that I'm not the anxiety. I'm not the stress. I can literally shift my state at any moment by shifting where I put my attention. Right. So that in itself is liberating.

Well, you're bringing attention to the complexity of a human, right? We can feel 2 things at once. We can recognize the anxiety but also recognize I feel calm here.

Yeah. And that liberates you from the all-consumingness of the anxiety, which is powerful. So, I know you do private coaching, right? And then I know you have a retreat next year. Is this the type of work, like, what in your private coaching and at the retreat you're doing Is what are the— and maybe it's different for each of them, but what do you do with people? How do you help them?

Yeah. So, my focus is on helping high-achieving leaders who have found themselves at a threshold of life where they're like, I can't keep doing it like this anymore. They're burning out. The capacity is dwindling. They've gone through a divorce. Something has happened to make them want to renegotiate things. This is where I step in and I support them in not only understanding their capacity and the ways in which they've been overriding themselves, But in developing a deeper sense of capacity and resilience so that they can actually live and lead with a sense of aliveness. So, no more surviving, no more just going after achievements, but like, let's see how alive and embodied you can feel today and how that ends up impacting their leadership, their businesses, their families, their relationships.

And their quality of life. That's what I would see.

Yes.

It's actually, to me, that's like, Quality of life. Yeah, continue.

Yes, exactly. It's exactly that. It's the quality of life, but the quality of connection. And I think so many people live and desire connection with each other, with the world, but they're unable to achieve it. And it becomes this thing that they're constantly chasing. But once you connect to that aliveness within you, it's like everything just connects. Like, I feel so connected to everything all the time in the best way possible. including my emotions, which can get pretty intense. But at the same time, I'd rather feel the intensity of my emotions and the beauty of my emotions than numb out.

Yeah. That makes sense. How does someone know— you mentioned when we talked the other day and I brought it up at the beginning of our conversation, going through a dark night of the soul. What's the difference between a rough patch and a dark night of the soul? And how does someone identify? If there is a difference, is it a very gray area? How would you separate those or how would you help somebody identify whether this is a rough patch or this really monumental significant? And I guess, what is a dark night of the soul for someone that might not be familiar with that term?

The simplest way I describe a dark night of the soul is when you start to lose sense of self, which is very different than a rough patch or a challenging time. It's like when all of a sudden, The person that you've strived to be is no longer who you are, but it's almost like it's not a choice point. It's just disintegrating in front of you. That is the dark night.

And would you say it— oh, go ahead.

Oh, I was just going to say it becomes like the stage of unbecoming all that you thought you were.

Yeah. And I think that part of what you said earlier, which I really resonated with, when I asked you about which tools helped you get through, you're like, all the tools that I had at that point, none of them were And that, for me, was the case in 2020 is when it started. And that's part of also what you're saying, the dark night of the soul, which is like my identity is like the tools that I use that I've taught to millions of people, that's part of my identity. Like, hey, this is how you can get through anything. And then it's like, wait, I'm falling apart even though I have the tools in place. So, yeah, there's such an integration with identity and your perspectives and your mindset. And the tools and the things you've done that have worked before. And then, when they stop working, now, does any of that, like ego death comes up for me right now? And that's an area that I don't talk about a lot. So, I don't know that I can speak on it with a lot of expertise, but I think about a dark night of the soul and an ego death. That seems to make sense. If the dark night of the soul is you're losing your identity, like my friend, Kyle Cease. Do you know Kyle?

Yeah, I do.

Yeah. I love Kyle. He talks a lot about this. He always says, he calls it the small self, like the part of you that is falling away and falling apart, it's because that's not who you are. You're so much bigger than that. You're so much more limitless than this little version of you that you thought you were up until this point. And so, dark night of the soul, ego death, do those kind of go hand in hand or do you see a correlation?

Yeah. But I think I would explain ego death. So, ego is your sense of self. So, that is actually something that our brain— Sigmund Freud is who coined that term and really started talking about it. But it is your sense of self. It's your sense of I. It's like kids go through it in their terrible twos, because everything is like, I, me. But that's when they develop their sense of self.

Hmm.

So it's your sense of self. But as we grow, as we experience trauma, as we experience projections, you know, whether it's parents molding us into who we need to be to be loved and accepted, or society, whatever it is, we slowly begin to shapeshift our way into the identity that feels the safest.

Hmm.

So for some people, it's going to be a big, grandiose, like loud, extravagant identity that has a lot of accolades and achievements because that's how they feel loved. For some, it's going to be, I'm going to hide, I'm going to play small and be as quiet as possible so that I don't get hurt. And the ego death, yeah, I would say that coincides with the dark night. It's losing your identities, but then you start to uncover the real sense of self. So it's not like Yes, your ego, how you knew it dies, but there is another ego and that's your sense of self. And this is your identity. It's who you truly are beyond the trauma, beyond the projections that were placed upon you. And you start to meet who you are underneath it all. And that in itself is a life-changing experience.

Who are you meeting? Who have you met underneath it all, Ruby?

Well, she's a lot softer than she thought.

Got it. So, you had a hard shell, like a protective shell?

Yeah. I, you know, as caring and compassionate as I have always been, I hid a lot of that. I hid a lot of that because it didn't feel safe to show. And now, you know, if I'm going to feel so grateful to meet someone and I feel like crying, I just cry. You know, it's just It's part of who I've become. So there's a softness. The fierceness is still there, but now there's a softness. Now there's an unwillingness to hide these parts of myself. Whereas before, I think I felt like I needed to protect these soft parts and not let them be seen. So definitely softer, more compassionate, more curious, and more honoring of my own boundaries.

I love that. Congratulations on that evolution.

Thank you.

Well, I have one more question before we wrap up here, which actually I'll ask you another question, how to get in touch with you, of course. But before I ask that question, if somebody is listening or watching this right now and they feel some level of discomfort that we've talked about, whether it's they're going through a rough patch and it's adversity, it's difficult, or they're suicidal, they're going through a dark night of the soul, anywhere in between, um, what, what's one thing that you would encourage? Like, what's the, what's the next step? The first step for them is, is it a question? Is it a resource? Is it a perspective? What, what would you say?

Support, I would say, number one. And as someone who was hyper-independent, that was life-changing for me. Finding the right support, which also means letting go of the people who Are not able to support you in this season of life, but finding the right support, people who will just see you and not try to change you, not try to save you, but will recognize that you are just, you are going through a season that is extremely challenging and they are willing to sit with you through it.

Yeah.

Because that support, it provides a, like a cushion. For you to land on. And when you're constant, when you're living in a season of life where you feel like you're falling every day, having that support, it will change the trajectory of your healing process.

I totally agree. And I think for me, I can think about my wife. I can think about one friend in particular, a few friends, but John Vroman stands out for me as someone that was just there and just there to listen and not to try to fix everything. And then I did work with some different therapists. For you, who was it? Was it your therapist? Was it a team of folks? Was it more than one?

It was my therapist and my husband and like 2 really close friends. And that piece of like letting go of the rest was hard for me because I wanted just to be mad at people. Like, why aren't you supporting me? But once I realized, oh, it's not that they don't want to, they just don't know how to or they don't have the capacity to. And that's okay because I have this small support system and they're willing to be there with me and for me every step of the way. Let's focus my energy here. Yeah.

I love that. The last thing that I want to say for anybody watching or listening, if I can add to this, is it's temporary. I think that's one of the hardest things to see when you're going through it and your vision is so limited and you feel like this is forever. In the same way that when somebody's on a high, like when business is great, you're making a bunch of money, you feel like that's forever. You're like, well, this is my new life. And there are seasons and there are ups and downs and there are peaks and valleys. And whatever you're going through right now, if you're watching this, if you're listening to this, know that it is temporary and your best is yet to come. And that, for me, has been a belief that's gotten me through the toughest times is this is temporary. And my best is yet to come, and I will manifest that. I will create that. I will have faith in that, and I will keep going forward until I unveil my best. So, thank you for being vulnerable. What is the best way for people if they want to coach with you, go to your retreat next year? Where can they learn more and where can they follow you online, all that?

Yeah. My website is the best place, rubyfraymond.com. My June retreat info is up there as well as different ways that we can work together. Virtually. I also offer private retreats in Montana. So if the group retreat isn't for you, but you want to book something private and work with me and the herd, my horses, we can do that. And if for social media, most active on Substack and on Instagram @ruby.framon. So if you do hear this and it inspires you in some way, please do drop me a DM. It is me replying, not AI. Awesome. And I would love to hear.

Amazing. And spell Ruby Fremont just so everyone knows.

Yeah, R U B Y, and my last name is F R E M O N. Fremont. Fremont.

That sounds way cooler than the way that I've been saying it. Freeman, I think.

I know, and then people spell it incorrectly. Oh, do they?

Okay. Oh yeah, that's true. Um, Fremont. Uh, R U B Y F R E M O N dot com. Or ruby.freeman@instagram and Substack. Well, Ruby, I love you. You're such a wonderful, pure soul who's doing great work in the world. And thanks for being you.

Thank you so much for having me back on the show. It is such an honor to know you, to be friends with you, and just to walk alongside each other in this lifetime. What a journey.

What a journey. What a journey. Awesome. Until next time, everybody go check out Ruby's book.

Potent Leadership.

Potent Leadership. Drew a blank there for a second. And then hopefully, she has— she had the Potent Leadership or the Potent—

Potent Truth Podcast. Potent Truth.

Potent Truth. Okay. Man, I just really butchered that right at the end. Potent Truth. And I think you've taken a hiatus from that, but you're hopefully coming back?

Yes. Hopefully coming back real soon.

Awesome. But check out Ruby Freeman, her work is transformative. And as you saw from this conversation, she has so much value to offer to your Life. I love y'all, and I'll see you next week.