A first-person freestyle rap performance (transcript) by Matthew Kelly exploring romance, introspection, and personal growth. The speaker reflects on overthinking, imagined futures with a romantic partner, vulnerability (feeling like a child, being ‘sick’ for love), sobriety versus drunkenness in emotional moments, and specific memories (first kiss, beach walk) while noting a tendency to envision relationships months ahead of time.
That's a good freestyle track as well. Whenever that camera comes over I got a spin. Maybe just a person too maybe just a vision of me and you yeah maybe I was thinking about the future too maybe I was getting ahead of myself can't ever lose maybe I was thinking some moments between me and you Overthinking text from last night that it's not even a thing I shouldn't do But I'm real with it Couldn't actually make it 100 million still felt like a child when I was looking in your eyes and I'm still with this Couldn't even say real shit Connected with everybody else But I was overthinking it it's always been my style since it was always free yeah drop the lyrical bars about this girl between you and me I was getting way ahead of it like that's a trilogy I was working for myself not even like future which is better for my mental health but get out sick Keeping in my heart so I could squat on deep bleed Falling like lazy Felt like I was weak with the knees before I even met this thing she's pretty little disease for real I felt like a rose between two thorns My brother's always hurt by pretty things that rose between two thorns for real knife behind my back that she a devil Killing it softly killing my soul she actually crazy to me I guess we're always choosing nighttime for real she created to me I felt like I created this vision of herself inside my head before I actually made it real to see I guess I don't know my flaws are going out lately Always a certain type aesthetic it gets out I guess I was always poetic with it not rhetorical questions I was actually asking you Just trying to find between me and what your soul actually up to I guess I was making better flows and I was practicing with prettier hoes not even to the gloves and hoes I was a romantic toes yeah I guess I was putting my pen and paper in my mind mom first not even write this shit down it just comes to my mind like the first worst times of my life maybe actually come up with some real contents I can make it like fully contempor myself Nighttime flows always going all crazy not even drinking on this one cuz it's a sober flow I guess I was drunk for my soul she actually made me feel pretty inside too Time making it romantic without a drink by my side for real yeah the greatest wine is Asia over time and the greatest moments of pain is like a couple once at a time. I guess I was thinking like five or six months ahead. When I plant that seed and said I was gonna get hands with this girl. I was actually getting ahead of myself for the first time. I always see it big around my mind before it comes actually real in real life. Always look back when I was like, who else the fuck I could be for real at the night time. I guess that shit felt sublime when I was touching that skin in the first time for real. Great first kiss when we were actually drunk. But I wanted to do it sober still. I guess that beach walk got me connection with girls and a deeper love with a friend that she had to leave for this time. Give me some special time with this one that I actually had in my mind for bro.
