In this conversational interview, the practitioner (Speaker A) and interviewer (Alex) explore how trauma can become biologically embedded and how psychedelic‑assisted therapies can release it. The dialogue begins with a comparison of skeletal muscle cell lifespan (≈15 years) to red blood cells (≈115 days) to question the durability of "muscle memory" and segue into the idea that cellular experiences can leave lasting imprints. They discuss transgenerational trauma, noting that a woman's eggs are formed in utero and can carry energetic imprints of her own stress, joy, or anxiety, which may affect future generations. A detailed case study follows: an MDMA session with a high‑performing leader who never felt loved by her mother. Under MDMA, the client accessed her inner child, her mother, and her grandmother, offering love and healing across three generations, which shifted her nervous system from a state of lack to one of love and spiritual connection. The practitioner describes two other PTSD clients—a postpartum woman with autoimmune inflammation and a YouTuber with severe hypervigilance—who experienced rapid nervous‑system resets after a single MDMA session, illustrating how the amygdala‑driven fight‑or‑flight response can be softened. The conversation then broadens to a taxonomy of psychedelic‑type medicines (MDMA, ketamine, psilocybin, LSD, ibogaine) and their two therapeutic windows: an acute subjective experience (3‑6 hours) where the nervous system is unusually open to re‑programming, and longer‑term integration effects. Emphasis is placed on the importance of proper set, setting, dosage, and trained guides to avoid adverse experiences. MDMA is highlighted as the preferred agent because it reliably induces a profound sense of safety, love, and empathy, allowing clients to surface buried memories and emotions. The practitioner outlines the therapeutic process used during sessions: guided inquiry into bodily sensations, identification of entrenched painful memories (often decades old), and inner‑child/parts work (IFS). Clients are invited to visualize younger selves, validate their feelings, and then transition leadership to the higher self, symbolized by moving the child from the driver’s seat to the passenger seat. This structured yet compassionate approach aims to release entrenched trauma, reset the nervous system, and foster lasting emotional integration.
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Do you know how, how long an average skeletal muscle cell lives? 15 years. Yep. So when you think this muscle memory is a real thing, red blood cells live an average of 115 days. So not even a third of the year, right? So you think this muscle memory is real. So it's like, all right, whatever happened in 2009, our muscle cells were, many of them were still alive then. And then they are, as they die off, they send signals to the new cells. This is what to be— watch out for this. Stay in this pattern. Boom. Do you have any daughters?
I do. Yeah.
One or two?
One.
One. All right. So when your little girl was in your womb, whatever was happening to you, she has, you know, her eggs inside of her.
Yes. I thought about, I thought about that, that the day she was born, but go ahead.
Yeah. Imprinted upon her eggs. What is the energy in the trauma or whatever's happening in your life? The stress, the joy, the peace, this, whatever anxiety, whatever's happened maritally, it energetically leaves a little bit of an imprint. I did a session in private, uh, MDMA session with a high-performing leader last weekend. Um, in DC. This is 8 days ago, and she'd never felt loved by her mom growing up. And in this session, because she was connecting energetically and spiritually with her little baby self, but she also saw that her mom never felt loved by her mom, and then her mom never felt loved by her.
Yeah.
And so what she actually did, this was a pretty wild experience, She went in and loved on and held the little girl version of herself, then her mom, then her grandmother, and healed some of that generational yearning for love and absence of love that they felt energetically with one another.
Wow, wow, wow, wow.
That's so— yeah. And her nervous system shifted.
Yeah.
Because the energy has shifted. Instead of being in a place of lack, now it's in a place of love and connection with her higher self, you know, her God, you know, her higher spiritual self that God has created, right? That goes beyond our physical bodies. Yeah. So I get to— I mean, I didn't create that. I can't do that for everyone.
Right, right.
But I created the access and she was able to boom, step in and do that. And, and then what, what happens to— here's another crazy thing. All right. You know, I have another 2 clients right now that I'm dealing with on PTSD, both women. One is related to child, childbirth and all this stuff. Other one was some other issues. Both of the first one, she's already done a session. We're going to do a second session to anchor it in and just solidify the last like 20%. But her other friend who just had a baby like 9 months ago, already autoimmune disease, massive inflammation in her body. Her body is starting to shut down, right? And Alex, the other client, is a big YouTuber and speaker and everything. So we reset her nervous system a massive way after the first session because she had really active PTSD where she was like going to sleep at 7 o'clock at night, her energy is just fading like crazy. She's in her late 30s, like married less than a year, angry, you know, can't think straight.
Huh.
All that started essentially getting fixed right after a session because it was just her nervous system was stuck in this hypervigilance and her amygdala kicks in. And what happens if your amygdala is in charge? It's in fight or flight.
Yeah.
You can't function. All the time.
Like 24/7. So let's, let me pause here. I want you to go back to MDMA. MDMA, am I saying that right?
Uh, MDMA would be medicine. Yeah, yeah, but there is EMDR as well.
That's okay, that's where I'm getting a mix-up. And the irony, it's so funny when you start to uncover one stone, it's like a million more get turned up. I was in Utah last week speaking with somebody that does a lot of work with a different substance. Um, is it ketamine? Yeah, ketamine. Yeah, she was I got in an hour-long conversation at a party about ketamine and I was talking about you, our conversations as of late. So, can you kind of 30,000-foot view, what are we talking about here with this process and this plant medicine and what is it and all of that?
Yeah. So, the medicines, we'll loosely categorize them as psychedelics even though MDMA doesn't technically— it's classified more as an empathogen than a true psychedelic. But ketamine, MDMA, psilocybin, which are the magic mushrooms that we commonly think of, or shrooms, and then LSD, ibogaine, which is really effective for addiction, vastly more effective for alcoholics or narcotic addiction, any chemical addiction than typical treatment centers. So they're all classified loosely as psychedelics and they give you two major windows. And they each have different lasting effects, okay, in terms of the length of time. But the two major windows, the acute subjective experience, which is where your nervous system is more open than I would say, as far as I can tell, any known time in human history in your lifetime. I mean, it is open to be reprogrammed. That's why in that 3 to 6 hour window, I have a session Thursday, 3 to 6 hour window, I'm gonna help her heal years worth of trauma. And that— we won't get through everything because she's got so much, this particular client. But we're going to basically create a massive reset and do 2 to 5 years worth of therapy in that single session.
And how do you do that? Is it questions? Is it taking them through a guided process? What does that look like?
Yeah, so the medicine creates the opening. But if you just do the medicine, like you go to ketamine clinic or you take some shrooms and you don't have someone that that knows what they're doing guiding you, A, you can actually potentially have a bad experience. It's not, especially early first-timers, do not do this on your own and make sure you're with trained guides that know what the heck they're doing and that you get the right dosage and it's the right medicine for you, all that. But let's say everything's right, right medicine, right set and setting, you're in a good headspace, you don't have any contraindicating medications that you're taking like SSRIs or you've tapered them down or whatever. Well, we go in and then the medicine creates this opening in your nervous system. And the MDMA is my preferred one for a lot of the work because you're basically guaranteed to have a good experience. The MDMA floods your body with a feeling of safety. So literally your body feels safe. So that's the first thing. Then you often feel love and empathy and oftentimes joy, especially as you work through some of the hard stuff. But the safety now, because your nervous system feels safe, every single time someone will walk in, we have 3 or 4 things we're aware of, and then several new things pop up. We often don't even get to the 3 or 4 things, all of them, because these other 2 or 3 things were actually big things that your body was too overwhelmed by that it was like, uh, I'm just going to bury that. I don't even want to think about that.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Wow.
You have safety and then your body's like, whoop, let's get rid of this. There's an opening. And then I'll go in what I'm really guiding you to do the healing. And so what I'll do is like, if, if you're in a session, then I'm going to say more of, all right, what's coming up in your body? What is the pain or the overwhelming memory or the suffering or the moment where you really scared that your body would like to release today? And it's been running in the background for 30, 40, 50 years or whatever, right? or some of us, you're not 50, but, but however long, right? It just depends on— I've done clients that are as old as 60, right? And, and then we'll release it, we'll acknowledge it. We'll actually— I'll see you, let's say it's your little 3-year-old self. I'll— you want to invite that 3-year-old self to crawl up into your lap or sit next to you on a couch. You'll listen to her and you'll let her share her feelings and acknowledge where she was overwhelmed and where she was scared. And then you'll re— so you want to let her vent and get her feelings out. You don't want— because she's been buried in pressed. And then you want to hold her in safe space, validate those feelings, and then, and then love on her, and then remind her, you know, ultimately inner child work, I'll guide to like, um, thank her for how she's tried to serve you so she feels acknowledged and seen. And then ask her, you know what, it's time for another part of you to lead. And I'll kind of do a little visualization where you'll see this little 3-year-old self driving the car of your life, and the car represents your life. She's driving and then you ask her, you're in the passenger seat. So you, your higher self, because it's parts therapy or IFS. So I'll, then we'll pull over to side of the road and you invite that little 3-year-old self, hop in the backseat because she can rest now. She no longer has to drive your life. Wow.
