Pop Up Live: Let's Talk About the Triggers from the Cassie/Diddy Situation

All right, welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome to those who are on Instagram, YouTube, and on Facebook. I am doing a pop-up live today, and today I'm going to talk about the situation with Diddy and Cassie. Okay, I was not going to do this, but it has been on my heart to really come up here and just share, um, my perspective from different angles, you guys, as a woman um, as a therapist, as a woman of God, as a child, and so much more. Okay, and I know that right now, um, social media is going crazy with this story right now, and most of it has been a lot of negative stuff, per se, and rightfully so, rightfully so. Um, and also been seeing other people here, um, who was saying that, you know, they're triggered they've been through this before as well. And so, um, tonight I want to just offer my feedback, offer my perspective, and hopefully some encouragement, um, for you guys as well. So before I get into it, I do want to pray as always, um, and allow God to also, um, speak to me, um, about what's on his heart. He already shared with me a little bit about it, but if it's more he want to say, I will say it. And so, Father, I just thank you tonight, God, for those who are getting on now, for those who will come back and watch the replay. I pray, God, that this live today um, tonight will edify them, will bring them clarity, will bring them peace, and that God, they will feel your presence right now. In Jesus' name I pray, amen. If you come back later, um, to see this live, uh, be sure to put in the comments #replay, #replay, okay? And I will also share this, um, on probably my podcast too. I'm not 100% sure yet, okay? But anyway, without further ado, um, I want to address this first, um, as a woman, okay? So on Saturday, we all know that the video came out with Cassie and DeeDee and what happened, right? And my husband was the one that brought to my attention because he saw it first. And so I did watch it, and my initial reaction was about time, about time. There has been evidence to show that this girl was not lying, you guys. My stance this whole time has, for me, has been a little frustrating before this video came out because people kept saying she was lying. Like, how you going to sit here and try to take this man out? You know, how you going to sit here and try to, um, you know, taint his reputation, what he's built, his empire? And so much more. And so it was just crazy. And I'm not gonna lie, that's what really angered me more than anything. But when the video came out, you know, I hate it had to come out that way. I know it's probably, you know, triggering her, triggering her husband, triggering so many people, but it needed to happen in order for the world, for the public to know that she was not lying, okay? And so, you know, I get into that a little bit more about him, but right now we're talking about her. And so, you know, for me, um, as a woman, I wasn't triggered in the sense that, um, people are triggered because they had that same experience. For me, I grew up in a household with domestic violence. My mom got beat all the time. My mom was a, you know, alcoholic. She was an addict, okay? So my home life as a child was very chaotic. But I have taken out time to heal from all that, you guys. And so I wasn't triggered in a sense where, oh my God, I have flashbacks on my, on my childhood, because it really let me see that, wow, God, you have really healed me. I have really done my work, um, to make sure that I'm in a great place, okay? But I do know people in my personal life and people who on social media saying they have been triggered by it, and I completely understand why, okay? I understand why wholeheartedly, okay? So as a woman, you know, I'm like, I'm happy that this video came out for her. I am, because it needed to be seen. Um, you know, it needed to be seen, you guys. I don't have anything else I can add to that or take away from it, but it needed to be done. It did, okay? Um, and then, you know, I've heard stories of people saying that, hey, maybe, you know, she didn't put that part about what happened, you know, at the hotel and the lawsuit. But from my understanding, you guys, in the lawsuit they can't put every single detail, or she would have wrote a whole book at that point, you know. Um, so people are saying all kind of things that we are not even fully, you know, aware of what's going on, um, in the background. So we should definitely be slow to speak, right, and quick to understand and to get understanding, okay. Um, and so I myself tried my best to practice that, you know. Um, there are areas in my life where I have been triggered before, but in other areas, okay? But this right here was not the one for me. Um, and so now I'm going to go into this as well as, um, a therapist. As a therapist, um, the comments that I'm hearing or I'm seeing people say is that, why didn't she, you know, why didn't she leave? Why didn't she, you know, take the stairs? And so much and so, you know so many different things, right? You guys, you have to understand how trauma works. Stockholm syndrome is a thing. The cycle of domestic violence is a thing, okay? Love bombing is a thing. Trauma bonding is a thing. Now, I'm not going to go into every single one of these words I'm saying to you right now in great detail, but, you know, trauma bonding is whenever you bond with someone, but y'all bonding, you know, over the different traumas you've experiencing in your life. And so much more to it, you guys. Right now I'm paraphrasing. Um, I didn't plan on going live tonight, but I really feel led to go ahead and do it before I got too busy the rest of this week. Okay. Um, also, um, what I said about the cycle of abuse, right? It is a cycle. First, you know, everything seem to be good, peaches and cream. Um, and then something can happen to trigger the, um, the abuser. Um, and then they hurt the, you know, the victim. And then they apologize, they love bomb them with gifts and honestly amazing sex, okay? And it goes on and on and on like a cycle, okay? And then you have to remember this, depending on the situation, whereas with her, she's with a man who has so much power, okay? So best believe he has blackmailed her, best believe he has threatened to hurt her, her family, her friends, her loved ones, and so much more, you guys. So to say that someone should just leave a situation, it is not that easy. It's not that easy, okay? It's not easy at all. My earring fell out, um, but it's not easy. So please be mindful of that. And I encourage you, if you are, you know, not really privy to the language, understand how the cycle goes, study it, right? You can go on YouTube and look at different, you know, therapists, you know, share teachings about, you know, what that could look like. So I encourage you, um, to do that. If you were triggered by this, okay, it doesn't mean that you're not healed, okay? Because I noticed that even with myself, there's certain things that trigger me, but doesn't mean that I'm not healed. It just means that it's the area that I'm very passionate about. So as I said earlier, you know, my mom, you know, went through that. You know, my husband went through the same thing with his, his family as well. So we were not necessarily triggered, but we was like upset. Like, wow, I know upset and triggered might sound the same. Well, I'm saying upset because we like, we know that what she was saying what I'm saying is true. We know what that looks like. We know, we can see the signs and the videos and things like that, right? Uh, you know, um, in the past that DeeDee and Cassie had, you can clearly see the control power dynamic there. And it's their facial expressions. It was right in front of our face, y'all, right in front of our face. And so, but if you are triggered and you find that it is like ongoing and you can't seem to shake it and kind of get out of it, I encourage you to go talk to someone. Talk to a therapist. Talk to, you know, someone who can support you. Go to a support group, right? Because it is a thing. It happens, especially if you have been a survivor or currently even in the situation yourself. Okay, intimate partner violence, it is— whoo, it's so layered. It is so layered. It's so layered, you guys. And I'm not going to go into great detail about this part, but as far as, you know, everything they're saying about human trafficking, I definitely see the signs there. Um, I've been studying human trafficking on and off for many, many years. I have a certification in it and all that good stuff, you know. I have a nonprofit that I founded for that, you know. We're not active right now, but it's still there, okay? God's still going to use that in his timing, okay? But, you know, I definitely see that control dynamic there, uh, with her and even some other people who were involved with him. Okay, I see the signs. All right, look at my paper. I took some notes here so I won't forget anything. Okay, and so now, you know, I kind of— I want to get into the part of me as far as being a woman of God. All right, so for the past 2 or 3 years, the Lord has been showing me and telling me and many other people that exposure was coming. And that 2024 was the year of exposure. Um, the Lord gave me the word for the first time in, um, 2022, okay? And ever since then, he has been having me put out videos here and there about, you know, prepare, prepare, repent, prepare, prepare, repent, repent. Because every little thing that we think is hidden or that we think no one doesn't see, God sees it, y'all. I'm seeing that word manifest in my life amongst people that I deal with, and it's something so small. And God said, I told you that this is the year of exposure. So anything that is, you know, that, you know, you didn't know before, you're gonna know now because he's exposing it, okay? And so, you know, the Lord has given, um, Diddy and many other people, you know, so much time to repent and to get it right. And the word of God says that pride comes before destruction. Pride comes before destruction. And that is so true, okay? And so with that being said, let me tell y'all, so when everything came out about the whole situation with R. Kelly, the Lord checked me because I was triggered. Now that situation, it triggered me a lot, but now I know why I did, because the Lord was birthing the nonprofit out of me and I literally was carrying that particular ministry in my belly. And so I had to, you know, I had a burden for it, I had to weep over it, okay? So what does that mean? For those of you who, you know, know what I'm talking about, know what I'm saying. Those of you who are, you know, new to my language, what I'm saying here is that when God has called you to something, you are— he going to give you a burden for it. And so from that, God had given me so many dreams, so many visions about human trafficking, about what was going on behind the scenes. And I already knew when it came out that it was human trafficking, and I wanted to talk about it then, but the Lord told me to wait. He said, you got to wait because if you put it out now, people are not going to believe you. They're going to try to discredit you. They're, all that stuff, right? So I was ahead of my time, ahead of my time, okay? So when it finally came out that he, you know, had forms of human trafficking, then I was able to talk about it some, okay? So with that being said, because I was so triggered, even with that, he was showing me dreams and visions about stuff going on with him and some of those girls, okay? It was disgusting and very sad, all right? Um, he also told me that he said not everybody in, you know, in that situation was innocent either. And come to find out, that's true, right? And so I remember one night I was in the bed and I was like laying there. I was so angry. I was so angry to the point where I had to go to therapy for a few weeks. My husband was like, babe, you have been so moody. And I'm like, I'm so sorry, but this is so difficult for me right now because I'm a survivor of, you know, sexual abuse. I'm a survivor of so many different things. And I remember laying in the bed and I said, he gonna bust hell wide open. That's what I said. I was so angry. And the Lord said, no, he will not. If he repent, he will be able to make it in. I would— I will accept him back after all he has done. And I'm— I said that, I'm like, oh God, it is your scripture. That, that is in the word. And so I say that to say that that's the same thing for Diddy. Same thing for him. He is still alive. He is still breathing. And there is redemption for him if he repents and turns away from what he's been doing, y'all. And that can be very difficult for people to hear who have seen this, um, who may be, um, you know, hurt by this, or, you know, triggered, and, you know, so much more. But God desires for all parties to be healed. He desires for all parties to, you know, come to him and to, you know, come for— come to him with a repentant heart, with forgiveness, right? I'm forgiving— forgiving yourself forgiving the person who hurt you or offended you, okay? And so that can only happen if he repents. And so my prayer, I pray that he repents, but I also pray for vindication, okay? I'm also praying that the people who have been hurt by him, especially those who are innocent, you know, are vindicated. Because, you know, he did a lot of stuff, y'all. There's things that I'm discerning and I'm seeing, I'm like, oh my God, this is crazy. This is like, it's so layered, it's so many layers to it. And so this, you know, situation has not caught me by surprise because God has been like preparing my heart, you know, for this year. Because there have been times when other things have come out this year, it has made me upset. And I'm like, God, this is— he said, I told you. He said, don't get distracted about what's going on. Continue to build, continue to plow, continue to do what I'm calling you to do. Because you know, when you in your emotions and you're frustrated and all that stuff, right, it affects everything. Everything can flow from that if you're not careful. And so I've had to be very diligent about protecting my peace, about making sure that I'm not watching too much of the content that's coming out. All right, I seen some of it over the weekend. I said, oh, I put a boundary up. I still got work to do. I still got to continue to do, you know, what God is calling me to do. And it's the same thing for each and every single one of you guys. Don't let what you're seeing in the media and social media and wherever else distract you from your call and your purpose, because this is what God is saying. He's— he is preparing us who are leaders to be able to lead, to be able to be at the forefront, and to be able to help his sheep, the ones that scattered, right? Like, even recently, God has been showing me other things that is going to be exposed, and it's sickening. Like, I'm not going to share exactly what it was, y'all. It was disgusting, and it had me angry. I was up last night. You get my husband, he's at work right now. At like 1:30 in the morning, I'm sitting on the couch for almost an hour, and I'm sitting here, I'm just angry. Oh my God, this is so disgusting. He said, I'm exposing this stuff too. So you guys there's more stuff coming out. It's going to shock the world. It's going to shock— I mean, once again, all 7 mountains, all 7 mountains, y'all. God is coming and exposing on all 7 mountains. So my plea to you is to guard your heart, to stay in prayer. I'm remaining in your word. The Lord has commissioned me and told me, read your word day and night. It's going to sustain you. It's going to anchor you, okay? Because if you don't, you will be swept away in your emotions, rage, anger, and so much more. And there's a such thing as having holy anger and a righteous anger. And that's what I had whenever I saw the video. I had a righteous, like, yes God, like vindication belongs to you, Lord, expose it, Lord, expose it, you know. Because unfortunately the world wasn't believing it. There was— people have to have evidence, okay? They have to be able to say, to be able to actually see it. And so that video was no denying what he was doing to her. It's right there in front of our faces, y'all. And I've seen people, you know, celebrities, other people, you know, defend him, saying, oh, they're trying to break this man down. I'm like, y'all have no idea what y'all talking about, you know? It's kind of scary because I'm like, so what do you be doing? Like, what are you co-signing on, okay? Are you speaking way too soon? Because you don't know. You don't— you're not with him 24/7 or her 24/7. You don't know them, okay? I mean, also, my God, the Lord is really stripping us of our idols, y'all. Like, you know, if we could see the world, we as a whole— I say we because I'm part of the world too, you know— idolize, like, you know, leaders, whether they're in church or whether they're in, you know, celebrities, Hollywood, whatever. We idolize them, y'all. But so many of them are so wicked and evil, wicked and evil. So God is tearing down our idols and our altars because he wants his people's heart to come back to him. We belong to the Lord, and he's a jealous God, okay? He told me, I'm coming back for my bride. I'm vindicating my daughters. I'm vindicating my people. I'm vindicating children who have been trafficked and died and so much more, who's been, you know, offered up to Satan for fame and fortune. Y'all, this stuff is disgusting and it's layered, okay? And so I urge you to be slow to speak, quick to listen, and quick to pray to see what it is that God is going to reveal to you about what's going on, because he will speak. If you ask him, if you pray about it, he will show you. He will, he will tell you. And for some of you guys, it might be hard to hear because something that God showed me, it just had me speechless. And I was for about a good hour, I was sitting on my couch and my husband said, were you okay? I was like, I was not okay for a good hour. And I said, after an hour sitting there like thinking about what the Lord has shown me I was like, wow, God, this is, this is crazy, y'all. It's, it's crazy. The world is wicked, y'all. We live in a wicked world. I'm not going to sit here and sugarcoat it. I'm not going to sit here and try to say, you know, but there is hope and God is cleaning house, okay? Um, and so I want to go— so in Luke 23, um, verse, uh, 40, uh, starts there. I'm paraphrasing this, okay? And, you know, you know, Christ was being, you know, crucified on the cross, and beside him on each side were two sinners, two robbers, okay? And so one of them was being still trying to be all, you know, rude and Jesus, you can come down if you want to, not understanding Christ's assignment, right? On the other side, you have this man who is sitting here and he's like, oh Jesus, like, have mercy on us, have mercy on us, Lord, can I go be with you? And then Christ said, I shall see you in paradise. And so that is what God is saying to people who he's exposing, but if you still repent, he will receive you back. Now, I'm not saying that you won't have to go through anything or, you know, have any consequences for your actions, you know, but God will receive you. To me, that's more important than anything. Your soul, your soul is more important than anything, okay? And so I don't know if any, you know, body in that realm will ever see this video, but I'm telling you right now, the Lord wants your heart. He wants your heart. He wants you to repent, and he will receive you back no matter what you've done wrong. Okay, so that's scripture, y'all. And it's hard to hear at times, so people who don't— we feel like they don't deserve it, but honestly, we don't deserve it either. We don't deserve it either. Okay, I can't think of the scripture right now. They're looking at it before I went live. I want to go ahead and get— go ahead and come up here and say what, you know, was on my heart to say. But the scripture that talks about how, um, you know, someone, you know, had, you know, worked for 20 years, right? It's a parable. I think it's— I think it's in It's in the four gospels somewhere, okay? I'll look it up and put it in the description box for you guys. But, um, he was talking about, um, and then someone else came and worked for, let's say, an hour of really work, and they both received the same pay. And so what the Lord was saying was, listen, whether you got saved 20 years ago or you got saved like right now, right before you died, y'all both are going to make it into the kingdom, okay? And so that's a whole other lesson, it's a whole another teaching. Right there all by itself. I won't get into that either because everything I just said can be a lesson all by itself. You got— I love to teach, okay? But tonight is not a teaching lesson, but to bring awareness, to bring clarity, to bring hope, to bring encouragement, um, to let you know, guys know that, you know, God sees, God knows. He, he knows exactly what he's doing and his timing is perfect, okay? So once again, I encourage you, if you're triggered, if this is too much for you, you know, talk to someone. If you can't see a therapist, you know, get you a, a positive group who's not gonna say— who, who's gonna make your situation worse, but, um, offer hope and offer encouragement. Okay, so I know right now on social media a lot of people are doing videos, the reaction, most of them are just like angry videos, um, but I'm not doing that. I'm not doing an angry video. Okay, um, so I'm just going to pray and then I'll be done. Uh, if you guys have any questions in the comment, I see you. Some of you guys are up here on Facebook and I think on YouTube, and I'll answer them before I get off. Okay, so Father, we thank you, Lord, that you are a good, good Father. We thank you, God, that judgment is yours, vindication is yours, and that, God, you know exactly what you're doing in this hour. Nothing that's happening now is catching you by surprise, but it may catch us by surprise. And so, Father, help us, Lord, to be quick to listen, my God, and, and slow to speak. Help us, God, to be, um, to be prayerful and to seek you on all things. Oh God, help us, God, to take our emotions to you, our frustration our pain to you, Lord. And in that, God, you will give us strategy and instructions. Help us, God, to read your word, God, day and night, and to anchor our souls, anchor our hearts, God, in your word so we can have peace, peace that surpasses all understanding, Lord. And so, God, I just thank you tonight for your people, for those who are hurting, for those who are going through, for those who are frustrated, for those who just don't know what else to do, Lord. Father, I ask you, God, that you will hold them close, that you will be close to their hearts, God, and remind them, God, that these triggers, God, are from the past. God, they're in the past, God, and that, God, you can still heal them, God, even though more— there's layers to healing, there's depths to healing, and you desire to heal the innermost parts of their beings. And so, Father, I thank you tonight, we honor you tonight. In Christ's name I pray, amen, amen. So that's all I have, you guys, and, um, I'll see you guys next time I go live, okay? All right, talk to you soon. Bye. Oh, look at you guys' comments, making sure. Okay.