40 Day Abundance Incubator Session 2

Welcome, welcome, welcome. So wonderful to be here with you all. I'm in my hat today for a very specific reason. I've started to bring this hat to all ceremonies that I do and all spiritual work that I do. Not my sessions, but when I do sacred land healing or I'm on a sacred land retreat, I wear the hat or I bring it with me. So it wanted me to be. It was like oh what's this thing? And then I was like oh okay. And I ran and got that. So let me light our candle. I'm going to Sage for all of us here, for all the space in between us, clearing out any old outdated energies that no longer serve, that no longer are valid, that are ready to be released. Let's just close our eyes for a moment and get grounded and centered. Let us become aware of the earth beneath us, supporting us, grounding us, resourcing us. And let's be aware of the chair beneath us, supporting us, grounding us. Let's be aware of the breath entering the body, in and out easily, consciously nourishing us, supporting us. Let's be aware of how our body temple feels this evening. No judgment in the awareness building, just awareness building. Judgment creates contraction, restriction reduces energy. Just tune in. What does the body temple want you to understand or know today? Is there any areas that might need extra support? Just bring some love energy to the body temple wherever is is requiring it right now. Allow yourself to recognize in this very moment in time the divine being that you are.

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Ask that divine aspect of yourself. What more does it need to feel? More nourished? Or is there anything different that will support you? This divine aspect of you.

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Tune inwards now and honor that divine aspect. Thank you. Bless us. Ask it if there's anything you need to understand or know about your emotions at this moment in time. It Ask it how can you support your emotions more today? For this week, thank the insights you received. How small they were. If it was just a thought, if it was just an awareness. In the body there's a vibration. Even if you receive nothing, recognize that even in the nothingness there is something. Ask your mental body if there's anything right now, your thoughts, your mind set that it needs to understand or know it. Even if you're feeling frustrated because you're not receiving any messages, recognize the non message and just say to it, how interesting that I'm not feeling, hearing, seeing, receiving. Is there anything I need to understand inside of that space? Notice how the body responds. Notice a thought that appears not as a feeling Notice how the breath responds. Notice how the muscles in the body respond. Notice if there's any resistance anywhere. Looking for attention, it start to check in around your energy field, around the body, your auric field. Start getting a sense if there is energy in your energy field, your auric field that no longer serves you. Old thought patterns, somebody else's energy, belief systems from culture, collective consciousness, energy. Check the back of your auric field. We often forget the back of our body. We're so aware of forward movement, of being present. But we notice the presentness of ourselves through the front of our body usually. So sometimes there can be energies lurking unseen, energy draining through the back of our body. If you find energies there, see how they need to be tended to. Maybe a golden light to release them, or the violet flame to transmute them into love. Imagine now an energy of white lice, pure divine energy, Goddess energy, God energy, source energy coming down through the crown of your head, filling up your physical form, melting any resistance, any pain, any old identity holdings in the body. Feel that energy filling you up completely to every cell of your being, in your rna, your DNA, your tissues, your muscles, your bones, your organs, all the oxygen in your body, all the liquid in the body filled with white light. Feel that energy now flowing out into your energy field, surrounding you completely.

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Far as into your auric field as it needs to go, all through the front of the body, the side of the body, the back of the body, and then deep down into the earth beneath you. Clearing lines of energy between you and Gaia planet Earth. Opening receiving lines. Let go of any pain you may be holding in the connection between you and Mother Earth. Feel that beautiful bright divine light now going up, up above you, through and around your crown, clearing the lines of energy between you and the divine full source, higher self, God Goddess energy abundant FL.

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Allow this energy to remove any old outdated caps or ceilings, world ways of being that restricted your abundant flow, restricted your ability to receive. Allow this white light to clear any old outdated agreements, contracts, programs operating at any level, time, space, through any aspect of anything past, present or future that may interfere with your abundance, with your prosperity, with your full allowing. And as you're allowing this to happen, you notice you're surrounded with support teams of light, the great archangels holding you sacred and the space sacred. Your supporting and helpful ancestors, your teams of guidance and light beings that are here to support you. You're supporting animal totems, maybe even plant energy is coming to support. Notice if there's anything else like sacred geometry that is Here to support you in this real that you are an unstoppable divine master being.

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And when you're ready, come into the awareness of the body again in time and space. Take awareness of the breath now entering the body. Notice the chair beneath you, supporting you. Take a few deep breaths into the body. Wriggling the fingers, wriggling the toes. Be aware of the sounds inside or outside your own environment. Be aware of my voice calling you back. Now take a moment in this very moment in time to just start to write down anything that came into your awareness, anything you want to record or remember. I'm just going to turn my heating off because I didn't realize it was going to make so much noise. Oh, good. I'm glad you couldn't hear, Michelle. It was very noisy at my end.

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If you want to put anything into the chat box, you can any awarenesses you want to share or be witness for. Thank you, Michelle. Lots of words of encouragement. Beautiful. Thank you, Michelle King. I was taken back to childhood and felt glee. Beautiful. That's all right. Chris, my love, it's worth listening back to the first 30 minutes of this because you came in late, but we did this really deep meditation together. So when you get the recording tomorrow, just listen back through that in time and space. When you can close your eyes and you're not driving. No worries, honey, I get it. Thank you for joining being inside the container. So I'd love to take us into the abundance practice now and just get feedback from you guys how it's been going for you. If there's anything you want to share or talk about, you can unmute and let's just spend the next 15, 20 minutes going through that if we want to. Yes, Michelle, of.

I will just have to say, even the contract, the word lack in the contract threw me for a loop. I mean, the very first night I wasn't able to be present with all of you. You know, I had to listen to recording, but I was in an airport and I was sitting having a glass of wine, getting ready to go visit my sister. I was in connecting flight and I started reading through everything and that word just struck me so hard.

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Because I had just said two. Two weeks before that, that I felt very undernourished and spiritually fatigued. And so when I saw that word, it was like, oh my gosh, I'm creating all of this. And it just hit me. So it's been very powerful every day. I can't imagine when we get to day 40 what I'm going to feel like because I've had a lot of, you know, break open moments. You know, every day there's been something that's really. And the dreams have been very vivid and very telling. And when I ask what they have, what certain things mean, wow, I'm getting some wonderful answers. So thank you all for our, our continued container together because I think it is magnified. I know, I felt it.

Thank you for sharing that, Michelle. That's so beautiful.

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And for, you know, recognizing that word. And that's what I said. You know, even when we, we look at our body and I got you to do those different exercises, sometimes that lack shows up as emptiness or no response or that undernourished sense. And that's why sometimes people say I'm not getting anything. And I'm like, no, that's just the point.

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Notice what you're not receiving. But it's more valuable like those moments of lack. So thank you, sweetheart. That's beautiful. And Melanie had her hand up.

I think for me reading the statements, a lot of them I don't understand. And I just figure that's okay with where I'm at right now because it feels like it's like it's penetrating through, I don't know, maybe these layers of conditioning, maybe the human self that just can't grasp it and it's trying to connect in with what's deep underneath.

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And I have noticed that I'm sensing like there's this, I don't know, like golden energy within me, almost like that source, which helps me feel more empowered. It helps me feel like, okay, maybe I am the source of my abundance and I am connected and I could still magnetize in what I'm feeding from externally while at the same time there's been a lot of anger coming up. And I don't know if it's necessarily from this or it's the external environment that is bringing it up when I'm going through this.

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But yeah, when the neighbor's playing their music and I'm doing this, like it's just brought up so much stuff and I have not. I just wrote everything that came through. I didn't like even the word, you know, I hate the divine came through, through. And I decided I'm just writing it down. I'm not going to pretend I didn't think that.

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And so it's been. Yeah, just like, just so much anger. But it also feels in many ways like a different type of anger. More like inspired action kind of anger with Being done with where I'm at.

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While also still there's the fear of, okay, I, I need money, I'm not working. I keep on having problems with trying to connect with the job. So there's that, you know, as well that I'm working through.

Yeah. Thank you for sharing. That's so powerful. And there's so many layers in what you said. Right. There's that the boundary piece is really clear in your environment that you get interrupted consistently and that those interruptions heavily interrupt you because you're such a highly sensitive person. For a lot of people, they mightn't even notice that as an impact, but you're so sensitive and so energetically attuned that you're really impacted by environment, other people's thoughts, other people's beliefs, other people's ways of being. And so when you're recognizing that it's really important to constantly bolster your energy field. Consciously wearing. I mean, I have so much stuff stuffed down my brow right now. Okay. Seriously, it's like it's the only going on in there because. Let's go back in there. Because this helps to bolster my energy field. It helps to actually put extra energy out into my auric field to protect me. So it's about finding ways. Whether that's flower essences just instantly popped in for when I was talking to you, or if it's crystals or if it's a light where you're consciously bringing colors into your energy field or sacred geometry. Metatron's Cube. Right. Also jumped in with you. It's like, just like bolstering your energy field.

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Yeah. And all the rest has to come up and out. But also, you know, recognizing that the collective energy is impacting you strongly because of your sensitivity to energy. That's like, I'm now on my mountain. I just arrived. My phone has gone non stop ringing all day. I can't even look at it. I'm just like, go away, phone. I don't own you over there in the corner. Ignoring. You called me today. Apologies, I just can't answer because my energy field was saturated and I needed to just like not give anybody input except you guys. Which is fine and fabulous. But like, nobody else is getting input today. Even my son was calling. I'm ignoring him. Nobody's getting input. I messaged everybody and said, oh, by the way, I'm just very tired not answering my phone today, you know, But I'm just like making that boundary for myself because I need. I'm also a hsp. I Need to just decompress. Do my hermit. So I know for you, Melanie, nature helps to restore your energy field. And so that would be a conscious practice. As you do this abundance book is to allow yourself to journey somewhere in nature and maybe you combine them, if that's possible. You know, to take the book with you to be in nature for 30 minutes or an hour to use that time to do this practice in quietness and at the same time then recognizing what belongs to you easier because you don't have everything else coming into your space. If that makes sense.

Yes, it makes. All of that makes sense. And thank you for helping me understand the level of that sensitivity. I'm learning it more and more, but it just keeps on getting bigger and bigger. And so realizing I have to do all these multiple things, not just one or two multiple things. And the fact that there's nothing wrong with me because I keep thinking there was because I'm getting triggered and I realize there isn't. It's just I'm not in an environment in alignment.

Yeah. And. And you know, highly sensitive people. There's actually proof now that 20% of us on the planet are hsps. So the world is orientated for the 80% and we're the 20%. And so that 20% sometimes are the canaries in the cage. We are always the ones going, oh, my God, there's too much noise. There's whatever that is, you know, My son is a HSP and his teacher used to call him the Barometer. She would watch him, and if he started to overstimulate, she knew she had to notch down whatever she was doing because everybody else in the room would follow within 10 minutes. But he was the Barometer because he always felt it before everybody else. So it's a gift when you start to recognize the power you can have. But it's also in the beginning of the recognition of it because you've lived with it for so long and many people have and probably made you feel strange for it, which I was always been felt strange for, you know, why are you crying? Why are you oversensitive? What do you mean you can't stay in the room right now? Why don't you want to hug that person? No. You know, no, I am not hugging that man. I have only six. I know that that's not a good man. Don't make me hug him, please. You know, this kind of stuff. So. And. And he just do what you can. I found so many tools at this point that I literally wear crystals constantly in My bra. And then I take them out and I sleep under them under my pillow. Like, I create almost like a Faraday cage for myself using crystals, using oils that I anoint myself with, using sounds that I tone non stop. People think I'm gone crazy. I'm in the supermarket toning. But is everybody else's energy in there? I'm just trying to get rid of it. Right. And I've got to the point where I don't care if you think I'm a loon. I'm. I'm actually feeling much better for being that. So therefore I am good, you know?

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Yeah. But thank you, Melanie, honey, thank you. Thank you. Chrissy. Yes. A lot of traveling today, and I definitely was tired from us. Very, very tired. April, honey, go for it.

Well, I'm in my new life. It's very quiet because I haven't met very many people, but I am steeped in nature, so I've had lots. I've really focused on the opportunity to do work. So this came at a really, really, really good time because it. It just helps me to put a really strong focus on doing this. This process. And at the same time, I just finished reading this book called Journey of Souls, and it is a whole description from a therapist about working with people who he hypnotizes to recall their time between lives and the work they do in their soul groups with their guides and all that. And because of some experiences that I've.

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I believe, you know, I have a really strong belief in that and a connection to it. And so I've asked my guides to help me, you know, to. To wake me up to these things. And so I. But I have to say with Melanie that some of the vocabulary here I don't access, so I rewrite it in my own words.

Yes, it's perfect. I love that you're doing that. And I did say that in the beginning too. Right. It's like if the language is not aligning with you, just change the wording so it feels in alignment because it's. Is the process that is the magic.

Well, each time, you know, each new day, and I read what these things say and I. I repeat them, and then I think, wait, how would I say this? So it means something to me. And then I repeat what I've written. So I'm really giving it a lot of time.

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And can I just read you? Because maybe somebody else will get this. But this is where I am with. With what this is the potential for manifesting of all things material and Non material is in the quantum field, made up of waves and particles that I think of as source. The power of attraction, which draws on the level of desire, unobstructed by conflicting thoughts and doubts, makes manifestation possible. That's where I am. So those are the kinds of things that I. I kind of reinterpret from.

I love it. Honey, it sounds like you're writing your own book over there.

Well, I'm. I mean, you're. You have drawn my attention, right? So. So now as I'm going about every day, I am, you know, calling in these guides to have me focus on, all right, what's happening now? How can I become more one with source manifesting in, co creating out. And. And I'm just. I'm having such a good time with it. And so today I went and did my Thanksgiving marketing, and in the market line in front of me was a young man with a whole ream of groceries. And he pulled out a credit card or ATM card or something to pay, and it didn't work. And then he pulled out another one and it didn't work. And I thought, okay, this is an opportunity, April, to, you know, it's only money. It's only what's. So I was really, really considering. Although I. It would have been a little, you know, a little tough to cover that whole cart full of stuff as he pulled aside. So then I got. They rang up my total and they asked me, would you like to add a contribution to the help center here in Ojai? You know, which was. It's Thanksgiving and holidays and people are in need of him. So I did and I gave them a nice chunk. Then I went outside with my cart to go back to my car and there was this very, very sad looking homeless young man, just decrepitly dirty and shredded in clothes, and he was going through every trash can looking for food. So I got. I'm thinking as I wheel by him and I go to my car and I'm putting my things away and I think, all right, this is something you can do, April. So with my gimpy knee and he's making his way all the way down the market line, I mean, the outside of the market, to all the other waste basket things all the way down this whole strip. And I finally got up with him. It took me about eight minutes just to get to him. And I gave him some money. I said, I think you. You need something to eat, so here. And I, you know, gave him some money. So it's really making me feel like don't hold onto it and don't come from fear. It just, it's only this thing that is in circulation. And the more you circulate, you know, the more abundance you will feel. So thank you. I'm. I'm really, really learning. I'm really learning.

Thank you, April. That's beautiful.

Yeah, thank you.

I love it. I love it.

All right.

Thank you, sweetheart. I. I do. I don't know. I don't think I shared this the last time, but I was sharing it with a friend just the other night. I constantly, for many, many years, do a ten million dollar day. So I say to myself, well, I have ten million dollars in the bank today. How do I turn up for myself? What do I do? What choices do I make? Who do I spend time with? And if you come from, well, personally, when I come from that space, no fear is in my decision making. No lack is in my decision making. The limitation is in my decision making. So I'm like, yeah, I want to hang out with that person today because I really like them, even if it, you know. So everything I do, this is my marker is like, is this. It's a given that that's there. So if it's there, who do I play with? What do I focus on my work? On my work for? What do, what do I bring to the world? What do I say yes to in the world? So I don't know if that resonates with any of you, but it has always been something that helps me and it came out of some of the work I did with the Hicks. Many, many years ago. I used to go to a lot of their workshops and they gave us a tip at the workshops to put a hundred dollar bill in your wallet and to go in and out of stores and look at everything in the store and say, oh, I could buy that today. Not that you're going to buy that today, but you have the potential to buy that today. And then you get to make a choice and not from a place of lack or limitation, because it then it's a choice of, well, maybe I will buy that today, or no, it's not that important to me, but I have the money to do it. And I started to do that many, many years ago and it really expanded my receiving energy and it never made me feel like I was in limitation. I always had that hundred in the wallet. And I remember going somewhere with this financial guru guy and I'm at the checkout in Starbucks and we were having a meeting about working together on something, and I Pull out my wallet. And I went, oh. He says, oh, do you not have money? I said, oh, no, no, I only have hundreds. He just started laughing and he's like, I can work with you.

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I have to say I had an experience when that we were oriented at our meeting last week and you know, you were asking what thoughts came up and I wrote this thought down. There is something very major. If I had a lot of money, if I won the lottery, that I would do. And my heart desires so strong, strongly to do it. It's a philanthropic thing. And I got this hit that I didn't have the energy. Do I have the energy to be responsible for an enormous amount of money? I realized that's a block that I have had. It's like, oh my God, can I handle that? So I really gave it some thought.

That's beautiful, April. It's a great awareness. I mesh. I moved in with some beautiful women for a very short period in time when I was leaving my marriage and what the woman who'd left the room I was in had gone off to do philanthropic work, right? She'd gone off to. But she'd been given a huge amount of money by her ex husband that had died like 2 or 3 million. Like huge. Just junk just handed to her. She gave it all away because she didn't want the responsibility of.

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And then she was. Now she was living on SSI support her because she wanted to do all these major work in the world, but she never had the money to do it. So she. It was just like, wow. So some people get that given to them easily and then they choose not to keep it because they feel responsible or over responsible or it would drain them or how would they know what to do with it?

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So I love that awareness. I mean this is all coming into our psyche, right. This is all cultural pieces that when we say it, it mightn't be your piece, but you never know what language in the background was fed to you. You know, as I said last week about the Irish, if you're rich, you're a crook. That's basically it. You must have taken that money from somebody and done something bad to get it, you know, or the other languaging I used to always hear growing up was, sure, why would you want money? Who would you know how to trust? People.

Oh, isn't that something?

Whose. Who would you know to trust if you had a million dollars? Who would you know who your true friends were?

Yeah, I've heard that.

I've heard that, so this is cultural referencing collectively that feeds in and sometimes they're deep down in that DNA memory. They might even be in here on the conscious level. But the DNA, you know, is like feeding that.

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So thank you. And Michelle, honey, I see you say that you, you started over. That's okay. Perfect. It was meant to be that you started over. Just allow yourself. I have, I've done that many times during this process. So far I'm still on track, thank God. But I have done that many times where I forget, I phase out and then I have to start as well all over again. And the blessing in that is that maybe you need to finish at a different time than we do because something is coming a little slower to you and maybe you need to be in a longer place to receive it. At least that's how I always looked on it. So like just being the yes of well done, you remembered eventually, even if it was only a day and you started over because that's what life's about. Right. Sometimes we, we go, oh no, I made a mess or I didn't succeed over there. And then we just give up. And so you didn't give up, you just, I'm going to start again. And on you went. But I really want to honor our time here. We're at our hour. Is there anything else before we go that people just want to add in? Oh, thank you, Michelle. You're welcome, honey. And so next week I can't do Monday night as I had originally said. I'm going to change this to Tuesday night. I hope that doesn't throw anybody out too much. But I actually have somebody coming to stay with me up here and journey with me through some processes and they're going to be still here on Monday with me. So I need to be fully focused on them as they're. They're coming up for the three days to stay with me. And that was a last minute booking, so I only got that yesterday. So I will change it to the same time but just on Tuesday and we'll just meet on Zoom again and if you can't make it, you'll get the recording the next day. And so we can do. Is it. Let me look. Rochelle, my love, thank you for that. Let me just look. I think yes, I'm going to have the moon circle at 4:30 to 5:30. And that was why that was 5:45. Yeah. So I'll change. I have to change both of those events over because I want to just give somebody's here paying me to journey with me for three days. I want to be fully present for them and not jumping into another event in their time. So I will Change that to 5:45. And if anyone wants to come to the community gathering beforehand, we can do that together for four at 4:30. And then we can journey with a little space. And then we'll go into the abundance piece. Yes, honey. Yeah, just stay on at the end because you missed the beginning. Carissa. Okay, so we're going to thank all of our guides and master guides and all the ancestors, the hell, the space sacred, and the great archangels and all the beings of light and the sacred geometry. And we thank Gaia. And we thank the colors and the shapes and the plants and the animals and everyone who supported us, the fullest aspect of Source, the divine goddess, the divine God. God. And we are honored. We are blessed. We are loved. And as we separate our energy from each other, see each of us now surrounded in a golden orb of light, protecting us, nurturing us, honoring us, loving. And so it is. Thank you, everybody.