Kyle Fernandez argues that solitude is essential for clarity and that attention is finite. He worked three jobs selling flour, delivering bagels, and parking cars before hitting rock bottom in his aunt's garage, where isolation helped him discover what he actually wanted.
Finding solitude will allow you to fly straight. Even if someone's not doing anything wrong, their presence is the very thing that's wrong because it causes your mind to just give even a segment of your attention there. And the moment you break that attention and just, even if it's for half a second, at someone else, that's half a second that deviates the whole path of where you're headed in life. And unfortunately, this sounds extreme, but it's the literal truth. Your life is a book and every day is a page. The problem is you can't go back and read any of the pages or rewrite any of them. So every single page is hyper-critically important and you can't afford to lose a chapter to nonsense of questions. The other way to find desire in your life, and this is exactly how I found desire in my life. And if you don't know anything about me, I came from no money. I sold flour to get by. I worked a deli delivery job delivering bagels to corporations in the morning so these 9-to-5 workers had breakfast. At nighttime, I would work valet till 2 in the morning. I've worked 3 jobs all at one moment in order just to sustain myself. Over time, I slowly pulled back on those things to allow myself to find more isolation. The more isolation I found, the more clarity I had. Eventually I was able to just allow myself to be okay being absolutely negative and having no money to do anything. And anytime I wanted to do anything, I would have to ask to borrow the money. But what that did was allow me to have hyper isolation. It allowed me to be at rock bottom, living in a garage at my aunt's house and finding myself thinking of ways that I could be who I want to be.
