DOPAMINE AF | with the ADHD RISE crew. Hosted by Val Nichols & Summer Christiansen

I know it's like a picture, but I'm not really sure. So I guess I'll have to go check out the club because I have no idea what it is.

Oh, well, it is actually like the 15-second crash on NFTs. Basically, it's the problem with digital distribution, and I'm putting problems in big fucking scare quotes here. But the problem is digital distribution makes the cost of copying free, right? I think that's a great thing and opens up a ton of cool stuff, but it also makes monetization and stuff hard because there's no real scarcity, right? So NFTs are a way to just attach kind of a signature to something that's a— call it a proof of ownership, if you will. Just a little token that says, yeah, that one you got, that's the legit one. It's like the difference between having a copy of a book and having a signed copy of that book. It's the same stuff on the inside. But, you know, you could have printed the book at home. You know, the, the artist's signature, maybe, maybe that's worth something, right? So it allows you to have artificial scarcity in, you know, the infinite copying space that is digital. That's how I think of it in my head.

That is awesome.

I've got a question. Oh, because I don't understand that. quite how the scarcity stuff works. Like, for example, the Nyan Cat was made into an NFT and sold, correct? Does that mean that nobody can post it anymore?

No, it means that somebody, one person, or however many copies of that NFT were produced, has the— can basically hold a thing in their hand and say, I own this, this is mine. It's proof of ownership, nothing more. Now, where it gets kind of interesting is you can actually use that proof of ownership in other applications, right? So you can actually be like, hey, you know, this is my website and you can only get in here if you have access or if you own this cool token over here, right?

Mm-hmm.

So maybe, yeah, here's a special blog post only for, you know, the 50 people who bought, you know, insert NFT drop here, right?

Right?

Maybe it was Nyan Cat, maybe it was, you know, Bored Apes. I don't know, take your pick. There's like a bajillion NFTs out there, right? But if you wanted to actually build a thing that says only people who hold this are allowed in here, that's, that's kind of where the stuff that I build comes in. So my software is like, if you think of like an NFT is like the ticket, to your club, you gotta have distributed that somehow. My software is the bouncer at the door. It just goes, hey, do you have the thing that lets you in?

Cool.

And it gives you a whole bunch of ways to do cool shit around that. But whatever, I'm not here to pitch it.

That's a really good practical application of it because, you know, before I even heard you say that, it was just a bunch of art everywhere. And so I really, really liked that. So you could literally send out wedding invitations or whatever to a virtual event. And have that Ethereum connected to it. And anybody can copy anything, but you can't stick that Ethereum to it that has the digital signature or whatever.

That's awesome.

That's exactly what NFTs are getting you is signatures on top of something else, whatever the something else is. That's really anything that can be represented digitally. If you can attach like a URL to it, Good enough. There you go.

Boom.

So yeah, it's, uh, it's cool. But I don't know, I work on, on open source stuff, so all the software that, uh, that I build is given away anyways. It's, it's free to the world. We don't charge money for it. So it's cool shit to build.

I thought that it had something to do with ADHD, so I thought that it meant neuro-fucking-typical. That's awesome. Okay, I kept thinking—

I love you so much right now.

I was like, okay, NFT, neuro-fucking-typical. Wow, that makes sense. And then I was like, okay, that's, that's not— I was gonna ask. So yeah, my brain is definitely interesting today. So, you know what that is?

I love it. That is dopamine AF.

Yeah, it is. Who would have thought?

Thank you for that, Chris.

Oh, so mean AF. Here we go, dude.

And thank you, thank you, thank you. That's so cool. I, I felt so lame not knowing like what it meant or anything.

Yeah, it's, it's been fun stuff to build. So I don't know, I enjoy what I do. I work for a cool company and yeah, we do, we do good work. Like we build neat stuff. We sell support for it. So it's like, if you want to pay us to do custom stuff, yay. And that makes us enough money that we can keep building cool shit. And that's really all we want to do is just, you know, keep the lights on and keep building awesome stuff.

Dopamine AF. That is so awesome.

Wow.

I feel like so smart now. I'll be like, yeah, I know what NFT is now.

Get over it.

Like I know everything about it. Not really, not really. But I know a lot more exactly stands for what it mean.

What NFT stands for?

Non fungible token.

There you go. That's what NFT stands for.

Wait, say it again.

Non fungible token.

And just to make sure, I knew you knew what it meant, Chris. But I just wanted to make sure.

It definitely means neurofucking typical now. Like Summer has eight eight those NFTs.

Yeah, rebranded permanently. Done. Sold.

You guys, you heard it here first in the ADHD Rise room. We're gonna be saying, you're so NFT, girl.

We rise together.

Yeah, we, we kind of love NFTs, but not really.

Oh man, I remember I was in a mental health first aid class and they kept talking about CBT, CBT, and all I knew that to mean It was cock and ball torture. But I came in like 10 minutes late because I was with the client. So I turned to my coworker who was also in both spaces and I go, this doesn't mean what I think it means. And she— he goes, cognitive behavioral therapy. I'm like, oh, that makes so much more sense.

That is awesome. I was laughing. I was like, I know what she's gonna say.

Being like, why are we talking about cock and ball torture this whole time? It doesn't make sense in mental health first aid. Like, what is happening? Yeah, it's a different thing. Now we know.

Okay, I wasn't going to share this, but I have to now. I have to share my experience when I was in beauty school and we would— we had this teacher that was like such an airhead, but I think it was like her role that she played, you know what I mean? And she'd be like, okay, you guys, so we've got to get the really thick rod and you want to make sure that the girth of the rod is like big enough. So So you can really grip your hands around.

Oh my God!

And we would be like, oh my gosh! Does she know what she's doing? Like, I don't know. It was really weird.

Beauty school has thick rods.

What's what?

Curvy.

Oh, okay. Thanks.

She's like, rip the rod. Make sure it's thick enough so you can grip it. And I'm like, oh my God! This is ridiculous.

I hope my will appreciates this conversation.

We're just we have to fill in for you know because the craziness we gotta fill in. All right, with that, we just had you guys. If you just hopped in, this is ADHD Rise. We are rising up together. We are love bombing on our friend Trey DHD. He is amazing. We just had some love bombs. We talked about college words being mixed up. We talked about NFTs. We are all educated and our brains are huge now. And I'm going to pass the mic over to our friend Jacob. What's up?

Hey, how you doing?

So good, how are you?

Uh, it's a, it's a pretty good day, mostly productive, which is 100% productive. Uh, and, uh, yeah, just been tying up a lot of loose ends lately. Um, working really hard to get my tasks from like a day perspective and a week perspective done. I've not been perfect, but I've hit some big things off the list, so So feeling okay today overall.

Tying things up. That sounds dopamine AF. Yes.

Trey approved.

Trey's room. So glad to hear from you, Jacob. I remember you coming in, gosh, a couple weeks ago finding out.

Yeah.

No, it's funny. You had a website one, which I'm now— the website is complete. So that took a long time. Only 45 days, but I got it done. And, um, my little, my little accomplishment to myself was I had this big disagreement with another company that went back many, many, many months, and they had a settlement with me to resolve it. And they're really just driving me crazy this last couple installments. But every— I did— it took all my energy not to get into that mode of just wanting to— overcommunicate and over-defend myself, and because I felt that it was going to be a trap. So it was— it took a lot of writing messages and then deleting them and so on and so forth. Everyone here probably knows what I'm talking about. Just took a lot of mental energy, but it was helpful to put it in terms of ADHD and just let it, let it go and slide. And in the end, it did get resolved today, actually.

Celebrate, celebrate, dance to the music.

Totally.

I get that, that whole like, you know, writing an email, thinking about it, deleting it, sending it again. I get that. Like, I actually have people who I call to run things by sometimes because I am not always, you know, I wanna like write some things and say some things, but it's not always the best idea. So I definitely relate with that and, um, try not to send anything that I will regret for sure. Celebrating you. Oh man, am I vibrating again? I'm sorry, you guys. I forgot to turn off my—

No, it's me. I think if you're getting— I did NFD, which is neuro-fucking-diverse. What about that?

NFD.

Natalie just messaged me back. Fuck yes.

Let's talk to Chris Ohlstrom and say How do we create an NFT? We don't even know what it is yet, but it's going to be the next big thing and people are going to pay millions.

Yeah.

So nobody repeat this because we're, we're copywriting it right now.

And I'm going to invest in it and I'm going to make money off it.

Girl, you're the creator.

We'll both invest.

All right.

So first you get a computer and then you click some buttons and then the money happens.

I love it. I knew it was that easy. Chris, you're awesome.

We are gonna— we're gonna take over the world.

I must be pressing the wrong buttons.

Yeah, it's the print money button.

Agreed.

Yeah, don't, don't forget the, uh, laugh fucking your diverse ass off.

So I tried that. The ink was fine, but the paper was wrong. I did like, you know, 10 years in prison, but besides that, it's fine.

Ah, so you used the real print button, not, not the one that, you know, just Prints it on a blockchain. Needs more blockchain, bro.

No, no, I just did the old print old thing, but turns out there's special paper. Who knew?

Wait a minute.

Is this a wait? Is this a new feature?

Paper while you're in prison.

Is this a new feature on Clubhouse that Android doesn't have yet? Because I'm not seeing this feature, this button.

The print button.

Yeah, print money button. Is that no?

I mean, there's a send money button on Clubhouse.

Yeah, your, your club isn't—

But there isn't like a solicit money button. That, that's the thing, right?

Well, at the bottom of your club it'll say give money or something. It happened a long time ago. I don't think I have it either.

There's Cash App.

Wait, is this where I should be putting it?

So you can put a little button on the bottom. It connects to your, um— oh no, what's the name of it? Stripe. You can connect your Stripe account and set up your Stripe account on Your on here if you wish.

Wait, but you can only do it if you have if they give you the button to begin with, right?

No, you can put a button. Everyone can put a button on Android.

That too. You got click on your click on the page on what country you're from.

That's right.

I want the to start again.

Click on your page from the top right.

Okay.

And then, uh, the 5th one down, it should say Payments. You see Payments?

Okay, click on that.

And then you got to go set up a Stripe account.

And then you can— If you already have a Stripe account, you can just do it.

Oh, at first it was way too much work.

Special people.

I think you don't set up the Stripe account through Clubhouse though.

Yeah, make sure you already have a Stripe account and then put it in here, because when you start to set it through here Sometimes it'll just show up like on people's thing and on people's statements as Clubhouse. And then like my bank, when I try to do it to someone who set up through here, was like, hey, is this fraudulent? So make sure like you have it set up separately and then just sign in.

So why would you want people to pay you? Like if you did coaching here on Clubhouse, like privately in private rooms?

Well, somebody, some people just tip you, you know, for valuable time. Wow.

That's awesome. I wanna get a tip.

Well, you know, especially in like— I'm just kidding. It's a, I'm Reading rooms, reading rooms, how that means different things in different communities. So in, in the terror reading rooms, not in the like where, oh girl, I'm gonna read you kind of rooms, not those, the regular reading rooms, um, they, they do it, they do your readings for tips.

Isn't this what— isn't that what OnlyFans is for? Like, should we talk about our OnlyFans accounts now? Or like, I'm not gonna do that much bookkeeping for a dollar tip.

What's OnlyFans? Oh my God, you poor Christian soul.

Google it.

Poor Christian soul. Wow, my poor 40-year-old.

Okay, we've gotten way too far off at dope AF, you guys. We gotta get ourselves back in order.

I feel like OnlyFans is very dope dopamine AF, actually, to be perfectly honest.

Trey Hutt and his girlfriend have an OnlyFans account, in case you guys don't know. Go check it out. Okay, Chris.

Now you have to. You just message me or I'll just look it up. Man, you're making me feel old.

I'm sorry. You're doing fine.

Natalie, speak up for me, girl. You have teenagers too.

Is it so OnlyFans is trying to rebrand themselves, but they were basically a place for amateur porn during the pandemic. It's where a lot of sex workers went when they couldn't. be sex workers anymore because of the pandemic. And now OnlyFans is like, I don't want to have sex workers anymore. And then there was a huge uprising, and then OnlyFans was like, JK, you can stay. And then they're like, that's right. So that's where we are in the process.

So OnlyFans— so I really should have known about something like that.

OnlyFans is where you can give up all of your dignity and self-respect for $15 a month.

That's it. Wow. Yeah, I think my husband and I were talking about that because like one person went on and they got like a million dollars.

And talk about sex workers as not having dignity.

There you go.

Yeah.

Okay.

Personal choice.

Just come to Vegas. You will have a job if you come to Vegas. There's plenty of— I live right outside of Vegas. There's plenty of job opportunities here.

All right. The fans pages that are just feet.

Oops.

My 10-year-old came in. Oh no.

Oh no.

Please do not be in this conversation near them. Oh yes, you might want to wear headphones. This is a warning right now. So, um, I'd love to pass it on to my beautiful friend Andrea. Hello, my love.

Hi, how you doing? How's everyone doing?

Dope AF, my friend. Dope AF.

Interesting predecessor to, uh, interesting introduct— not introduction, but Prior conversation that I'm stepping into here. I, I've only heard of OnlyFans. No, no knowledge direct. I, I have also been fortunate that I've managed to maintain a salaried in-person job for the last 10 years doing something I like to do. So I'm not I'm not a business person. I deal with business people who are trying to sell me stuff and who are providing me things that are important. But the whole way y'all go about doing your business and working on profit and all that stuff, that's outside of my experience. I'm a, I'm a creator supporter, you know. I do technical support for theater artists, and I guess I am a theater artist as well. I do lighting, I do sound, but that's kind of stuff that you don't do on a schedule, that you don't do by putting You're not pushing it out. Uh, I mean, you do it on a schedule because there's a deadline, and the creativity sort of happens as you use your techniques. And I guess in some ways that's similar. Dopamine rush. Yeah, nothing like a freaking opening night show. And then at the end when the audience stands up and roars. Uh-oh, red bar. Am I being lost?

Nope, we can hear you.

No, you can hear you just fine.

Rush, rush, rush. That's what that is. Performance success. Fear too. That's a rush too. I've failed a couple shows, had disasters, near disasters. Some sad Things that happen, but it's, uh, it's a life I'm lucky to lead, and I've been so fortunate in my life that—

Uh-oh.

My parents put me in after— uh-oh, red bar again.

Yeah, we couldn't hear you for just a second.

After I got diagnosed as ADHD and dyslexic, my parents pulled me out of the French public school that I was in, who were going to put me in this, uh, uh, side class, you know, special class. They said, no, our kid Just having trouble learning in the specific way that you're teaching. So they put me into a private school that let me develop at my own pace and at my own desires and still pushed, but as appropriate. And I discovered the love of theater there, and it has— You know, first grade, doing a school play, Cool play, it's fun. Second grade, so on and so forth until you start taking it more seriously. And then you get to college and you find out you can study that, get your rush. Let's see, you still gotta write. But for my senior thesis in college, when everybody else had to write a 200 or 300 page paper, essentially book research, all that other stuff, I had to direct a play. Direct and produce a play. Make that happen. Multiple things, multiple directions. The, you know, you're dealing with scene 1, you're dealing with scene 4, you're dealing with this actor, you're dealing with this lighting person, you're dealing with the sound. You know, it just, it's this constant, uh, smorgasbord of, of, uh, stimulation. I think that for many people who have ADHD, at least, there's a place for them to find out and learn a lot in Theater as kids, as teens. I think if they get in the right place with the right people, it really can be an incredible tool. In fact, I was writing a— I started my graduate work to get a master's in theater and education, and that was my thesis, was that theater was a great place to teach kids who Struggled with learning. Now, this was back in 2000 and something, early, early 2000s. Never finished the degree. It was an independent program, and yeah, you put an ADHDer like me into an independent study program, that didn't end up working. Anyway, I'm seeing red bar. Uh, I'll leave the story there. Thank you. I'm Andrea.

Yay!

Love you, Andrea. I appreciate the ways that you get dopamine, and I appreciate that when you're feeling better, you are all over the place. Like, I'm exhausted. It feels like it should be Friday. I'm very upset that it's not. But, um, you just— your energy and your love of music and being in the stage situation is just— and having been able to keep that all up through— because Andrea and I live pretty close to each other, and like all the places where I used to perform in the before times are all gone now. And, um, the fact that you've been able to stay in it and venues is just— you're amazing. My name is Chris and I'm—

Thanks, Chris and Andrea. Oh, go ahead, Andrea.

Oh, I was just gonna say thank you, Chris, but the truth is I haven't stayed in it the whole time. There were 9 months of furlough at the the beginning of the thing, and the return has been slow and bumpy. We do have rent opening up sometime mid— middle of November. That's going to be fun. It's the first time in 2+ years. And my good energy right now is only because I haven't leaned In the last 10 minutes because, uh, I got an L4-L5 fusion that's acting up and it's kicking my butt. Couldn't move on Sunday. But you know, the brain still operates and I can remember fun stuff and I can be who I am. Try to stay positive too. I'm Andrea, and I'm done again.

Thanks, Andrea. Celebrating you and all of the accomplishments and the small things. You know, I think after the past year and a half, it's like those little things when we get them back, those little pleasures, those little joys that we appreciate so much, like being able to get back on stage or know, even being out in public or, you know, whatever that is, like we get to celebrate all the dopamine AF things going on. I'm celebrating you. And with that, I will pass it on to the beautiful Rhonda with her amazing wings. Hello, Rhonda. How are you?

Hello, everyone. I am getting my dopamine on right now and cleaning my garage because as a Part-time reseller. I'm trying to move into reselling full-time since I'm transitioning out of my job, not by choice, but, um, so I have, um, it's a mess, but I need to get organized. That way my brain will function clearly, I will be at ease, and Just glad I'm here. I guess it's a safe place for me as I continue to learn about me having ADHD since being diagnosed a couple years ago. My daughter— my, I should say, my twin daughters are ADHD and my grandson's autistic. And so You know, as I learn, you know, I share with my my my daughter, and she tells me not to use my ADHD as a crutch. And I said, "I don't. I'm just you know I'm learning off of it in what you know me being a little off in my head that I always knew just confirms that my thought process." So thank you again for allowing me to speak. I don't usually speak on in Clubhouse just because I'm nervous and you know worry about what others thinks. But just happy to be here and listening. Thank you.

We got you, girl. I'm so glad you came up to talk and spreading your light. This evening.

Thanks, Evie. Rhonda, do you remember when we connected a while ago? I still have your DMs. I was just. Looking, looking that up. That's— you came to one of my rooms, I believe.

Yeah, and it's been a while.

I've been— I, I've—

like, last week I had a bad, really bad week. Um, July I took another leave of absence because I, I had another mental breakdown. Um, sorry, I'm about to cry, get emotional.

That's all right.

It's just been a challenge, you know, like With everything else.

Yeah, well, I mean, you could go ahead, you go ahead, but if you want to cry, you can cry and I will talk.

I think my biggest thing is, you know, dealing with the stuff that I'm dealing with with work because I do have a work injury. And, you know, if you're— if you know— if you're one of those people caught in the system or know people that are caught in the system of workers' comp, it's It's not a fun system in itself, and then just trying to ask for your needs and wants—it's also hard. But again, coming to these these clubhouse rooms—it's it's part of my therapy. It's more than what I'm getting going to. Therapy because they don't have groups for, you know, autism and being, you know, ADHD. So many thanks to this room and other rooms that many of you guys are in and, and share and host. I appreciate it. And I'm done speaking.

Rhonda, I think, um, I have a message to you that might be stuck in your request folder that I sent you last week, that when we were talking, I was like, let's feel our feelings together. So I just wanted to let you know that, um, check your request box because that is in there. Not today. I think in the next 2 minutes I am going to drop off And maybe go to bed for the night, even though it is only 5:19. Today has been enough.

Thank you, Chris.

It is now complete. But, um, thank you everyone for being so incredible and for holding such space for me today when it was, um, it was not a good day, but you guys made it a lot better. So thank you so much.

We love you, Chris. Thank you for being here and for jumping up.

Thank you, Chris. Love you so much.

I just want to give a piggyback slash shout out to what Chris just said. You know, Rhonda, I don't know you deeply. I've seen you in here, but I don't know you really well. But I know for me, what's true for me is that, because I can only speak from my own experience, I have this, this idea. And I think this might be common because most of my clients are this way too, and they're ADHD. But I have this feeling that for me, like, I am so good at being there for other people or being the one that even in stressful situations, I show up, I do the thing, I jump into action, I perform really well under pressure, high pressure, chaotic situations. But then when it comes to me and it comes to me feeling my feelings and allowing other people to be there and support me, Oh my gosh, it's like a painful thought to even think about it. And, you know, over the last couple of weeks, months, whatever it's been like, I've gotten the opportunity to learn how to do that. And when I say learn how to do it, I am so serious because I'm not the type— I'm a lone wolf, you know, I'm a lone wolf. I've got this. I don't need anybody. I'm just gonna like, you know, I'm just gonna hunker down and do something and make it work. Like, I'm just gonna do it, right? And the thing that's been so cool, and I want to give a shout out to my girl Summer over here to my right, like, you know, she got to be there like this morning, we got on a call and we had, you know, we're talking about the summit and, you know, I got to share some things with her that were going on. And even just that piece of like having someone else hear you and being able to, you know, share something about yourself or share about your experience and what's going on and have someone else there to validate and to, you know, be a mirror. And especially someone who gets it because our brains do function a little different. Alert the press, ADHD, our brains function a little different, you know, but just having someone that can hear you and say, you know, like, you've got this, you know, like you're, you'll be okay no matter what, you know, things are going to be okay. Like it really does help so much to feel the damn feelings, even though it's so hard sometimes, you know, we want to avoid or we want to. just have everything feel good all the time and have that dopamine AF all the time. But, you know, it really is— it might sound very cliché, but it's like those moments in life when we feel the pain or we walk through something that we get to appreciate the better, the good even more. So, you know, definitely reach out to anyone on the stage, reach out to anyone in the audience. I know that we're all here for each other and we're your tribe. You don't have to do it alone.

And I think it goes back to what we— I've been in a few rooms today and yesterday, so I can't remember where it was, but we were talking about— oh yeah, it was in Damon's room this morning about showing up for yourself and how are you showing up for yourself. Because if you can't show up for yourself, and it is very cliché, but putting your oxygen mask on first so that you can serve and help Or be with the people that are around you. You know, from a parenting perspective, you know you give a lot, but it's important. You know that you take time for yourself and have that be okay. I think the norm is just to push, push, push, and try and get through everything, and you know do it, be it, do it all. But that's what kind of sent me in a spiral a few years ago, and was kind of the. you know, the catalyst for, you know, my depression and anxiety. So I think it is important, like Rhonda, make sure that you are showing up for yourself. And if that means not doing anything, then that's okay. You know, and you, you know, you do the best you can for whatever point you're at in your life. And that's good enough. You know, it doesn't— and the reason why we think it isn't good enough, because that's what society has Has deemed that's what it is, but you have to decide what works for you, not what is working for the average person. Right? So it's important to give yourself some dopamine. Right? Go go do something that actually is. I wish Sherry was here. Sherry talks about this like dark chocolate. Like it's like this specific type that that's like her dopamine kick. So you know. Finding something that is going to, you know, kind of help hold you until you know you feel like you can move forward. It's it's an okay thing to do. You know, it's okay to take a step back because there is you know tomorrow. There is that. So I just wanted to make sure that you knew that that even though it's hard, you know, you still have a community that is there for you. You could. Literally message probably any person on this stage and they would definitely message you back. And, you know, I've made some pretty good friends through Clubhouse and, um, some people that I connect with, you know, and, and Val is, is one of them and it's been great. And when I see Aaron down there and Christie and Brett, we're not, you know, fully connected, but you're a good guy too.

Yeah, Brett's awesome.

Cool.

You guys mind if I, uh, yeah, I have—

Jump in, Tom.

Yeah, yeah, I have something to share because, you know, I see a lot of us, you know, we're all going through different things and, and sometimes people get in really difficult situations and they try to reach out, you know, to support with the, you know, the government support and the system and it's just bureaucracy And it's just, you know, it sucks because it's like it's supposed to be there to help you when you go through rough times, but really you're just dealing with so much bureaucracy that it's just overwhelming. And, you know, one of the things I think might help is I had a situation with a friend recently who she's just, she's literally been trying to find a therapist for 6 months. And with the pandemic, everyone's booked up and she's getting really bad. And what me and a few other friends did did is we literally just sat down with her, went through the internet, figured out a therapist for her, and just sort of helped her. And it's like, there are ADHD accountability rooms, and I know that those rooms are a lot about productivity and work-related and business-related, but I do think that something that would be very useful for our tribe is sort of like a crisis help room. Not obviously about if You're suicidal, stuff like that, you've got to go to hotlines and therapists and things like that. But just dealing with the bureaucracy of unemployment or if your bank gets hacked or just crazy stuff because the way this system is, I mean, you would think you get on the phone with somebody from the government and they're supposed to help you, but it's really self-help. You have to keep pushing, you have to keep fighting, you have to keep self-advocating. But when you're down and out, You don't have that energy. You're like beat up. Your adrenaline is gone. You're just depressed. You just don't have it in you. But if you could be around people that are your tribe, that could be like, okay, let's roll up our sleeves. Let's figure out how to help you move the needle to help you get what you need to get to help you in your situation. I don't know. It's just a thought, but I've been there myself. I know some of my friends, and a lot of my friends have ADHD or are neurodivergent. And we just try to be there for each other because life is tough and we really do need each other to get through. So I don't know, I just thought of that idea and maybe something like that would help each other.

Hey Tom, you rock, dude. Thank you so much. And thank you for speaking to that because that's something I think that— gosh, not to get into a whole bunch of political stuff, but that's something that's very frustrating with me. Why I became a coach in the first place was because I was going through mental illness stuff with my parents, and there was such a lack of resources and a lack of believability. I actually had a counselor tell me that she was faking it and that I need to just like you know whatever, and I was like oh okay that's great. You know, and it was just such a it seemed like it was such a struggle when it should have been easier, right? This reminds me of the. Beautiful rant that, um, that Stereo had earlier about, you know, like, it should be easier. She said it much more beautifully and eloquently, but, you know, like, yeah, it's so frustrating when, when things, you know, quote, like, getting caught up in the system when the system is there to help us. And sometimes we have to advocate for ourselves and create that, that thing, that container That community, that support that we need, which can be hard. But if you, you know, like Tom is saying, you know, like, I'm sure there's a band of us that could band together and create that. That's what ADHD RISE is, right? So let's create it, you guys. I'm on it. Like, I'm ready to go. Let's do it. Thank you.

Did somebody say stereo?

I did, girl. You know, I was talking about, you know, dopamine. You are dopamine AF, girl.

So yes, today's a great day, guys, and, uh, I want to share the dopamine with everyone here. And the conversation is lovely, it's very stimulating while I'm trying to design a, a print. So I thank you for keeping me company in my ears. I definitely do not feel alone right now, and I'm on a grind to hopefully finish this My battery runs out. I'm speaking.

Oh my gosh, I love you so much.

It's ridiculous. I can't even put into words how much I love you. Let's see, we have Brett. I was, I was about to send out a search party, Brett. I'm so glad you messaged me this morning because I was like, I have not seen Brett all week. I don't know what's going on. If he left Clubhouse, then I don't even know. It's over.

I had been focused on my friend who came to visit from Sunday night until a couple hours ago. Um, I think my dog is happy I'm home. I just updated my picture.

Oh, I love her.

Uh, I just— before I forget, and then I'm gonna be taking her to the dog park here soon, um, and we'll go talk I had the NFT. I know this is like a 30-minute delayed laugh and whatever, but I couldn't really respond at the time, but I thought it was hilarious. And I like the— what was the other one then that came up for NFT? Is that what you guys— for the neurodiverse, you guys came up with something. Else, I just thought that was hilarious, so I just wanted to.

You're a fucking.

Oh, I know that. Yeah, yeah. There was the NFT, but then we did neurodiverse. We did neuro effing diverse. That's right.

I was like, neuro fucking typicals.

Someone she thought who was? I couldn't even tell. I was just listening. I just heard the neuro fucking typicals and laughed.

Yes, or we could be.

Neurodiverse AF.

Yeah, I do think the whole ADHD, first of all, it's just a, it's a tongue twister alone, that alone, you know, but it doesn't really say much. I keep wondering if maybe one day there'll be a different word for it people will think of instead of it.

Well, I had a list of different ideas for the word and then I forgot to submit it, so Just a heads up.

I'm sorry, but I'm not sorry. I'm going to take Nero fucking typical. Thank you. I'm done.

Oh, I think she trademarked it. I already trademarked it, Stereo.

So if you want to share, I'm just I'm I'm fifty fifty.

I'm causing some stir.

But but isn't isn't you got bored? Isn't isn't NFT not for trademark anyways?

So.

You, you need to go to Summer's page, go to her OnlyFans and pay her $20 now because you used that word, stereo. What?

All right, could you listen, Summer, could you add it to my tab?

Yes, I can. You have a huge tab right now.

OnlyFans.

I know, I know, but I'm good for it. I'm good for it.

Oh, I know.

She's got that credit built up on OnlyFans.

We've all been there.

I have a different alias on there.

I bet we wouldn't even know who you were.

Oh my gosh, anyone walking in right now, I apologize. I think somebody just left. He's like, what the AF is going on in here? This is dopamine AF. Oh, we are—

I agree with Tom's idea for a support group for OnlyFans.

Yeah, I just wanted to say that too. That was awesome. I've been thinking about the same thing. I think Clubhouse could be like support groups for every You know, neuro— hell yeah, thing there is, not just ADHD. Like, almost everything probably could use it.

In all seriousness though, in all seriousness though, Tom's point is a real one. And I've been thinking about this a lot since being diagnosed. When I like look back at all the times that I had a parking ticket and I had the money and I have it right in front of me, and I go, okay, I'm just gonna do that right, you know, I got it, I'm just gonna do it later. totally forget about it and get a little, you know, fee on it. And I was thinking there's almost like an ADHD tax, you know, just having this is, uh, if you, if you were to make it, if you were to make an Excel, which would be a really great ADHD obsessive thing to do one night until 5 AM, but if you were to make an Excel of all the extra fees or late this or whatever that you've incurred, it's like a tax just to have this thing.

So yeah, absolutely. Um, As a matter of fact, uh, I— my phone is with T-Mobile, and if you have autopay on, you get like a $5 discount for every line that you have. And I got paid like the day after, um, the autopay was going to come out, so I turned it off and paid the bill, and I forgot to turn it back on until I got the next bill, and it was, you know, had the $20 on. So I messaged them on Twitter, and I'm like, I'm wondering if you can help me out because I have incurred an ADHD tax. And explain, explain, explain. And since I've been there for over 10 years, they refunded me the $20.

Oh, I love that you even called it the tax. So I will share this story. So back in the end of June, I took my daughter and her friends to Newport in California because I live right outside of Vegas. And we— so there's a really, really busy spot right there, and I ended up Kind of freaking out with the traffic. It's so super busy. It always stresses me out. Some trucker always cuts me off, and I almost get in an accident. I feel like every time. So I took their their toll road, and I had no idea how much it would be. I was just like, "We're just gonna take the toll road." And you know, they do. They like monitor you, right? So it ends up like I was trying to remember as soon as we stop, get in the hotel. I'm gonna go to tollroadswhatever.com and pay it because they like can. See your license or something. So when I went, it said something like you have to wait two weeks till it you know sees it on the thing. And so I didn't do it, and I got a notice like a month later or so that said you know you need to pay this or you're going to get a fine. You know, and it was six dollars, literally six dollars. Totally worth the fifteen minutes not to be in California traffic. So six dollars. And then I went to pay it, and I—they said it was past the two weeks, and so they didn't see anything in the system. So then I forgot about it. Well, the other day, like a couple weeks ago, I got a bill for a fine of like two hundred and something dollars, and I was like, seriously? And so then I put off paying that until my daughter was like, "I think you need to pay this." And so I paid it, and it took me. 3 minutes. That's it, 3 minutes. And so instead of paying $6 and saving about 15-20 minutes, I paid over $200 to do that. So yeah, don't ever feel bad because that is exactly what an ADHD moment looks like, 100%. And I'm done speaking.

On, on that same note, you know, some months ago I upgraded my internet service And my ISP didn't cancel the other one because they switched it from copper to fiber. So there was like 2 lines. I still have on my bill too, because I haven't bothered to call them. And I've been being charged for 2 internets for a while now, longer than I'd care to acknowledge how long.

So I also offer services as an ADHD virtual assistant to Remind people to do a little bitty things. But anyway, do you need me to put a reminder to remind you to do that? Like tomorrow?

The reminder isn't the problem. She's calling the freaking call center. That's the problem.

That is a special hell. I'd like to express that I just wanna let you guys know I am the number one person at calling any Utility or phone company and ripping a new asshole out of them and making sure I get plenty of money back. It's a gift. I think it's an ADHD.

Uh, but anyway, it's the allergy to the phone call. I totally could, uh, respect that. Uh, do they not have a chat service? Because that's how I usually— or, or even a Twitter help.

So fun fact, I, I used to work for that ISP. Um, And I know that the chat system, I know where it's outsourced to, and I just— it's a— if it was like, oh, this happened 2 weeks ago, it would be fine. But no, no, this happened multiple months ago. So it's going to have to go through all sorts of fun approvals and—

Yeah, that makes your head hurt. I totally get it.

Yeah, I don't want to deal with that outsourcer. That's really what it is.

I suggest you outsource that to Stereo.

Maybe.

Uh, yeah, I'm, I'm really good at this shit.

I had one thing that kind of worked. My, uh, my girlfriend was really fed up that I wasn't discontinuing a car wash that was near— like, I had a monthly subscription to a car wash that was near a, uh, a company I used to work at. Don't work there anymore, so I was just getting billed $30 a month. And she said that, you know, if you don't pay for that— because I kept saying I'm going to take care of it— she said, you're going to lose one of your streaming services. And I was like, okay, I'll take care of it today, don't worry. Sure enough, one day my HBO didn't turn on and I had to take care of my car wash. So I don't know if it's good to have an accountability partner is kind of the point, even if they're tough. But I would suggest something I heard on a different group was This is kind of a weird one, but if you give like $10 to a friend, right, and it's to support like a political group or something that you really despise, like let's say it's Big Oil or something, and this check is written to them from you, and if you don't take care of something, then your friend is going to send that check. And for some people, this actually works to do some kind of financial reward thing. Because if you just treat yourself Especially with ADHD, like you say, okay, I'm gonna give myself a cookie, let's say, if I do this stuff, you know, we have a tendency just to eat cookies, right?

So sometimes it's better to have a, uh, cookie kind of a catch.

I know, right now everyone wants cookies because I said that.

See, if I did that, I would just end up with a bunch of shares of like ExxonMobil or something. Like, damn it, now I have to figure out—

Yeah, that's— well, that's the, that's the catch to Yeah.

I think that the challenge is, you know, I mean, what I've seen is just so many people struggle, and the challenge is that you call these centers and you get these stupid automated services thing, and then it goes to this endless bureaucracy, which people with ADHD absolutely hate. Like, we despise inefficiency, and we We want to be treated as human beings. I think everybody does, but it's a particular ADHD thing that you just cannot take, and it's emotionally and mentally and physically draining to deal with it.

It's meant to break you.

Yeah, it is meant to break you. And so the thing is, right, is like, I mean, paying for something and getting caught in like an endless cycle of subscriptions where you're going to like, you end up losing money and stuff like that, that you have like different various degrees, not to say that anyone is is less or greater pain than another. But then you have certain situations like what happened with my friend where she's like— her mental health was just declining for months and months and months and couldn't get a therapist and just couldn't get it. She finally got one and was late 2 minutes to the appointment. And then the therapist didn't even want to see her because she was late for 2 minutes. I mean, this is the ridiculousness of the world now. And there are a lot of people— and it's really sad, but there are There are a lot of people, you know, you wonder when you hear stories of people committing suicide, you know, yes, you have the situations where it's, you know, someone's gone down a deep, dark depression and all this kind of stuff, but sometimes it's just the collective additive nature of the cumulative nature of all this crap that just happens to people where it's just one thing after another thing and they just break. Because they feel like no matter where they turn or what they try to do, it just doesn't work. And it honestly could just be as simple as, hey, you know what? We're going to get together and we're going to get you that therapy appointment. I'm literally going to go through a list of 50 therapists and we're going to get you a therapy appointment, right? Or, you know, hey, I'm going to get on the phone and I'm literally going to— like Stereo's saying— is I'm going to badger these people and play the game until we get you your money back. Or whatever the case is. We have to be able to fight for one another, not fight each other, but fight for one another in order to move the whole neurodivergent movement forward. Because you go to the doctors, the therapists, the system, and everyone, they all got an agenda. And it's this whole thing and this rigmarole you got to go through. But when we start fighting for one another and going to bat and picking up the sword for one another, that's when the neurodivergent movement is going to take off in ways that we never even thought possible. And we're actually going to be able to create a world for us because we can't wait for the world to accept us. We have to band together and actually create the world that works for us.

Tom, what you just said, I just have to say that, yeah, big time, like what a lovely sentiment you've made. And I just— I'm all over it. You're right. Um, with my best friend, I do exactly that for her. She's also the same as me. And, um, you know, I have to call the internet, I have to call the TV, I have to call everything. And all I do is pretend to be her, um, and have her passwords, have everything. And I just have the persistency and the determination more than her. So— I put it into good use, and I go to town. It's very simple. I know what they can do, hands down, know every time what they're capable of. So I wait, and I wait, and this is ridiculous. I've waited 45 minutes for you that you haven't done nothing. Are you— you know, you should be sweating by now. And they do, and then they break, and then, oh, okay, thank you so much for the loyalty, uh, or the goodwill gesture, or Whatever it is. That's so kind of you. Thank you so much for helping me today. You, you know, have a nice evening, and all of this sort of stuff. And my friend laughs at me because she says, you know, your voice comes out when, when you do all that. And she's right, it does. Like, I, I really do mask, or persona, or whichever you want to call it, like, very quickly, um, into something that isn't really me, but it is me, if that makes sense. Like, it is me, but it's a very— heightened me to be like, hello. And, you know, and then I can be an absolute bitch and like lose my temper and hopefully try really hard not to swear at them to the point where they will give in and they render it and I can just keep going, um, like I am right now. So that's why I'm done speaking.

Well, I think that's how we all feel. I mean, honestly, um, I feel, um, I'm not going to use that because I have friends that are, that are bipolar and my sister is too and But a lot of times, ADHD will get misdiagnosed as bipolar, and I wonder you know if that's some of the reason why because our highs are so high and our lows are so low. But yeah, I think that's like how we all feel. Like one second, I'm like the nicest human on the planet, and the next second, like I literally am like fight me right now. Like to my kids, even my husband has to remind me that I'm not a child anymore and that I don't need. to fight them. So, um, or tell them where to stick it, you know? And so I, I think it, it feels like that for a lot of us. Like it's this, this rage and then this like, I'm gonna be your friend and I'm gonna help you. I'm gonna do all these things. You know what I'm saying? Like you're, we're very loyal, but I think that is, it's like the, um, emotional, like the regulation. We have such a hard time with that. So yeah, I mean, the persona, the mask, it, It's, it's real, you know, I, I sometimes don't mask very well, but, um, I usually feel how I feel, but, but when you need to, it's like, you know, the ADHD or like they're, they show up, you know, like in the midst of crisis, like my husband is like freaking out and I'm like being calm because I know it's needed. I know that I have to be calm or else everybody else is, you know, but we're good at that. We're good at being under that type of a pressure because, you know, we have to be. It's, It's ridiculous. It's kind of weird that I, I'm able to do that, but I have heard that I am not, I am not the only one. I'm definitely not alone. So, um, yeah.

To piggyback off of what Tom was getting at, I've found that what's frustrating is the, the people that are there to like the support system. Like I have Kaiser Permanente and it's just, they say it's because there's just such a huge Huge backup of demand. Like I'm diagnosed but I'm waiting for medication. I'm waiting to actually— I have a month out till I can meet with a psychiatrist. And according to the screening process they asked me, you know, at one point like, am I depressed? And I said yeah. And I spoke about that. And but I had to preface and say I'm actually not a depressed person just for the record. I— but it's this process that's been depressing me. So I have been going through a depression knowing that I'm diagnosed and then it's taking so long to actually meet with someone who can give me some kind of medical help, not just talk about it. And later once I was actually diagnosed, my psychologist said that it's a good thing I clarified that because if not, they might have diagnosed me differently just because I said that I was Feeling depressed. They might have— that might have confused their rubric or something. And I was reflecting on that the other day where I was like, wow, you know, it's just, it's so difficult to get help. And these systems that are there are very antiquated and don't really take into consideration proper variables so that people can actually get the diagnosis. You know, like apparently, obviously I I was able to get diagnosed properly, but one of the tests had to do with, you know, like a family member talking about your childhood and stuff. And apparently that's very important because up until very recently ADHD was seen as a childhood problem only. So it's still kind of capped in that world where they can say you have the ADHD, but unless you have someone to vouch for you as a child, backing that up, you won't really get the diagnosis that you might need. And that's like a perfect example of it just being stuck in the '90s still. It's like it's 20—

Yeah, that's so interesting. Yeah, that's super interesting. I did— I mean, I, I know that it definitely has been considered a childhood diagnosis. I mean, for years that has, that has changed, but it is not mainstream. I mean, I still get from parents all the time, so I I absolutely get it, you know, and it's a process just like everything else, you know, where I think we're just figuring crap out and, you know, trying the best that we can to live in a world that's totally neurodiverse or that is not neurodiverse. Sorry. So what was I gonna say? Oh yeah. So yeah, I think it's like important to to be an advocate for yourself, you know? I mean, I was lucky enough, and I don't know if it's lucky, I have such mixed feelings about it, but I was diagnosed when I was 11. And even having like an early diagnosis, I still didn't have the skills that I needed to be as successful as, you know, I could have been. But, you know, I think it's just learning and educating, you know, and this is, Seems like a theme, like in all the rooms. Like as we learn more and we educate, and like especially the parents, I'm not— these parents come to me and they are like clueless. Like I feel, I feel like, okay, we need to get you educated so you can understand, you know, you can understand. And that's, you know, that's the future, you know. And when we can, we can play, you know, a part in that and, and educating and helping. I mean, it's, it's amazing, like what we can do, you know, just as a community, you know, everywhere. So Um, thank you everyone for contributing. Um, that was a fun conversation. I kind of forgot that we're supposed to be actually doing a room and not having just a fun conversation, but Priscilla, let's move on to you. Are you there still? Yay. You are.

I'm good. I'm just here soaking up the love. That's all. Um, I have found that Clubhouse and these rooms are becoming more and more of a, Lifeline for me because nobody else in my life understands me. And so I know that I can come here and you're my people. So just thank you for being here and for showing up and helping others helps me feel better. And so I want to offer that as well. If anybody starts having a down moment, I've found that when I'm up, someone else might be down and Vice versa. So I have my good days and bad, and I'm here either way. And it's just, I just find everything extremely helpful. And it's just that sense of community. Um, and I don't, I don't feel like such an oddball alien anymore. So thank you. I'm done speaking.

Yay. Oh my gosh. Um, Priscilla and I have actually messaged, um, and backchatted before and Just talking about our super neurotypical husbands. I mean, honestly, my husband and she's been married for a long time as well. And so honestly, like he, he understands me, but unless you, and it's just like this with anything, unless you actually have been there, it's so incredibly hard to be where somebody is. Like, I don't have bipolar. My sister has bipolar and I totally get it. But I actually don't because I don't have bipolar. So, you know, honestly, having, you know, that community— I'm not like a super— like, I've always been super outgoing and friendly, and I'm friends with you if you want to be friends. Like, I can be your friend. Like, um, but as an adult, I, I think maybe I got burned too many times, and I, I definitely shy away from that community feel. And, you know, this is honestly I, it's one of the very first, um, formats or, you know, social media, I guess, that I've allowed myself to be more me because I, I recognize that I have been masking like so much of my life, you know, more in my friendships, um, than anything, like not being able to show up. So I think, um, you know, you're always afraid that somebody's not gonna like you, which is stupid cuz I could care less what you think of me, but I actually do.

So, oh yeah, can we just say rejection-sensitive dysphoria? Yes, it's just everybody in my life, I, I scare them a little bit. They're like, you're so intense. And when I like somebody, I really like somebody. I just—

Right, we're overbearing.

I feel my feelings. Yes, I feel my feelings down to the bone. And so if I, if I love you, I just instantly know it, and I love you, and So that's just really intense for people. And I just, I know you understand what I mean. And then when I'm hurt, I'm devastated. It doesn't take much to, to turn me upside down at all. I'm just so emotional. And now I have some type of explanation. And for those of you that don't know, I was diagnosed at age 42. Um, so, so much of This community is just making sense, you know, putting things in a different perspective. And yes, I'm grieving that little girl that was so misunderstood and bullied and just feeling so weird and out of sorts my entire life up to this point. And just, yeah, what you're sharing, our stories, is so, so important. Just Just knowing that we're not alone and we have each other. And if we were all in a room together, we'd be hugging and crying and possibly slapping each other, which also would be fun.

But oh, I love that. I love that. I'm Priscilla and I'm done speaking. Wait, was that in the ADHD and fetish room? The slapping?

Because I'm pretty sure. Where's the kink? Where's the kink girl? She was here the other day. She was here yesterday. No, which one did we? I can't remember. Okay, don't make any jokes because you're not medicated right now. ADHD, SM. Yes.

I'm not allowed to speak about this topic anymore because I make a fool of myself. So I'm going to stop myself. You were.

I put the fool of myself. I will take that part of the recording off if that makes you feel better. Not this part, but the other room that we did. It got a little weird. I'm glad it was after my mom. My mom left. My mom came and spoke about ADHD and sex, and so we talked about that. It was a really good conversation. Then my mom had clients and she had to leave. So, but I was glad that it got a little weird after she left because you know who just wants to talk to your mom about sex all the time?

You know, the real the real problem is remembering the safe word. That's the because you like it too much.

Just just kidding.

I just can't remember that word.

I'm like, wait, what? What was it again?

No, that was last week's word. Damn it.

Oh shoot, did I say we have a new word this week?

Wait, you talk about sex with your mom?

Yes, she did. How do you—

how do you do that?

I talked about sex with a guy that goes to church with me. That was really embarrassing.

Yeah, he was in the room.

Let me see if he's in the room now. Amazing.

I don't see—

no, my mom, like, honestly, she actually embarrassed me. So I grew up, like, when I was younger, um, I would wake up to, like, men in my mom's bed. Like, no one tell her that because she was in this room and she's an amazing person and her life is way different. But, like, I was always, like, embarrassed because she would say the— I can't even say it out loud— she would say making love instead of sex, and it would make me so uncomfortable and cringe because it's like, that's way too intimate. Just have sex, it's fine.

Yeah, back in those days, it pretty much was making love, wasn't it?

Making love. The '60s, you know, just let it all hang out, you know. You know, you don't, you don't do anything but, you know, love.

That's, that's funny because my, my hippie mom who was at Woodstock and everything, like for real. Her thing was that— what was it? It was always that, um, she would use the word hooking up but just meaning like to meet up.

That was just a thing back then.

So she'd be like, so, so, so you two are hooking up, right? I'm like, what? Yeah, you and Josh, you're hooking up this week, right? And I'm like, what are you talking about?

That's awesome. Oh, that's funny.

Yeah, because That's a thing. And also another thing from her generation was calling whoever you're dating a friend, which offended literally every girlfriend I've ever had. So, you know, oh, this is Jacob and, uh, and his friend Kat. And then the girl would look at me like, oh, so we're just friends? So you told your mom that we're just friends?

I'm like, no, it's a thing. They're from the '60s.

I don't know. I don't know how they work.

Or when your mom says girlfriend, like, oh, is that your girlfriend? And I'm like, no, that's my friend.

You know, like, my mom was always—

that was like a thing. Yes, absolutely.

Your mom and my mom should switch.

They— yeah, they should switch. That's funny. Um, yeah, so it, it's definitely, um, different to talk to your mom about sex, but, you know, since we're both adults and I've had sex many times, it's, you know, not quite as awkward. Um, although I do have, um, distant memories of my mom with other men when I was younger, and I saw things that I shouldn't. So definitely it's, it's awkward, but, you know, it's fine. You know, she laughed, and then we had like a, a more, um, interesting conversation that wasn't as clinically based, I guess. We talked, you know, but it was good. I mean, it's good. People don't talk about sex. They, they need to.

We got—

we got to find out what our fetish is named. What is the fetish, Brett?

Oh yeah, where's Brett?

It's like when you're turned on by smart people and intelligence.

Sapiensexual.

What is it?

What is it? Sapiensexual.

Yes, like the talk nerdy to me.

I gotta go.

You come back here. Another cold shower.

Hey, Aaron. Good bath time. Damn it, did we already get to Andrea? Hi, Aaron. Hi, guys. This is Aaron.

This has been such a fun room. I got a call and I missed some of it.

I know, joking us.

Okay, so I love that we're love bombing Trey, but he's not here.

Yeah, what is that?

I had a joke and it might be too old to say it now, but I was gonna say his block I was supposed to say that for you.

What a bitch.

Just kidding, that was for Chris. Um, and the neuro-fucking diverse or neuro-fucking typical was hysterical, made my day. Um, that's probably why I don't even try and understand it. Um, but yeah, I, I don't know if there is a topic, but I do know that I, um, I took my dopamine intake into consideration this week. I started working back at a restaurant just to kind of get back to doing something I felt good at, you know, after leaving my startup and kind of resetting. And, um, it was, it was quite frankly a train wreck. Um, super, super, super busy restaurant that's super understaffed and like No way that I could give good service. And so I, like, my intuition was just saying, like, you need to, um, you need to quit. Like, you, you just started in September, but this is not the right place for you. Um, I've been really trying to work through, like, my CPTSD. So, like, anytime I get angry and it triggers my CPTSD, I, like, disassociate. And I kept getting angry, and I just have felt like it's completely taken over my life. So I put my notice in on Sunday. So I'm done working there on the 29th. And then I, of course, had that vulnerability hangover on Monday and panicking and like, oh my gosh, did I do the right thing? I know I'm not like super, super desperate for money, which I always have been in my life, but I'm living at my ex-husband's house and we have Arrangement where like I only pay 25% of my income regardless of what it is. So I figured I'll take advantage of that. And would you believe it? I get a text yesterday from a guy that I went on like 4 dates with back in December of 2020. This Captain Douchebag ghosted me. Now I wasn't feeling it either, right? And so I call him and we have mutual friends. I'm like, dude, we're better than this. Like, we're 40. We don't ghost people. Have some integrity. And it was like a joke and he laughed, but then it was awkward every time I ran into him, right? Well, he reached out to me and I guess he works at a, um, a non-for-profit. And he said that his CEO is starting a project on, you know, trauma education in the underserved communities. And if you guys know me, that is like my jam. Like, that is my— soul's purpose. And he goes, and I was telling her all about you and she really wants to meet you. Can you go to dinner on Thursday? She, I think she wants you to be part of this project. And I was like, see, like before I would never have trusted myself or my intuition on like what I want to do. And now I've got this incredible meeting and who knows what it's going to turn into. But like, I cut something out of my, out of my life that was no longer serving me because of my ADHD. I know I have to have that dopamine intake. In order to be good at it. And I don't want to do something unless I can put my whole self into it. Um, and like the universe was like, okay, here you go, take that. And it's like the ultimate perfect project for me to work on. So I just wanted to share that win. I don't think I would have, you know, trusted myself or known my value had I not, um, found this community. Like, I did not value myself or my brain or what the— you know, what I bring to a table until I met all of you guys. So I'm just beyond grateful today, super excited. And, um, yeah, that's all I've got. This is Erin. I'm complete.

That is dope AF, girl. I love you so much. And I am so excited to hear that, you know, things fell into place. And I truly believe, you know, when you show up and you listen to that intuition of Oh wait, no, this isn't right. I'm going to pivot. I'm going to step out in faith and I'm going to do it. That— girl, I'm so proud of you. That is so awesome. And I'm celebrating you. Yay! I'm so glad you're part of my wolf pack.

Thank you. I love you too. And I'm really excited to show up to the meeting and be like, well, I don't have any official training in trauma education, but I've had a lot of trauma. So let's talk. And, uh, we'll see where it goes from there, but it's a start in the right direction.

I feel like I've tried every method of therapy on the planet, and so yeah.

All right everybody, this has been random, it's been dope, It has been absolutely amazing. You guys always source such an amazing, incredible room. Oh my goodness, we've had incredible things happening here. Thanks for coming in and love bombing on our friend ADHD Trey. We'll have to give him a little pleasant surprise, be like, look, dude, we totally love bombed on you. But yeah, it was super fun. Great conversations. I feel like I want to go out and start a revolution now, and ADHD people are going to take over the world. But that's just my opinion. Very grateful for all of you, and I'm very happy to announce that if you guys want to learn more about NFTs, our friend Chris down here has agreed to come into a room on Monday in this club at 10:30 AM Pacific time, and we're going to nerd out on NFTs because I am very fascinated and want to learn more about this for sure. So he's going to be here Talking about that, we also do have you know we are in the middle of our ADHD Rise event. It is myself, Val Nichols, and my co-host here, Summer Christiansen. We are hosting this month-long event. It has been oh my gosh absolutely incredible.

What everybody PTR?

Are you kidding me right now? Girl, girl. I love it. So we are doing our ADHD Rise events. And so if you want more information on that, you can go to adhdrise.com.

Hey, Val.

We love you guys.

I have a quick, quick question.

I know this is ADHD Rise, but I also have OCD on top of my ADHD. And if anybody here has that situation, please message OCD?

Oh yeah. Oh yes, that is my—

I'm sure you'll find someone.

Yeah, I was gonna say she's not really my sister, but I call her my sister. We have been together for like 10 years and she is— she's the OCD or ADHD with OCD tendencies or underlying tendencies, something like that. And yeah, so she's definitely— I don't know if she's on this platform, but I'm sure there's people in here that will Absolutely reach out to you as well. And we love you guys. Thank you for joining us. It's been a fun event. This has been a really fun room. Thank you for everyone who showed up and poured into it. I love you guys. And remember, it's ADHD Rise. When I rise, you rise. We rise together.

Oh my gosh, we're so nerdy, but I love it. Talk nerdy to me, baby.

Talk nerdy to me. I was hella mad. I'm psycho— psycho sapien. I'm a sapiosexual, so you need to talk dirty to me. I don't know what I'm talking about. Why does this always happen? Okay, I'm awkward. Go get medicated. I've gotta go pick up my medication because I'm really awkward and I don't know how to be in public.

I love you guys. Okay, bye everyone. Thanks for being here. See you tomorrow at 9:30. We love you.

Bye.