A personal monologue arguing that healing requires feeling and facing darkness rather than seeking only "love and light." The speaker credits psychedelic experiences with enabling a breakthrough realization: allowing oneself to fully feel difficult emotions briefly leads to release and growth.
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The love and light shit is bullshit. Love is great. Light is great. But it's only in the darkness that it really gets to shine through. And it's not all love and light. It's dark. But go into the darkness and feel it and face the fears. Because on the other side of that, there's gold. I spent so much of my life trying to achieve a certain feeling or run away from a certain feeling. It wasn't until I just learned, like, no, I just got to feel it, you know? And it doesn't mean get stuck in it, just feel it for a few minutes, and then usually the feeling is gone. So that was like a huge realization. And it was only because of exploring with these psychedelics and stuff that I got to experience that and embo that. And that was a game changer. That was a total game changer to realize, like, gotta feel these things. And I'm like my own feelings dealer.