Princess Energy vs Queen Energy in Marriage

Watching my dad walk out the door when I was 10 to never return but move three miles down the street and start a brand new family and then see him out in public and be ignored. There's probably no bigger blow to your worthiness. I end up marrying a guy who leaves every Monday to travel the world and come back every Friday. And I would experience that leaving as the abandonment all over again. I even knew all of that. I understood that. I understood that my soul chose him so that I could actually finally heal this. I stayed in the anger and the blame and the resentment of being home with the children so much while he was off at five star hotels. I was still in my princess energy. Right? I wasn't at this grounded queen to be able to come to the table and say, I miss you.