Curating A Life Of Experiences With Dr. James Kelley

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Hey, everybody. Welcome back to another episode of the Conscious Pivot podcast. I'm your host, Adam Markell, and I am thrilled to be sitting in the seat today. I've got an incredible guest. I'm excited about the day actually. It's been raining in California, which, man, it's so funny having been from the east coast and knowing that a lot of the family that we still have that live on the east coast, they sort of see California as this, this magical place. Everyone wants to go there, but they convince themselves that there's no, there's no way in hell that they're gonna go because every time they look, it's either like fires is either wildfires or floods. We went through the fire stage and that was pretty rough in the last few months. And right now we're getting quite a bit of rain, which is something we all know we need and it's important. And there's some mudslides that are coming that have been a part of that whole thing. But. But in any event, today is a sunny day. It's a beautiful day, and it's right here in the middle of just the perfect period in my life to be exploring seasons. And I think today, maybe even in our conversation, we'll just talk a little bit about the seasons and how the seasons are such a great metaphor for life, for our businesses, for the cycles of our lives, our just every aspect of that. And I can't wait to get into it with this guy who I'm going to share a little bit about him in a second. But most importantly, I think I got to say he's just got this incredible haircut. So I'm not sure if some of you are, you know, some of you are listening to some of you watching YouTube. You can tell by my remarks that this gentleman has a has great barber. It's the, it's probably the four blade or the five blade. We'll explore that in just a second. But Dr. James Kelly is an author of an incredible book called the Crucible's Five Lessons from Authentic Leaders who Thrive in Adversity. I love that we all understand what it's like to experience adversity, but to be able to thrive in adversity is a very different. I think it's a different skillset. It's a different experience. It's a different intention. It's a different result, obviously. So we'll explore what that looks like and talk to James about that, because he brings a fresh perspective to leadership coaching and keynotes his journey from a humble home in Portland, Oregon, to earning his PhD and living near Dubai with his wife and four children is full of adversity. We'll get into that as well. James also has a keen interest in the adversity that shapes great leaders around the world. Right now, I think we are living in. To call it tumultuous times is sort of putting it mildly. To call it disruptive times or pivot times, which would be more on brand message, I guess, for us, is sort of putting it mildly. But there's a depth to that bio that I'm so looking forward to getting into with you, James. But before we do that, I want to first thank you for being on the show. Thank you so much for making the time to be on the podcast today.

Thank you. And I just got to say, if it wasn't for your voice, I'm not sure your audience would know who is who in this conversation, because we look so similar, actually.

We are like a couple of fried eggs, man.

The layer on our foreheads is brutal. I can't really see you very well, Adam.

Gonna move my head around just to. Just to kind of get in.

Oh, my God.

It's blinding in your eyes a little bit here.

Oh, my goodness.

What's. What is not written in that bio that you would love for people to know about you, sir. Oh, geez.

I'm a passionate person. I am. I'm someone who, you know, as the book probably entails or states in the title, authentic. So. And it's a word that's bantered around quite a lot nowadays. But, you know, I. For me, what's really important is being a good person, being a good version of myself. And, you know, I have a saying that. And I'm going to, you know, paraphrase this saying. I don't know how clean your podcast is, but if I die, it's squeaky clean.

Okay. Okay. I'm kidding.

Okay.

Should I do it first? Okay. Shit happens. All right.

Okay, great. Okay, good. This will go with the metaphor. So if I lost my arms and legs, no offense, Adam, you won't be wiping My ass. My wife and family will be. So they're always first at the center of the choices that I make. And often, if that's with business or speaking, whatever, my thought process. Thought process first goes to how does it impact them and then I kind of work out from there terms of what I do next. So I'm a very passionate, family oriented individual and that's not really in the bio and just a good guy that's just out to have a good time and don't take life too seriously at the end of the day.

Yeah. And you live near Dubai. You and I were having a little chuckle about this before we turned on the record button because I said to you that's not, that's not really in the, in the. It's not the norm for people to live near, you know, if I introduce somebody, they live, you know, they're in Chicago, live near Chicago or they're in Canada. Sometimes you get some Australians here. You know, things that people can sort of envision for themselves there. Oh, I'd love to live in Sydney someday. You know, like most people couldn't pick out where Dubai is on the map.

Most people think Dubai is the country of United Arab Emirates. It's just a city. Yeah, yeah. No, and it's funny, you're talking about rain. I was thinking we just had our two days of rain that we'll get for the whole entire year this week. So we had rain this week. Very grateful for that. And now it won't rain again for another 354 days. So that's about it.

Two days of rain for the entire year.

Yeah, that's about it.

It's so funny because certain things just keep coming up. You know how that is? I think they call it the reticular. The reticular activating system or something like that. Where, you know, you, you start to notice that you might want to buy a Volkswagen. And the. You see Volkswagens everywhere. You didn't notice them before, but all of a sudden everybody's driving that Volkswagen that you're so interested in kind of thing. So Dubai has come up. A buddy of mine, Steve Farber, who's also an author, got a new book coming out which I love the title of this. It's Love is just Damn Good Business. That's the title. I don't know what the subtitle is, but in any event. Yeah, and that great title, he's going, he just came back from Dubai, has speaking gig there. And now we're, we're in line to do the Same keynote for this banking organization next year. So I haven't been to Dubai personally, but I have a feeling it's in my.

It's coming.

It's in my future, buddy. So now I got another bald friend with four kids living near Dubai. I'll be sure not to come on one of the two days that it rains. That's what I will schedule myself.

It's chaos here. No one knows what to do. It's like if it snowed in Carlsbad, everyone would just lose their shit.

Oh, my God. I remember we. When Randy and I were in college, we trekked through Europe for a little bit, like, you know, that classic thing. And we were coming home and flying out of Heathrow, which one of the two big airports, the major airport in outside of London. And they had, like, a dusting of snow. I mean, I'm from New York originally. Randy grew up in New Jersey. We know. It's. I mean, you know what snow is. It's. You know, it. It doesn't count if it's not a foot. I mean, basically, if it didn't close the schools, if you weren't getting to stay home from school, it did not snow. Because basically, if it didn't count for a sledding day, what was the point? By the afternoon, it was gonna be, like, brown from the dirt that the cars are kicking up or the dogs doing their business or whatever. So a dusting, a half an inch of snow, and the whole airport closed down. We slept in the airport. It was, like, pathetic. Like, the Brits did not know what to do with a half inch of snow. But let's dig into how it is that you came to live. I want to start, if we could, with this journey from Portland, Oregon, to living near Dubai. I mean, that's a vast landscape, both physically, I'm sure, on the emotional scale and in every which way. That's a lot of miles. Where do you want to start to navigate that for us?

Wow. You know, my life has been so circuitous that I wouldn't even know where to begin.

Because I love that word, by the way, because that's like an SAT word. So I'm not so smart, but I remember studying the SAT and the word circuitous came up. So listen, you wise guy, I got it. Circuitous. For those of you that are not or don't recall your SAT studying, circuitous. Winding.

I only have a smart wife. That's the only reason why I know that. I gotta be honest with you. All right, yeah. Yeah.

I want you every time you use a word that your wife has somehow introduced you to, I want you to stop and tell us. Because otherwise, remember, there's a little punishment. When James and I were getting ready to do this, I had asked him if he'd been listening to any of the Conscious Pivot episodes to kind of get prepped and stuff. And he said to me, you know what? I really pride myself on being so prepared for these interviews and I do the research and I watch and listen to stuff. And he says, but in this case, I gotta own it. I just came up on me, I didn't do it. I said, well, you don't know what's ahead. You do not know what this show could be like for you. And at a certain point I said, we might have you standing on your head. To which James said, hey, listen, I'm living in Dubai. We could do hot yoga here, like open up the windows and the doors and we got a hot yoga. So watch yourself, buddy.

Yeah, I'll be careful. I'll walk on a fine line here. So, you know, my journey is probably the same as many as your listeners in terms of. I grew up in a lower middle class house in Portland. Both parents worked. I was the lashke kid in third grade. I was the youngest by five years. So I was really in my own head a lot. My parents did not have a lot of desire to entertain their child. So, you know, my. I don't know if, you know, Carlsbad is pretty well known for swimming in water polo. So if you're a swimming family, you know what that means. And my family was a swimming family. And so at the end of the day, my brothers were gone from sunup to sunset. And so I was by myself a lot until I started the stupid sport as well. Then I was out the door at sun sunrise and back at sunset. So when you have parents who don't want to entertain you, both working, both unhealthy, not a lot of money, you're kind of left to your own devices to sort yourself out mentally. That would have been great if I had a really confident, focused mom and dad. That was not the case. You know, my mom was very pessimistic, very deficit approach. My dad was kind of just there. So, you know, the building blocks of success weren't really there. So I barely got into college. I went to University of Dayton and I got in only because I played water polo. That was it. And I was in probation. I take rudimentary classes, left after a year. One of my, one of mine just because I'm gonna. I'm gonna reference your show. I was selling new and used cars at 19 years old in Portland. I would move back to Portland. At that time, my parents had left Portland to live in Chicago. And I remember a vivid day in March. There was a used car shack. And I walked in and two guys were bent over a table with a dollar bill rolled up. And they looked at me and there was white powder on the ground. And they said, hey, do you want to try some? And that was a huge pivot moment for me because you know those movies that you see where they fast forward and all of a sudden it's jail or it's like, you know, some sort of. And I just saw Living in a dumpster in a van down by the river, not to quote Chris Farley, but I just saw my life going the wrong way. And so I literally walked out of that shack straight to the phone and called my mom, said, I want to go back to college next year. And she was like, whatever she could do to do it, she would get it done. She had to mortgage the house. She was going to do it so I could go back to university. So that was a conscious choice for me at that moment to say, this is not a path I want to go on. You know, I need an education. I don't know what that meant. I wasn't good at school, but I knew that I needed that, whatever that would give me. So I met University of Dayton. I finished up there. Still don't know what I want to do. So I moved to Chicago and I started a grad program there. Halfway through, I left that, and I opened up an office in Portland, Oregon, for an advertising agency. So I'm 24, no business opening an office. It's a national chain. No business. I had to find the place, hire the staff. I had to get the furniture. I had to hook up the Internet. I had no business. I had zero business being in that job whatsoever. But, you know, the whole fake it till you make it. And so I did, and I did okay at it. Eventually, about a year and a half, I left and moved to San Jose. And that's where I got another conscious pivot where I got fired from my job. So I took a job over another office there. There was a whole bunch of issues. And. And so this is in 2000. Do you remember in 2000, Internet was still fairly new. Viruses are quite common. And sometimes you would get these emails that would just pique your interest. And, you know, you shouldn't click on the link but you know, it really your curiosity. And so I did. And about 25 minutes later I knocked out 20 of the 22 offices in the network based on the link. So yeah, that was great. And two weeks later I was fired. So it didn't really last long. That was about six months in. And that was 2000, 2001, I went to New York. So I was living in New York next. And in New York I got my MBA at a small liberal arts college called Wagner College. And I thought that I wanted to coach water polo for a living. You know, that's what I grew up, that's what I did, that's what I knew.

There's a great water polo team that, that plays in New York City called at the nyac, which is this private club.

Nayak. Yeah, yeah, they're Nayak's.

Unbelievable.

So. But I mean, by the way, I.

Don'T even know if you know this about us because it's funny because we have this several similar haircut. Right. So yeah, we got the.

You're gonna tell me you played water polo for now turn to turn to your left.

Turn to your right. I just want to check and see. No divots. Yeah, you got a good noggin. Like it's a round noggin. No forceps marks, none of that, no damage. Looks like nobody dropped you on your head. You're pretty good there. Played water polo. So did I. I got into it a little bit later. Look, I ended up in swimming in sort of my junior year in high school. And a lot of the kids that were there were already burned out. So I know when you were saying earlier about a swimming family up at 6, we used to go out. So it was. You grew up in a place that was kind of chilly in the winter, just like me. I'd get outside to either walk to the high school or take the bus. And by the time we got there back in the day when we had hair, they were ice schools. Yeah, like go to. Go to practice in the morning, get in the water by 6:30 or 7. For me it was a New York City school, by the way, which meant that on the weekends they didn't heat the school to save money. So this is like a night built school built in like 1934, like an FDR, you know, like one of these new deal buildings. And yeah, like 7am on a Monday morning. And the water was. I don't even know. It had to be 60 degrees. It was utterly ridiculous to jump in the pool. But some of these kids were in there had been. They had been YMCA swimmers, they had been AAU and all these other things that you put kids into swimming when they're five years old and you have them swim back and forth and back and forth and back and forth ad nauseam for hours and hours and hours so they can be someday become an Olympian or at a minimum, like. Like the. Like on the low end of that is you get a college scholarship. Correct. For swimming. Right. But. So all that was going on and I wasn't at that talent level anyway. Certainly not starting when I was starting. But one thing I really discovered when I was in college that I didn't know about and I fell in love with it was water polo. I absolutely love this sport. It is. It is one of the most brutal games. It's like rugby in the water, I mean.

Oh, totally, right.

It is a beastly, beastly sport.

Where did you play at?

I played at UMass Amherst, and we were a club team at the time that wasn't even varsity, didn't even have any funding. And we went to. We went to Easterns, which was a big deal. We got. We were good enough to go to Easterns, play at Annapolis, play against, you know, those guys were beasts, Johns Hopkins and Brown and. Oh, yeah, no serious teams. Not, I would say Brown and Navy were. Were like one cut below the teams that you probably were playing against, which were the west coast teams. So whether it was, you know, the. The.

No, not really. I played the East Coast. No, I played the East Coast. So really, when I was my college, we would travel 10 hours on the weekend. We drive from Dayton in New York to West Point to. To Annapolis to Brown. Like we had. We played the West east coast and we just got our asses handed to us.

That natatorium in West Point's pretty sick, right?

Yeah, I just remember the Annapolis one being unbelie. Like, those two are just phenomenal.

Ridiculous. Yeah, we go to the. This is so funny. Anyway, won't digress into this because people will be bored. Like, what the hell are these guys talking about? You know, and some people probably going, man, you know, polo, water polo. You know, the most difficult thing that people don't know about water polo, but I'll just sort of. Sort of reveal this now, and that way it'll make the podcast episode worth the while. Is the toughest part about water polo is getting the horses in the water. Like, yes, right. That is not an easy.

I thought actually beating the horses to move up and down was the hardest part because the whip Kept getting in the way of the water, and you just wouldn't have the same impact as you.

Well, the mallets, they slow down. As soon as you strike the water with the mallet, it just slows down. You've got to have this incredible. Like a golfer, you've got to get. Club speed.

Yes.

To get.

And as you go to the deep end, you have the snorkel issue, which you have to be blowing that water at the top of the snorkel.

Very tough.

So hard.

Yeah. All right, so back on point here. You end up in a series of jobs, and obviously, these are not your. You know, they're not the. I. You know, to me, I don't know what the number is right now. It's at least seven changes of career. And I think that number has radically gone up because millennials today are leaving a job, on average every 18 months.

Yeah.

And 53%, I think, is the Harris Poll statistics. 53% of people who are in a job, working a job, which is totally cool, if you work at a job, are looking for another job. So they. They know what they're doing isn't there. It's not their direction. It's not their purpose.

If you look at the Gallup organization, it's actually in the US only 32% of the people are actually engaged in their job. So, you know, obviously, the flip side of that is a huge amount of people was that 68% are not engaged in their job whatsoever. So that means they're not productive. There's lower ROI. They're probably looking the other 58% looking for another job. You know, it's a huge toxicity.

Yeah.

Huge epidemic.

So give us the version of the story where you finally get on path. Like, show us where is it that because you've been. You've been able to do some things that are remarkable, which is among. Along the way, say no to things that aren't gonna work, or you can envision in the future, sort of future casting going. I don't want to end up living in a dumpster near a dumpster. Whatever it is, you go, I don't want that.

Yeah, that's fair. I don't think that's always the case. I'm also the guy who wants the experiences. So I've lived in Australia. I've lived in Japan. You know, I live in the Middle east now. I've lived in Philadelphia for seven years, you know, prior to here. So I'm also the guy who wants experiences. Like, you know, my dad died when I was 20 at university. And so my dad was 49.

Oh, very young.

Yeah. And, you know, at 20, I was like, shit, that's really far away. At 44 now, I'm like, holy crap, that's around the corner. Right? And so for me, there's always been this clock in my mind of the countdown to 49. And so one of the things that I've always said to myself, and I want no regrets because I could die tomorrow, and if my bank account is full and I've done no experiences, what's the point? You know? So I'm not saying I'm frivolous with money. What I'm saying is that I want to have experiences that I can take with me that broaden my horizon, that gives me a depth of knowledge and experience that makes me wiser. I'm not trying to sound like an arrogant, pompous guy, but I think that experiences give you perspective that you can't get if you don't go get them, if you don't seek them out.

Who would want to get to the end of their days and count among their, you know, the things that they wish they had done? Living in places, meeting people, eating foods, those kinds of things. I mean, those are sensations of life that you only get from visceral or a visceral experience of it, from actually getting involved in doing it. So has it been your. I mean, is that a major part of your philosophy?

Yeah, I think so. I think that. And I don't know if it's based out of fear of death, if I'm being frank, like, I could die tomorrow. So I don't want to miss out, and I don't want my kids to miss out on opportunities as well. And, you know, I look at my mom, and she's not had that many experiences. She hasn't done that much. She hasn't gone that many places, and she's a bit lonely and sad and that I don't want that for myself. But, you know, your question about how I got on a path, Right. Like, I feel like that's. That's a hard question for me because, you know, I went and got a PhD that in Australia. That definitely was not on the cards for me whatsoever. If you were to ask anybody, I mean, literally anybody that knew me in college, that was not what I'd be doing. You ask anybody in college, I would not have written a book. So, you know, I've made conscious choices throughout my life either to prove someone wrong, to have an experience, to prove myself right. These are all Conscious choices I make, it doesn't mean I want to do it forever. It means I want to get that experience. So, you know, right now I teach university and I'm an author, but I just started a startup that's in a tech industry. So here's a new pivot.

Yes.

Yeah. And selling things and getting this out to the world. Because you know what? I don't want to teach anymore. I want to go do something different that I can create from the ground up. So that's a new experience for me and it's a new set of challenges and it's a new thing for me to say, listen, I can do this because for many years, and we all go through this in our head, most of us at least, we have the imposter syndrome. Do I actually belong in this world? Do I belong in this job, in this career, this group of people? You know, I'm envious of people who have that depth of confidence or at least the perception of confidence that they belong in every conversation. You know, I find that. I find that amazing. And maybe it's an act, maybe it's their front, maybe some people believe it.

What do you think? What do you think the essence of that is? This is an fascinated with what you.

Just said, meaning feeling like I belong in the imposter syndrome.

Yeah. This idea about belonging in every conversation. I'm just curious there. What is it about belonging in every conversation, do you think?

You know, it's funny, I took. I admit this. Oh God, it's me. I don't go on Facebook often anymore, but I fell for a Facebook survey and it was. What is your career blockers?

Did you crash? Did you crash a dozen computers?

No, there was no porn that showed up anywhere. I was totally in.

You know, it's so funny, I stopped myself earlier from asking whether it was a porn thing opened up.

It wasn't. It wasn't. Actually, it wasn't. I don't remember what it was, but I knew not to do that at work. Good man. So I took this, this little survey and at the end it basically said that you just always wanted your parents approval to belong. Like that you're a part of their life. And you know, in retrospect, I mean, most of our problems and issues we have do come from our childhood anyways. Because we create our own structure and meaning, which isn't always correct, but it's how we create it at 5, 7, 10, whatever. And so I remember thinking all the time, I want their attention, I want their approval. And I think it just manifested itself as I grew older, believing that I didn't belong in conversation. So, you know, I have two masters and a PhD. For me to say that sounds ridiculous because I'm overqualified to do anything at the end of the day. Right. So.

I'm overqualified to do anything. So I do nothing.

Yeah. I mean, that's something I feel sometimes. And so, like, the only reason why I did that is to make myself feel like I belonged in the conversation, but I don't. It didn't help me close that gap. It just allowed me to say, well, what else do I need to do to prove that? And I think that for many people, they struggle with that. They struggle with this idea of do I belong? Am I good enough? And I think these are. I don't know. Did you. I mean, have you ever experienced these things? You seem like this super well informed and evolved human being, Adam.

Oh, my God, if you only knew me. Very uninvolved. Yeah. I mean, here. I think that's why I'm asking about it, is that this idea of belonging and wanting to feel, you know, we were at a friend's house the other night, this dear friend of ours who listens to the podcast, so I'm going to just shout out to this beautiful soul, a lovely lady by the name of Shifra. And we were celebrating her birthday and had a bunch of her friends around and everybody was sharing something about her that we all love. You know, it's a really. It's a wonderful sort of a ritual, I suppose, that, that our daughter Chelsea introduced us to that at birthdays. At a certain point we asked this question, you know, go around the circle and ask and say one thing that you love about this person. That's awesome, you know, appreciate. Yeah, it's just magical how, how deep it goes, how emotional it gets. So I looked at her and I said, I'm just so in awe of how comfortable you are. Your skin as it just as a human being, you say what's on your mind, you make no apologies, but you're not insensitive. She's not without compassion. She's not a brute. Like a brute, brutal person, like a barbarian in any way. She's the opposite. But yet you really know where you stand. Because she's so comfortable standing in her own shoes. And I think that's what. When you said that to me, I do believe that is what a lot of people are, are either consciously or unconsciously seeking. It's just to feel comfortable inside their own skin.

That's so true.

So true. Yeah. And I think when looking at your, your life of seeking out and finding experiences, curating a life of experiences. And obviously you're, you're introducing your kids to these things. You've got four kids and they're having this magnificent life of living in places like Australia now near Dubai. I mean, this is like who that is in many ways. I think a part of how it is that we get more comfortable with ourselves is by this knowing things through experiencing them. There's a. There's a. And I want this to be about you. So I'll just say this one thing and then we'll come back to where this led you. We use an exercise. And I, I don't even remember where I was introduced to this, but I love looking at a list of things that we don't want. So kind of a T chart where on the left hand side. It's the things we don't want in life. And it's the thing. It's like the first page in the personal development handbook is don't focus on what you don't want. Right. It's always focus on what you want. Focus on what you want. It's like all that drummed into your head when you start doing any kind of human potential work. And I thought to myself, gosh, there's so much juice in looking at the things that we don't want. Because when you do, it gives you such clarity at times about what you do want. So when you know what you don't want, you know what you do want. When you know what you don't want, you know what you do want.

You know what's super interesting about that, again, it's very serendipitous, is that I was listening to, I don't listen to very often Tony Robbins podcast that he has, and he has Shaun White on. And he literally used that phrase of, I have my clients write down all the things they don't want to happen to give clarity of what they want to happen.

Now he's the snowboarder.

Is that the guy Shaun White is. Yeah, yeah.

Okay.

Tony Robbins was saying, like, this is what he has his clients do. And I listened to that probably 17 times in a row to get my head around what that really means when you write down what you don't want. And I just think that's a really impactful tool because, yeah, to your point, I don't want to be. I don't want to be a bad father. I don't want to be a Bad business person I don't want to be. Well then inversely, that consequently means that then I need to strive to be a better father, to be a better business person, to be a better human being, whatever that is. You want the opposite of that, but that's the premise of it. And I think that. Wow. I mean, in some ways I just kind of blew my mind. I felt like a vein pop or something. But I just kind of felt like that makes a lot of sense to getting you to be clear about where you need to go and work on yourself at.

Yes. Like you don't want to be out of breath when you're climbing the stairs. It's such a clear, clear, you know, indication of great. What do I do about that? I might want to actually do some exercise to.

Yeah, you know.

Well, so I think your experiences, the diversity of experiences that you've had, have given you such great clarity about the things that you do want. So when it comes to that path question that difficult. And I'm so glad you said that because, you know, maybe there, that is not an easy question to begin with. And it's an evolving thing. It's a moving target of sorts because it's not like we're on. There's one path. I mean when we look backward from the end of days to, you know, to the beginning, it's like looking from the top of a staircase backward, you, you might not have been able to see all the stairs. This is, by the way, Dr. King talked about this, you know, just can't, can't see the stair more than the stair in front of you. Sometimes it's dark, but when you get to the top and you look backwards, you can see the perfect ordering, the perfect sequence of all those stairs. So it really is one of those things that when, when we look backwards, you can see how everything was just perfect.

Perfect.

Like all those experiences were perfect because they led you to where they absolutely had to lead you. But in the moment, to feel comfortable in your own skin, to feel like you belong in the moment. Without that, the ability to Fast forward the 40 years ahead, which nobody wants to do. Like my mother in law used to say, don't wish your life away. You know, you don't want to do that. And yet you still want to feel safe, secure, comfortable, confident in the moment. Right.

I think you know what I've come to in my mind, at least for me, where I'm at in my personal journey. I think everyone's on their own journey, their own path, their own stones, their own steps is that I literally do believe everything does happen for a reason. I'm not. I'm not particularly a religious guy. I don't even know if I'm spiritual. But I do think that, like, inside your brain, the way it works is that you. You create the meaning and desires that you want, both negative and positive, but they all are additive to the bigger picture as you go. And so for every failure you have, it's an opportunity to learn. For every roadblock that comes up, it puts you in a different path, to go a different direction. I'm a big believer that life will give you nudges and will keep pushing you in the direction that you were meant to be in. And if you don't listen, it's going to knock you that way eventually, no matter what. I'm going through that right now with nudges about being an entrepreneur, where I've been been trying to be one for 10 years, but not committed to doing it for various reasons. But I decided that I can't ignore my drive to do these things because I'm less happy if I don't. And I think we, as human beings, we all go through this. My mom had a comment the other day that really is a manifestation of why she's miserable as an adult. Maybe miserable is a bit tough, but not happy is that she said, sometimes you have to sacrifice yourself for the greater good. And so my mom and my house I grew up in, this again, goes to my psyche every day for 15 years, complained about her job, how much she didn't like it, how annoying it was, how hard it was. And when you're a child and that's all you hear about working, why the hell would I want to have a real job working 9 to 5 when all I hear is how bad it is? And so in her mind, she was doing the greater good for the family by taking a job she didn't like so she could put food on the table. She was the breadwinner. She made more than my dad did growing up. But in my mind, why would I want to be unhappy and impact my family? So my search is to figure out how I can be my happiest person, my happiest version. And that just trickles down to everybody. My wife will tell you if I'm having a bad week at work. Unfortunately, I'm a bit of an asshole. At home, I'm shorter, I'm not as nice. I recognize it, and I own it. You know, to my kids, I apologize all the time. You know, Dad's having a bad week. I shouldn't take it on you. It's my fault. I'll work harder to be a better person, to treat you with more respect. Like, I'm really transparent with my children about these things. I think often as parents, we have this like, perception. We need to act a certain way all the time so our kids don't think we're weak or we can't own our anger and we displace it on the children. So anyhow, not to get all high and mighty, I just think that as a parent, it's really important your kids see that you're human first. Right. And they can respect that process. So, yeah, I don't know where I'm going with this, but jump on in. Adam.

Yeah, I love where you're going with it, buddy. Because, you know, we had this little. Well, you started to talk about authenticity earlier and how that word has gotten a little watered down. And to me, what, what you were just modeling there is what I would call transparency. And that level of self honesty and transparency is what I would, how I would define what is authentic. And that's very powerful in leadership. And I know that's one of the things that you've been involved in is giving leaders these, I guess, strategy, but more, I suppose, helping them to own themselves, own their authenticity, own the truth of themselves, really, including how it is that they work. Work with their challenges. So, I mean, is that the work that you're. You're really called to still, or is the entrepreneurial nudge into it? Well, you said it's going into tech, so it could be that you're. You're leaving this chapter behind, that we're catching you at the close of a chapter. Does it feel like that or no?

No, not at all. I think that it's funny, my wife had the same comment as you just had, and she's like, you put all this work into it. Why are you. I'm like, I'm not giving it up. It's actually all merging. Everything's merging onto a highway for me. And so, you know, I can now have conversations with leaders about what it looks like to be more authentic and be in the room with leader. As a leader, that's important, that that gives you value. I mean, there's a lot of. And I don't want to dismiss the work they do because there's some, you know, I had some pretty amazing people endorse my book, but there, there are people who have never actually led an organization, but they're telling you how to be a leader.

Right?

So I was listening to a podcast, and it was on a. The podcast is how. How I built this, how I built that. It's the NPR one. It's really. If you haven't listened to it, it's freaking unbelievable. It's taking these entrepreneurs, and he had an entrepreneur who I think they built Soul Cycle, him and her and her partner. Long story short, she goes, I got tired of listening to the armchair critics about how I should act and be as a leader when they've never actually been in the ring. So she's like, I just stopped listening to them. And I thought, man, that's really powerful because there are a lot of armchair coaches in this world that have actually never been in the ring to understand the constraints and complexities of situation. And so I'm pretty adamant about jumping in the ring. So if I want to be seen as a serious actor in this space, yes, I better do some serious acting.

No kidding, right?

And so I think you want to.

Advise entrepreneurs be an entrepreneur.

Yeah, yeah. And I'm not trying to dismiss my book or belittle it and say, oh, I wasn't. It's not a good book. I think it's a great book. It's written like how we talk. I think it adds value when people say, oh, he's led this organization or that organization. So I thought to myself, I should probably put it in practice. Right? This is the theory in my mind. This is the learnings that I got from interviewing 140 plus CEOs around the world. This is what I got. But at the end of the day, you know, I don't know. For me, it's like. It's like, you know, I don't know if you grew up skateboarding at all.

Oh, my God. You and I. You and I. Feels like we have a parallel. Some parallel universe going on here. Yeah. Skateboarding was a thing, and we.

So I feel like a poser. I feel like a poser if I'm, like, out there saying these things, right?

And you can't, you know, you can't do a 360. You can't. I don't even know what the tricks are today.

Yeah, I break my leg is what I know.

Oh, I was. I was bruising every part of my body back then just with a skid pad or whatever it was.

My friend and I, we made like a quarter pipe out of her house. We used to go just barreling down the street, jumping off this quarter pipe on our skateboard.

You were doing the Jackass thing. Before Jackass was a thing.

Yeah. I wasn't stapling my testicles anything. There was. There's none of that.

Excellent, excellent. Good man. You look smarter than that. Marginally, right, doctor? Marginally. Yeah.

Let's not set the bar too high. I'm not too high.

No, no, absolutely. Well. Well, this is. This is terrific stuff. I've just so enjoyed this conversation. Really glad we've gotten to meet. And I feel like our audience, our community feels, will probably experience the fact that we're. We're meeting for the first time. Which is. Which I think is really cool, because this is. This is one of the joys of having a show like this and being able to meet amazing people from all over the world, including near Dubai.

Yeah, you really like saying that, don't you?

I do. It's like I'm already manifesting my trip to Dubai. I'm gonna be. Someday I'm gonna be speaking near Dubai.

Just only come here through October and February. October to February. After that, you're gonna be like, how the hell do you live in this environment? Because in the summer, it's like 120, 125.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You lose weight, you walk outside, walk to the car. You've lost £5, right?

Yeah. Yeah. In Dubai, it's a humid how. Oven.

So part two of this show, we're gonna have a. Definitely gonna do hot yoga from Dubai. Cheryl, if you could. You know, you. You interviewed a lot of CEOs, I think, would you say 140 or something like that?

More than that, but in the book was about 140.

Yeah. Is there. And this is a tough question, but I'm gonna put you on the spot for this, and if there's an answer, great. And if there's not, don't make one up. Is that fair?

Okay.

Okay. So is there one thing that's sort of a thread that you would say with every One of these CEOs, as crazy as they've been, to do what they're doing, because having been there and worn that, I don't know what kind of crown that is, because it's a lonely crown. It's a bloody crown at times. And it's also a wonderful honor to be in that role and have that responsibility. So I speak from my. I could show you the scars to prove it. If there's one thing thread, one thing that ties them all together as leaders, what is that?

So let me give you a qualifying statement to that, is that the leaders that I think were most authentic Had a string that went through their life. And not all 140 fell into this category. You know, that's part of the idea of research is not everyone's gonna, you know, give you validity of what you're trying to prove. But what I found is that the leaders that really got what leading was.

About.

Were leaders that really embraced their adversity moments. And they went from a point of saying, it happened to me to it happened for me. And when you think about life in your own life and the pivots that you make, and most of your conscious pivots actually happen in your life when you start asking a different question. You know, often when people play the victim mentality, why did that happen to me? Some of those people get stuck that for 30 years, and I feel sorry for those people. My compassion does run dry at some point when you say to them, you've got to stop asking that question of why it happened to me and change that preposition and ask why it happened for me. And what I found, and this is a reflection in my life and probably your life as well, Adam, is that when you start saying, where's the learning in that? This. Where is the opportunity in this to be a better human being, to learn what I'm doing better, to add value where I wasn't adding value, because then that actually led to the second biggest finding, is that these leaders all had growth mindsets. They all wanted to become a better version of themselves, not only for themselves, but for the people around them. They wanted to lead more consciously and have a bigger impact and legacy about being a good human being. And one of the things I have people go through is write their own tombstone or their own obituary. And I used to ask that question on my podcast. What do you want people to say about you at your funeral? What do you want your tombstone to say? And I always found it fascinating. People would say, he was a good business person. He excelled at being a CEO. And I thought to myself, you're really missing what life is about. Because when you're at your funeral, people are talking about that. Not that you were a good human being and a great father or a great mother, a great husband, a great dad. You're missing what life is really about, because those manifestations of yourself will bleed into work, because you treat people with respect and kindness and compassion. And that's the other part of these leaders that I found. They really much more compassionate to those around them. And I want to be careful. This word compassion, by the way, sorry, I'm kind Of going on a tangent here. People think compassion sometimes is weakness. Compassion is also saying the hard thing to somebody. Compassion is, listen, I care about you enough to say you're not doing right. You got to do better because you care about them. There's also compassion where you can say, you've lost someone in your family, take some time. I feel for you, you know, And I think the two types and leaders can have both of those of the hard compassion and the soft compassion. And so there was just a string that I kept finding that had these similarities of these leaders, Some were stronger in certain areas than others. I think we're human, but I think at the end of the day, there was this set of factors that I kept finding Beautiful.

I'm a big believer in the power of the habits that we have, but I call them a different word. I use this word rituals without a religious context around it, but more along the lines of things that we do consciously versus things we do just habitually. You know, we drive home the same route and we'll pick up the fork with the same hand. I mean, it's things that we do without thinking about it. And rituals are more what we choose to do for a purpose. And I know I have lots of rituals about so many different things these days. And I'd love to know, and I'm sure for 100% certain, that our community would love to know what your. At least one ritual that you have consistently used or are adopting or have adopted recently to kind of keep you in that. That optimal state. Because as you said, when people are looking backward at what, their funeral, you know, what might be like, you know, what people might say about them after they've passed? You're right. I mean, would a lot of people want to be thought of as having been successful having, you know, been at the top of their career or whatever it is? Yeah, I think people would want to be acknowledged for the work that they put in. But bottom line, if that's all there is, it's. It's sort of an. It still feels like an empty cup. Whereas for people to say, you know, despite this person's great success or despite the fact that they work 90 hours a week, they found time to blank. They were.

Yeah.

Does that make sense?

Both. And it's a. Both end.

Yeah.

Right. Either or. I may have. I may have phrased it like it was either or, and I didn't mean to. It's a both. And you can be both successful and a good human being. I think that was the bridge I was trying to make.

Yeah, I feel like to get to that point, we've got to be working the same way. As you said, you have your moments when you're with your kids and during the week and you're not at your best and you, you own it. You're, you're just there being real about it. The rituals I think that we create for ourselves help us to be better at something. I mean, sometimes a ritual is for health, right? You drink, we have a green drink every day. We go walk, you know, take a 20 minute walk, we take a 15 minute, 20 minute nap, whatever it is. Those are things specifically designed for health. What are some of the rituals that you've got or one in particular that you're really attached to?

It's funny, usually when I get asked this question in my past, I'd always go to like, oh, I meditate or I do this or I do that, like some sort of tactical thing. This is still a tactic. But I was really thinking about this as you asked the question. I think the thing I've always done that's always been a ritual for me, which I think has allowed me to evolve as a human being and still evolve as I go on my journey is to take time and space, to be self reflective, be intentional about being self aware of my strengths and weaknesses. And I'm really grateful that I. That in some ways, in fact, I'm really grateful my parents left me alone when I was 4 because like, it taught me to get into my own head and to really listen to what my body's doing, what my mind's doing. And as I've gotten older, I'm getting better at turning off the negative vibes and flipping those conversations to be more positive. But I don't think I could do that as easily if I wasn't comfortable going inside, turning inwards, becoming more self aware. And I think for me, that is the number one thing that I do that leads to whatever else, you know, habits or patterns that I have in my life. But it starts with that.

Yeah, self reflection, you know, no one's ever answered that. So we're, we're nearing, I think, 100 episodes at this point. And I've heard a lot of rituals. You're right, there's some overlap in that people say some of the same things. And I suppose somebody might be thinking, well, that's really what he's talking about is mindfulness or meditation. But no, it's not that. Because this in, in many ways is a scary place for a lot of People to go to turn inward for self reflection, like you said, because you know, it can feel like a bottomless.

Being honest with yourself is the hardest thing to do. Yeah, right. That means you have to admit that you're fallible and be okay with those being fallible to then move forward, you know. And I think as human beings, you know, some environments we're raised in, it's all about being perfect or flawless or not having self love or whatever it is. And in my world which is raised, that was the norm is not being, having self love or being respectful to yourself. And that's a poisonous place to be for a really long time. But what comes health healthfully out of that is that when you start to dissect those two things and say they're not together and you allow yourself to say, okay, what is it about myself that puts me in that space that I can flip and change to be better at and to be honest with some of your weaknesses. Like I am not a detailed person. If you watch half of my mailers that I send out, there's a typo in it every time. My wife always catches me, it's usually an apostrophe S. I F them up every time. And she's like, when are you going to learn? And I say probably never. But that's why I married you, because you're awesome at it. So.

Yeah. Oh my goodness. Well, listen, self awareness is a perfect place for us to wrap up this conversation. And I think there's a wonderful follow up to this. I'd love to chat with you again about this, this idea of how it is that people embrace what it's like, as you said, to embrace the adversity, embrace the changes in life and what's there, the wisdom that's there to be mined for that there's this extraction process that if you're willing to go inside and examine, as you said, to be more self, not just self aware, but self honest. There's this wealth there, this, this virtual gold mine that, that's like nothing else. It's, it really is remarkable. So it's like a lot of things in life moving into something that's scary, moving into something that, that even triggers or brings about, brings up fear, often pays a great dividend.

Yeah.

So and to me, one of the great dividends of being self honest is that you end up with self trust. And this is again a second, maybe a second show. But it's really important because I don't think that anything that we truly want out of life comes to us, without us having that sense of trust. Trust in ourselves and trust in the universe. So I. So thank you for opening up the space of that conversation today, James. Thank you for being on the show. This is wonderful.

Adam, thank you for your time, energy, and willingness to have me on the conscious pivot.

Beautiful. I love how we conclude these shows and even resist that sort of the term conclude, because it's never an ending, at least not to me. This is just all beginnings, it's all openings. I do, in fact, believe in eternity, so it's. It doesn't mean you have to all believe in that, but certainly not. It just feels right to me. I don't know. It's a story I want to tell, which is that there's no need to hurry, there's no need to worry in a world where we're eternal beings. And if you think about that for just a second, if there is an eternity, what's the hurry? What's the worry? What's the need to condemn or to resent anything? We take this so seriously. But I'll leave that for another day. And my prayer, if you will, my hope certainly is that we get to do the same thing tomorrow that we did today. And folks that have heard this before, they know what I am about to say, maybe, which is that we got to wake up today. Right? This was a gift. James. You woke up today, right, brother? Yes.

Yes.

No. It. Was there a guarantee yesterday that you're going to wake up today?

No.

No guarantee. Right.

Never.

But then all of a sudden, you realize in the morning, you know, there's. There's a new day. You've been given this. This great gift, and not everybody gets that gift. There's a fact that we can all acknowledge tomorrow when we wake up again, and realize in that waking breath, in that waking moment, there are people taking their last breath at that very exact moment. So that's special. It's sacred, holy even. And it's something we can certainly be grateful for, regardless of the significance that you give to it. We can be grateful for another day, grateful for our assignment, for that day, whatever that might be, whether we know it or don't know it. Grateful for the opportunity to wake up a little bit more, be a little more conscious tomorrow than we are even today. And lastly, if you. If you can take 10 seconds when you wake up tomorrow morning, James, do you have. You think you got 10 seconds for something, a ritual? Yeah. You got 10 seconds?

Of course I do.

Yeah.

How can I say no to that? What is like it's like a setup. I can't say no.

No, it is totally a setup. Exactly. I don't think there's anybody. The busiest people on the planet have 10 seconds.

What if I said no and meant no? What if I was like, no, I don't.

Who are these people? A new waking ritual. It's this simple. It's four simple words. I love my life. I love my life. Do you love your life, James?

I love my life, man. It's the best.

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